Morning All,
I'm feeling more and more better as the days go on. And the best thing I got hubby to open up and talk to me last night, it was not easy believe me. I had to get very angry with him and actually make him sit and talk to me, I know he's been avoiding it, because he doesn't like to cry, but I was not willing to let him walk around the house in a mood, ignoring me any longer, so I put my foot down.
It was good we chatted for over 7 hours, it was a real good old heart to heart, and he so needed it, we both did. He's feeling so much better this morning, he's actually smiling again.
We also spoke about splitting up and going our separate ways, you see to be honest I know deep down hubby blames me for all of this and he feels he wasn't given a choice, as when we first met he wanted kids and I didn't, and also before we got married he went and took a sperm test to make sure he was ok, and it wasn't til 2/3 years down the line after been married, I was told I had a problem, when I was going to the doc's in the beginning he was just kicking back out of the surgery, saying it takes some women a long time to get the pill out of their system, so come back in a year, so I had no control. But now times gone on and hubby's sperm count is getting lower and lower, he's now panicking that if he stay's with me he's never gonna have a kid, but if he goes elsewhere he may still have a chance before it's too late altogether, yes hearing this hurts, but I totally understand where he's coming from and respect the honesty.
He says he loves me and he really doesn't wanna split us up, but he also doesn't wanna waste time and he definitely don't wanna go through treatment again, because it's just too painfully.
I told him we should plan a dirty weekend somewhere and he got very excited. (MEN). lol.....................!!!
Pat
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