May/June Cycle Buddies

[gbnut]

Hi all

Marsha what are you going to be studying at School????? All the best and make sure you hav elots of fun ttc and hope your dreams come true very soon.

Pat that means number of days past 2 day transfer.etc so mine would be 8dp5dt. if you get my drift. hope you are doing ok on your 2ww.

Tripper what are you going to do today????

Tanya hope you are still taking it easy an dnot working too hard.

Tia sounds like you will be on your way very soon. Looks like they will get a nice amount at your EC.

Itaylor how is your ittle dog. i hope no more seizures.

Sophie i would not mind having twins as well. hope your scan went ok today.

Julie hope your scan goes well tomorrow an dyou get the word to trigger soon.

Jen 779 ir you are doing natural FET they normally like to now when you have ovulated and i had to use the kits to then tell them an dthen i went in for a scan to make sure i had ovulated. this time round was different as i did not ovulate due to being on a medicated FEt this time. But every clinic is different.

Hrobinson how are you getting on.

Daly getting worried that you have not been around hope wolfy is on the mend. thinking of you.

My fellow 2ww Jenn, mandeeq,angela,and Pat hope it is going ok with you all. Any symptoms?????

Our mums to be Tanya, Steph,Jovigal,and nimble hope you are all well. I want to ask did any of you not have sore (.)(.) before you got your BFP???

Hi to anyone else that i have not mentioned. Still got Af pains but they are not as bad today but at times still strong. I have got some discharge but not sure what it is sorry TMI. It is light brown i think i might hav ean infection???? ONly two more days to go and i will know.

Hope everyone has a good day

Susan x

[tpiper55]

Marsha – I’m pretty new so I haven’t really gotten the chance to know you yet, but I wanted to let you know that my thoughts and prayers go out to you and DH. Your trust in God and the strength of your character shines through in your post. I wish you and your hubby well during your break

Sophie – I wasn’t surprised that you wanted twins...it was more like the sheer EXCITEMENT of thinking forward to two or three months from now when we’re also posting together on the ‘pregnant with twins’ board . How flippin’ cool would that be?

Ltaylor – so sorry to hear about your beagle. I hope he’s doing better today.

Tia – WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO for ‘lots and lots of eggs’ . If they’re thinking ET for Wed or Thur then you must be doing EC within the next day or so, right?

Did anyone else find it kinda weird to take BCPs and Prenatal vitamins at the same time? ...lol. I kind of chuckled earlier at the thought of being in my 20’s and doing everything possible to NOT become pregnant, then being 39, and actually paying for help to get pregnant…ain’t life just grand?

[Jul1e]

Soph, yes I'm definitley couchier! Loved your chirping smiley! I actually did end up in front of the telly last night in my pink towelling robe! oops, no beer though, just water Hopefully no beers for 9 months. I would also like to have twins but DH thinks I'd never get my bod back, and he thinks it would be very hard work but after 3 years ttc and all we've been through in the last year I'd love two at once, we ideally want at least two kids and this way I'd never need to go through this again! One baba would be just fine too though. My sis in law who just had twins is 6' like you and carried them almost full term, they were 6 and 7 pounds! I'm only 5'5 so I guess it would be a bit harder on my bod but I'm sure I could cope.

Ltaylor, sorry to hear about your pup, hope he gets over his seizure ok. What is it with us ladies and ill doggies? My boy has a weird new sore on his lip, at first I thought it was a wee wound from the crazy play fighting he does with my mum's pup but it just ain't going away so I think we'd best go to the vet tomorrow. Hope it's nothing serious. First me, then him to get checked out tomorrow.

Tia, nearly at the ET, how many day transfer are you aiming for? I'll be right behind you I think.

Tanya, 5 weeks today! That is so exciting. When's your u/s?

Pat, not too long to go. Why is it your last time? My bro and sis got preggers with their twins on their 4th go, you just never know which one'll take. How many days was your transfer? Just collecting stats before my meeting with the embryologist tomorrow! How you finding the wait so far?

Susan, so close now, are you avoiding the HPTs? I did last time but think I might not this time, hmmm, we'll see. Hang in there.

tpiper55, I know it's so crazy isn't it, when I think of the times I rushed to get the morning after pill when a condom split or panicked about a missed pill and now look at me. I do so hate people who fall pregnant right when they want to, I think everyone should take at least a year, it should be the law!

