Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Walshy]

Oh Lola I am so sad for you. Nothing I can say will take away the feelings of sadness and hurt that you are felling now.

Please know that I am thinking of you and praying that you and your husband are coping the best you can.

I don't know what else left to say my heart is crying for my dear Octogirl Lola.

I will log on later to see how you all are, man it sucks sometimes to be us.

HUGE hugs and kisses to you all from Walshy

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hi Girls...

Lola- I have thought of you so many times over the past day. Although I do not have your real life address, I would have sent you a room full of flowers by now. we are all wrapping you in luv and hugs. why does life always sucker punch?

Jens-
When do you leave? even though we are all sad for our hun buns right now, does not mean I forgot you have very important time coming just around the corner... in days actually if I remember correctly! How are you and hubs feeling? excited, nervous, hopeful, skeptical.. all of the above? Spankies will be coming out of the closet just in time! Give me details, dates...

Walshy- so, so good to see your mug around here again. I will send pic now that you are back. that way you can see how gorg-eous I am ... ha, ha, ha. Yep, 30 is a little bit of a shocker.. but then you get over it very quickly.. well, I did. Several of my friends were very sad. But, I think that was more about the body changes such as gray hair. I color mine so often I would never know if it was gray. There is always a way to beat the system!

Camilla- wish I could chat about you, but you never give us any goods.. so I will just say hi-ya!

As for me, I am crazy work busy.... but with the help of Starbucks I get through it just fine.

Luv to Loops and All
Steph

[little R]

Thank you dearest Jen for giving me the awful news (I have just checked my emails) as I haven't been reading the boards for a while now...
I apologise but I have needed and still need time out...I am not in a very good place and don't want to add any negativity to the boards...
Also, to be honest, I haven't been doing so well lately and have been trying to forget about treatment and "live" until the next try in Autumn.

I had to write though.... poor sweet Lola... there is nothing to say... it's awful and I can only imagine the nightmare you and DH are enduring at the moment. To have this taken away from you...I am so desperately sorry for you, Lola.

This unfairness just makes me want to scream....it's all too sad.

I am so sorry, Lola...so many sunny hugs coming your way...
I am sure that you and DH are comforting and nurturing each other through these heartbreaking times...much love to you.

and MUCH love to all you Octopals...Steph (thank you for your mail, kisses to little F), Camilla, Jen (pff read the article...what a bunch of s__t) and Walshy (glad you're feeling better, good for you!)...

Littles

[Jen1d]

Oh i hate it when the Octo Chicks are feeling low.

Loops - I hope you are getting all the hugs we are sending you and you are having lots of time and hugs with dh. I have been thinking about you all day and worrying about you. We are here for you babe

Steph - Go to B on the 5th June, app on the 6th and chilling until the 8th, then home. Feeling a bit anxious but its our only chance so must be strong and fight on
Was in Starbucks on Sunday for a yummy latte (extra hot, has to be in Scotland) and a yummy cup cake, its the best

Littles - Glad you are back with us lovely R. Sorry you are struggling but it helps to talk, you know how to find me anytime

Walshy - How you feeling? Any plans for the future? Hows the counselling going?

Camilla - I suppose when you read our posts it just reminds you what a lucky girl you are. Thank you for sticking around to support us, its appreciated

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Oh i hate it when the Octo Chicks are feeling low.

Loops - I hope you are getting all the hugs we are sending you and you are having lots of time and hugs with dh. I have been thinking about you all day and worrying about you. We are here for you babe

Steph - Go to B on the 5th June, app on the 6th and chilling until the 8th, then home. Feeling a bit anxious but its our only chance so must be strong and fight on
Was in Starbucks on Sunday for a yummy latte (extra hot, has to be in Scotland) and a yummy cup cake, its the best

Littles - Glad you are back with us lovely R. Sorry you are struggling but it helps to talk, you know how to find me anytime

Walshy - How you feeling? Any plans for the future? Hows the counselling going?

