Pheonixes Rising

[nicolamark]

Hieveryone, thought i'd pop by tonight and say hi.... x x x

Lisa, I am so sorry to hear that your work colleague is off with stress coz ur pregnant, i am sure its not all to do with you being pg, dont take it too hard..... Not long now til you go off on mat leave.... bet ur counting down the days huh???

Kate, how are you? not long til the summer and FET, have a feeling this will work for you, Are u still doing the acu? how's that going?
I totally understand that FET might be the same day as we meet and if you cancel thats for a good thing so good luck x x x

Julie, Hows you and bump?? still on cloud nine?? Happy belated wishes!!! x x and hows work for you? Are u gettng on ok? do they all know that u are preg??
Jen, hiya!! How was Glasgow? did u have a lovely time with your friends? Hope u got out before the terror attack. Are you friends ok? hope they arent affected by this shit!!!

Gail, I cant believe how quickly your little girl is growing, amazing!!! do u plan to have child No2 soon?? Have you anymore embryos left??
Lucy, hows your job going? Bet ur well and truely settling into it now huh?? did u book the appt for the next round of IVF, let us know whats happeneing with you!

Souris, how are you?? I guess ur taking time out. Totally understand......hugs to you!!!

MLG, hows life with u and little girly in Portugal.... Heard its hot over there!!!! better than all this rain in UK......

My mums house was flooded out. its gone now she's left with a soggy carpet though.....so could have been worse......
We have rain near enough everyday for as far back as i can recall, last night me and DH went out to our local pub for a drink, took a wlk down it was lovely at 8:30 but by the time we left it was pouring, we got soaked!!!
Ran home in the rain, and dh fell in apuddle, we were like kids running out in the rain!!! LOL!!! It's great that despite all this shit of IVF/IUI we are still much in love and can have a laugh......Do u think IVF/IUI brings yyou closer?? What about u girls? Are you stronger with DH since ttc???

Just watiching the Diana concert on tv now, its good huh??? Wembley is amazing.....Loved it when i saw GM there.......Elton is on now!!!
Love Elton!!! I saw him inconcert in 04.. Great artist!!!!

Works been crap this week, major stress, and Saturday i totally flipped out, and ended up in tears, the stress is too much, and after 6days of it i'i'd had enough.... lets hope this weeks better.....Only 5 days at work then its our holiday to Italy.... wahooo!!!! cant wait!!!!! I'll be back on 21st July!!!!! Going to a old school mates wedding the day we return, dont see her much anymore, in fact we are miles apart now, but going for a nose really and parhaps might see some old school ppl not seen in years..... I left school in 92......

Been gardening, today the 1st day with no rain hooray!!!!! And got washing out on line to dry too!!!

Anyway, girls, lov 'n' hugs!!! Catch ya laters, I wll post before we leav to italy...... looking fwd to hols but dreading the checkin at airport now the UK in high security alert......

Hope all have a great week xxxxxxx
LOve Nic xx

PS I'll update list 2night too xx

[nicolamark]

PREGNANT PHEONIXES

Lisa – 27wks
Julie - 12wks

PHEONIXES WAITING FOR TREATMENT


Jen – Egg Donor in SPAIN - September
Kate - FET - July/Aug
Nicki - IUI - AUG
Lucy - ???



PHEONIXES GIVEN BIRTH

MLG - c/s baby girl - Margarida - Born Dec 06
GAIL - c/s baby girl - Katie Hope - Born 29th March 07



JULY


9 - Julie 13 week scan
10 - Nicki – Holiday to Italy!
21 - Julie Camping in Abersoch (2 days)
28th - Lisa - step mum's 60th b'day party

AUGUST

3rd- jen- 1st appointment @ IM Barcelona for ED
6th - NICKI - AF due ready to start IUI
9th Lisa - finishes work. YEPEE!!!!!!!!