Well I'm back on the couch! I was in bed by 11 last night, so bizarre for a Saturday night, and up for 9 today - even more bizarre for a Sunday! DH and I went into town and had a fab lunch of all the things I can't have after ET; oysters, smoked salmon, etc. It was just delicious. Then we shopped far too much and I somehow managed to buy three pairs of shoes - oops! By the end of our spree I was getting very uncomfortable so was very glad to get back to the car and undo the jeans - again! Yup, the time has come to stop wearing jeans again! Right, so I have to give up booze, caffeine, oysters and jeans - four of my favourite things! LOL. Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease let me have a baba to make it all worthwhile! I'll defo not be able to go back to the gym now either - oh there's another fave thing to add to the not allowed list!

I'm at the clinic tomorrow morning so I'll fill you all in with what happens with the embryologist and how my eggies are doing after that.

Enjoy the rest of your lazy Sunday ladies.

love Jules x

[Pat19]

Hi,

2WW - it's going ok apart from, I feel sick everytime I eat something, sore boobs now and again, heart burn and a few niggling pains down below, oh and the uncontrolled spells of flatulence , but apart from that it's all good. I'm not really keeping an eye on times or dates at the moment, but I'm sure that will change by next weekend, as I test on the 4th, but for now I'm just chilling and taking each day as it comes.

Jul1e - This is my last go because after this, I have no more money to do it again. I had EC on Monday and ET on Weds, so I'm not too show if that counts as day 2 or 3?


Speak Soon
Pat
X

[mandeeq]

Hi Ladies

Susan: I hope you feel batter soon hang there just two more day, Don’t worry to much AF pain more ladies who get BPF so having AF crams, Sweeties I wish you all the best on Tuesday.

Shopie: wow is your EC is near just one more day, I wish you lots lots eggs. I will agree the other ladies to get off on Saturday after ET.

Jen and Angale: how are you holding 2ww? Any symptoms to report I wish you all of us BPF.

Tanya, Steph, Jovigal: I hope you are all well, and enjoying been mum

As for me today is my 5days since my transfer, yesterday afternoon I was feel my breasts are very big and very sore and I wake up Dizziness and felt queasy of and on also slight heart burn after food.

Usually I feel my breasts are very big and bit tender normally I get this 10 days before my period is due but not sore, no any other symptoms

I think is early any symptoms I know that implantation could happened after 5 & 6 days

This waiting will drive me nuts!!!!!!


I hope everyone are doing well.

[mommytobe]

Hi Ladies,

It seems i am doing great on the stims, but as we know it quality not quantity. So I am praying they fertilize. The nurse did say today after b/w and u/s that wednesday will be ET. So excited.

Jules, I am going for a day 5 transfer, at my clinic they push for that. I am that they do because, most times if they survive to day 5 they have a good chance implanting

Susan, I sure hope I do get a nice amout, it looks really good my dr said today. Wednesday ER.

Tpiper55 and Sophie, TWINS, its funny the probability of me having twins is very likely. Funny I use to joke that it would be nice to get it over with since I would like to have 2 children. These days my DH, he can't stop talking about how exciting it would be. I myself, one day I would like to have and then another I second guess my abilities to give such undivided attention to two. I tell you what, as costly as this is, twins would be the jackpot I am 5'6' so maybe i will carry ok.

It soo funny all my years trying everything not to get pg, and getting worried if i missed my AF. And now doing everything to get pg. funny how life is. I am just so happy there is an option such as IVF.

Back again tomorrow for more b/w and u/s. Wedding Anniversary tomorrow as well. no bubblies this year, my last suchi dinner for a long time. Tell me can I even eat suchi? any fish


Baby Dust To All

[My2LnT]

Susan - I had cramps before my BFP. So relax and best of luck.

Sophie - Getting so close... How excited are you?My friend I wish you all the luck I have.

mandeeq - I hope ya don't go too nuts... Wishing you a BFP when you test.

Jules - That sounds like a wonderful lunch. Keep us posted on how your lil ones make out.

gbnut - I did have sore (.)(.)s off and on and even now it is not constant.
I had the AF cramps and still get them with pressure in my back. TMI warning- I had discharge to but mine was clearish/white and it was funny I told DH .. hummmm I had that when I was preggy with dd's and hummm look what happened. Best of luck to you with getting your test and BFP.

mommytobe - Hoping your transfer gets you lots of eggs amd one step closer to what you have been working so hard for.

ltaylor - So sorry to read about your Ddoggie I hope that he gets well soon.Awww he is very lucky to have a family like you now. We also adpoted our lil dog she was abused in her last home now here she is spoiled rotten.

