The Sisterhood of the Blue Stilettos

[Melissa112]

Fee- I am so sorry you are slammed at work! That stinks, and I hope you find this Malaysia embezzlement! Craziness!!! We miss you though!!! If that counts for anything!

Patie - My butt dr. called today, and they are worried about the bleeding... did I mention that my butt is bleeding (like light period blood) and the burning and itching... so I guess this is a problem... we shall see....

My bestest friend lives in Houston, OH Non-Married Pregnant friend... so I am sure I'll see her and the new baby... (the baby should be born by then)

Those shootings in Virginia are awful it's breaking my heart!

[sassynlv]

Hey girls....

Patie: CONGRATULATIONS!!!! That is fantastic news on your dress. Looking forward to some more pictures. ooooo, and you have been on tv! I am so proud of you.... and you were saying how all the dresses were so much better than yours.....

Mel: itchy butt? that sounds annoying! and painful. Wonder what the nail lady would say about that. "you ugly butt", or something equally as profound don't know how you made it through the shower. Luckily most everyone i really know either already has a few kids, or is much older w/grandkids. Rarely am i invited to a baby shower.... gotta say i am pretty happy about that!

Nickster: Wow, your sil is amazing! I guess it is good to know that her insurance would cover if something went wrong with her. But i have no concept of what it would actually cost to do prenatals... deliver, etc. Would it be a lot more than an IVF cycle? I guess it would depend on whether or not your insurance covers IVF. she is amazing to offer. After my #2 BFN, my sister offered to be an egg donor. I just sat there stunned over the phone and i couldn't speak as i started the ugly cry. I was so touched she would offer.

Vicky: Ahhh, yes. the pizza diet. We should make cardinal rules of IVF.. hmmmm... maybe i will do that at work today. One will be NEVER go shopping for pants/skirts while cycling (or for at least one wk after... of course if it is a bfn, then i eat for an entire wk to drown my sorrows... so make that 2 weeks!...ummmm, unless you use angie's tactic and buy them a bit snug to get the delayed gratification....). Your ET is getting so close!... probably seemed so far away when you went on the cruise.

Angie: i can see why you would be concerned about running into that couple at the RE---- especially since they are very open about their IVF. I hope you book that counselor's appt. I do believe without mine i would have jumped off a cliff by now (and you realize... living in Vegas... that would have been very difficult to do )

Jenn: come on AF! We want our Jenn to be able to get that beautiful box of drugs NOW!

Fee: oooo, our little international money sleuth! *as i wave my hands furiously in the air* let me help! I always wanted to be one of those people that travels from country to country tracking down a mystery (ala hollywood movies). Sounds terribly glam.

Yep, I have been MIA... sorry . went out of town to visit parents for the wkend. and it just felt so nice to not deal with any IF stuff. haven't even blogged since last wk. Now back in town, but feeling overwhelmed with stuff i had avoided while in the funk for a month... and we leave on vacation in 10 days. AHHHHH! I have a lot to do. And then there is bil. Has now become his own little crime wave (again... similar to a few years ago). broke into the law firm a few nights ago and stole 3 computers (ahhh, idiot... security cameras?????). and then there are the checks he stole... and the credit card #s he has been using... ah the joy of a family drug addict. My major concern is that he is getting more and more desperate over the last wk, and is on meth. Meth users can get very aggressive... and unpredictable. inlaws came back in town last night... gotta say, i am a bit concerned about their safety. we have been checking our credit, and i have the alarm on in the house... he's not my kid (thank the lord).

Anyway... i thought it was sooooo funny. My mom read one of my blog entries... and was all annoyed that i used the word "hell". *snort* She wanted me to change it. She said it wasn't ladylike. Now, not that i disagree with her--- it isn't ladylike... BUT do i really give a f**kin' d**n at this point about ladylike? It also isn't ladylike to be opening my legs every few days for a man who isn't my hubby so he can examine my vajayjay, now is it??? Probably a good thing she doesn't see what i write here!!!

Weird nostalgia.... i would be about 4 days into my cycle had i gone this month.

