Pheonixes Rising

[jen babes]

HI all

Kate- glad ET went so well..and 2 embies are snuggling in and happy to be home. I will be in Barcelona on the 2nd so won't find out until the 5th about your BFP. Hope your 2nd week of 2ww goes well and flies by.
I totally understand about the tears hun, it's a really emotional time. So much gos on emotionally during ivf that we totally ignore ( or try to) but it always catches up!!!! Hopefully it was a good emotional clearout and your feeling okay now...well as best you can on a 2ww. Enjoy your time off with DH and chill out.x x Love and big hugs to ya x x x


Nicki hope AF arrives on my return from Barcelona...looks like it will take me 6-10wks to get to ET so we won't be cycling together this time. Are you doing back to back iui like gail did??? I think you have another 3 tries if i remember right??? Hope that this one is the one. Are you going to take clomid before the iui???? or is it just a straight forward no meds iui?



Julie With God's belssing i will be the 3rd of 3 of my neighbours...that would be wondeful. Yep Camping is only for young unsthat are so drunk they don't realise the pain of camping. I do love my motorhome though you would too, it has a fridge/freezer, full 'Stoves' standing oven/hob, shower, toilet, double bed and a single as well as t.v. and sky!!!! Yes we are totally spoilt when we go away. Thoroughly recommend it!!!! So sure Lisa was gonna have a boy, how wrong was I!!!!...so i too think you should break the trend and have a little boy!!!! Have fun over the next couple of weeks and i will catch ya 6th x x

Lisa enjoy the party and the wedding...what are you wearing??? guess you got a nice mat frock to wear to them both or did you splash out and get a few things???? How is your baby girl bump doing, still kicking for scotland??? Have a good tme and i'll catch you when i am home x x

Lucy- hope all is well with you hun, we are thinking of you often. Are being a busy bee at work, and is the job still okay? Not long 5wks until your hols...bet you can't wait x x love x x

Gail love to you and baby Katie x x
MLg love to you and baby Margarida x x

Hope i haven't missed anyone????

I am getting the motorhome ready for leaving on friday...Can't wait to get away for a while...Still No full AF but fthink things have changed ( discharge wise changes there) sorry for tmi . Think that the heavier show on sun/mon mornings was AF and that was it!!!!! Amazing that after heavy periods the last 10 years and endometriosis operation 8 years ago cause of heavy flow, thata AF can be so light. May be just a blip in the hormones or a move towards ending of AF and early meno. DOn't know and don't care cause i am gonna get a BFP this year in IM. feel all that PMA girls I bought a guide to Barcelona today and ordered my euros pick them up tomorrow. Will post all the details of our visit when i can on my return
5th/6th. Am getting very excited x x Broc is a lot better and more his usual happy self. he's still hating having to wear the clear protector round his neck at night, it stops him licking but it looks like a lampshade...poor soul...will miss him when he goes into kennels wed night . We fly out thurs but have to drive to Glasgow and will leave at 7.30 am on the thursday morn. Have a holdall that will use as hand luggage for us both as we are are only away in Spain 1 night. But will need to recover in Glassgow for the next day as i think i will be very tired after all the travel/and 4hr appointment. anyway off to do ironing x x

love to you all

jen
xxx

[Julie2039]

TO JEN

JUST TO WISH YOU OODLES AND OODLES OF LOVE AND LOVE FOR YOUR TRIP TO BARCELONA (and yes, would love your motorhome had many a happy caravan holiday) XXXXX

KATE - FAB news on the embies. Can't wait to hear about your BFP. Sending MASSES of positive vibes xxx

[nicolamark]

Hiya all..... x x

Jen, just popping by to say good luck with your appt in spain......also enjoy your moto break.....
and yes i am doing back to back iui aug sept oct..... then thats it, I really hope it happens in aug, as i dont think im strong enough to go back to back, i am nervous that it wont work as after oct thats it no more try's..... I try not to think about it, but its scarey!!!
Lisa, done back to back iui not gail!!! xx

Kate, hows you? Hope ur little embies are snuggling down and doing their stuff in the warmth of your womb......I am keeping it all crossed for ya kate. x x

Lisa, Party time!!! Yahooo!!!! Hope u have a fab time at the 60th, how does your mum feel about that, hope it doesnt cause any more family issues......