Camilla - I suppose when you read our posts it just reminds you what a lucky girl you are. Thank you for sticking around to support us, its appreciated

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Oops sorry girls, got carrid away with the mouse

[lolajones]

Hello lovely ladies

Thanks for all your kind thoughts.
I'm back at work but am totally spaced out. Not seeing patients - disaster! I still don't think its sunk in. Spent a lot of time yesterday crying with dh. I am dreading the actual miscarriage, wish I'd had the operation now. DH is also back at work - I worry about him though - he doesn't have the sort of supports i have. My work colleagues are great friends and my boss has been fantastic.
Anyway - we're off to posh hotel and spa on the coast at the weekend for a treat and I'm also planning big trip to Mexico or Pacific coast of States next month - we need a reward! ONWARDS!!! UPWARDS!!!!

Oh, girls, please don't think I've been rude! I hadn't read my emails at hotmail for about 2 weeks so thats why no replies! Steph - ooh eerr, look at you. I guess I finally have to give in and post my photo?? I will try and do it over the next week PROMISE!

Right then - I'm off back to "work", I'm so tired!

Keep on keepin on my lovelies

Lola
xxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Hi Loops

You have gone back to work so early, are you sure you feel ready for it?

Am glad you are taking time out with dh, its so important, you both need to pamper each other with love.

I'm jealous about Mexico thougth, do you remember we went there a couple of years back, it was brilliant and soooooo hot

Glad you are feeling a little stonger as the days go by. It will talke a long time for you but you are a tough cookie, keep fighting.

We are all here for you babe

Love Jen

[Jen1d]

Had to stop us going over to the next page

So how is everyone, been quiet around here.

The Doc has done all our paperwork and i will pick it up tomorrow and off it will fly on Wednesday

Will chat when you are all about

Love to you all and a big hug for Loops

Jen x

[lolajones]

Hola ladies

Jen - my lord so soon! Can't believe its all kicking off! I so hope this works out for you - you deserve it!

How are the other lovers?

Well, I had superb weekend away with dh - fantastic place, so quiet. Strangely we had a really good laugh, think it is wierd sense of relief after all the trauma - does that sound daft? I mean we're both upset about what happened but almost from the first week after my bfp it was so stressful because of all the bleeding, constantly worrying if the worst could happen. And now its like well, the worst has happened, there's no more worrying about it coming around the corner, understand?
Anyway - lots more opportunity for tears and heartache tomorrow when I go for my scan. I have had no bleeding so I guess I'll be having the operation. I dread this coming week. Dread it.

OK dudes - jemla keep us posted my sweet and have a top time in B

Love, Lola
xxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Loops you are Loopy

Off IT will fly on Wednesday-------the paperwork not me.
Its my turn on the 5th June.

Glad you had fun on your weekend, completely understand about how you feel. After every bfn i feel gutted and so upset but also relief there is no more worrying and i can sit on the toilet for longer than 5 seconds

Catch you soon

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

HI Girls...

Jens... your time is quickly coming!! a couple of more weeks and you will be on your way..... whoooosshhh. How are you feeling about it? Congrats on paperwork being on its way... every small hurdle cleared is one hurdle closer!

Loops- so glad that you and DH had good time together. afterall, he is the only other person on planet who knows exactly how you are feeling and he knows you well enough to give you what you need. Don't fret about the surgery, it is physically an easy one. Emotionally it is a little tough, but I was so glad to have it over with that it was a relief. My biggest worry, even though I knew I was just being crazy, was that the baby was really ok and they were taking it out.. like there was some mix up with the scan. I needed constant reassurance from the doc that they checked, double checked, triple checked... and they did. You have been through the worst part already.. you heard the news. (atleast that is how it was for me) the surgery was just a faster way to have the physical part over with. which I needed to accept it. The only advice I give you is to do what you need to do in each moment.. one minute I needed to be at work at pretend that it never happened.. the next I was hiding in bed under the covers crying my eyes out .. but mostly I just moved on.. swept it under the rug.. water under the bridge... I think you might be like me in that way.. it does hit you as surprising moments though. Anyway.. the point of all this.. I think of you often.. anytime you need a chat...