OK update 3rd Beta is in and "lil bit" is working very hard still to get those numbers up so we can take a peek... He/She has gotten beta up to 504!!!! At this rate I will hit 1,000 Tuesday and be able to schedule our sono!!! Ohhhh ladies I am sooooo excited and like Tanya I'm sure I will be trying to get in early for sono as well LOL.

Hope you all have a great weekend.

Steph

[PMApsy]

Hello ladies!

How are you guys doing?

We went to the clinic this morning and it was the same doc as u/s #2. That guy manipulates the dildo...cam amazingly well I must say, LOL! If he was handsome, it would be ideal! Seriously, he's very gentle and that was needed; my cysts are even bigger than with my first cycle I think. Around 5 cms. So I was glad he was gentle.

But wow, my ovaries really DO look like GRAPES now, both of them. We're very happy (and I'm real proud!) because my left side reacted much more than last time. I really don't know how many they'll end up with, but it might be over twenty. We're delighted. Of course all depends on the fert rate and quality but hey, right now it's very encouraging.

So I got the big OK to trigger! I'll trigger this evening; EC is planned for Tuesday at 8:30am. I HOPE Susan will be there... she was the nurse who was with me through EC AND ET, we connected and she's absolutely an angel. I'll probably be the only one doing EC; I was the only one coming for a u/s. That's great; less waiting.

I can't tell you that I'm not a bit anxious. Coming back from the clinic, I was thinking about that needle in my ovaries... you can see it all during EC and it's not an image one particularly likes, even if it didn't hurt per se. Anyway. I'll stay calm and if it hurts, it hurts. It's a matter of minutes anyway. Waxing is worse, isn't it? And I get my bikini done once a month, so... I'll just focus on the embryologist's voice counting the eggies, and my husband's hand on my cheek... and dear Susan!

So we did the groceries and I have stuff to make dinners till next Sunday! Tomorrow I'll call those clients and reschedule them. I started a new cross-stitch project this weekend and that will keep me busy. Plus on Tuesday morning I'll make sure I have enough Tylenol to feed an army, a hot water bottle and all the Alan Rickman DVDs I can find in the house. If I'm on the merge of death after EC, at least I'll have his voice to keep me company till I meet my ominous end. And if one of you dares ignore who he is, just type the name in Google, click on the first link that tempts you... I'll try not to say "duh!!!!!" but I don't promise anything! LOL

ltaylor: I'm sorry about your dog... that must have been quite something to watch. We, too, rescued our dog from a shelter and she's the sweetest and prettiest dog ever! I hope this was an isolated event. I'm 28 years old.

mommytobe: woohoo on your follie count! Congratulations! So trigger should be tomorrow or Tuesday! Yay! You, Jul1e and I are really close; we'll be going through that 2ww together! And yes, you can eat sushi for now. Starting after ET, though, it's forbidden, unless the sushi is vegetarian. Raw fish contains some bacteria that might be harmful for the baby (not there when fish is cooked), but are totally harmless for you.

TansRN: hello sweet pea! I had a very nice and lazy weekend thank you! Have little choice; those meds really make me tired. SO GREAT to think that I'm rid of them! At least if I'm tired because of one or two little beanies, it will be natural! CONGRATULATIONS on your 5 weeks mark! wooooooohoo!

Pat: your question is not silly at all. In lists, people usually use that abbreviation to remind people how long it is after transfer, and how old the embies were when they were transferred. I wrote the abbreviation after your pregnancy test date. I didn't know the date, so I left a question mark, but I knew your emby was a day 2. So now that I know your test date, it becomes 12dp2dt (12 days post 2 days transfer). Don't worry, I had to ask, too, before I figured it out.