Julie, Hope ur doing ok, and little bump is ok too xxx

Lucy, hows the job??

Love to all........ Catch y alaters xxx

Lv Nicola xxx

[Lis]

Hi Girls

JEN - I'm so sorry to hear you were upset last week. You might remember ages ago I wrote on this sight how I cried every week without fail at leat once - dh became an expert at handling me. One time I remember I had spent all day cooking for friends coming over. About an hour before they were arriving I became suddenly overcome with grief and couldn't stop crying. Dh had to call our friends and tell them I wasn't up for the evening ahead. You just can't plan these things and you have to let it out and not feel bad about it. ((((HUGS)))) All the best in IM next week. I will be thinking of you. and hoping all goes well. Sorry AF didn't behave herself but as you said, it doesn't matter anyhow as IM will sort it all out!! Have a good trip and remember we are thinking of you. Hugs xxxxxxxx

KATE - hope you are resting up with your embies all nicely snuggled in. Its not a surprise you were emotional. The whole IF/ IVF rollercoaster is just that - one minute your up, the next your down, just like I said above to Jen. Hope you are keeping yourself occupied and enjoying your holiday. Keeping everything crossed for you honey xxxxx

NICKI - how was the first week back? Yes back to back IUI is hard but at least you feel as if you are working towards that BFP. Remember LUCKY NO. 6!! I am passing on this lucky number to you hun. On my 6th, its strange but my attitude was different. I had sort of resigned myself to it not working and just got on with things. I had a couple of wines on the saturday nights on the 2 ww, went to the gym as normal and tried to do lots of nice chilled things with dh like watching dvd's and planning things for the year ahead,. I know its different for everyone and who really knows whether it had anything to do with BFP but it made me feel better anyway! xx

JULIE - well done you for sticking out the camping, you're a braver gal than me! How is the bump coming along! At 16 weeks I was desperate to show but only my close friends and family could see a difference! Even a coupke of weeks ago at 28 weeks, a patient I was seeing at work asked if she could see my at her next consultation in 4 months as hadn't realised I was preg!! Don't know how because all of a sudden you'll find yourself expanding over night! When is your next scan?? xx

Gail & Katie , Lucy - how are you all getting on? Mak sure you pop in now and again and update us as love hearing from you both. xxxx

Well I am off to Ayrshire in 2 hours. Going shopping with my mum for a couple of hours then heading to my Dad's before my step mum's big party tonight. DH is working today so coming down afterwards but that means tomorrow we have to travel back separately meaning we both have to drive. (100 miles one way) Not ideal for me beacuse we're then off to Stirling tomorrow night (1 hours drive each way) to a wedding reception which I'll be driving to again. Have Monday morning off to recuperate. Jen I've bought a black skirt which I'm wearing witha black wrap top I got early on in my preg. Going to accesorise it with a gold/amber belt, gold kitten heel sandals and some nice costume jewellery if I can find some today in town. Wearing the same thing both nights as different group of people! My friend got me a gorgeous gold and sequin embroidered bag from Hong Kong at Christmas time last year so will finish it off with that.

My mum refuses to talk anymore about the "Gran" situation despite the fact I have written her a letter trying to explain so I am leaving the topic closed now. I can't carry on feeling stressed about it as concerned how I am making my little princess feel (who is still kicking - and sharply - for Scotland Jen!). Julie - its comforting to know I'm not the only one with this problem. Let me know how it goes for you.

Well I'm off to get organised. Have a great weekend all and Jen if I'm unable to log on before you go. ALL THE BEST HONEY. Thinking of you and sending you bucket loads of luck xxxxx

[nicolamark]

Lisa, good to hear from ya, your out fit sound lovely.....Hope the party went well......I cant believe that u are 30 wks preg, that means 10 wks til my b'day.... x x

Kate, how r u doing???? By the endof this week you'll be pregnant huh??? Cant wait to hear your news..... Hope ur still chilling out, and not gtting stressed, is ur mate still being a super *****???
Jen has txt me to say GOOD LUCK with the test day andshe wishes u all the best xx

Jen is now away and asked me to apologise she didnt get chance to post b4 she went, but is thinking of u Kate.... She's off in her motor home this w/e and flies to spain on thurs her appt at IM is on friday......

