The Sisterhood of the Blue Stilettos

[sassynlv]

Angie: was glad to read you again. Take care of yourself, and i will be happy to hear from you whenever you are ready again.

Mel: I'm thinking a purple toe will go nicely with sparkly blue toenails...

Fee: First of all... your d*mn boss... circling like a shark. How is a sister supposed to get any posting done. bugger.

Have you guys thought about having counselling for these issues?

That is actually a good point. We had a great counselor when we went through marital problems 3 yrs ago and she was fab. I actually still see her occasionally with the whole IVF thing. Maybe i need to go see her. If nothing else, she has a calming effect on me, and helps me to be grounded. And she adores dh, so she doesn't just take my side.

...and as far as you being in a "funk" for a while I get the impression that you are one of life's "copers", you know the kind that picks up the pieces after everyone elses disasters???? Well, when copers become unstuck it really sticks out and freaks out their nearest and dearest because it is so out of character....

Holy cow. It is amazing how well you pegged me. You're right... i rarely lose my grip (at least over the last several years), and I think especially dh is not sure what to do with me when i do. He tries-- i just think it freaks him out.

Nickster and Jenn: yep our "nursery" is also filled with furniture we don't want. Hmmmm. I wonder if there is a deeper meaning there?

Nickster: well, the aussies are in noddyland (and it is Sat for them, anyways), Patie is probably getting herself well-coiffed for a night painting Dubai red. No one else has any f*ckin' excuse for not being here!!!

We are heading out to the wilderness today... a little National Park action. Dh's case just settled... i had taken next wk off work to be out of town helping him. So... I was pushing for a wk on a beach (lots of Marriott points to use up!). Nothing like sun, beach and scuba diving to suck the funk out of someone. But NO..... Florida, Hawaii, the caribbean ALL have crappy weather this next wk . TOTALLY SUCKS! In fact... the best weather seems to be here in Vegas. So i am still taking the wk off work and will sit in my own lounge chair by my own pool. Oh well.

Don't feel too sorry for me... i got my iceland trip out of it. Yep, I'm going to iceland in June. Have been wanting to do it for years.... since we are going camping instead of a nice beach break, dh suggested iceland in June (Angie... i do believe this would be a SWDGPT... Since We Didn't Get Preg Trip). Seems a bit ironic... dying to go to the beach... and now all excited for iceland

And in 3 wks we go to europe. Austria for a wk to visit friends (i did research there and worked briefly in one of the hospitals). Then will be meeting dh family in Tuscany where they have a house rented (that part of the trip was our christmas present from them). I am SOOOO d*mn spoiled.

Woohoo! I can feel the funk dissipating. Cycling be d*mned, i have traveling to do!

Things are great w/dh. After the chat where we both apologized, things are back to normal. I'm a very lucky woman.

Wishing you all a great wkend... unless they have high-speed internet in the national park ( ), will be incommunicado until at least Mon.

Carry on, ladies!

[Coco]

Hello Friends,

I have missed you. Angie, I am so sorry for your loss. Fee, I wish the speediest of recovery for your MIL.

As for me, ER went well. Everything is on track. 10 ferts in the deep-freeze. No transfer.

DH and I have decided to get divorced. Trying to understand it all.
For now, let me say that, on the eve of our probable conception, the universe invited us in, pulled aside a heavy, long curtain and said “would you like to look behind and beyond?” “Yes” we said, and we did. I see this as a miracle.

We are moving ahead together, with love, into this next phase of our relationship. Five years married. A future lifetime as friends. A very civilized divorce.

No scandal, no drama, no pregnancy (for now).

How I wish that I could dish with you in person. I am well, and on some weird level, relieved. I haven’t slept this well in a long time.

Coco
Coming up for air

[meg12]

Coco! That's an amazing post you just threw up there! It sounds like this must be the right discission for you...obviously since I didn't even know there were problems there it came as quite a shock. I'm wishing you the best!

[sassynlv]

Ummmmm. Wow, Coco. I am so sorry to hear about your impending divorce. Having gone through something similar 4 yrs ago (won't bore you with details, or why we stopped divorce proceedings and remain married), I have an inkling of what this may be like for you. I am grateful, though, that you are doing well with all this. I am hoping that means that you have found peace during what clearly must have been a difficult decision.

Wishing our fave underground potato the best.

We are here whenever you need us.

Love,
Sassy

[Melissa112]

First Coco - I think my face looked like this as I read your post, but you sound like you are doing well. This must be the right thing for you. I am sure there are a ton of thing going on in your widdle head, but at least you are finding a sense of peace with this new phase of your life heading your way. I am keeping you in my prayers!

Angie - I glad you poped in again! Take all the time you, darling! Take care of you, and DH and your relationship! Be there for one another, and of course we'll be here for you when you get back! Concentrate on that house of yours! We built a house last year, we've been here a year now, so I know the feeling! I'll be thinking and praying for you, on all fronts!!!

Fee- I have SO missed you! I was glad to read your post, I am sorry about your boss! That stinks! But I am glad to hear about Noggin! So that is good, no great news!!!