SEPTEMBER

25th - Lisa'a dh's birthday!
?? - Jen- expected start tmt/ET ????x x


OCTOBER

2nd-- Lisa's baby due!
2nd -- Nicki's birthday
20th - - Lisa's birthday!!

31st – HALLOWEEN!!!

NOVEMBER



DECEMBER
8 - NICKI-weekend in Newcastle
14 - JULIE - Finishes work!!!!!
24 - Xmas Eve
25 - Santa Claus has been - Its Christmas!!
26 – Boxing day

JANUARY

Happy new year!!

10 - Julies baby due

[souris]

Hi guys

Just a quick hello, I need some time out but I think of you and cant wait to see loads of BFP's!

Sorry if my last post was confusing, DH and I are together! I was talking about the end of baby trying for us. It has been such a big thing in our life that now that it it over, it feels very strange. I also think I need to go through some kind of grieving (spelling?), after all I will not have biological children and it is a big thing in a woman's life... I also realised that I still cannot get over the miscarriage. I was at some friends last week end, and one of the girl had a 5 weeks old baby, and I realised that my baby would be the same age... I am still angry at whoever/whatever made me loose my baby, but as unfair as it is I do need to let go. It is not easy though...

Some happy news: I went for a job interview and got the job! From august 15th, I will be in sales&marketing! I have never done sales before and I havnt work for so long that I am really really scared. I got nother jo offer as a nanny, same salary. I did wanted to take the nanny job because it is something I know , but then I forced myself to accept the sales job. I think I need to prove myself that I can do new things and learn new things. So I am very excited and very SCARED!!

For the adoption, if all goes well (if we pass the french adoption panel ((I do hope so otherwise I will never have children)) we should have our french paperworks in November. Then (from what the lawyer said) it will be from 3 to 6 months for us to get our baby!! So even if it takes a bit longer, from next summer I should be a mummy!! It is still a long way but it is so exciting. And as we will need some money for the adoption, the new job comes just when needed!!

Jen, I am sorry I missed your birthday. So i am a bit late but I wish you a great birthday, a great year, love , health and everything you want in life!

Lucy thank you for your nice words. I will have everything crossed for your 6th cycle to be the lucky one! You are really brave and I admire you!

Lisa how are you doing? Congratulations for the cars, it is always exciting isnt it!! (although we could do without the loans...) I also got a new car last week, the cheapest I could find!! it is a daihatsu (not sure bout the spelling!)
Sorry to hear about your colleague... I do understand how hard it must be for her, we all know that I think. And she is lucky not to have an insensitive colleague!
Take care of yourself and your lil'one (who must be getting big!) and try not to get yourself tired, you should get invited to people's house now, not inviting them!!

Julie how are you? when is your scan? Glad the sickness is gone. I cant believe you are 12 weeks already!!

Gail, Katie sounds like such a sweetheart! I havnt been on the photobucket lately but did you post some pics??

Nicki how are you? Those floods are just terrible! Sorry to hear about your mummy's house, but as you said, it could have been worse...
You and Dh sounds so much in love it is great!! I think IVF/TTC can either break a couple or make it stronger. I also think DH and I are closer since IVF ing.
I hope work will be better after your holidays!! Not long now, I am sure you will have a fab time!
A big hello to MLG and Kate!

I got to run now guys. I am off to France on the 20th, I cant wait.
Like every summer, I take my nephew with me on holidays, he loves it! He is turning 7 in July!
Love to all
xxxx
souris

[Kate21]

Hey Girls!

Sorry its been a while since I last posted - this new job is already starting to get in the way!!!

Jen - a belated happy birthday!! Sounds like you had fun and enjoyed oyurself- thats what its all about Not long now until Barcelona - you must be getting pretty excited about it all?

Lucy - cycle number 6?...WOW! I wish I had your determination and resiliance. I can't face the thought of another IVF and it not working, the mental streess is just too much for me to deal with! Good luck with it all though, I'm sure number 6 is the number (didn't Lisa get preggers on try number 6? I will be on number 6 as well this summer with my last FET, so here's hoping!!)

