After my first IVF cycle, I got my BFP two weeks ago (nearly 6 weeks total now) So, happy happy, right? But instead I feel severely cranky and stressed, beyond belief! I almost feel pre-menstrual, but I know AF isn't coming.
Does anyone else feel this way? Like, you want to throw your coworkers out a WINDOW???
I'm 6Wks2days and believe you me I feel like a total you know what. I feel like I should be happy, excited, overjoyed, etc. but instead Im cranky and mean.
I guess for me I feel like so down on myself thinking that any day I'm going to wake up and see bleeding. I know everyone says to stay positive, but I just don't want to allow myself to get excited to just get let down once again. I don't think that I could take another negative outcome. My husband is wonderful to me and completely understands how upset and confused I am right now, but I can't help to feel so bad for him. I know he has to be worried too.
Thanks for posting this thread I was really needing to vent!
I guess what we need to do is stay positive. Yeah, I know easier said then done, but for me each passing day gets me closer to the goal of HAVING A BABY!!!
27 years old, DH 31
IVF #1-BFP
TWINS!!! Due Nov 21, 2007
Becky
These hormones are killer. I've always been a pretty emotional person--but this is ridiculous. One minute I'm ready to kill my husband, the next I want to kiss him. It's crazy. One book that helped me (and mad me laugh and not feel quite so insane!) was The Girlfriend's Guide to Pregnancy. I'd totally recommend it--it covers pregnancy in a very realistic way so that you know you're not the only one!
I'm going to have to get that book, and I hope it says this passes eventually! All I keep thinking is how I'm supposed to be positive and passing on all the happy thoughts through my system. But it is literally impossible to cheer up sometimes. Clearly it's hormones - there's no "reason", but it doesn't make it easier to deal with!
Thanks for sharing - it is a relief to know I'm not the only one. One of the things, too, is that you never realize before you start on this odyssey, is that you NEVER relax and know everything will be alright. Ever scan, every blood test, every thing you do, can tell you something different. No wonder it's so difficult!
Still, it's nice to finally be on THIS side of things...