Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[camilla]

Hi girls

Jen - I know you must be feeling cheated and life is unfair but you are a beautiful person and this is not your fault. I don't think there is any rhyme or reason to the success of IVF. It does create the optimum conditions for an embryo to implant so you did all you possibly could darling. You really have nothing to feel guilty about.

Lola - I read in one of your earlier posts that because of the trouble the doc had of using the catheter and being a bit rough you thought it might decrease your chances of success BUT they would have checked the embryos were expelled and that's the most important thing! Trying not to be too crude but imagine what happens when having sex normally! Keeping my eye on you know and waiting for your test date!

Love Camilla xxxxx

[lolajones]

Hola Octoberries

Camilla you are of course right... y'know how you can fix on things in this ivf lark. Hope you're well

Steph - I cannot wait to hear the spanky pant medley of ass shakin tunes - i hope its bfp just for that. How's work? Any better?

Jemla - how're you doing lovely girl? Please pop in and lets us know sweetie.

Littles - where on earth are you?? How did transfer go?

Walsh - as steph says, we could do with a bit of your happy happy.

Not much news from Team Lola. On annual leave now so just chilling, reading, doing 5 fifths of 2 thirds of nada. Not going crazy. Yet.
Going to test in 6 days, one day before blood test - makes it easier, less stressful, waiting for that call is just the worst.
OK sweetpeas - stay focussed! PMA!

Lola
xxxxx

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Well had a bad day yesterday as dh rang to tell me a friend of a friend who has been trying to get pregnant for 18 months has succeeded and as you can imagine i was so upset. I got annoyed , angry etc etc then snappy with dh---so unfair and unlike us as we are a great stong team usually.
Anyway the good news is i feel better today although still very sad and cant face anyone. I was due back at work today but have taken sick leave until maybe Friday. The weather was lovely so i spent time in the garden pottering about.

The hospital rang and i have a follow up appointment on Thursday 12th to discuss my cycle. I know already they will just inform us that i have very few eggs so they cant do more cycles---yeh heard it all before---just another day to upset me again.

Just wanted to say thank you so much for all your support an advice, your all brilliant----but you knew that eh

I am going to send you all PM so check in.

Love Jen x

[little R]

Dearest Octopals...well I am feeling pretty miserable to be honest.
DH has left for a week and I am alone with my negative thoughts.

ET was ok although I missed my DH's comforting eyes to look into ...they thawed our last 2 littles ones...and one was deemed "excellent" by embryologist and the other was nice... ET wasn't particularly comfortable and I HATE that wretched speculum! The doctor sounded hopeful. I basically went home and spent 2 days in bed waiting for DH to return. It was a long wait... I have felt pretty alone during this treatment. However, I have some lovely "guilt" gifts from my DH's trip to NYC Funnily enough, I don't resent the fact that he wasn't there for me as I know he was in his heart.

To be honest, I think it is another BFN for us again... I am wondering how much more I can take at this point. I know I am not supposed to be thinking about that.... but I can't help it..

The friend who took me to the ET has told me that she and her DH are going to start TTC.... even that news crushed me because I just feel that I will yet again have no friends who understand what I am going through and it will take her 5minutes to get pregnant!

Sorry...just need to vent at the moment..because I feel really sucky... so sorry....

Nearly forgot...test date for me is on 7 April (but will also do pee stick one day earlier so only 2 more nights of this to go )....

Lola, well done you sound in better spirits than me... I guess we are heading towards a BFP for you

Steph--- lovely pic of Faith.. I will reply soon I promise. It must be so hard to leave her..she's a sweetie---

Jen.. have sent you a PM in response..hope you're feeling miles better today... wish I could hug you...we could cry together

Camilla... nice of you to pop in to rally and encourage the troops---

Walshy dearest..tried to chat with you on msn... but guess you were sleeping

Much love to you all,

Littles

[Jen1d]

Oh my poor Littles, you vent away girl thats what we are here for.

You know what i'm going to tell you though---its not over yet and yes i know how hard it is but try to stay positive.

