Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Jen1d]

Oops Steph, forgot to say happy birthday

Hope you had a good day and you dont feel too depressed.

Let us know what you got up to

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

To quiet round here

Well i finally organised everything even though there was a last minute problem. Doc forgot to type up info about dh blood group but emailed Big B and they said his blood donor card is enough for id.
Posted all the paperwork this morning and they will confirm when they get it, now roll on the 5th when we follow.

Am in a dash, finally on my 5 days off and taking my ex-keychild to sort out his tat then getting haircut before big night out tomorrow for my bosses leaving party------will be a wild one

Love to you all, Loops a special hug for you

Jen x

[lolajones]

Buenos dias chicas

How are my lovely ladies today?
Steph - probably still hungover after 30 celebrations??? Give us the dirt!
Jen - glad you've got the paperwork sorted - not long until Big BBBBB! Hope you've pencilled in some down time over there - is a beautiful city. Now remember, on your big night out.....slow and steady youngster!
How're the other errant octos??

Well I had the ERPC done yesterday. As usual had to hang around for 6 hours before they actually did it. Thought I'd be a bit emotional but I was distracted by the practicality of it. I'm so glad its over, my head is full of plans for the future, feel like my life is coming back. My throat is really sore, seems they had trouble with the airway as I have pharyngeal bruising. Ah well, that'll get better quickly.

Steph I have a question - do you get Ring Dings and Yankee Doodles where you are? I love them. Also, is it expensive to rent houses on your coast? I am seriously thinking of taking a few months out to live either in the states or mexico, do some courses, learn something new. Have dreams of little clapboard pastel houses on the coast with swing chairs on the veranda.... keep dreaming!

OK my friends, I'm off to cook up some schemes, I'm off work today, hoorah!
Take it easy queaseys

Love, Lola
xxxxxx

[Inhale, Exhale]

Chicky-Doos...
well, I am officially OLD. But, I have to tell you that you will be more excited about my b-day gift than anyone..... drum roll please..... a laptop! Yep, that's right, now even when i am out of the office for days I will have laptop to tote around with me. Hubby even got me Wireless.... what a man, what a man, what a man, what a mighty good man..... say it again. Now I just have to take the time to call and get the net hooked into my house. B-day was nice, even though I had to work. My mom made a delish dinner of grilled shrimp kabobs.. yummy and still diet friendly. The big test to the diet will be this weekend.. Memorial Day picnics and street fairs.. lots of yumminess to avoid.

Lo-la-la-la, In answer to your questions.. I believe we have ring dings, never heard of yankee doodles. describe it and maybe we have something like it? As far as expensive... from what I am hearing from my friend that now lives where you are... it is alot cheaper here. hmmm.. planning to disappear for a few months? will you have blue wig and a hunky partner named Vaughn? Demetrio will be so jealous.

I am so glad they moved up your procedure! I cannot believe they were going to make you wait another week. not cool. How are you feeling??? You sound very let go, let flow.. groovy. I hope you are doing whatever you need to do. pamper yourself... bubble bath anyone? although I don't know why I say that because I am not even a fan of a bubble bath. I get bored in about two minutes then I feel guilty because I wasted all that water for a two minute bath. Hot tubs on the other hand.. I am totally in for that, especially in the dead of winter and margarita in hand. Oh that will be another challenge this weekend.. cut back on the good time drinks. maybe I just won't eat anything and drink my calories instead?

Jens- nice to know you are still keeping everyone in line. you are the queen of do things right or don't do them at all... I totally dig that. A night out yeh.. what fun! I haven't had one of those in soooo long. can I come? Will you be keeping in touch with us on your trip to the Big B? how long will the wait be.. 2 weeks?

Littles and Walsher.. hi sweets.

luv to the Sistas,
steph

[camilla]

Hello

Lola - I am so sorry. I haven't been on for a couple of weeks so wasn't here when it happened. I really thought that was you sorted. It's so unfair darling. Thinking of you.

Jen - Will be keeping my eye on you and promise to keep myself updated!

Nice to hear from Little R and Walshy.

Steph - I know I haven't given any details of my comings and goings but will try harder. Next time!!

Lots of love as always

Camilla xxxxx

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Glad your all back, thought you had abandoned me

Loops - Glad everything went well with you yesterday and it wasnt as bad as you though, sad you had to go through all this though. Stay strong bud, its painful but we will get there. At least you know you can get pregnant and it WILL happen again, i haven't had that yet. I worry its something inside me and it will never work but the Docs assure me its just my tubes------WHY WONT IT BL**DY WORK THEN
What the hell is ring dings and yankee doodles?????????????

