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Inhale, Exhale · Post by **Inhale, Exhale** » Wed May 09, 2007 11:34 am

Loops...
where are you? How was your scan???????

Inhale, Exhale · Post by **Inhale, Exhale** » Wed May 09, 2007 3:30 pm

LOLA!!!!!
stop making me worry about you.... how did it go????
tell me, tell me, tell me!

steph

lolajones · Post by **lolajones** » Wed May 09, 2007 5:39 pm

Sorry!!!
I'm just wiped out at the moment.
Scan was ok! Warrior Ninja bean is now 17mm and fighting fit! I still have the uterine haematoma but it is shrinking and they reckon it'll just resolve over the weeks. I'm still bleeding a small amount and apparently I will do for the next few weeks. They told me to take it easy and no sex.... sigh.
So woo hoo!!! They've discharged me back to the chaos of the NHS...
So now its buckle down and enjoy the morning sickness.... how did you cope with it Steph?
How're you? How was your trip?

Jen - news??? Are you still lovin the tat?

OK dudes!
Off to commune with the sofa

Love like a heat seeking submarine
Lola
xxxxx

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Wed May 09, 2007 6:07 pm

Well we are all booked for the Big B

Its all hppening on the 6th June and we have decided to go for a few days hols to. Cant believe it, getting excited now.

Brilliant news Loops, now go and chill

Am just home but wanted to share the news, will chat more tomorrow night.

Love Jen x

Inhale, Exhale · Post by **Inhale, Exhale** » Wed May 09, 2007 6:56 pm

Whewwwww.... she sighs as she wipes sweat from brow..

Lola- DON't ever do that again. I demand that you report in immediately after all scans.. is now new Octo rule! I second the motion, motion Passed!
Ok, lecture over.. now..

YAHOO! way to go super embie! what type of sticky gloves did you give little embie loops? works like a charm. Are you still off work? About the morning sickness.. sorry I never found cure.. just push through and enjoy. Hubby was so glad to see every time I got sick. I am cereal and soy milk fanatic and couldn't go near it when I was preggers. Just the thought of it made me green.. Listen to your cravings is my only advice. Except if your body is telling you to eat hotdogs, I refused to bend to that one, but i did occasionally have meatballs- in real life I am a white meat only girl.

JENS- FAB-U news!! so excited for you. I think the 6th sounds like a great day to enter Jens "dreams come true" Land. All that and a vakay too... what a life you lead sista!

Luckily the spankys are all charged up and carrying celebration music. But, may have to reteach Demetrio the moves. (he has been spending his time with Loops on couch and has gotten a little out of top dancing shape)

As for me- trip was long. I am back on the road again tommorrow.. curses! But, luckily is not overnight trip. And the good news is that as of now I have no trips next week.. cheers! In other Steph news.. I need to diet and cannot find the motivation to do so.. anyone? Luckily, the weather has been sooooo nice and we have been hiking in the evenings. Faith was not a fan of the backpack, but once she found a comfy sleeping position she was loving it. Can you believe she is 4 and a half months today! where is the time going? ... speaking of time, I am turning 30 this month.. curses again! not really, I don't really care. I don't feel 30 until I try to have a night out and then I realize I am not 21 anymore.. even 25, 27 or 28 anymore...

Happy, Happy, Joy, Joy for both my girls!
steph

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Thu May 10, 2007 5:47 pm

hi

Steph - 30------i wish and yes it does get harder, just ask Loops, she's the oldie here

Before you know it little Faith will be 18 and you will be even ANCIENT.
OH I AM FULL OF WIT TODAY

As for the diet thing

know how you feel. I seem to be getting bigger by the minute.

Loops - Hope you resting and your nerves are holding up.
Apparently a plain biscuit and sips of water before your head gets off the pillow help. Worth a try eh.

Walshy and Littles - Know its tough to visit at times but if you have a peek we are thinking of you both and miss you.

