May/June Cycle Buddies

[TansRN]

Hello gang

Sophie
What if what you were seeing was implantation spotting? It does happen girl. I can totally understand you wanting to do a FRER though. I would as well. You are much stronger than I for waiting this long. We are here to support you either way-we are thinking positive thoughts of course and can't wait to hear about your double line situation!!!! heres to hoping you will have good news to share with DH very SOON!!!!! I am doing well. Not a whole lot to report at this point. I go to the RE tomorrow for an u/s and discharge from his practice. Yippie! onward and upward right???

Jenn
Cant wait to hear the results of your u/s tomorrow I will be thinking about you as I am waiting for mine! lOL Looking forward to hearing about your twins!!!!!!

Steph
I will be thinking about you as well tomorrow as you go in for your u/s!!! I can't wait to hear about the h/b!!! i know what you mean about the worry level. I really just try to keep it at bay so that I can be "healthier" ya know? it is so hard but I just keep plugging away and trying....

Angela
Glad to see you here. I hope that things are going well for you and that you get the router fixed soon. I would be going nuts!!!!

Susan
That sounds like a great idea to wait and then be sure you are waiting long enough rather than to worry! I can't wait to hear your report from the u/s!!!!

Jen
I am so sorry that you are feeling so badly. I hope that that bug goes away soon so you can be on the mend. Take care


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[Literatriz]

Hi all,
Still one report to write...but I didn't want to leave it to tomorrow: the folicles are growing and the donor is positive! My doctor emailed me. I need to start with the intravaginal capsules on Fri 15 (how am I supposed to do that travelling the whole day in an airplane, I don't know - should I use pads?). Anyways, DH is very hopeful; we have a date: egg retrieved and fertilized Monday 18th @ 10:00 Brazilian time! Fortunately my dad has a computer and a reliable dial up connection so I can continue sharing with you all.

I can't write the personals tonight but my heart is with PMApsy...Dear Sophie, you are a mental health professional, trained to hold somebody else's feelings until they can process them... but now it is your turn to feel opressed by your own emotions. I will be thinking of you tomorrow morning, as you play with probabilities.

Dear Arizonakiwy - hugs and a prayer for you.

Good night, all!
Literatriz

[PMApsy]

Well, that's it folks. It's a BFN for me again.

The spotting is intensifying and darkening, and with a negative HTP this morning (it's 93% accurate at this point), it would be foolish to keep hoping. I expect that AF will show up either today or tomorrow. I'm happy I did the HTP this time, because with the spotting, it gives me a clear answer and it comes as a relief instead of another bump in the roller coaster. And dearest Tanya, it's not implantation bleeding hunny. I'm 11dp3dt... implantation occurs within 3-5 days after a 3 days transfer.

I'm okay, don't worry guys. I think yesterday was when it all came out; this morning was just the confirmation, not the shock. I didn't cry this morning, just shed a few tears in bed while my DH was still sleeping. When he put his hand on my back to cuddle as we do each morning, I smiled because I realized how blessed I am by other aspects of my life. I'm still going to have as great a day as I can, and same thing for tomorrow, and so on. Life goes on. He, of course, is not affected much. He never invests emotionally in the embryos; to him, they only become real after a BFP and after the first u/s that confirms the pregnancy.

I just wish I could stop taking progesterone. I wouldn't dare to do it before doing the final test, the blood test. But it's cruel at this point, because my fingers come out covered with blood and it reminds me of that BFN constantly and it's a pang of pain each time. But it's only for today and tomorrow anyway. I can handle that.

I'm looking forward to exercising again and get rid of that nasty bloating and maybe a couple of pounds that progesterone made me put on. I'll question my doctor about progesterone, though. I find it curious to have AF even before I stop the pessaries; progesterone is supposed to stop AF, so maybe the dosage or delivery is not appropriate for me.

So, keeping my eyes on the prize! FET in August! That will be a much different adventure... I'll stick around guys, don't worry. After all, I'm in charge of the list and I was not alone in the 2ww! But it looks like you guys will have to try for a perfect 3/3 instead of 4/4.