Try to log on more and i will chat to you as much as possible, its always better to share these feelings.

You are such a brave girl going through ET with dh, hope these pressies were the best

Send me an email anytime if you want to chat. Big hug to you babe

By the way, did you know where my mum is going to stay? Is it near you?

Loops - Hope you hanging in there ok, thinking of you.

I sat in my garden today and am now nice and pink, wow it was lovely. A friend came round for a chat, was a bit wary of this but took the plunge and it was fine. Am due to go back to work on Friday and starting to dread it already, i hate people feeling sorry for me and apparently the kids are behaving like brats

Ok will pop in tomorrow

Love Jen x

Love Jen x

[camilla]

Hi gang

Little R - So glad to hear from you. So far so good! Please don't dwell on any negative feelings. I think its natural and I know I felt like that immediately afterwards, on the way home in the car. Obviously you know what's ahead in the dreaded 2 week wait but you can get an BFP!

Hello to all. Sorry it's so short and sweet.

Love Camilla xxxxx

[Jen1d]

Thanks girls with your help regarding the PM messages i sent to you all.

Littles - Hang in there babe, its not over, stay strong and positive. Yep its hard but try. We are here for you

Lola - How you doing on the 2ww, any twinges or signs yet?

Am feeling a bit better today but dreading going back to work tomorrow. I dont have to go back but need to at some point so will take the plunge although feel stressed about seeing everyone. The kids apparently are being brats at the moment. They better behave with me or they will get more than they bargained for

Have a good Easter weekend

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hey Beauty Queens!

I luv seeing everyone back round... now if we could just get that Walsher back! please... wtih cherries on top .... and McDreamys and McSteamys!

(although, I must burst everyones bubbles who are behind me on Greys, but, enjoy the good stuff because this season has lost its fizzle. I hate it when an excellent show changes it feel)

Jens- sunshine sounds divine! we went from the 70's to snowy in 2 days.. it's not supposed to snow on Easter! we are supposed to be in sun dresses and easter bonnets! either way you won't catch me in an easter bonnet.. but still, I want the option! Give the kids a lesson in Jens smackdown, I likey.

Loopy Bunny- hows the lady of leisure hanging in?? Is McDemmy taking care of you? he has strick orders to give you anything you want... that's right... ANYTHING! wink, wink.... by the way... when has it become a rule in Octoland that we are now allowed to partake in the evil pee sticks? I still say no!! but. I guess I am too far away to stop you, but I am glaring at you from afar.... Work suck a big lollipop! but I think I have finally broken the code of my bosses brain.. learning how to work things to my advantage.. just give him the illusion that it was his idea.. typical man, not sure why it took me so long to decifer.. should have had on blue wig and secret decoder lipstick and would have figured it out ages ago!

Littles- hate that you went to ET without hubby.. but just more proof that Octos are tough nuts! April 7th sounds like a great day for a BFP! I see that you are also joining the pee stick conspiracy madness.. stop the insanity! So you never said, now that your brain is nearly as big as Lolas... what are your plans on how to utilize this new found knowledge.. become president? invent something as simple yet ingenius as post-it notes? world famous talk show host? pick up where Steve "Crocodile Hunter" Irwin left off? Make the Jetson's jet backpacks a reality? ... so many options.

Camilla- you never say whats new with you????? details please.

Walshy- have decided to have dance-a-thon in anticipation of your return.. we will start with a classic.... the Electric Slide. Loos and I are quite good at it! You should see Demetrio.. nobody can slide like him!

warm fuzzies,
steph

[little R]

Dearest Octofriends...

Steph, I was allowed to test w pee stick today BECAUSE this should have been my test date, but due to it being Friday and a weekend everything is closed! Pfff! well there you have it
The evilness of the stick has yet again spoken...nothing really surprising for me this morning: another BFN
However, this doesn't make it any easier.

So it's all on the Loopy girl...and I have a good feeling. Don't you Lola? At this point it has to be statistics. Fingers crossed that one Octogal is elated this month!