As for me.. I started diet yesterday. I am all in. my friends and I have formed a big brother group.. we have to report anything we put in our mouths to each other.. it is no fun, but when they report they had a salad and i had a pizza... well you know competition is a great motivator! so far, so good. but it has only been one day. we are all going on vacation together at the end of summer.. i think the thought of us all sitting around together in our swimming suits has made us realize we need to start now we have each set goal weights.. mine is 20 lbs by August. wish me luck.. by the by... this is my last day as a young chicky of 29! tommorrow is the big 3-0..

Luv
me

[lolajones]

WELCOME TO YOUR THIRTIES STEPH!!!!
WOOO HOOOOOO!!!!!
So, what're you doing for your birthday?? A special somethin somethin??
Thank you for the pep talk. I went yesterday for my scan - everything intact, no sign that I was about to miscarry. So decided that I wanted an ERPC...guess when they said I could have it..... next thursday!!!!!! Can you believe it??? Anyway, I was a bit upset and confused by this - didn't happen in my day I tell thee. Long story short, they then sent me via A&E and I'll now get it done tomorrow. It was a long day and I found it a bit upsetting. The doc (harbinger of doom) was telling me that I'm going to feel awful and low over the next few weeks. Want to get this done so I can start recovering and start planning. Need a break in the sun.

Jen - I'm a bit of a dunce! Didn't realise it was the paperwork. But as Steph says, one step closer!!!

Steph good luck with your beach body plan! I need to start planning the same, I'm thin but really un-toned. may get those electro-bonkers pads you see advertised on cable that shock you toned! All I'll need then is a perma spraytan and a flouncy hairdo. Oh and a personal body waxer.....

How are the other young turks?

OK I'm off to a meeting, adios amigas!

Love, Lola
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[lolajones]

WELCOME TO YOUR THIRTIES STEPH!!!!
WOOO HOOOOOO!!!!!
So, what're you doing for your birthday?? A special somethin somethin??
Thank you for the pep talk. I went yesterday for my scan - everything intact, no sign that I was about to miscarry. So decided that I wanted an ERPC...guess when they said I could have it..... next thursday!!!!!! Can you believe it??? Anyway, I was a bit upset and confused by this - didn't happen in my day I tell thee. Long story short, they then sent me via A&E and I'll now get it done tomorrow. It was a long day and I found it a bit upsetting. The doc (harbinger of doom) was telling me that I'm going to feel awful and low over the next few weeks. Want to get this done so I can start recovering and start planning. Need a break in the sun.

Jen - I'm a bit of a dunce! Didn't realise it was the paperwork. But as Steph says, one step closer!!!

Steph good luck with your beach body plan! I need to start planning the same, I'm thin but really un-toned. may get those electro-bonkers pads you see advertised on cable that shock you toned! All I'll need then is a perma spraytan and a flouncy hairdo. Oh and a personal body waxer.....

How are the other young turks?

OK I'm off to a meeting, adios amigas!

Love, Lola
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[Jen1d]

Hi gang

Loops - So sorry for you babe, it must be so hard, i really hope everything goes ok and you are not in too much pain. My heart goes out to you, it must be so tough.
We would find out if you were thin if you sent the bl**dy photo

Steph - Diets, yuck. I need to go on the diet rollercoaster too but cant seem to get motivated. I feel the pounds roll on since all these drugs have been pumped into me and feel depressed about it Good luck

Littles - Hope your having a nice trip to Switzerland, log on soon.

Camilla - What you been up to, anything nice?

Walshy - Hope your ok lovely, we miss you.

Me - Well i picked up the paperwork from the Doc only to get home and find she hadn't included dh's results to . Called and she is off today so have left strict instructions i will call her tomorrow morning and i need to pick up paperwork by 5pm tomorrow evening as we have to send all the info away on Friday. Little white lie but if we dont say it then we will get everything in about a weeks time. We want Big B to get it all about a week before we get there.

Love to you all

Jen x