Take care ladies, and have a great day,

Sophie xxox

[Jul1e]

Sophie, I'm absolutely gutted for you darling. I do think there could still be a chance as, like you, I'm suprised you're having AF this early as you're on the progesterone. I'm also confused about the implantation bleeding thing, I had heard that implantation bleeding was near to the time of when you're due your period which is why many women don't know they're pregnant until they miss period number two cos they thought the implantion bleeding was their period.

If this is it for you though please take care. Your body was extremely overstimmulated which may have made it harder to sustain a pregnancy this time however you have lots of lovely frosties which will get put in without your bod being so messed around.

Take care sweetie, let us know how the next few days go.

love Julie x

[jen779]

My dear Sohie...my heart is truly breaking for you. I am sitting here typing through tears. I have to agree with Julie and Tanya, implantation bleeding DOES occur around the time of your period. There are so many women who test negative on a HPT and still end up pregnant. I know that you are trying to move on and look to the future and I commend you for that. You are such a strong individual! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, hoping that the HPT was wrong. We love you, Sophie!

[PMApsy]

Jen: Hello sweetie! Oh, please don't cry, everything is okay! *hugs* Thank you for your kind words, they warmed my heart big time!!!

Jul1e: thank you for caring darling, it really touches me what you said. Unfortunately, the fact AF arrives early is not reassuring at all. It did the same last time, and I had a BFN. You're right that OHSS might have impaired my chances, but so many things are said all over the place about that. Some people say that FET gives you better chances because you have less meds in your body at the time, and yet my clinic reports less success with FET despite the fact they perform assisted hatching for free on each frozen embie transferred. So basically... there's no way to know what really gives an individual more chances or less, it's the end result that matters.

And well, about that implantation bleeding... I know it's a big craze on IVF boards, but you guys have to remember that all doctors agree it's usually the exception, not the rule. I have checked and it's not supposed to happen when AF is due, but before. It's described as "not a flowing type of blood" and my spotting is increasing. I just found a clot on my panty liner. My lining is falling apart... game over.

I know you're trying to help, beautiful ladies, but I don't want to keep shifting between hope and despair. Hanging to the idea that the HPT was wrong or the spotting means nothing will only make my suffering last longer and make the shock bigger on Thursday morning. I'll take the progesterone till then and wait until after the official BFN to train again, but for now, I prefer to assume that this cycle is over for me. It's not the end of the world. I still stopped and smelled the flowers on my way to work and, even if I'm more fragile today, I'll be stronger tomorrow, and so on.

With all my heart, I wish to move you upstairs on the list very soon! I'm thinking of you lovelies!

Sophie xxox

[mommytobe]

Hi Sophie,


Sweetie my heart goes out to you. You are so much stronger than I am. The other ladies are right sometimes those HPT are not correct. I would wait for the blood test results. This is not false hope, just making sure. I am sending you hugs. Are you saying that you have a flow. There is another lady that I know who spotting, the night before blood test results, she also had constant bleeding and spotting right up to the second trimester (where she is now) She had a BFP and as a matter a fact she had no sympthoms whatsoever. Again, I am not trying to give you false hope, this is just the way it is sometimes.

All my love and hugs
Tia

[mommytobe]

Hey Ladies,


I am feeling really nervous that it did not work this time, a few days ago my (.)(.) felt really full, and tender and today it feels normal. I know in the past a week or so before AF flow it would be full and tender and as soon as the day gets closer that feeling would be gone. That's how I am feeling now. I guess there is nothing I can do, it will be what it is. I am feeling so sad, and confused. I really hate this feeling, and to top it off my butt hurts from that damn progestrone. I am so tempted to take an HPT. I am going nuts.

Today, not a good day.


Tia

[PMApsy]

Sweet Tia,

Two things. Thank you so much for your warm words; they really touched me! Thanks for sending your love, because love and tenderness is what I need today. Thank you also for trying to boost my hope, but as I said, it's the way I'm protecting myself right now. As long as it doesn't keep me crying and pulling my hair and, on the contrary, brings me peace and calmness, I prefer that attitude. So it's not that I don't think what you say is true, I give it credit, but I just don't want to base my hope on it. Thank you for understanding that sweetie.