Me - Well i am just waiting for my test results from the Doc, which should be in about 7 days then everything is ready and we will be off.
Am feeling strange, dont know if i feel it will work but this will be our last stab at getting pregnant as its so expensive so everything must be doubbleee crossed, extra high jigs and special moves form Demetrio

Tat is all healed and looking fab, feel like a bit of a rebel but nice to know i have my 8 embiestars with me all the time

Am off now for the weekend so will catch up with you lovely girls soon.

Love Jen x

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Fri May 11, 2007 6:35 pm

girls you have to log on to the computer and go to Daily Record then sit back and be prepared to smash the computer up and scream

Its in the paper today that a Glasgow couple have just had twins after fertility treatment-------fine i hear you say------------not fine, they have had 3 attempts and got it on the NHS. They are both unemployed drug addicts and never paid a penny.
Both are on methadone and have no prospects of a job so guess who will be paying to bring up their ivf kids--------yep, all of us

I feel so annoyed and upset about this. The Doc who did the treatment was defending their rights but top fertility specialists were defending woman/couples like us.
The Doc said smokers are given treatment and feels drug addicts have the right to treatment to. She went on to say she would rather given addicts treatment than smokers

Talking about rights----------at the bottom of the page the paper was explaining what ivf/iui treatment involves and said its not given to women who are 40+ and overweight--------what a laugh, but its ok to give to drug addicts.

Well she is going to get it. My mum is on the case and will be sending her a letter to let her know what she thinks of this whole shambles----we wont hold our breath for an answer

Talk about unfair, this world/country is s**t

Ok, come out from behind the computer desk, i am calm again

Goin off for a chill, steam is minimal now but heart rate is still up

Have a good weekend girls

Love Jen x

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Sat May 12, 2007 4:26 pm

Looks like i am writing to myself and keeping this thread going

come on girls get bakc here

I had a terrible day yesterday, felt tearful all day and then at night dh said we were invited to a BBQ today with friends who are pregnant. Havent seen her since she broke the news and the thought of facing her just set me off. Had a crying fit at bedtime about how unfair this life is. Anyway we got a call this morning from other friends saying the BBQ is cancelled as the couple have fallen out after a major row-----i know its a shame but i'm so happy i dont have to face them. Its so stupid as i will have to see them at some point

Spent the afternoon in Starbucks----yuummm with our friends and goddaughter, weather is crap and going back over to their house to hit the vino later

When i play with her i always feel they are watching me and feeling sorry for us, i hate it. They then went into a baby shop, i had to tell the mum i was leaving, couldnt face all the pregnant women, she panicked a little and me and dh left. We had planned to get pregnant long before they even thought about it and now they have a 1 year old----so unfair.
I just hope we manage to get 1 baby as i cant live with this pain all my life

Feeling sorry for myself today and feeling to old to have a child now

Hope your weekend is better than mine

Love Jen x

camilla · Post by **camilla** » Sun May 13, 2007 9:25 am

Hello

Sorry haven't been here but DH took laptop to work last week and so I couldn't catch up with you.

Jen - Good news about appt. Now you have to stay focused and positive. You can get pregnant and if we've got anything to do with it, you will! Imagine all out positive thoughts as a physical thing entering your body (didn't mean to sound pervy!). And you are definitely not too old, look at me. We love you and of course will be with you all the way.

Lola - Oh good, can breathe a sigh of relief! You are high maintenance but we love you. Just think you have a tiny baby in there! Hope you can enjoy the rest of your pregnancy. Once you get past the 12th week it will get easier.

Steph - You sound as busy as ever. Big kiss for Faith.

Hope Little R returns soon but she did say she might take a bit of time out.

Love as always.

Camilla xxxxx

Inhale, Exhale · Post by **Inhale, Exhale** » Mon May 14, 2007 7:20 pm

I'm here! I'm here!

Don't think I've abandoned you... just craps busy at work. But I am in all week, so hopefully more time to chat tommorrow....

I sent a pics, so now Loops is only Octo-slacker.

Luvs to the Bugs
steph

Walshy · Post by **Walshy** » Tue May 15, 2007 11:47 am

Hello Beautiful Ladies,

I am so sorry that I have been MIA for along time but I have been having a few mental issues myself and needed to deal with them and stay away from the computer and websites about children or anythign to do with TTC.

