Anythng and Everything going Friggin Wrong

[sleepyfoy]

I don't know where to start... Level of frustration is beyond the spectrum of description.. We are starting our 2nd IVF- I love my Dr. I love my clinic.. I love the fact my husband works for a company that makes fertility drugs....I hate the fact I am 41- I hate the fact that everywhere I seem to look I read something about autisim and age of parents. I hate that it seems everywhere I look I see a child with special needs. I hate the fact that I don't know if I would be able to handle that.

I hate the fact that even though my husband works for a company that makes the drugs- it was like an act of congress to get them.. We almost didn't in fact.. In fact the shipment arrived today and we were suppose to start the shots tonight and guess what they didn't include... The frigging follistim injectible pen. What the &*(&*(&^ ?????? Luckily we saved an old one from 2 years ago but the dosage was not the same as it is now becuase I am 41 years old..... The on call dr. didn't even know if it would work but guess what... WE HAD NO CHOICE.... My husband called the lovely mail order pharmacy which says it specializes in infertility (MY ASS THEY DO) and asked them why would they not include the pen.. Their answer was.... The Dr. didn't Rx it... IT COMES IN A KIT PEOPLE..... my husband replied.. I know she didn't Rx the alcohol wipes or the sharps container for the NEEDLES YOU DIDN"T SEND. They didn't have a solid answer for that.

Tomorrow we are going to the clinic and they will give us a new pen with the correct doasage. I can't tell you how upset, sick and whatever other adjective you could use to proclaim pissed offness we are. I just feel like from the get go it isn't going to work. I know you need PMA but wow.. Not that it will help anything. my husband will voice his displeasure over the pharmacy that their company choose to use to send their product out to other infertile couples. Maybe something good will come out of this. Anyway... maybe tomorrow will be better.

thanks for letting me vent.
Jodi

[wishing&hoping]

Jodi,

This is my first Ivf and I know the feeling. I too had to have mail order percriptions. the last time they didn't give me the insulin size needle for lupron and everytime i asked my clinic it was pulling teeth to get needles. finally i got the but what a stress it was. I am waiting for my preg blood test aon tuesday. yesterday i started to spot brown. i am a nervous wreck. can you get your period while on prometrium caps? everyone one says its implantaion bleeding but that would of occured on tuesday? three days later I don't know . the hardest part is waiting ..........

[sleepyfoy]

I am sure that you can get implantation bleeding and that is probably what you have. Waiting is the hardest thing ever. On our first IVF 2 years ago, I was unsuccessful in getting the embies (4) to implant. Luckily we had four frosties and I have the extreme blessing to have Jack in our lives right now. He is 13 months old. So even if your first IVF doesn't work, have faith that something will and it will happen when it is right. It is very frustrating when specific things need to happen and they don't and people wonder why you "over react" to them... Just put a little more stress on already a horrific stressful situation please.... Try to do some relaxing things this weekend if you can. A funny movie, a nice walk, a nice dinner out- relax if you can....Have good thoughts and Tuesday will be here before you know it and you will be ready for it!!!

take care,
jodi

[wishing&hoping]

Jodi,
Thanks. It helps talking to other people, especially when we are essentially in the same boat. i seem to have a little redder/brown and then it goes back to brown. I am up set but know that i am lucky to have good eggs still and reacted ok to meds. I called the Dr and they said it could be my menstrual cycle starting. so... I am going on monday for the blood test and she wanted me to continue w/ the progesterone caps. Your son was conceived thru a frostie? Thats good news. I had 10 eggs that made it to blastocyst stage but i implanted two and they only froze 2 . my clinic says it will only freeze top quality grade 5 so I am sad that all those embryos are gone. All of my embryos on day three were 9 cells and more. I guess this is what happens when you wait out for the 5 day transfer? Thanks for making me feel better today it was beautiful out and I truly tried to enjoy my day

Kimberly