Sassy- I knew you were a coper you can tell by the way you explain things, and your blog is a perfect example of that! It's tough sometimes to deal with issues when things that you usually cope with, are harder for you to deal with or you loose it. I am a very upbeat person and it takes alot to bring me down. Well when I have a tendancy to get into a funk, DH has a hard time with me. He isn't sure how to act around me, because he's used to me being bubbly all of the time. Not the same thing, but the same result - ya know what I mean, jellybean I am so excited about your trip to Iceland!!! That is awesome!!!! And Austria, I am totally jealous of you! Totally jealous!!!! I am glad your funk is disapating - again great news!

Jenn - "Where funiture goes to die" that cracked me up!!! We used to have the same thing!!! But we just called it "storage" which is no way as cool as "where furniture goes to die"

Since the Attorney General has decided to put my toe on the Worldwide Endangered Species list, I feel much better about it's existence in the world! I think I have much higher hopes for the continued un-broken-ness of the toe. The pedicure today was nice! They literally massaged for 25 minutes! It was wonderful! Although she didn't scrub like my feet needed, that's okay, it would have bothered the broken-ness anyway.

Dh and I talked about our expectations for the appointment with the new RE, and we are both nervous about what she's gonna say. We'll see, it's just tough with the history we have, cancer, motility, low count, toxic mucus... can we have more of a problem! I mean geez, as if being a cancer survivor isn't enough! RIGHT! Can I just say... and I didn't mean to make this a rant, but I am so sick of people saying "It'll happen for you when it's meant to be" I envision myself hitting them so hard in the face that their head rolls off onto the floor like it used to happen in the cartoons.

I know I missed stuff, but I am home today, and trying to let you know that I am thinking about you!

I probably won't be back until Monday! Have a great Easter!!

Much Love,

Mel
xxoo

[FionaA]

Hellooo!

Coco! Fanstastic to hear from you, we were really missing you, in case you hadn't noticed. I think I've still got a stunned mullet expression after reading your news. Don't really know what to say except I'm sorry about your marriage but happy for you that it seems to be the right decision. I hope in the next few months that things resolve for you and you are able to move into the next phase of your life with happiness....By the way well done on your ER and your ferts. That is a great number. You did good.

Mel, love your violent streak. I like to envision punching punters as well...haven't had any heads rolling in my fantasies but will try it. I think it will be most satisfying. Good luck with your upcoming appointment. I suppose the beauty of IVF is that it is supposed to get around number, motility and toxic mucus stuff so damnit I'm going to think positive for ya (please don't punch me). As for toe, nothing but blue sparkly polish please, that's an order.

Vicky, how did US and blood work go????

Jenn and Nickster I see I will have to find someone else to foist my unwanted furniture onto. I look around my house and I think the only thing I have bought myself is my fridge and TV, the rest is all furniture dumped on me. Great for saving money, downside is that my house looks like an 80 year old lady lives there....

Sass, Yay on getting a week free. When we went to the US we loved the national parks we went to...specially Yosemite (had a slide show of our photos from that playing on the computer yesterday, never get sick of it.. Have a great weekend. By the way I am seething with jealousy about your upcoming trips. Iceland sounds intruiging and Tuscany, well that's beautiful....Glad to hear things are back on track with DH and that the funk is lifting...

Greetings to the other sisters. I spose it will be a quiet weekend with Easter and all.

Fee

[Coco]

Hello, Sisters,

Happy sunny day to you. The ground is still blanketed in snow here. The poor Robins are eating blackened, shriveled, winterberries due to the lack of fat juicy worms popping up through the soil. Thoe birds are tough though, they will survive, and they build nests and have babies to fill the trees with song.

Regarding my news bomb of last week, I truly appreciate your kind words of support. You guys always know exactly what to say. During this epiphany that DH and I have had, I am reminded (for whatever reason) of a TV commercial: “Life comes at you fast, got a Snickers?”

I am taking this whole thing in stride; I am strong and I have so much going on that is good. I will not be a spinster. Say it with me, girls, “she will not be a spinster, she will not be a spinster,” right. Good.

I am relieved, however, that we got the ferts. Although I am “only” 37, I know that I will need to have kiddlets within a couple of years at the most. So, our little beans are my insurance policy. It is kind of fun to think of them sitting in the freezer; the future President, the future Nobel Peace Price winner, the future mastermind criminal…all chillin’ together.

I know that people have kids without spouses and I am prepared to consider that this time next year. This will be my starting point from which I build an empire.

Love,
Coco

[Coco]

By the way, you should see my sparkley blue toes.

xo

[wannababyIVF]

Hi Ladies- Just dropping in to say hello. Can't stay long. Just got back into town and of course, they want me to do work.

Coco--I read your news and my mouth dropped. Wow, that was a shocker, but happy to hear that you are at peace with your decisions. Congrats on the ferts!

Hope everyone else is doing well. I will try to drop in later once the sharks leave me alone. It's like they smell blood or something.

[Melissa112]

I am so tired today! I am thinking about this appointment for tomorrow with increasing anxiety! I am so worried she is going to tell us we are out of options, but I know in my heart of hearts we aren't.