Steph - OLD huh, wait until you get nearer to 40. You are catching up with me and Loops Sound like you had fun, well dont for sticking to the diet, hard when its a birthday.
Dont have a laptop, not as rich as you will have to keep you in suspence then email when i get back on the 8th. Once we have the initial app on the 6th then they say we will be matched withing 1-2 weks, so fast eh?

Littles - Enjoy your trip to Switzerland, be good

Camilla & Walshy - Big hi to you both.

Have a good weekend, see you tomorrow during my hangover

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Its too quiet around here again.

Just wanted to tell you our paperwork has arrived in Big B. Also af feels like its on the way, which is good as i am a bit concerned it would appear during our visit. Hopefully it will be here in the next few days and all over by the 5th???

Love to you all, come back soon

Jen x

[lolajones]

Hey ladies

Jen - woo hoo! paperwork all sorted, af behaving and Big B on the horizon! Not long until mini-Jemla is with us!! Ring Dings are cream centred choc muffins dipped in chocolate..... mmmmmmm

Steph - old indeed! Hello!! I am fast approaching 38!!! Sheesh. Yankee Doodles are ring dings without the chocolate.... How's the dieting going?? And have you set up the lap top?

Hola to the other errant octos

Well, I was supposed to go back to work on Tuesday but didn't. Feel like crap. Riding hormone wave of doom, lurching from abject depression to manic euphoria. Not good. So, as well as all the bruising to mouth after anaesthetic, they also dislodged a filling so had toothache all weekend and can't chew on one side of mouth. Think they possibly dropped me while i was under as have back pain and sciatica. And of course, my sinusitis is back, hoorah old friend how I have missed your dull frontal throb of friendship! I am good for nothing. I am furious at the world! How come I am here, 2 years on, 4 operations later, 4 cycles later, 2 babies that died later, with nothing? How come it so ridiculously easy for EVERYONE ELSE? I don't know if I can dredge up enough hope to do another cycle. Or even another pregnancy. From the first week of my pregnancy until the baby died, every day was a stressful, panic-filled, billion scans, trips to A&E, trudge, a battle of will really, praying everything would work out ok, knowing that something was bound to go wrong. I don't want to spend the rest of my life like that. AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!

Well there we have it - the state of the nation at lunchtime on a thursday.

Sorry for this but its just so hard and painful right now.

Love, Lola
xxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Oh poor Loops

You sound crap. I feel the same at the moment, it just never seems to be positive for any of us and we desperately need and deserve good news.
Your time will come, maybe you just need some you time and need space and a few months before trying again.
Hugs to you babe

Me - Well i am a bit negative also just now. Am looking forward to Tuesday for the break with dh and am keen to get everything moving again but after 4 failed cycles i keep thinking this is bound to be a bfn to. Will just have to plod on then wait and see----------more waiting

Am finished work to a whole ----12 days, a bliss. Great to get away from the new screaming child, i can hear her in my sleep

Love to you all

Will catch up tomorrow

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

Sorry girls I am running sooooo late....
but I will be back tommorrow morning to kick both your butts out of this lowdown to beatdown that you are in!!

IT IS ALL WORTH IT! Remember how close I was to giving up and I will tell you that it IS ALL WORTH IT... and it WILLL HAPPENNNN FOR BOTHHHH OF YOUUUUUUU!

luvs schmuffins
steph

[Jen1d]

AF has finally arrived today, am praying she wil be gone by Tuesday as i have to have a mock ET on Wed and dont want her around then

Still feeling crap, have a terrible headache and still have the cold, its been here for nearly 3 weeks

Just read i cant even take my lipsalve on the flight, whats the world coming to

Away to lie down and try to get rid of this headache before Big Brother comes on. Will catch up tomorrow

Love Jen x

[Walshy]

Hi Ladies,

Yes again I have been missing in action for quite some time but I have a good reason this time. I have been in hospital with pneumonia! Don't ask me how i got it as I have no idea but I was in there for 5 days and still have the next week off work to hopefully get over it only got out yesterday.

So what have I missed?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH
I hope it was a great day for you turing the big 30. I turn it at the end of the year but not thinking of it yet. Anything I need to know befroehand about the 30's? How is little Faith going. Send some more photos soon.

Jen wish you all the luck for your holiday. Why are they doing a mock ET? I can't beleive how quick it works for you in 2 week with a match. Before you know it it will be time to have them put back in. Can you decide to put back 1 or 2 or do they only do 1? I am hoping that you and Lola don't have to enjure much more of this crap before you are both mums. In answer to your questions me and DH are not adopting as in OZ it is really hard to adopt and your not guaranteed a child at the end of it. You also can't be doing any fertility tratement while on the adoption register and you never know we may try IVF again one day. WE also only have about 25 children up for adoption each year in the country so it would be an overseas adoption and even that is not guranteed and it is still the same putting everything on hold waiting for a child and that is why we have stopped doing IVF to live our lives.

