Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[lolajones]

Hey ladies

Jen lovely, it just is so draining and I know it must be really hard to be positive. One foot in front of the other is the only way out of this. With all of us cheering you on! Sending all my Zena vibes xx

So yet another octo05 carpet from under you situation..... but we will kick this ivf's ass by the end of the year!!

Keep on keeping on dudes

Lola
xxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Hi

We went out to see our friends last night after dreading it for hours but i'm glad we went, it was a change and felt good not to be sitting drowning in my own misery
On the drive there, dh then announced that he wants to try with the frosties, then again if it doesnt work. I was amazed as he always said after one trip to Barcelona that would be it but he said 'whats money'. He thinks we are only here on earth once and only get one go at life so we will find the money from somewhere and try again if the frosties dont work -----------we'll see, there is only so much my body can take.

I am going to call the hospital where i had my first 4 cycles tomorrow and ask about the hysteroscopy and also my Dr. I am just presuming this is what i need done, IM might suggest another test??
I do think that it is probably better getting it done in IM, as they are the ones doing the treatment now and it better sticking with the same clinic so they can investigate everything. Its so frustrating, if i knew there was something stopping the embies implanting, then we could move on but all these cycle and never getting pregnant---i now think it wont ever work and am more negative than ever.

The only thing that is keeping me going is thinking of our embies waiting on us in Barcelona. Strange how i feel so attached to them and just want them home.

As Lola my OctoBud just said to me 'Octos never give up, we only pause'----like that.

I am due back to work tomorrow and dreading it, just dont feel ready but cant sit at home and be miserable. Once i'm there, it will be fine. Just hate everyone feeling so sorry for me.

Love to you all and thanks for all the support---------again

OH I FEEL SO SAD

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Well i went into work and left at 1 instead of 4. Just feel exhausted and cant be bothered with anything-----especially the yp who was giving me abuse most of the morning, wanted to tell her to F@ off

Anyway, got home and ran to the computer to find out if IM had mailed. They did and say there is no reason to investigate further at this stage and we should go ahead with the patches on the 1st day of af then ET can happen in approx 2 weeks

I sent mail back saying i dont want to waste my embies and am unsure about this and feel we need to do tests. Dh is at the Dr just now as he has been so sick for the last couple of days so he will talk to the Dr and see if we can have the procedures done here and £.
I rang my old clinic and they confirmed me there was nothing stopping the embryos and they never did further tests as everything appeared normal.

Checked out the plane fares for the next month and they are through the roof due to October hols etc.

Just dont know what to do? Want a test but everyone says its fine---how do they know as there has never been tests done. Want to do ET but the flights cost a fortune.

Sorry girls but we are just having no luck and i'm so fed up

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

HI Girls!
so sorry for extended MIA.. but when Vaughn calls I answer
actually, was home from work yesterday and you know I still have NO internet at home.. even with nice new laptop! they said in October.. hmpf, will believe it when I see it!

I will not post long here as I will be answering your e-mails instead...can get a little more personal that way.. yowza!

Walshy and Littles- are you guys around?

switchin to hotmail for now...
steph

[Jen1d]

Hi

Well you are all going to die of shock when you hear this one

The developments of the day are

My consultant from old clinic rang and said there is no reason for me to have a hysteroscopy as i've had all the checks done before and all is fine.

My Dr from IM called and said the same, but so we dont have to go back and forward for tests they are going to give me a doppler scan only on the day of ET. This is a 10-15 mins scan to check the endometrial vascularitation (flow) is ok.
She wants me to take some antibiotics just now as if there IS an infection, although there is NOT, but this will make sure all is clear for ET rather than getting there, finding an infection then having to come home with medi then back for ET.
I feel happy with this and Dr Guix said there is no reason the embryos can not implant, its just a case of having to try again---------and i am just so grateful i have embies to try again.

So the patches are on and i will be having my scan on the 17th then ET on the 28th Sep.

The flights are costing a fortune and we will have to find a hotel plus dh is having to lie and take a sicky and i've got a massive headache again with the first patch but apart from that our nerves are still intact---just

Am in work this afternoon and on early tomorrow then have to go visit the Dr for all my medi but will email after that.

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Hi

Well everything seems t be happening.

Consultant from the clinic i had 4 cycles rang and Dr rang from IM, both stressing that i dont need hysteroscopy as i've had enough treatment to look into uterus etc and all has been fine. When i had my tubes removed they also did full check up and nothing is there, its just bad luck that the embies are not implanting and i just need to keep trying. Its great to know nothing is wrong but frustrating they wont stick.