So what have I missed ???

Lola sweat pea I am so happy that your little bean is sticking. We have a strong on there. Are you starting to breath yet? When is your next scan? You should be able to see arms/legs and stuff. Do you think you will find out the sex? Any names picked out or is it to early yet? I have had names picked out for 7 years. I hope by now your bleeding has stopped and that your starting to stress less. Leave that up to the cyber aunties

Steph what's this about Jen getting a photo and I missed out. Thanks for sending the emial to keep me up to date on Ms Lola but I have been trying to stay away as I said. I feel guilty for not being on here to support you all through that as you girls have been a godsend to me. How is gorgeous Faith going? Happy Birthday for sometime this month. I also turn 30 at the end of the year. My life is so not what I expected it to be at 30.

Jen I am glad that AF finally turned up for you. I have everything crossed that everything goes well for you at your appointment in June and you enjoy your holiday as well. I will be hear to cheer you on your merry way to mother hood. I totally understand your feelings of people watching you and feeling sorry for you when you play with there kids. I feel as though people are over compensating me and my DH when we play with there kids. I also know exactly where your coming from with living with the pain all your life. I wish I could tell you that it gets easier but even though we have said we are not having children I think about it everyday most days all day and it has not lessened the heaviness in my heart. I am hoping it will soon though. Your not to old to have children. I didn't get to read about the lady having IVF who is methadone well over here in Oz the Govt gives you $4k for every child you have so we have lots of people (esp young girls) who are on welfare having children and can't even look after the ones they have.

Camilla whats news with you? Are you working etc. Any updates of about your cheeky monkey?

Hi to Littles if your reading.

Again I am so sorry that I have been MIA for a while. I guess I think about the TTC thing daily and am seriously surrounded by women who are pregnant. I currently have 6 ladies at work who are just about to give birth which i was glad about as I then wouldn't be surrounded by pregnant bellies except last week another 4 announced that they were pregnant. It just sends me into a spin and depression that I can not have what they are having and mothers day on the weekend was worse. To make matters worse this time I have had alot of people asking me when am I going to have a child as I have been married the longest etc etc. I just tell them children suck and take you rmoney so we don't want any but on the inside I am dying.

Girls if you have any exciting news send me an email so that I know about it. I will seriously try and log on more now that I am back to 'normal'. Talk to you all later from Walshy

lolajones · Post by **lolajones** » Tue May 15, 2007 3:46 pm

Hi ladies

I had my 9 week scan today - they couldn't see a heartbeat, the baby died a couple of days ago.
I am numb, I don't understand why this has happened. I can't take it in.
I just don't understand. I'm so exhausted.

Inhale, Exhale · Post by **Inhale, Exhale** » Tue May 15, 2007 4:44 pm

Oh Lola-
I have no words of sorry or healing that will make you feel better. Just know that I am so very sad with you and am here for you for whatever you need.

So, so sorry for your loss. it is devasting.

hold onto hubby and check back in with us when you are ready. I will be thinking of you so often and hoping that you are able to cope.

steph

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Tue May 15, 2007 6:18 pm

Oh Loops, i feel devastated for you babe

This is such crap news and so unfair. I thought you were through the worst after last week but unfortunately our bodies have a way of telling us otherwise.
Remember we are all here for you anytime you want a chat or a shoulder to cry on.
Take time with your dh to be sad, we all understand only to well how you are feeling.
Love and lots of hugs to you and dh

Jen x

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Tue May 15, 2007 6:24 pm

Walshy

Its lovely to hear from you finallybut on such a sad day for us Octo girls. You were sent here today to be strong for Lola, i'm sure.
I completely understand why you have needed time out but try to stay strong. Yes life sucks and i wonder everyday why i have to go throught this crap and heartache but i have to try and keep believing we will get a baby someday.
Are you going to think of adoption in the future?

If Big B doesn't work then i don't know what we will do. If only we had loads of cash then i would go to B every month and try, its bound to work one time

Anyway dont stay away so long, we have to stick together and we missed you.
Hope you got my emails to check how you were, speak soon

Love Jen x

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