Nicky - what a nightmare about your mum's house. At least she is safe, which is the main thing, although that doesn't help much when you lose things in a flood. This weather is awful, I can't wait until it changes (if it ever does!!). I think IVf either brings you closer together or drives you apart, thankfully for us it seems to have brought us closer together. I will let you know about meeting up, if all goes to plan with the FET then ET should be around that date.

Souris - the whole adotion thing seems to have come along really quickly! If only it happened that smoothly over here. Good luck with it all - you will soon be a mummy!! I maybe going out to Dubai in October, my brother has just been posted back out there and DH and I fancy going to see him - any recommendations on what and where to go?

Gail - where has that 3 months gone? It only seems like yesterday that you had Katie!! Where does time go?

Lisa - sorry to hear about your work colleague blaming you for her stress. I'm sure you have been sensitive, but at the end of the day we have all been through it ( and are still going through it!!) and its unfair for her to blame you, especially given your situation. Those friends sound ungrateful to me, how can someone not say thank you for dinner?!!

Julie - how's you? Glad to hear the sickness has gone away!

Hi to anyone else I may have missed.

As dor me I am counting the days dow until we break up - I am knackered!! The kids are being little monkeys as they have had enough as well and to top it all Senior Management just keep piling on the work!! As for my new job is not due to start officially until Sept but as with everything in teaching I have had to start the work now!! My old job as Head of PE is now a job share with 2 of my old colleagues and as well as having to start a new job from scratch I am also having to help them out as they do not know alot of what they are meant to be doing!!

So much for being less stressed for my final FET!! Oh well, if all goes according to plan ( and AF arrives on time!!!) then ET should be around the week beginning 24th July and a test date around the 1ts August! Can't get my head around the fact that it will be my last tmt, but at least I will be able to move on and start looking at adoption if it doesn't work.

Right, time to go home as I am still at work!! Catch you later

Kate

[Julie2039]

Hi Girls (smiling for sunshine!!!)

How crap is the weather!! Spent most of my week off doing housework and then chilling out. Shopping spree went well - i am in maternity stuff (mostly). Much more comfortable! I have gone up two cup sizes... (B to D) and I do have a protruding tum. I have only put 5lb on since getting preg tho. Must be shape change. I am also well now, still a little tired, but no sickness (touch wood). the down side is that I have got a healthy appetite and will progress to 5 stone in no time if I am not careful!

Bought some jeans, cut off pants, pants and skirt for work and tops. Just need a couple of nice going out tops and a jacket of some kind later on.....

Went to Ikea too and bought a new bin, a huge chopping board for DH as doing ALL the cooking now (1st time in 12 years) and hates the little one I had, and got a sheep skin rug for the bedroom. Sorted but skint hee hee!

My next scan is Monday.....

Out this weekend for Tapas with friends (couples) for my birthday and if the weather is nice sorting the garden/patio.

Kate - How is the new job going?? Sounds like you are being split in two. poor you. Hopefully things will settle real soon. Enjoy your break from work and relax and GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR FET!!! Me and Lisa can't be the only ones to have a sober Crimbo. You are joining us girl!!!

Souris - Good to hear from you. How are you? Good news re you and DH!!! Was a bit muddled. Sorry regarding the treatment...and yes you must grieve. Finding out about infertility in the first place is a grief too so don't feel bad about it and give yourself time. Maybe seek professional help or the help of a good friend? CONGRATULATIONS on the job! and best of luck with the adoption process xx

Nikki - Hola! nice to see you back if only briefly. Work is a drag. i hate it. Went from being a secretary to one partner and now work in a pool so basically just type all day long. No reason to use my brain and I get BORED. they do know I am preg and everyone ok about it. Counting the days til I can finish! Hope your mums is sorted....had to laf re Dh and the puddle, sorry. Did you laugh at the time? I get giggly with nerves and can be mistaken for a sadist!!!