So 27th we fly out, 28th ET the 29th home-------again

Flights are costing a bomb and we can only get a return one at 8am which is a bit of a nightmare but needs must. We have decided to stay at Hotel Husa L'ille, looks fab and just beside the shopping we love.

Cant believe everything has gone so fast but Anna did warn me it could be like this and we jsut thought there is no need to wait. Just praying this is our time and we can have some luck----we have been waiting long enough for it

Went to see my Dr today and she has given me all the medi----£28 worth

IM have decided to put me on antibiotics for 2 weeks as if there is an infection etc so when i go for my doppler scan all will be clear an healthy, whether i had an infection or not. Dr Guix didnt want me getting to IM and having a problem then i would have to go home, take antibiotics then back for ET so this way we will be ready for ET after doppler. So now i'm on 3 lots of tablets twice a day and patches

Ok off to sleep, i'm whacked.

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

COME BACK I'M SAD WITHOUT YOU ALL

[Jen1d]

Still no appearance form you guys---not impressed

Loops you are excused or course, hope your having a fun holiday and managing to relax.

Well i am just waiting until Friday and although a bit worried have decided there is nothing i can do about my lining-----except wait again
Praying that 3 patches will thicken it up nicely and then after my scan i still have 7 days until ET, so hopefully there is time

Whats everyone else been up to?

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hey Jens- will be back later this morning to post proper, but I AM HERE cheering you on!
Steph

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Finally some good news at last as i thought we might have to cancel everything.

Can you believe it 6.1----------and still 7 days to go.

Called IM and they are very pleased and sent all the info through for ET.

So still have to apply 3 patches and ET is now on the 28th at 13.00. Then the test is on the 12th-but this is going to be it this time. I demand a bfp, i have waited long enough so pma all the way
Well i feel like that today but tomorrow could be different

Jen x

[Jen1d]

Wow the sun is out, whats that all about.
Had a tough 2 days of abuse at work so glad i'm finally home.

I am fine, got money sorted out and just need to pack. Seems strange when i look at the ticker, just seems like yesterday when we were in Barcelona but that aeroplane is getting awful close to the pot Cant wait to get my embies back, just hope they thaw ok, never had that worry before as there has never been frosties.
Just hoping the lining is mega thick and they have lots to stick to.

Does anyone know the date Loops gets back, bit worried about her?

Got an email from Littles and she has started downregging, have ordered her back here a.s.a.p to keep us updated.

Ok am thinking of you all but i must go find some tea for the golfer returning then chill. Its been a tough day of abuse


Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

PLEASE COME BACK, I MISS MY BUDS



LOVE JEN X

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hi Jens- so, so sorry I have been MIA.
I have no time to post at work and no internet at home!

I can't believe you are so close to another go.. less time to think is always a good thing. I like to fly by the seat of my pants! how are you feeling? I feel good about this so I will push all positive mind power your way. use as you like, but I have to warn you that my mind is slowly dwindling in strength- am I too young to have Alzheimers? I can't recall when Loops gets back from her adventure for 2.. but know it isn't as long as Walshy's jaunt.. lucky girls to be exploring! would luv a little trip right now.

Littles is cycling again? hmmm.. why isn't she showing her pretty face around these parts then? well-- luck to littles if she is peeking in!

Everything with me is good- eagerly anticipating the return of Greys- this season better be better than last! I demand it to return to good times.

Luv ya much
steph

[Jen1d]

Hi

ARRRRRrrrrhhhhh 2 days, well not even that until we go.

Got this from IM this morning

Come on the morning of the embryo transfer between 9-9:30 am and we'll perform a Doppler scan.
If all is okay we 'll do the transfer a few hours later. We'll contact the labs and defrost 2 embryos at a time and we'll transfer only 2 if both survive the thawing ( 70 % embryos survive).
If 1 doesn't survive then we'll defrost the remaining 2 and transfer all three.
Remind the doctor during the Doppler study about the diazepam and we'll supply you with a tablet (either 5 or 10mg) which you can take 1/2 -1 hour before. (This is to help relax me as ET was painful last time)

Dont know what to do about acu yet as we dont want to be rushing around in the morning, might just have it after ET???

Steph - Thanks for popping in to see me, was thinking i will have to abandon ship, cant talk to myself all the time
Hey, i think i have a bit of the old---what do you call it---no only joking----Alheimers. Once your past 25 the brain forgets everything, except where starbucks is

Must dash, away to work then got a study day with the tutor tomorrow then Big B here we come

Love Jen x

[camilla]

Jen - Oh My God! Good job I decided to log on today! Would have missed your next important dates. Must be fate! Lots of luck for the 28th. Will be thinking of you and your little frosties/embies. Stay calm but I'm sure you know the drill.

Lots of love.
Camilla xxxxx