Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

camilla · Post by **camilla** » Thu Sep 06, 2007 8:49 am

Jen - Thinking of you constantly! One more day but it seems ridiculous that it takes so long for results to come back. I'd be tempted to do a hpt whilst you wait for results. Is that naughty? Are you at home or work? Wondering what will take your mind off it a bit.

Lots of love.
Camilla xxxxx

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Thu Sep 06, 2007 9:21 am

Hi Camilla

I'm way to scared to take a hpt incase its negative and i get the disappointment sooner. Its to painful looking at dh. He is already struggling this time and feels it wont work even though i keep reminding him its young eggs, We are just so use to negative results, its seems impossible for us to think it might work because then it further to fall when another bfn come in.
I was going to do one tomorrow morning but dh is working and he want to be with me. I'm meeting friends for lunch and at least i can still have a peaceful day before the tears come

Thanks for thinkin of us

Love Jen x

lolajones · Post by **lolajones** » Thu Sep 06, 2007 7:35 pm

Stop that Jennifer!!!

Come on love, PMA!!!! I know its so hard when you've had so much pain and disappointment before but thats just it, BEFORE. This will be different!!! This will work, chant it chant it! BFP!!!

You must be nerve wracked my sweet but all this worry will be worth it when you get your lovely good news and then 8 months later your baby!!!

I'll be checking in tomorrow. Hope you manage to get some sleep tonight.
Thinking of darlin girl

Lola
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Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Thu Sep 06, 2007 7:42 pm

Hey Lola

Got my Sunday name, it must be serious.

I promise i will chant for the rest of the night and i will think positive.

Thanks for all your kind wishes, hope i finally have some good news to share tomorrow----its bloody overdue

Love Jen x

camilla · Post by **camilla** » Fri Sep 07, 2007 8:40 am

Jen - I understand, well at least you've got lunch with friends to fill in the waiting. I keep saying PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE let it be a good day for Jen.

Lots of love
Camilla xxxxx

Inhale, Exhale · Post by **Inhale, Exhale** » Fri Sep 07, 2007 12:48 pm

UHHHHH...
I thought for sure when I got to work today and settled that with the time difference there would be good news waiting for me to read...

can't wait to see the BFP from lovely Jen fingers....

Steph

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Fri Sep 07, 2007 5:24 pm

BFN

camilla · Post by **camilla** » Fri Sep 07, 2007 5:45 pm

Jen - So sorry. I know you must be upset and you still managed to let us know. There is nothing I can say but my thoughts are with you and your dh.

Lots of love
Camilla xxxxx

Inhale, Exhale · Post by **Inhale, Exhale** » Fri Sep 07, 2007 5:58 pm

Jens- am so sorry for your bfn. I know your heart is broken with hubbys. and mine is broken for you. You have both been through soooo much, too much. I am hugging you from here.....

But, no giving up please. You have lovely frosties waiting. even couples with perfect everythings take a couple of tries.. I know I am saying all the cliches- but they happen to be true and YOU WILL HAVE BABIES!

but for now- cry, scream, throw things, eat chocolate... whatever makes you feel ok to breathe. and whatever you do- do not leave this group! We are here for you to vent.

Luv you Bunny
steph

lolajones · Post by **lolajones** » Fri Sep 07, 2007 7:18 pm

Oh Jen. I'm so sorry my darling girl.
I know this hurts so much, too much.

Please don't give up, it will happen for you. I know, when! you think. You are so brave. Hang on in there, you have frosties!

We're all here for you lovely. Sending you big hugs my sweet

Lola
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Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Fri Sep 07, 2007 7:19 pm

Loops i'm here xx

lolajones · Post by **lolajones** » Fri Sep 07, 2007 7:28 pm

Hi Jen - how you doing love?

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Fri Sep 07, 2007 7:31 pm

so crap and i'm now convinced i cant ever get pregnant. Its so painful but i have to be strong as i'm lucky i have frosties this time.

xxxxx

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Fri Sep 07, 2007 7:47 pm

Will email you, it easier than chatting here.

Feel so exhausted and need to head to bed soon.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Jen1d · Post by **Jen1d** » Sat Sep 08, 2007 10:32 am

After i took the test yesterday i couldnt cry, just sat there saying told you it wouldnt work, why did we think it would. Then i got to my bed and once i lay there i couldnt stop. The pain of seeing dh so sad and knowing i am the cause of it, just breaks my heart as i feel so guilty

Then this morning i couldnt stop again but i have decided i am bloody lucky to have frosties waiting on their mum and dad to collect them and i have to be strong. Dont get me wrong, i feel so sad, emotional drained and really negative about any other cycle because if grade 10's dont work then how can i think any other cycle will but i have another 2 chances and feel so fortunate about that, I have to try.

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR HELP AND SUPPORT, DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITHOUT YOU GIRLS TO CHAT TO.

Will write to you all soon once i get some strength from somewhere.

Love Jen x

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