I got my toes painted a light almost nude color, with blue sparkles! They look really pretty, although the Vietnamese lady said "What wrong with you toe, it ugly" Thanks! Thanks a lot!!! I feel so much better now that she pointed that out! It ugly!

Well I hope everyone had a great Easter! I missed you guys! I think I am still full from last night's dinner, is that possible?

[jenn]

Good afternoon girls...

Wow- Coco. I was shocked, but glad to read that you seem to be ok. Good luck with whatever you decide to do.

Well, I have done it. I have called and ordered meds. I will start my next cycle in May. I was originally thinking June, but hey, why put off having your DH stick you in the a$$ with needles for any longer than you have to right? Once I decided June and called the doc. to let them know I thought oh heck lets just do it in May and not wait. Wish me luck!

Mel- good luck tomorrow with fert. appointment! Let us know how it goes!

Jenn

[Melissa112]

Jenn- I am so excited for you! You are right, why wait... when you can start those fun shots, sooner!

Thanks for the lucks tomorrow! Just one more sleep! I have my list of questions ready to go, at least this time around I won't be all dumb-founded... well maybe, but I doubt it.

Talk to you after my appointment...

[vicky77]

Hello ladies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow, a lot going on!!!

Coco.....I was also one of the shocked ones when I read your post!!!. But then when I kept reading I realized that you are very sure of what you are doing, and it seems to be what's right for you, and that is all that matters!!!. Good luck with your new beginning!!!!

Sassy.....all those trips sound so great!!!!!. Iceland, wow!!!!, I never thought of going there but it must be facinating!!!!. And Austria, I was there several years ago with my best friend, we went to Europe as backpackers and had a great time!!!!!. I would love to go back now with DH (not as backpackers this time, the older I get the lazier ).....

Jenn....so you are starting in May??, that sounds great!!. When do you beging dowregging?....It was so funny about the nursery being "the room where furniture goes to die", we also have it as our storage, lets say it became our non-existant garage!! LOL.....

Fee....how's Noggin doing????, how are you feeling?, any news on MIL??

Wanna...how are you feeling?, still having a lot of nausea and all that?...hope you are better?.....

Meg......wow I can't believe how far ahead you are in your pregnancy, it seems like yesterday that we were all waiting to see how your HPT went!!!!

Mel.....good luck tomorrow!!!!!, don't worry, there is always something that can be done, so your interview will be great!!!. Let us know!!

Ange.....how's the house going?, did you start the remodeling yet?

Patie....where the h@ll are you??????????, you didn't ask permission to the sisters to go away.......

As per me, well, I had my scan and bw on Thursday, everything was fine, so they had me start the estrogen patches on Saturday. Has anybody ever used estrogen patches?....how on earth do you remove the "stickiness" that remains when you change it for a new one, it sucks, it looks like when you remove a band-aid that has been there for days and the borders are all sticky and black, you know? , I tried alcohol wipe and cream, but it didn't work, only that now I also have some cotton adhered to it , any contributions?????. So I have to go back on April 21st for a follow up scan and BW and if everything is ok I will have my ET on April 26!!!!!!!

Hope everyone is doing ok!!!!

[sassynlv]

Hey girls...

Jenn: wooohooo on being able to start earlier... always exciting! The more needles the better.

Mel: good luck on appt tomorrow w/RE. Will be waiting to hear what they recommend.

Vicky: ahhh, moving right along! Those estrogen patches are fab, no? I don't think mine are as bad as what you are describing. I use alcohol and some scrubbing and after a few days it is good as new again. good luck with it. Not long now and you will be on princess treatment!

Coco: it is great that you have those embryos on ice. Gives you all sorts of options that you don't have to make decisions on now. The underground potato will NOT be a spinster.

All right... gearing up as tomorrow i will be having dessert with someone i have been avoiding for several months now. Yep, remember that girl i have ranted about in the past who now has 2 kids (we started ttc about the same time) which she got the "old-fashioned" way who invites me to her baby shower for #2 since she was pissed i hadn't attended (although given a nice gift) her #1 shower? The one who after i got BFN on #3 told me she TOTALLY understands how i am feeling b/c it took her a while to conceive her #1 son. The one who says she is my RE's fave (she showed up for an initial consult.... and was preg but needed prog for 4 wks) and that she knows him real well (he has no clue who she is). Anyway, i could go on and on but i would be boring all of you. Hadn't talked w/her since Dec and was pretty happy that way. Well, her dh called my dh and made plans for dinner tomorrow night. I have an appt w/counselor that dh didn't know about... so i will be joining them only for dessert. That should be all right... i can be polite for an hour or so... I am hoping...

How are all you pregos doin?

[jenn]

Vicky- Is it those vivelle patches? I had those. I hated them. Although at that point in my cycle I pretty much hated everything: I was wearing sticky patches, dissolving tablets under the tongue, and DH was shooting me in the a$$ every night with the biggest needle i'd ever seen. The shot wasn't too bad though. I got it after I walked around with an ice pack down my pants- to numb my tender butt of course.

Sorry went off on a tangent there... I don't recall the patches being hard to get off. Just keep scrubbing girl!! Good luck.

When do they thaw the embies?