gbnut: be very careful; the progesterone you're taking gives you the EXACT same symptoms you'd feel if you were pregnant... or were about to begin AF. YOU CANNOT TRUST THESE SYMPTOMS. Nausea, heartburn, dizzyness, sore boobs, firmer boobs, bigger boobs, cramps, brown spotting even red spotting, I've seen it all on this forum, and it might always be caused SOLELY by the progesterone you're taking. The ONLY way you'll know for sure if you're pregnant or not is if your blood test is positive. And that's why 2ww drives us all so crazy; your body will send you ALL kinds of messages. Don't trust any of them. Trust the test. As for the possibility of an infection, it's very easy and it's actually a diagnostic criteria. If the spotting smells *real* bad, then you probably have an infection. If it just smells you at the end of a very hot day after you've run 10 flights of stairs, then it's not an infection. Simple as that!

mandeeq: I'm so sorry to disappoint you, but those are probably not early signs at all. See the comment I just wrote to gbnut. I'm not saying you're not pregnant sweetie, you're PUPO after all (pregnant until proven otherwise) but just that you should not analyse those symptoms. But if you're 5 days after transfer, then your little ones are probably implanted by now. Yaaaay!

tpiper: yeah, it would be real cool to post on a twins forum together!

Jul1e: good luck at the clinic tomorrow! And thanks for sharing all that info with me!

My2LnT: you're so sweet my friend! Yes, I'm excited! Time will go by real fast now that I'm dreading that moment a little bit. Can't wait to be back home on Tuesday! Congratulations on the nice beta! Nice and steady! Can't wait for you to have that sonogram! woohoo!

Okay, gotta update that list and write to my friend in NYC. Take care ladies! Good evening,

Sophie

[PMApsy]

Our proud moms-to-be
TansRN BFP! Congratulations! (Beta = 709 10dp5dt) First u/s on June 5th!
My2LnT BFP! Congratulations! (Beta = 98 11dp3dt) 2nd beta 221 (13dp3dt), 3rd beta 504 (15dp3dt)!
Jovigal BFP! Congratulations! (Beta = 87.9 10dp3dt)
Nimble Positive HPT; everything points to a natural pregnancy! Congratulations!

Going through the 2ww

gbnut 2 perfect thawed embies transferred on May 19th, beta May 29th (10dp5dt); three frosties still sleeping!
jenn 2 perfect embies transferred on May 22nd, beta June 1st (10dp3dt)
mandeeq 2 perfect frosties transferred on May 23rd, HTP June 7th (16dp2dt)
arizonakiwi 1 perfect embie transferred on May 25th, beta June5th (10dp3dt) Will have news about remaining embies on May 27th.
Pat19 1 perfect embie transferred on May 23rd, HPT June 4th (12dp2dt)

Embryo transfer

ltaylor, AF finally arrived! Now on estradiol; waiting for FET planned for June 15th.
Jen779, waiting for FET in a natural cycle; looking good! Transfer anywhere between June 1-4th.
PMApsy, ET on June 1st!

Egg retrieval
PMApsy EC on May 29th!
mommytobe Possible EC on May 30th or 31st!

Ovarian stimulation

PMApsy started stimming May 18th, third u/s May 27th; about 20 follies or even more; trigger on May 27th.
Jul1e started stimming May 18th, next apt. May 28th; a few follies growing on each side! Grow follies, grow!
mommytobe started stimming May 20th, lots of promising follies! Possible trigger on May 28th or 29th!

Ovarian vacation
souris.... started downregging April 28th
Literatriz.... started Lupron May 15th
hrobinson.... started Lupron on May 22nd
annag.... started Lupron May 24th, FET cycle
daly.... short IVF cycle, started Lupron on May 18th

Birth control pill
tpiper55.... Fresh cycle IVF cycle

Waiting for AF
Literatriz.... fresh cycle, donor embies, started Lupron on May 15th
Shantala.... fresh ICSI cycle AF due June 3rd

In our thoughts and prayers
CarolynB, good luck for your postponed cycle in July 2006! And good luck in Dubai!
daly, our thoughts turn to your four-legged little boy who is very sick. Sending you many hugs through this difficult time.
marsxp, we are sorry to learn the news of your BFN and we all send you love, hugs, and good luck wishes for your journey towards motherhood. Take care sweet friend.

[TansRN]

Hello gang....

I just put some steaks on and sitting here patiently waiting for them to be done because they are smelling soooo good. I hope that you guys had a good holiday weekend....