As for your ques re IVF/IUI - my personal exprience, and I assume everyones is completely different, it initially nearly drove us apart because we didnt know how to deal with it or react but in the end when treatment was started it did bring us a lot closer, communication being the key!

Enjoy your hols hun and the wedding x

Gail - Katie sounds delightful. She will be rolling around and giving you the run around before you know it. Time passes so fast! how are you doing? Just wondered if you gained much weight/lost it now.

Lis - I did celebrate....soberly of course! Think if I sniffed a drink i would fall over it has been that long! Congrats re the cars. Sounds like your life will be so much simpler and that is what you need. Shame to hear about your colleague. Must be difficult, for both of you.

As for your friends, I think when they are close they take what you do for granted but isn't it annoying!!!! Is it the friends who didn't congratulate DH on the pregnancy??? I am sure they had a lovely time and your efforts paid off but like you say....thanks would be nice! x

Lucy - How are you? Hope work still going ok and enjoying it. any news from the clinic? Did you chase them up? I will say the same to you as I said to Kate. You are coming on the crimbo sober bus with me and Lis! xx

Jen - Hope you are enjoying your break. Write soon and fill us in on your time xx

Bye for now (no time for seperate colours I am afraid) xxxxx

[nicolamark]

just a quick hi!!!!

Shit I am stressed out with work, i didnt leave work tonight til 6:30 (meant to leave at 5pm) pissed off with a new girl (17 yr old who thinks she knows it all, and acts like a kid and thinks shes got problems and then insists on sneaking out for fags all the time!!!!)
Kate i dont know how u work with kids all day, it'd do my head in......

Lovely to hear from ya souris, sounds like u are getting ur head round it all, best of luck with adoption xxx

Julie, you sound like you are blooming well, sound very happy and positive, good on ya lets hope me kate and jen will soon follow!!!

Kate, you're stressed out and worn out like me, but do look fter ur self for FET... Best of luck... catch ya laters xx

[Julie2039]

Hi - Just a quickie for Nikki!!!

Hope you have had a better day and the skiver doesn't last. What a way to behave never mind when you are new! Make sure you are out at 5pm. And YES BFP's for all Phoenixes in 2007!!!!!!!!!! XXX

[jen babes]

Hi Pheonixes

Sorry i have not posted since my return ...been busy catching up with house stuff shopping to fill the fridge and general boring stuff.

So busy icatching up i feel like i am rushing everywhere. AND...On the way to work today I ended up reversing the car into a fence ( Don't ask me how????? ) Car is not too bad just needs some retoutching and a new bumper but i am totally out of it now, like a space cadet!!! My brain is badly needing re wired or something!!! think it's hormones as my Af was due friday and have only had a show and craps over hte last few days still no flow....Think all this spacy-ness is hormones. deffo not preggy as no tubes so must just be a bummer hormone mix up.

Anyway must dash...Off now to talk to the insurers and see if it worthwhile claiming or just paying myself.... sorry no personals will try and catch ya all later tonight...

Love and many 'Spacey' hugs to ya all.... xxxx

jen
xxxx

[Julie2039]

Hi Jen

Just a quick hello to you hun and sending you a cyber (((HUG)))). Ooooooooh hope you are ok and you get the car sorted. Sounds like you need your batteries charging and a good rest!!! Take it easy and try not to overdo and worry kiddo. Get your feet up!!! xxx

[Kate21]

Hi Girls,

Just to let you know I am officially back on the rollarcoaster ride - AF arrived today and I have my scan next Thursday for FET. Not sure on dates for ET, probably around the 24th ish. Only downer is we have to have our blood work done again as they ran out in April - another way to get money from us!!! Oh well, here's hoping its all worth it in the end!!

Hope everyone has had an ok day, Nickie - hope the 17yr old isn't still doing your head in?!! Believe me I don't know how I do it sometimes, working with kids!!!

Catch you later!

Kate

[nicolamark]

Welcome to rollercoaster again kate!!! good luck!!! can u get bloods on nhs, i did try to get some done, are u meaning the HIV etc......??

