2nd IVF & nervous about my results
2nd IVF & nervous about my results
The is my second IVF. The 1st one failed two embryos transfer (low quality, grade c) 3 day transfer. This time 2 transfered again (grade b) a 3 day transfer. My PT in on Wed, I have 2 days left. I don't want Wed to come, I don't want to hear bad news again. I just feel like if it doesn't work this time, will it ever work? Am I not meant to give birth to children?I'm 30 years old. I started infertility treatment at 28 yrs. All my friends got pregnant, and I mean all. I was releaved that one of my friends wasn't, but she called a few weeks ago to tell me she was with TWINS. She not even married, and wasn't planning on having children ever (that's what she said) and it just fell into her lap like that. Me I've been praying everyday, making deals with God and nothing for almost 3 yrs. But I was blessed with a stepson that I have been raising and loving for five years now, so I wish I wasn't complaining right now. I just want my family to grow. The fear of that never happening is so intense. I meeting with a friend today another one who is not married (guy doesn't want to) but they had a child together 4yrs ago. She had an ovary removed 2 yrs ago. She is now in her 8/9 month of pregnancies. I don't get it. I'm mad at myself for feeling anger towards my friends and stereotyping them b/c their not married. Why shouldn't they have children? Just because I can't. I guess I just needed to vent, and come back down to reality. I know it's nerves. I'm probably going to still be all over the place emotionally for the next few days.
kangela, I can't offer you any advice, but I just wanted to say that I hope everything works out for you. My DH and I were watching Discovery Channel last night, and there was a woman that had lymphoma and needed chemo. They took out one ovary and froze it, and when her chemo was over, they implanted some of the tissue under the skin of her abdomen so she would hopefully stil get the hormones from it. When she went for a checkup, they found out she was pregnant. The doctor thought it was impossible because the ovarian tissue wasn't "hooked up" it was just under the skin. He said he supposed that the hormones from the tissue stimulated the ovary that they had left in there throughout her chemo. She did miscarry that one, but she got pregnant again and that one was healthy. She had a baby girl. I told my DH, if she can have a baby surely we can. I know it seems as though some women can get pregnant no matter what. We have male factor. My husband had cystic fibrosis and is missing vas deferens. As far as I know, I am ok. My first appt. is tomorrow, and then come the tests. I've had some and they are ok but we'll see what happens next. As I have read, if it doesn't happen the first time, keep on trying. There are alot of ladies on this board that failed, and eventually succeeded. Keep me posted. I wish you the best.
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Stories like the one you told are inspirational. That's what makes me keep on trying and believing it will happen for me. Sometimes I wish my infertility was explained. The fact that it is unknown or unexplained infertility frustrations me. Also, at retrieval time the 1st time I only had 8 retrieved. Dr. said it should have been in the teens (for my age) Second time 12 were retrieved. I know it's quality and not quantity, but mine never make it to 5 day transfer and there are always only two that are good enough to transfer. I wonder if stress is a factor. Dr. said no. But all these stories of people who adopt and then get pg makes me believe stress does prevent pregnancy. Although, I have tried everything under the sun to releave stress, and I never got pregnant. The only thing I never did was give up trying, I wish I could, cause then I'd probably get pregnant. I just want it so bad.
kangela, I am sorry about your unexplained infertility. That is one thing I have always known about. My DH told me shortly after we started dating that there is a good chance that we might not be able to have children. Of course, we didn't look into it until last November. That is when he had his first SA. I mean, there could still be a problem with me, but at least we knew where to start. I'm sure it is frustrating not to know, but like you said, it could just happen one of these days. At least they really can't find anything wrong.
I have read alot of posts where they do 3dt, and they result in sucessful pregnancies. Some people keep trying and trying until the numbers finally catch up with them, and it works.
I think stress has alot to do with it. Last summer, I skipped two periods. I have never done that. My husband was sick and on IV antibiotics, and work was crazy and I was trying to get ready for vacation. Then when I didn't start I worried all the more. I had myself in the grave before I could get to the doctor. Two weeks after I got back from vacation, I started. My doctor never did find anything wrong. Everything was normal, and I haven't done it since.
Try to keep a positive attitude and feel free to vent on here. There will always be someone on some thread with a story or similar situation as you that will lend you some good advice or if nothing else some encouraging words. Keep us posted.
Christi
I have read alot of posts where they do 3dt, and they result in sucessful pregnancies. Some people keep trying and trying until the numbers finally catch up with them, and it works.
I think stress has alot to do with it. Last summer, I skipped two periods. I have never done that. My husband was sick and on IV antibiotics, and work was crazy and I was trying to get ready for vacation. Then when I didn't start I worried all the more. I had myself in the grave before I could get to the doctor. Two weeks after I got back from vacation, I started. My doctor never did find anything wrong. Everything was normal, and I haven't done it since.
Try to keep a positive attitude and feel free to vent on here. There will always be someone on some thread with a story or similar situation as you that will lend you some good advice or if nothing else some encouraging words. Keep us posted.
Christi