Yeah Sophie!!! You get to trigger! I know that you are sooo excited about that! Woo Hoo! I am so looking forward to how many eggies you end up with-it does sound very promising! Awesome! I am happy that you will be able to be the only one. It does make it easier doesnt it? I was as well and it was great. I like being put out for the procedure....I don't know if I am man enough to take it without. LOL Good for you girl!!!! Pay attention to embryologist and how many potential babies you will have. I hope that Susan is there for you. It makes it easier when you have a good nurse.

Steph
I ran down to ER with my other nurse friend but can you believe it!!! A patient was using the u/s machine!!!! I thought that the tech should have stopped and let me have it but they were using it on a "real" patient!!! How dare they! I was so hoping to be able to get a neak peak! We are so bad. Want to go in on a machine together? LOL
When is your u/s? Mine is June 5th....can hardly wait.

mommytobe
Happy Anniversary! I am happy that things are going well for you this cycle girl. Sounds promising. No sushi after ET is right on!!! You can have some now though.

Mandeeq
I share your pain with the wait game. I hate it totally. I really do. I can't imagine getting pg normally and then having to wait for my one u/s until 18 weeks!!!! LOL Lets hope that it is a good sign you are feeling that way.

Pat
Good idea to take each day as it comes. I need to follow that advice! LOL I am trying to sit here and enjoy but I want cameras darn it!!!

Jul
Glad that you and DH had a good day together and a wonderful lunch! That is great! I can't wait to hear your report! How exciting!!!!

tpiper
You are right about the getting pg part. I was so against it in my early years and then now I am paying for it. Unreal. I thought I'd get knocked up in the backseat of a car!!! LOLOLOLOLOLOL

Susan
Prior too yes oh yes my (.)'s were sooo painful. I was drugged for at least three days it was horrible so I am thrilled to be (.) free for a while!!!

Marsxp
Stick with it girl. it is a great job and it is very interesting. Every day at work it is different and I am always meeting new people every shift that I work. Lots of neat cases and neat patient histories. Lovin' it! You are welcome to stay girl...we are friends.

Talk later Chums....

[mommytobe]

Hi Everyone,

Steph, Thanks for the well wishes, I am excited, but nervous.

TansRN Thanks you for (happy anniversary) . On the suchi, I think I will just have some rolls not sure if we will do suchi now, but happy to know its ok.

PMApsy, I am soo happy that I will have you ladies with me in the 2 WW. Thanks for the suchi advice.(fish). So much to learn and know.

Congrats to all the BFP. Any adivce on do's and don't my up coming 2WW.

It looks like Wednesday is the BIG DAY for ER. To think I could be pregnant in a few days

Tia

[hrobinson]

wow!!! when you guys post, you really post. I used to visit the site every day at work...well several times a day. However, now that work is over, I will have to make a point to get on while here at home.
We had a wonderful weekend. It was overcast all weekend, even rained a little. I love rain, as long as thunder and lightning are not present.
Well, the shots the past two days have gone really good. I have been working really hard on just relaxing. Still doing it in the thigh. Figured if I was still having problems after this weekend, I would call the clinic. Everything is going well though. Six days of shots down...several more to go. Wish I could remember exactly how long I do everything for. Will have m first u/s on Friday. Seems like forever until that happens.

Mommytobe- How long have you been married for? It is so fun to go out and celebrate. Wednesday will be here before you know it. Then you will be PUPO!!! Enjoy every moment and get pampered a bunch

Marsha- Do not get down. Things will work out for you What a wonderful thing to be finishing school now. and nursing....wow...that is such an exciting career. It takes such a special perosn to be able to do that. Just imagine all the people's lives you will be touching.

TansRN- 5 weeks already. Wow, things move so quickly. It seems like just yesterday that you were starting this whole cycling thing.

Tpiper- Your husbands comment was so funny. Sounds like something my husband would say.
Plese feel free to rant all you want. With our hormones being all wacked out as they are, I feel like I rant more often than usual. It is just wonderful that we can come here and rant. Our dh's get the brunt of it, they can always use a little rant break.

ltaylor- How is your dog. It is amazing how our pets are our BABIES. We have two dogs. One we got when she was 6 weeks old, and the other found us. As we were moving out of our first house, we saw her hiding in a field. You could tell she had been on the run for quite a while. We could also tell that she had been abused. she is the sweetest dog in the world. DD just loves her.

gbnut- Twins???? I too would love to have twins. I am sure it would be difficult to handle at first, but it is amazing how quickly we learn to adapt. At least if we get twins, it's a one shot
deal. Two for the price of one sounds so good.