I will txt u later anyway, so will prob get txt b4 u read this!!

Stress is still with me, bu i can see light at end of tunnel now, (ie 2 week hols coming up!!!!)
I leave on tues 1oth, wont be home til sat 21st and then we have wedding to go to that night, so Kate u are with me in thought's but the main thing is ET so good luck and catch ya laters!!!

Jen, hope ur cars sorted now and fixed in time for 2nd Aug when u leave fpor spain!!! Are u flying frm glasgow? how that the terror attck hasnt affected u and flying out!!!

Love to every1 else, cathc ya laters Dinner ready now!!xxx

[Julie2039]

Just to say KATE - GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XXXXXXXXXXX

[jen babes]

Hi Pheonixes

WELOCOME TO THE WEEKEND...Hope we get some sunshine... ( it's been nice here today but now has just started to bucket down with rain..just as was about to walk Broc typical...

Kate good luck with your tmt starting soon...Are you on meds for this FET?
our job sounds unbelieveably stressful, especially since you weren't meant to start until next term. Hope you have a relaxing weekend and get some pre-tmt chill time. good luck honey we are for you 110% in getting a BFP!

Souris ah sweetie so lovely to hear from you. Must be so difficult logging on and everyone else going through tmt. I know it would be hard for me but will you keep in touch. I so want to hear if you get a little bu=oy or girl when your adoption all comes through. Enjoy yourself when you go home to France for your summer break. What is our nephews name? love and big hugs to you and Dh. xx x x

julie HAVE A HAPPY BIRTHDAY Honey. Enjoy your time out with friends. Are you okay not drinking or just onna have a sip of wine? Thanks for the cyber hugs i really needed them. I am stuggiling with my MS after being on the go since my birthday in june, and ended up phoning in sick today. Hate letting everyone down but unless i look after myself i will be off for longer. Adam and i are off in the Motorhome for a weekend chill out. Just off to a place an hour away in the wilds of |Scotland. Total bliss if the sun comes out! So hope to be better by Monday.
It's amazing how your shape changes with preg and you still have only put on 5lbs...amazing...is Dh loving the DD's (.)(.)???? It must be exciting buying all the mat clothes. And you have your next scan on Monday...can't wait to hear how beanie is growing...take care and Love to you and bump xx x x

Nicki NOT long until your hols now girl. Are you all ready to get packed? Shopped out i bet! How is your pob now? have you get used to it yet? I have forgotten that when your hair is short you need nmore hair cuts...bummer...Enjoy your weekend. Oh my car is doing okay will get it fixed next week. adam doesn't think it is as bad as it looks and will be pretty easy to sort out but deffo need a new bumper. Ah well. We will use adams car to go to Glasgow (Prestick) Airport on the 2nd Aug. seems ages away but i am sure it will fly by.

gail- katie soounds a joy to be with...little sweetheart sleeping all the way through.x x As Julie asked I would be interested in what was your weight loss like after birth...my sis lost hers through breast feeding. But i am 40 and thinking that it will be more difficult with added age for me. Listen to me i ain't even preggy and already asking about losing weight !!!! You sound so happy Gail..Enjoy...loving hugs to you and katie x x

Lucy how are you doing sweetie? Have you any idea about next tmt and when do you see your consultant? Are you still enjoying your new job? Hope its helping keep you focsed. loving hugs x x

Lisa- how big is your bump now? are you doing okay now your on your 3rd tri?( walking with bump, driving with bump, concentrating ( preggy hormones did my sisters head in she kept forgetting everything) etc) Soon be time for your next scan. Are you deffo managing to get a 3/4D scan? Bummer about your so called friends. If it happened again could you not say something? Hope your week hasn't been as stressful and you manage to get some well earned rest love to you and bump x x