My heart is crushed but there is no one here to share it with...feel very alone...but keeping it in at the moment as feeling rather numb....denial working wonders at the moment.
Just feel like running away and changing my name....any ideas?

I have yet to break the news to my DH and my Mother... that's the worst part...poor things.

For me... probably taking a break until final IVF in the Autumn... you'll all be preggers by then

I will logg on before the autumn though

MUCH love to you all...thank you for your support, especially yours Jen...

Littles

[camilla]

Dear Little R - Sorry its a BFN, I didn' t realise your test date was so soon. However you're feeling this is not your fault and is no reflection on you as a person. You've done everything you can and you can still get a BFP later this year. Love to you.

Camilla xxxxx

[lolajones]

hey there octolovelies

Its the long weekend! Woooo hooooo! And its not raining!!

Littles - I'm sorry to hear your news. I know you weren't very positive about this cycle but it still hurts. What are your plans for the next few months? Holidays? more courses? Whatever you're doing you deserve a bit of happiness - hope you get it lovely girl. Please keep in touch

Jen - hope you have factor 20 on up there in tropical scotland Did you go back to work? How was it? How're you feeling??? When is your follow up appointment with doc? I've had no twinges just have the welcome massive la-las due to progesterone.

Steph - McDemmy is a star. Watching him scoot about the apartment in his skimpy knicks doing the dusting is my only pleasure. Do you ever watch The Shield? Man, I am addicted to that show. I have developed a worrying crush on the lead character, this bald, violent, dirty cop. I'm going to blame the hormones......

camilla - what're you up to this long weekend? Hope you're knee deep in choccy eggs.... I can't wait to get stuck in to mine.

Walsher - know you look in on us still - hope you're ok?? Thinking of you x

Well, days 'til nightmare test - 4 official, 3 unofficial. I don't think its worked. Oh stop! Don't give me the PMA back chat! I'm just trying to be practical. Lets face it - the odds are against. But lets not worry! There is always next time, right? Right. However, if Eric or Kyle or even the both decide they want to stick around at Chez Uterus then hoorahhh!!!! I've found this 2ww tough - think its because I'm not at work, not so many distractions. Apart from The Shield.

Right ladies - speed the days until Monday!!

Take care and enjoy the sun beautifuls
Lola

xxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Little i am so sad for you. I will send you an email.

Loops - Yes have been sitting out in the garden and have caught the sun. Its great to finally have the garden after a flat, i love it.
Yes went back to work and boss didnt even ask how i was (not a peoples person). All ok until one of the kids deliberately hit me in the face with a ball. Was furious and gave him back just as good, he was very abusive and threatening but ran off when i challenged him. Have sorted him out before and he knows i will do it again. Was just not in the mood for it and nearly lost it when he threatened to scratch my mini
I've decided after a bad evening yesterday and a sleepless night, not to go to dh Goddaughters party, cant face the babies there and girl who is preggers. DH has decided to go only for an hour and then come and spend the evening with me----he's the best.
Follow up app on Thursday 12th. We have taken the day off as i think it will be stressful although i know what they will say.
Glad your not having any probs, praying this is your time

Walshy - Where are you girl, we need an update, your missed.

Steph - The kids got Jen's smackdown alright
How you doing? Whats your plans for Easter? Bet your going to eat all Faith's eggs as she cant, best get to that aerobics class

Camilla - Whats new with you? Your sweet to keep coming for a chat and supporting us, its appretiated.

Have a good Easter weekend and think of poor me who is working

Love Jen x

[camilla]

Hi bunnies, just popped in to say Happy Easter and Lola, thinking of you and good luck with the test, fingers crossed. I wish, I wish it's a positive. (Am out tomorrow but will check on you on Monday.)

Love camilla xxxxx

[Jen1d]

Loops, good luck for your hpt tomorrow. Will be at work but will log on as soon as possible to see your BFP

Will be thinking of you

Love Jen x

[little R]

Loopy... awaiting your good news tomorrow

All is crossed...

Much love and sending plenty of babydust your way...

Littles