[Melissa112]

Sassy - Your blog is fantastic! I've laughed, I've cried, you are an amazing writer and have an amazing gift! You touch people's hearts and that's not an easy thing to do! Funny story about the little girl, and the mom's group at the park - I've done the same thing!!!! Exactly! And the women of course say, you fit in so well here, or you should come more often, or when are you brining your own child... those who don't know... so I feel for you chick-a-dee!


This itchy butt thing sucks! I cannot wait to go to the dr. and find out what is going on back there... we'll see! If the nail lady hear about this, goodness knows what she'd say... everytime I look at my feet, I think, "you toe ugggly" LOL! Honestly, I don't know that I'll go to a baby shower anytime soon - except to suprise my non-married pregnant friend. But other than that... nothankyouverymuch!

I am sorry to hear about your BIL, that so stinks! Meth is a terrible thing, and it does make you violent... poor thing! I will be keeping him and your family in my prayers!

I thought my butt problem was getting better, but I think it's getting worse.. I hate this!!! I feel like I am 90 years old! I just got denied to be an egg donor, I am too old! Nice huh!

[patie]

Hello ladies...

Fee...welcome back...we missed you!!! how's everything with ya?

Sass....i am sorry about bil...please be carefull i think he'll soon get dillusional and all! did he break into ur DH's firm?? wish u best of luck w him!
your mom is so cute...seriously if she reads what we say here....wohooo! she'd be shocked how unlady-like we r hehehehhe. I know my mom is also of that type... she's so picky on how i shld behave and all and my dad too! last time he was lecturing me that i shouldne be wearing jeans to work!!!

Mel...sorry again about toushy....well your appointment is today so please let us know! btw sometimes DH gets these symptoms w the bleeding and all but its mainly the hemroids...so they go away after few days! so i am sure things will be ok w u!!! hugs babe!
I didnt get u about the donor egg! what happened??

pssst other ladies we missed u! where are you??? come out come out wherever u r....

[vicky77]

Hi girls!!!!

Mel.....how is you bum doing?, I know you must be kind of anxious about it, you are going today to the doctor right?, let us know how it went. Hopefully it is just hemorroids or a tiny fisure, and nothing more complicated than that........let us know......GOOD LUCK!!

Sassy.....yes I know, my timing really sucks, I shouldn't have gone shopping while stimming, what was I thinking!!, or at least next time I should only try shoes . I am sorry about your BIL, hope that someone (in laws) can actually do something about it.....So you are leaving soon?, is this the trip to Iceland?, tell us all the details!!.

Jenn....is AF here yet?, were you able to achieve any of your goals? (no caffeine, eating better and blue toes?)

Patie....when is your interview?, try to mention the Sisterhood somehow so we become famous too , we are actually your number one fans!!!!. I am so happy for you having won this!!!!.

Nickster....so have you decided what you are going to do?, have you asked about the PIO trial?, hope everything is ok!!

Fee....cannot believe your job, how come they don't give you "Sisterhood break" (like a coffee break, but to post.... ), hope it gets better so you can come back and talk to your Sistas!!

Mego...where are you!!!

Amy, Coco, where are you girls??

I am up to 3 estrogen patches now, tomorrow I will be up to 4 (which is the highest I am supposed to be on this cycle) and then on Saturday I go to the clinic for scan and bw to make sure my lining and everything is ok, and if so next Thursday (04/26) will be ET!!!! (OMG ), can't believe it yet!!. Last Monday when I went to acu, she tells me "so next week is ET" and I say "no, it is the other week" and she shows me the calendar and I just couldn't believe that it is actually next week!!!!!!!.
I am having a little bit of sore throat, the past Sunday was kind of cold here (I know, 56 F is not cold for normal states, but for Florida is freezing cold ), so I hope I get better before ET........

Hope you are all ok!!!!

[Melissa112]

Patie, I had applied to several agencies to be an egg donor, for a couple of reasons, I feel like if I can't have a baby because of a male factor then the least I can do is give that gift to someone like us who needs them. And it would help our IVF fund a ton - although if I didn't need the money I'd do it for free....

So I guess I am too old, for most egg donation agencies you need to be between 20-30 and I am not... not to much outside of the 30'ness but not inside either.

Today in 4 hours, I'll be at the bum doctor - we shall see! And it would figure my tushie doesn't hurt so much today! Figures!

