Haven't made it ...

jen · Post by **jen** » Sat Dec 27, 2003 12:53 pm

Hi Girls Santa was a bit rotten to us this year. We were due to have our 6 week scan on Christmas Eve but on Sun night I started bleeding heavily so went in Mon instead. Just saw 2 little dots, way too small and I ended up miscarrying yesterday. I feel positive for the next time but I just don't seem to be able to stop crying, I feel so sad but I know it will get better. I'm being well looked after though with loads of love and hugs from my wonderful husband. Haven't made a follow up appointment yet, but we will definitely go again. We keep getting closer each time. To be honest I never felt like I could celebrate this pregnancy as it was touch and go from the beginning. Not sure when we can try again but hope 2004 will bring us all a lot more luck. Becky and Dolly - I don't think I was too far behind you, maybe we'll be able to cycle together next time. Best wishes to all of you. Love Jen xx

Traci · Post by **Traci** » Sat Dec 27, 2003 7:46 pm

Jen How awful for you, I am so sorry , I dont know whats worse getting a strait negative or getting a + and losing it , at least you know that they will inbed . anyway Heres to 2004 the old gang back for another go . Thinking of you lots {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Trace x

caz1 · Post by **caz1** » Sat Dec 27, 2003 11:00 pm

SO sorry for you - what a nightmare - and at christmas too. which I think is quite a tough time - even without what you have been thru. Take care of yourself- sounds like your staying positive- which given how far you've gotten sounds just the thing to do.... good luck for 2004 Cazxx

BelB · Post by **BelB** » Sun Dec 28, 2003 11:18 am

Hey Jen, Know where you're at, I also had a positive, then a miscarriage, Is completely devestating, nothing anyone can say will make it better for you. What got me through though was getting lots of love with my wonderful dh, being really kind to ourselves (we went to the beach for a week), and appreciating the beautiful things in life. I have also been to counselling which has helped. My doctor has said that we know now that you can get pregnant, and lots of women on IVF and otherwise don't know that. My doctor also said that of women who miscarry, 80 % in their next pregnancy next time round will have a normal pregnancy with a beautiful baby at the other end. Look forward to that happening for you and I and Becky as well. My thoughts are with you Jen Belinda

Alison · Post by **Alison** » Sun Dec 28, 2003 6:06 pm

Oh Jen, I'm so, so sorry, what an awful thing to have gone through and at such a difficult time of year. Thinking of you and hoping 2004 is the year for you. Love Alison x

alisonn · Post by **alisonn** » Sun Dec 28, 2003 6:28 pm

why is life is so cruel,i just dont understand........it was so upsetting to read your message, my thoughs are with u. alisonn

jen · Post by **jen** » Sun Dec 28, 2003 6:49 pm

Hi Girls I'm really clutching at straws now - had another HCG on Boxing Day at A&E, they said they would ring later that day with results and a date to come in for a scan. Never heard from them so rang today - the levels went from 3075 on 22nd to 3220 on 24th to 8367 on 26th. I'll have the scan either tomorrow or tuesday. Shouldn't levels go down with a miscarriage?? I just want it to be over now, I've been bleeding since last Sun. DH is still worried about eptopic (even though doc said no) and I think I miscarried one twin a few days ago and am starting to miscarry the other one now. I'll update you all after the scan and thanks so much for all the kind messages. Here's to a better 2004 for all of us. Love Jen xx

Grace · Post by **Grace** » Sun Dec 28, 2003 7:14 pm

Hello Jen Really am so sorry you have been going through all this it must be so awful for both of you. I know absolutely nothing about levels etc but yes you would think that it would go down with a miscarriage. Let's hope that that they can give some clearer news after the scan. Anyway, just want you to know you are in my thoughts. Love Gracexx

Missy1 · Post by **Missy1** » Sun Dec 28, 2003 7:54 pm

Jen, I don't usually post on this site too much (I lurk from time to time). I felt compelled to write and let you know that all is not lost. I think you're right, you lost one twin but I also think your hcg levels are high enough for one to survive. Also a lot of people have bleeding and find that their baby is OK. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a good scan result. Good luck Missy

Dawn V · Post by **Dawn V** » Sun Dec 28, 2003 9:17 pm

Hi Jen You poor thing you must be all over the place at the moment. I don't know anything about hcg levels either but would think that they would go right down or disappear if you had lost both. Fingers crossed for you tomorrow, will be thinking of you. Dawn xxxx

Annie · Post by **Annie** » Sun Dec 28, 2003 10:29 pm

Dear Jen and dh, My heart goes out to you. Its the most torturous situation.I really hope things go your way. When I mc,d my hcg levels stayed quite high for a couple of weeks but they never actually went up (ie they were just a bit slow at dropping) Love and best wishes Annie

SJ BROWN · Post by **SJ BROWN** » Mon Dec 29, 2003 8:16 am

HI Jen really sorry to read what you have been through and wanted to let you know I too am keeping everything crossed for you. It sounds like you have a wonderful husband....... Take care and lots of luck for 2004 Sarah

alypraying · Post by **alypraying** » Tue Dec 30, 2003 1:07 pm

Oh Jen So sorry for you I know there is not much people can say to make things better but I hope you can be positive about the fact fact that you can get pregnant and try again next year. I hope to have donor eggs in March/ april so maybe we can cycle again then. take care and have a good New Year Hugs Aly xxx

GB · Post by GB » Tue Dec 30, 2003 1:27 pm

Hi Jenn So sorry to hear your news....am so gutted for you. Just rest up and take it easy. May 2004 be a brighter year for you. Take care and thinking of you. Lotsa luv Gila x-x-x

jen · Post by **jen** » Tue Dec 30, 2003 4:49 pm

Hi Girls Just here with a quick update - as we thought, scan showed nothing there, I have miscarried. There is still some product left so they want me to have a D&C but not until Monday - talk about dragging this out. They'll ring me on Fri and if all the bleeding has stopped then I might not have to have the D&C. Feel a bit better now that we've gotten a clear result. Thanks for all your support and kind words. Wishing you all a way better 2004 and looking forward to getting lots of LASTING BFPs in 2004. Haven't a clue when we'll be able to go for more treatment, I'm guessing it will probably be March time, so hopefully we'll be cycle buddies Aly and have Traci with us too. Lots of love Jen xx

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