Pat- I know what you mean about not having the money to do this again. However, I feel money will always be an issue. When we did this the first time, I said no matter what this is a one time thing. Fortunately for us, it worked I still said it was a one time thing. However, I have decided that dd needs a sibling. So, even though we are poor as can be (or at least we always feel that way) we are once again doing this. Guess the baby just gets put on lay away

Sophie- Just want to say again how lovely the list looks. You do such a good job of keeping up with everyones information. You are awesome.

Okay, I know I missed several. Congrats to all our pregnant mommies to be. Enjoy every moment of it. There is nothing like the feeling of being pregnant.
I am off to bed. Will try to check back in with everyone tomorrow.

[arizonakiwi]

Marsha - I am so sorry about your result yesterday. Planning something for yourselves and giving yourself a break will do wonders to recharge your batteries and you know your little babies are tucked away safely until you are ready. All the best with school and the other adventures you and your DH plan over the next couple of years.

Toni – How frustrating trying to get your bloods. I have found that the clinics often think you know the drill and it is all straight forward and a change in plan isn’t a big deal. They seem to forget this is such a huge thing for us and we are pinning all our hopes on each step of the treatment. I did the same thing in my 20’s being so careful not to get PG and now in my 30’s after meeting Mr Right we are doing everything we can to get PG

Pat – I’m glad the cold has gone and I hope your energy levels are on their way up. It’s interesting I’ve noticed a lot of people seem to get colds towards the end of their treatment. All those symptoms sound really positive – I’m 2 days behind you, I hope I start to feel that way also !!!!

Steph – Those numbers are doing well – not long before you will be able to see your little one’s heart beat – how exciting!!!

Susan – keeping my fingers crossed for your test tomorrow

Mandeeq – no signs yet and unfortunately I’m not feeling to optimistic at present – I am trying to decide if I should hold out for the blood test of cheat a little and do a HPT next Sunday or Monday….

Jen779 – Enjoy your vacation!!!

Sophie – ahhh the relaxing Saturday or Sunday mornings… aren’t they wonderful. I thought I would be kind to my DH before ET knowing it would be a couple of weeks but afterwards I was in sooooo much pain….never again and now my DH is to scared to come near me ever again…..
Congratulations of your trigger I am so excited for you.!!!!!!! You have made it and it sounds like you have a wonderful supply of eggs waiting to be collected. I am so proud of how well you have done.
You sound supper organised and have a wonderful positive contagious attitude. Enjoy your last day before your babies are made!!!
PS: I got a little buzz of excitement on Saturday when I saw I finally had made it to the 2ww list - Thanks

Hrobinson – glad the shots are hurting a little less. During my first cycle I kept a spreadsheet with all my shots / what days / ultrasounds / test results etc. I found it really useful the second time being able to look back on it and see how I was feeing/reacting the 2nd time round

Tia – Not long to go and your babies are back home – yippie!!

Tanya – How is our lovely pregnant lady going!!!! Are you telling people or keeping it quite for a while? Can you concentrate at work?

Mommytobe – you are almost there – well done. Wednesday will be here before you know it. Happy wedding anniversary for tomorrow – are you doing something special to celebrate?

Julie - I know what you mean about clothes not fitting and feeling uncomfortable – at present I have a pair of track pants, 1 pair of trousers and skirt that fit comfortably – I don’t want to buy anything bigger until I know one way or the other.

Ltaylot – I am sorry about your dog and I hope he is doing ok today. Glad to see your DH is looking after you and making you some yummy burgers (they taste so good off the grill)

[arizonakiwi]

I have been feeling really down today and I just need to let off a little steam……

I spoke too soon on Saturday about my cough passing, unfortunately it is hanging around with aggression, I have a constant nagging cough that I cant seem to shake I’ve been drinking lemon honey drinks by the ½ dozen trying to soothe my through and stop the coughing but with no success. (Every time I cough I worry I am destroying any chance of our little one snuggling).