[jenn]

Vicky- have you been taking your vit. C ? I find that as soon as I get a sore throat, or I feel like I am getting one if I take a bunch it gets better.

I spoke too soon. I am waiting for AF, but it will be a couple of weeks. Right now I am about to ovulate. Since this is the last cycle before we pay a bunch of money, DH said we are going to "do it like we are going to lose $12,000 if we don't!" Ha! Like we don't do that every month hoping it will perform a miracle!

Mel- I hope your bum Dr. appointment goes well and they are able to give you some medicine to fix it quick!!

Has anyone read any good books lately? I need to get my mind off of IVF. It has been consuming my thoughts lately. I need to be in an imaginary world for a while! I got 3 books from Amazon last week, but I read them this weekend.

I am ordering meds today!!

[vicky77]

Jen good luck with this cycle, now you have a new mattress so go use it wisely !!!!!

Mel....any news yet???

[Melissa112]

Bum Update!!!!

I got to the doctor and we talked medical history and stuff - she asked me if I was pregnant and I had to laugh and said Nope, she said are you sure, I said pretty definately sure... she said how can you be so sure, I said well..... my husband has a motiliity issue, I have a history of cervical cancer, my husband a lower sperm count, his boys don't swim straight, they are crocked little swimmers, I have cervical mucus.... the doctor stopped me and said, sorry I asked, I guess your not pregnant...

So then she looked at my tushie and said that I have some severe Anal Fissures in various stages of healing, and that for that she wants to give me some supositories (hooray) and that with my history of cervical cancer, it sometimes has a history of moving to the colon, and iwth my fissures for no reason they want to do a colonoscopy, and then with some of the constipation and the acid reflux I have they want to do an endoscopy at the same time... JOY OF JOYS! This is going to be on May 14th... I am SO not excited!

OkayI am going to head to daily Mass... I'll be back!

[sassynlv]

Mel: ooooo, suppositories? How fun for you! Glad they are doing the tests... but i'm thinking this has nothing to do with cancer... I'm thinking you have these anal fissures because the gods find it funny to give us ivf'ers even more to deal with . Hoping the meds work.

Jenn: i am reading a book i like right now... don't know if you will be interested, but here goes. It is called Deep Survival. It is a study of why some people die in wilderness accidents, and why others don't. A study of why people react the way they do in any situation. i have found it interesting b/c it goes into the function of the brain. And it has tons of interesting stories.. that is the best part!

Vicky: ahhh, your ET is getting close!

Ok, so 2 updates:
Vacations: dh and i are going to Vienna a wk from Saturday. I think i explained before that i have studied there a few times.... have people there that are like family to me? It is probably my favorite place on the planet. Anyway, we will be there for a wk and then will be in tuscany for 10 days. The italy part is our christmas present from dh family. All adults in the family will be there (except druggie bil). We get home in the middle of May, then 2 wks later we head to iceland. I know, a spoiled b*tch for sure.

Speaking of druggie bil (who although dating a skanky Glitter Gulch stripper, is also apparently doing prostitutes on the side... but i digress...), apparently they haven't turned him in yet. He stole 3 computers 5 nights ago... is CLEARLY on the security tape... and yet... no police reports. btw... the security video is funny... it is weird to see bil running around carrying the computers. If i can get a copy i will post it . Man, i am sick!!! Well, really just sick of the whole mess. We live in a guard-gated community (not uncommon here in Vegas), and just spoke to security re: bil. they wanted name, description, etc. Glad to know they will turn him around at the gate (they tend to let family members in w/o calling us), and the patrols will be aware of the problem. Until we tell them otherwise, they will be doing extra patrols around our house. Makes me feel a bit safer. I know it is probably an overreaction. but he is on coke and meth. He has been outright stealing (plus, hello... breaking into the law firm). He threatens suicide regularly (hello... inlaws never take him in... they should say "if you are serious then i have to take you to the hospital on an involuntary hold". then he would have to say whether he means it or not. Instead it becomes a manipulation tactic... not sure how serious he is). He also says no matter what he isn't going back to prison. He is the kind of person that would want to go out with a bang. Considering how desperate and unpredictable he is... i am concerned. Not worried, just concerned.