MLG thinking of ya and sending much love x x

We are off to Laggan(about an hour away) for the weekend to chill out. We have both had stressful weeks and i am suffering from relapse of MS. Just very painful legs and arms, so didn't get a lot of sleep last night, even with knock 'em out painkillers i was in pain. Does xcare me sometimes how it can come out of the blue and just floor me. Anyway i wwas so tired that i took the day off today. Have slept all day and do feel a little better so the weekend in fresh air will help. Adam is packing the motorhome ( water in the tank, bikes on the back, food inthe fridge etc [& vodka in the cupboard ]) so ready for the off. hope to heck that he sun does shine like it did earlier today...fingers crossed

hope that Laura gets the boot in BB...if anyone is still watching cos it's been a bit boring this week.

love to ya all
jen
xxx

[gailp]

Jen sorry to hear your not feeling too good at the moment, hopefully a nice restful weekend away will do you the world of good, just don’t over do it!! My weight loss is awful, I still have nearly a stone of pregnancy weight to go and a stone of IVF weight. I am loosing a 1lb a week so its slow going but at least its going in the right direction. I ended up stopping the breastfeeding as Katie wasn’t getting enough and because I had a C section I couldn’t exercise for 12 weeks. Swimming is going well with Katie but she is now trying to eat her rubber ring as it has fishes on, hopefully she wont pop it! We are going on holiday at the end of September to the Isle of Wight for a few days.

Kate good luck with the FET, crossing everything for you. Is it medicated or unmedicated?

Nicki I think you are going on holiday today, have a fantastic time. I don’t have any frozen embies left, so there probably wont be baby no 2, but I am so grateful for the little miracle that I have.

Julie I went from an A cup to a DD!!!! I had never had a proper cleavage before and was constantly dropping crumbs down there! That’s great that DH is doing all the cooking, make the most of that. Bet you can’t wait for your scan on Monday, they are so exciting. I gained 3 ½ stone pregnancy weight and I had already gained a stone on the IVF’s. I did love chocolate when I was pregnant though! You are doing really well to have only put 5lb on so far.

Souris good to see you on here. That’s brill news on the new job. You must be getting excited about the adoption, each process you complete is one step closer to your new baby and a year from now you will be a Mummy.

Lisa how are you feeling are you getting really big now? When is your 3d scan?

Lucy hope your ok and your new job is going well.

I can’t believe the sun is actually shining here today! No news from me, Katie is doing great and almost rolling over now, she hates being on her front so not sure why she actually wants to roll over!!

[nicolamark]

Hey girls, just a quick posting.......
Waiting for Mark, we're going for a meal (nothing special) just to our local, cant be arsed to cook!!
Marks grandma, has stroke this morning, shes in a coma now not looking goood, so atmosphere has been low in our house 2day! AF arrieved today also..... 2 days early...... so definatly no iui for me in jul, will clash with holiday, so we wait for AF on 4th aug and then LH should be 12-14 later....
I did cry again his morning when AF came, every month i hop on dh like its gonna work, we still have to have hope, you never know and every bloody mth, it never works!!! sorry i am feel down about not being preg but hey the odds are like 0.0001% so dont know why i think it'll happen, and grandma being in coma and then the whole thing bring up memories of when my dad died 3yrs ago..... and the anniv of my nans death tomorrow!!! its all just too much, my dad died when i was on holiday, so i feel like i curse this when i go on holiday........
Anyway, think i'm feelin a tad better than i was this morning....... not drinking to night, as i feel my emotions are too high and alcohol always makes me cry more when i am emotional.......
so taking car, can be arsed to walk a 10min walk!!!!

Gail and julie u are worrying me with boobs going up 3-4 sizes...... I am 36FF already...... heck i cant go any more bigger when i get preg..... does I cup exist????

Gail, its sunny here too, shame im not in the mood to enjoy it!!!



Has waxing first thing this morning which didnt help AF cramps, not really in the mood for bikini line wax but it needed to be done ready for italy.... the things we put oursleves thro!!!! I am nearly bald!!! she took the bikini line quite a lot higher than normal.....

Anyway, catch ya leters xxxx

Love 'n' hugs Nicki xxx