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[ANGELA]

Hi Dawn <br>Thankyou for your msg was lovely to hear from you especially as we are going through the same thing at almost the same time which clinic are you at ?<br>I am feeling a little more positive about the whole thing altho it still terrifies me at the mo i am determined NOT to have sedation just the pethidine think its the thought of not being in control that scares me the most i have never had an operation or anything which doesnt help. i hope everything goes well for you would be great to keep in touch with you. not sure when i will start sniffing or anything yet but i hope it isnt to far into the new year cant get too nervous that way. i hope to hear from you soon keep me up to date with what your going through and how your feeling im here if you need a good moan or anything lots of love to you and dh go for it girl <br>love angela

[Dawn V]

Hi Angela<br><br>Thanks for replying I feel very special having my own message! (I'm a bit sad like that)!!<br>So how are you? I'm at a clinic in Norwich but will be having EC & ET at St Bartholomews in London. Went to London today for a bit of retail therapy but Oxford Street was heaving so I got p****d off!<br>When will you know when you start your cycle? Your very brave just having pethadine, I'd rather be knocked right out! <br>I went to see a friend yesterday and her 3 week old son, I really wanted to cry when i was holding him then I wanted to run off with him - think I may be a bit physcho!!! <br>Where are you having your tmt?<br>Look forward to speaking to you soon and feel free to hav a good old moan when ever you feel like one!<br>Take care<br>Dawn xxxxxx<br>

[ANGELA]

Hi Dawn,<br> I am at kings not sure when my treatment is going to start am thinking now that there may be a long long waiting list think i got over excited and expected to be starting not long after my consultation on the 23rd but now am not so sure guess i will have to wait and see what they say at the appointment i know there gas been a lot of changes to the nhs with waiting lists and stuff but i guess theres no point worrying about it till i know for sure how long i have to wait then i will think about funding myself def can not afford this so if i did am sure i would end up in debt but will wait to the 23rd when i will know more how long did you have to wait?<br>Think when it comes to ec i will not be so brave and may totally fall apart crying and stuff as im really not trying to think about that part of it to much. i imagine all of us would go a bit psycho seeing our friends with a 3 week old baby my best mate is due to have her baby in july it doesnt seem real at the moment but i know when she has it it will and will affect me badly im just hoping i will have started treatment by then maybe it wont seem so bad if i have.<br>hope the sniffing goes ok for you let me know how it is all going and all the luck in the world to you <br>lots of love <br>Angela xx<br><br>[Edited by ANGELA on 07-Dec-03 06:17]

[Dawn V]

Hi Angela<br><br>Not long now til your appt, how do you feel about it?<br>We were never told we would have to wait for ivf. In fact everything went so quickly after our tests in london that we decided to slow down and wait before having tmt. Although I moan about the clinic I know we have been very lucky being able to start when we wanted too.<br>If I don't speak to you before I hope everything goes well on the 23rd - let me know how you get on<br>Dawn<br>xxx

[ANGELA]

Hi Dawn <br>hope your ok hun, yes not long now am feeling a little nervous i know what you mean about it all going so fast even tho we have been waiting ages to get to this point occasionally i get the feeling that it has all happened so quick and im like woooooo slow down, im going to ask the clinic if i can try iui first as i am so so scared of i.v.f at the mo i feel as if my head is so full it could explode and i havent even been to the clinic yet think if they tell me i have to go for i.v.f and i dont have to wait for treatment and i can start in the new year i will well i dont know really i am so scared im not sure weather i can do it or not at the mo but at the end of the day i want a baby i do have a 7 yr old daughter and she is desperate for a brother or sister im rambling on i know think its the nerves anyway will let you know what they say at my appointment all my love and best wishes to you hun let me know how your getting on <br>love Ang