Ah, ok, now that i poured out all my crap... i am going back to finding hotels in iceland....

[vicky77]

Sassy.....that trip sounds fab!!!!!, can I go with you???? , I promise I won't bother !!!.

Mel.....oooooo endoscopy and colonoscopy all at once!!, you know how to have fun huh . About the anal fissures, they tend to come with stress and be careful about not getting constipated (it will make it worse....), I hope your scopes end up being normal, so May it is?.....

Well, Sanson is here, he says hello to everybody!!...BTW he wants to know where the h*ll is her godmother Wanna!!!!!!. He is looking at me almost begging me to take him out, and I cannot resist those begging eyes that he has, so I'll see you guys later!!!!

[jenn]

Hello!

Mel- so glad you got answers. The colonoscopy thing isn't fun- my sister recetly had one and she said it wasn't bad. She doesn't remember it! The worst part I think was drinking the drink the day before. Hope the suppositories are giving you some relief.

Vicky- getting close! I'm getting excited for you! How was your walk with Sanson? The weather has been great. We walked last night with Shelby. We have to spell the word walk because if she hears it she gets soooo excited and starts running around!

Sassy- those trips sound wonderful! Have fun! We have a stealing druggie in the family too. Cocaine is his drug of choice. I feel for you. He is in a halfway house. Been there for almost 2 years I think. Every time he leaves he relapses, and he's been to rehab all over and nothing worked. Eventually he always goes back to it.

I need to get a job. I have been sitting out for a year. Does anyone have any career suggestions? I am a teacher, but I really want to do something different! What do you all do?

[Melissa112]

Good Morning, Ladies!!!

So, yes, at least I have answers - but I don't feel like I do - I feel like Sassy said, God is testing me, and I hate it! I hate to be the one that always thinks the worst, because really I am always the "Sunshine" around everyone with the postitive attitude, always! I mean someone can show me proof that sky is falling down, and I'll be the one to say, hey at least the sun is still shining! But I just feel like this whole colonscopy thing - is a test to see if I can handle another bout of cancer. And I hate it! DH and I were just talking about paying for IVF, and now OH hello, an expense that needs to go on our deductible... lovely! So there goes another $1,000 - at this point it's just money!

And all I want to think about is the pie contest this weekend! Go me! Go pie!!

Sassy - I KNOW! Suppositories! God has a freakin' sense of humor like my husband, its dry, and I don't like it! And get this - the drug store didn't have the stoopid suppositories in stock, so now I have to wait... just my lovely luck! Your book sounds really interesting, I might have to grab it!I am so way totally jealous of your trips! I will need a full re-cap, I mean food and all! Deal? Deal! That sounds amazing!!! About your BIL, we lost my 21 year old SIL due to drug overdose... she was a mess. It's a tragety, but honestly, she didnt' have a chance - so sad!!! I hope your BIL wants to get help!!

Jenn- I think the worst thing is going to be the before colonoscopy diet... it's all a clear liquid diet, or chicken broth and yellow jello! Fun times! And then the Clean You Out stuff, doesn't sound fun to me at all!!! I think I'll be on the crapper all night! ICK! I am a wedding planner... it's an awesome job!!! I am teaching a class - a National Certification course on May 19th and May 20th... wanna come?

Vicky - It's getting SOOOOO Close!!! Yay!!!!!! Dont' worry, I'll make sure I don't get constipated - I have to take vitamins to make sure I go regularly anyway... May 14th, feels like forever away - but I am sure it'll be here like tomorrow. Please give Sanson a kiss from me!!!

Well, off to do more work I go, but today is a Faux Friday for me, because we are headed to Orlando tomorrow for Pie Contest!!! I am staying home tomorrow AM to bake, and then off to Orlando! I am so excited/Nervous!!!

XXOO!

Me

[jenn]

MEL!!!!!

GOOD LUCK AT YOUR PIE CONTEST!!!!



When do we get recipes?? Or better yet, with my cooking abilities maybe you should just come here and make one! Or send one to me! I am NOT good in the kitchen! Ha! Good luck can't wait to hear all about it!

[Melissa112]

Awwweee! Jenn! Thank you!!
I can officially give the recipes out now if you want - but maybe we should wait and see if the judges hate them! :oops