And about your boobs, I'm really sorry that they're misbehaving and giving you a scare. Poor thing, it must be so hard to be the day before your test date and have that kind of symptoms! *HUGS* I wish there was something I could do. But you're wise; there's indeed nothing you can do. It can be difficult to deal with the powerlessness sometimes, I sure understand my sweet, but you can also consider that it also means it's not your fault if it doesn't work this time. You did everything you had to do, your body is doing its best right now. Do take that HPT if you want, at this point, even if it's not 100% accurate, it won't make you go into panick mode days and days before the more reliable test. Hang in there darling, and do put some heat on that sore butt! After all, other than your boobs and your anxiety, there's nothing you can base yourself on to conclude that you're heading towards a BFN! You're still PUPO my dear!

I feel loads better now. I just talked to a friend who shares my spiritual beliefs and she was a complete blessing. I feel SO MUCH more at peace now than I felt before I called her! *sighs in relief* Really, there's no better way to express how I feel... at peace, and I've regained the self-confidence I had lost yesterday and this morning. It is such a sweet feeling!

With love,

Sophie

[My2LnT]

Sophie - I am so sorry for your BFN.... I know that it is not confirmed but I do so know how you feel. I'm sending you and DH lots of hugs----- mostly you tho ------ I do hope that you move past this and continue with your dream. Lots of love to you.

Tanya ----- Any word on sono --- How cute were the babies?

As for here I'm not sure if the link will work I will try just let me know. We went today and saw the heartbeat woo hoo. She did not tell us a heart rate but said that it looked strong and all is where it should be progressing well. We go for another look on the 22nd. I'm truely amazed how big my "lil bit" has got in just 11 days wow I can't wait to go back.

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Hope everyone is doing well.

[PMApsy]

Hello My2LnT!

Working at the computer today, so I leave the IVF forum window open and check from time to time...

Thanks for your kind words sweetie. Don't worry, I always move past hard times, and quite fast. I don't like to dwell on the past.

And your links worked! Did you take pics of the screen? Because that doesn't look like a u/s print that you scanned... too bad the pictures are not clear, but they're sure clear enough to see that your beanie is growing! AMAZING that you could see a lil heart beat in there! What a miracle life is!

Cheers,

Sophie

[Jovigal]

Sophie - just read your post. I am so sorry. You have been such a good PMA to this thread and to see that you may not get your BFP is very disappointing. But your dream of being a mommy is still real and will happen in the right time. I firmly believe that.

[Jovigal]

Jen, Julie, Tia - I know you gals must be so anxious. That has to be the hardest 2 weeks of our lives. hold on, not much longer.

I had my 2nd u/s yesterday. I got to hear the little h/b (125 bpm). So far, RE says all looks good. Littleone was measuring .64 cm and is actually a day ahead compared to my LMP due date. So, it's either 2/1/08 or 1/31/08 now. I'm somewhat relieved now but still on pins and needles till my 2nd semester. RE said he would see me 2 more times before he releases me to my OB doc. So, I go back on 6/25 for u/s again.

[jenn]

Sophie- I was so sorry to read your post. I really believe your dream will happen though. You have plenty of frosties waiting to come home. I'll be watching for your BFP in August if it turns out this wasn't your cycle after all. I'm glad to see you are feeling at peace with it. Take care sweetie, sending you big hugs!

[jenn]

Well girls- U/S was this morning and it is one beanie in there!! We were shocked and DH was kind of bummed for a second. But he got over it quickly! Everything looks good. The yolk sac is forming. I go back on thursday for more blood. They may do another u/s. I don't know why my clinic does so many. My nurse just said they watch closely until a heartbeat is seen. I measured 5w3d so est. due date is Feb. 9.

Tanya- how did your U/S go?

Tia- my boobs felt the same and still do. One day they hurt and feel full, the next day they are fine. Try to stay positive. You could probably do an HPT now and it would be ok to trust the results.

My2LnT- great pictures. I can't wait to hear/see a heartbeat on an U/S. You must be so relieved and excited!! Way to go!!