After our 3 day transfer our clinic wanted to let our remaining 4 babies grow to day 5 before freezing. I was looking forward to hearing how they were going as it would give me some reassurance about the one they put back on Friday. They called this morning to let me know none of them survived. I was shocked. I thought we may lose 1 or maybe 2 but I didn’t expect to be left with none. In my mind that pretty much tells me the chances of the one they put back on Friday will have a struggle to make it also. I know nothing is certain until the blood test but my hopes are fading fast – I am torn between the keep a PMA and believing we have a little fighter who was destined to survive when the others weren’t and being realistic so it doesn’t hurt to much next week.

Take care all, I hope to get a good nights sleep and wake up tomorrow morning with some more hope and an improved PMA – just writing to all of you has helped me feel a little more positive.

Angela

[PMApsy]

GOod morning ladies!

How are you guys doing? Well, 24h from now, hopefully, the procedure will be done and I'll be in the recovery room. Gah! I'm doing well. My big misbehaver ate half a cinnamon-rasins bread while I drove my DH to work this morning, but other than that, no drama!

Trigger shot went well and, as I told my DH, I hope this is the LAST TIME IN MY WHOLE LIFE that I take those meds! It will be AMAZING to stay off them for the rest of the year (we'll only have enough money for FET attempts until 2008 kicks in if this one is a BFN).

TansRN: wow, if I weren't excited already, your energy would sure make me! I'm really looking forward to knowing how many eggies they get... and how many ferts! With that many eggies (and last time's results) we can be sure they'll have at least 2 embies to transfer and for now, I should just think about that and not hope for any given number of embies good for freezing. Let's focus on the present. Don't worry, I'll focus on the embryologist's voice for sure! I don't know if she can tell right away if the eggs are mature or not. But I'll try to gather as much info as I can and I'll report it first thing when I come back home. And yes, a good nurse makes a huge difference (and I'm sure you make a world of difference in your patients' lives! ) Hope the steaks were good! I didn't have dinner yesterday. The meds really make me strange... sometimes I'm starving and I have to eat because I feel nauseous... and sometimes food just makes me... yuck! If I wasn't cycling, I'd almost believe that I'm preggo! lol!

hrobinson: WOW! thank you so much for the compliment! I'm glad that you like the list! *hugs* I'm so glad that the shots are going better sweetie! You have a u/s on Friday? Aren't you downregging? What will they scan you for exactly?

arizonakiwi: hehehehe poor DH, I hope he still scoops you every night! Thank you for your nice post sweetie, your words really help me stay motivated and cheerful! Enjoying my last day before my babies are made... wow... that's quite a way to put things! WOW! Now, about your second post... I COMPLETELY understand you for not wanting to get your hopes too high but still wanting to keept he PMA. It's such a fine balance and the "right middle" keeps changing and changing through a cycle. It's hard to know what to think and what's the right attitude at some point. The fact your embies did not make it to blast in the Petri dish proves nothing. MANY things influences whether or not embies make it to that stage. You might have to blame the lab technicians at your clinic for that; maybe their skills were not good enough. You might also have to blame the fact that the best place for embies to develop just is NOT a petri dish, but the womb. No technical skill will EVER replace that natural environment. After what you've told me about their twins policy (basically, they want to save money and don't put the embies' chances first), I think they did that just so they would not (in their mind) freeze embies "unnecessarily". Unless the embies are really not viable, it should be the parents' choice, not the clinic's. All this to say, ALL EMBIES ARE DIFFERENT. You just cannot compare those four to the one that's inside because it met a different fate. Think about all those stories we heard, on this forum only. Some clinics accepting to transfer embies that were barely alive, low in grade... think about that dear Ange, who miscarried on the Dec/Jan thread and had the time to cycle again right on the same thread... was desperate about her embies being quite iffy at ET... and got pregnant with twins! Think about that dear dynamo Becleo, who had a severe bronchitis all the way through her 2ww, coughed like hell, had a fever and everything... she's due at the end of the summer! Don't despair, my sweet friend, you're still a PUPO. Coughing won't make you lose your embie or "unhook" it, just as being constipated from the Progesterone won't do it either. Just take care of yourself (have you tried a thyme infusion?), and let the different parts of your body do their work. They're all working hard to make your BFP happen, believe me. *HUGS* Hang in there sweetie... I'm thinking of you.

gbnut: my thoughts will turn to you for your test tomorrow! GO GIRL! GET THAT BFP! I'm keeping everything crossed and I can't wait to hear the news!

Okay girls, have a great day! I'll update the list in a few seconds.

Sophie