I had tears this morning, I am scared of this IUI not working, its not good to feel this way... i know it should work..... we are only doing 2 x iui's as the money really wont stretch to more and mark said no way to the credit card...... we talked about adoption too, i am really up for adoption but he's not, he said he doesnt want to have 2nd best...... I would gladly give up iui ivf and go straight to adoption but mark thinks if the iui does work she would wait til our nhs ivf date comes, which could be 2yrs......so really scared of what might happen......
Anyway, just chilling out at homethis w/e......just as well, works been hell this week, my hol is now a distance memory.....

Love to every1 else..... take care...Lots of love....Nicola xxx

[Kate21]

Hey Girls!!

Thought it was about time I posted properly and found out how everyone is!!

Nickie - tears are normal, I was crying like a baby while having my ET, worrying about the 'what ifs' especially as this is our last attempt. But, we can't think like that otherwise we'd never do anything. Greg felt the same about adoption, but he's coming round, I think the thought of never having kids together made him rethink - I'm sure if it comes to it Mark will rethink as well. At the moment he can't see past the iui and ivf, but if the worse case scenario happens and nothing works, will he still say he won't adopt? I don't think he will be able to answer that unless he gets to that point. Never say never Am thinking about you both x

Jen - I know you won't be able to read this until you get back but thanks for your thoughts - it means alot. Good luck with everything in Barcelona

Lisa - how did the shopping and party go? What a social life!!! Has your mum said anymore about the gran situation? Like you said you can't afford to get stressed and I'm sure once the little one is here she'll come to her senses.

Julie - how's you and little one? Hope you are both ok?

Hi to everyone else, Lucy hope you are ok?

As for me I'm doing ok. The time is starting to drag, although it is only 3 more sleeps until test day. Not sure what to think, am still quite positive and confident that this one has worked, feels slightly different too. Don't know why, perhaps I'm just not stressing about all the signs and symptoms!!! Nickie - that friend is just the same, have better things to worry about!

Anyway, am off to a wedding on Wed (the best man from our wedding) so that will keep me occupied! Will let you know what happens on Thursday - keep, it all crossed

Kate

[nicolamark]

Kate, i have every faith in a BFP for you xxxx

Thurs will soon be here, keep busy, and carry ur embies with pride xxx

[princess]

Nickki,
Hi honey how are you? When are you doing the iui?
I think we are going to try again at the end of August.
Love
joy

[Julie2039]

Hi Girlies

Hope all had an "a" ok weekend.

Lis - Sorry to hear things aren't totally resolved with your mum. Try not to stress x How was the weekend? Was the party good?

Kate - Wishing you every bit of luck I have for Thursday. I really hope it is a BFP for ya and am sure it will be!!!! Stay position and enjoy the wedding and stay relaxed. x

Nikki - Sending you big hugs and hope you a feeling better x Sometimes we need an emotional release and even a bit of feeling sorry for ourselves. Not good to bottle stuff up. Tell yourself it will work. You know you can do it and I agree with Kate, if adoption (and it is a big IF as you aint gonna need it!) is your last option Mark will look at it differently. Men can only face one thing at a time. Keep pecker up. August is only round the corner!!! xxx

Lucy - Hows you honey? x

Gail - Hows you and katie doing?

As for me I am ok ta. Lis I am definately showing! The midwife said on Friday that I was growing big when whe touched my right side (!) and there is no mistaking it! I am also a bit of an emotional wreck this week and cry at nothing! Was crying at work today as got a bit stressed out, felt a right idiot but blamed it on the hormones.

I am in your camp Nikki - work is CRAP and I really hope I don't have to come back here after!!!!

[nicolamark]

ah julie bless ya..... Just remember the tears are good tears!!! x xx

Gosh, i really think ur havin a boy coz ur so big so early..... Damn will have to wait til Jan!!!!

Work is just plodding on, nothing much going on but im coping with it better, guess thats coz i have iui on my mind!!!