Lola my dear how are you feeling? I read your posts and feel the heart ache and wish I could take that away from you. LIfe is not fair at all to continue to kick us when we are down. Do you have any frosties left? I do remember you saying that you would be sending us a photo soon where is it?

As for me because of my lovely pnuemonia and my persistent healthy eating and gym partaking 5 times a week i have managed to lose 6.5kgs or 14.3 pounds. I am very stoked with that. I told my DH that if I can lose 20 kgs then I will consider going to do another round of IVF but until then I am not even going to think about it. It is kind of ironic getting pneumonia this year as this was my year to not take any drugs and get really healthy and I am on so much drugs now to get rid of the pnuemonia that i feel all weird again.

OK ladies better get back to the lounge before my DH gets home and yells at me for not resting as Drs orders.

Take care will post later, from Walshy

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Walshy - Brilliant to hear from you, did you get my emails?
Sorry your feeling under the weather but hopefully on the road to full recovery. Its great you are thinking about another cycle. I know its hard but we have to put 100% into this ivf lark while we are still young enough. There is still plenty of time for you and dh to have a baby. Hang in there babe and well done for losing so much weight, can you shift a few stone for me while your there
My mock ET is done so they know what size of catheter to use. They do this so everything is as smooth as possible on the actual ET day.

Loops - Hope your feeling a bit stronger honey

Hi to everyone else.

Well only 1 day to go. Dont know how i feel, just looking forward to the holiday. I suppose i see this as another chance-----our last chance. I am only concerned about being able to book flights and the hotel within a couple of days at ET time as they only give about 2-3 days notice.
Anyway the only thing to worry about at the moment is if my flip flops coordinate with my new skirt us females have a hard life eh

Will catch up with you all tomorrow

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hi Bunnies!

Jens- I hope I have caught you before you leave us to go get knocked up I will be thinking of you sooooo often. I can't believe we have to wait until you get back to get all the updates. When do you think you will be back? There is no luck message strong enough.... but, LUCK baby LUCK! let DH pamper you. should we send Demetrio too?
will be anxiously awaiting your return! Luvs and Hugs!!!!!! and blowin kisses.... whisshhhhhh.

Walshy- hooray, i luv it when you give us a little Walshy teaser.. as if to say.. here I am, love me, miss me.... which we do of course! As for turning 30... nothin to it. Besides, the only alternative is to NOT turn 30... and we would miss you, so you gotta do it. the best tip I have is to dye your hair, that way you will never know if you have grays. Congrats on the weight loss. I have been on a diet for 2 weeks and have lost 3lbs. I am a slowwww loser. I finally broke down and got a jogging stroller. I want to exercise, but refuse to spend the precious little time I have with Faith away from her.. so a jogging stroller was the only answer. Besides, she luvs, luvs, luvs to be outside. It is quite a workout to jog with a stroller. have you ever tried to jog and not swing your arms!?!

Loops- wheres ya at schmuffin? I know that you were feeling very hopeless and like all of this was never going to end.. unfortunately, the only thing you can do is keep pluggin. It stinks and is unfair and cruel. BUT, you want to be a mommy. and you will be a mommy. take time to get through the loss first. then decide where to go, what direction you'll take to be a mom. but, always remember that you will be a mom at the end of all of this. it is taking a long and hard path. but it is worth it... SO, SO worth it. you are strong, you CAN do this. no doubts.

as for me.. am in full out summer mode now. work is crazy, weekends are packed with cookouts and gatherings.. oh well, I can clean my house when I am old and retired and all my friends are dead right?

wink,wink
steph

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Well here we go, finally. We are all packed and everything is in order.

We have been feeling fine and looking forward to a nice rest then BANG----one of my London friends tried to call a couple of days ago but i was in work, she said she had news and would call back another day. I texted her today and guessed she was either getting married or pregnant. Yep, you guessed right----pregnant. She offered to call tonight but i asked her not to and told her it is to difficult for us to deal with news like this just now, then i spent the next hour blubbering about how unfair this world is and 'why me'----then i felt a selfish cow. Told her i am happy for her but tearful for me and dh. Will have to find the strength to call her next week.
She is nearly 39yrs and only been with her partner for a short time. They were due to get married first but she got pregnant quite quickly so have posponed it------------

I feel a bit down today now and just want us to have a baby so i can stop feeling like this all my life

Oh well as Rhett said---tomorrow is another day.

Thanks for your good wishes Steph, will be back on the 8th at about 6pm and will update you as soon as possible.

Love to you all

Jen x