Love 'n' hugs to ya all xx

[Lis]

Hi girls

Kate - glad you've got the pma going girl! Wahoo! Like you, I def didn't stress as much about every twinge etc on my last 2ww when I got BFP. And the wedding wil def keep your mind occupied. Will you have a drink or two? A wee glass of vino or two could just help to keep you relaxed amd I honestly don't think it'll do any harm. Keeping everything crossed for you hun xxx

Nicki - I'm sorry to hear about the tears. I know where you're at - we all do. I agree with Julie and Kate. Dh was the same, not to sure about adoption. I rerally think he's change his mind if it came to it - bu it won't!! xxx

Julie - wow. Showing already huh? Lucky you Did you opt for the blood test for Down's, edwards and spina bifida? We found that a hard one but went for it in the end. Just felt we would rather be prepared if anything was wrong but such a personal choice. I am now getting fed up of the number of people telling me my bump is so neat. I think its because when they see me front on I don't look hugely different - its not til I turn to the side and then its really obvious! xxx

Jen - thinking of you doll and hoping all goes well.

Hello all other phoenixes.

The 60th part was great - I was up dancing a fair bit of the night but paid for it afterwards. My back was killing me all night and Sunday. My Dad had me for a "slow dance" as he calls it! and there was a bit of ceilidh'ing as well but that was a bit ebergetic for me. Was scared the bump would get squashed!

The wedding reception on the Sunday was also great. My friend looked gorgeous and all the men wore kilts. My best friend from school was a bridesmaid and also looked stunning. One of my other friends was very drunk - so funny Kept handling my bump and telling me she loved me!!

I still felt my mum wsn't totally OK with me and never mentioned anything when I visited her on Saturday. So I text her last night . She sais she felt I was being awkward with her but that altho the decision was hard to accept, she would have to do just that. She said she loves me unconditionally but she thinks my Dad's love has conditions attached. I don't agree with that at all and neither does dh as my Dad and I have worked hard at our relationship but then I knew I would never win her round on this one. So the topic is closed now.

Well I'm off for a cuppa and to try finish Harry Potter!

Speak soon.all xxx I will be checkin in on Kate on Thursday

[Kate21]

BFP, BFP, BFP!!!!!

Can't bloody believe it! After nearly 6 years I really didn't think I would ever see that blue line on a HPT!!! Nearly died of shock this morning, DH is over the moon as well.

Thank you for all your support girls, its made this rollarcoaster so much easier to bear! 6 is definitely the lucky number, so Lucy and Nickie you should have no problems!! Jen - you too!

See you later!

Kate

[gailp]

Kate that is so fantastic, im so pleased for you.
Enjoy every single second of your pregnancy

Katie is watching me typing this and sends a huge dribbly cuddle and kiss

Hi to everyone else, will catch up soon

[Julie2039]

OH MY GOD THAT IS FANTASTIC

I AM ABSOLUTELY OVER THE MOON

I KNEW IT KNEW IT KNEW IT

BFPS FOR US ALL IN 2007

I AM SOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU AND DH - YOU MUST BE OVERJOYED.

NOW TAKE IT EASY - GET THOSE FEET UP AND LET DH RUN AROUND AFTER YOU. WAHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Julie2039]

Hi Lis

Sounds like you have a good weekend. Glad parties went well. What is ceilidh'ing???

I am sorry things arent 100% ok with your mum but sure they will settle. it must be hard for you mum to swallow certain things with regards to your dad but it is bad for us children isn't it....my mum told me she wouldnt come to my wedding if my dad was there (and they divorced when I was 3!!!). As I don't (unfortunately) have a storng relationship with my dad he didn't come. We ended up getting married in Gretna Green to avoid the onslaught!!!

We decided not to do the triple test or the nuchal scan. purely because (and I cannot recall the statistics now) we werent comfortable with percentages ofthe risks. hard to explain but basically there was a 60% chance a couple could be high risk and 20 odd% of babies are born with defects so there was a 40% chance we would worry through the whole pregnancy for nothing and i didnt want an amneo which was the only guaranteed way of knowing. Hard isn't it!!

You take care xxx

STILL CANT BELIEVE KATES NEWS. WELL DONE GIRL!!!! XXXXXXXXX