MY OCTOPALS...sorry, I just needed to shout that out....
Well, it's been a while and ALL my fault as usual... I have heaps of excuses... I have been really busy which has actually been good for me. DH and I have spent some quality time together recently...a few days in the Seychelles which was brilliant as needed to recharge my batteries.
My brother is getting married and I wanted to make him a dvd of his life... well it took FAR longer than expected and after 3 weeks of frustration, I have finalised it. I have also been helping them with translations and video messages. I WILL be really glad when this thing is over

However, I am sad that I won't be there to witness it all...
Where am I?
After my 2 BFNs at the beginning of the year, I went a little crazy and needed some time out from the disappointment. I went to see a counsellor and she has been super. I feel more hopeful that even if this doesn't work I can still be happy. I was so miserable that I couldn't actually remember the last time I was happy...how pathetic is that!
I am feeling more positive now although I do realise just how hard these 6 years have been and how they have changed me. They have made me vulnerable and fragile... but also stronger. I feel fine and am ready to take on IVF 3 whatever it throws at me.
I am currently downregging; it's been nearly 3 weeks. I went for a scan yesterday and I should be ready to start stims on Sunday 7th. In the meantime, I have been unlucky and have another UTI so am on antibiotics (i've had 6 in the past year...) Anyway...no matter how tiresome that is, it WILL not get me down!

Another hurdle to get over really.
IVF 3 will be our last so we have everything riding on this. The Dr suggested PGD testing but we have declined... if it doesn't work this time, that's it and I don't need to know why, but just come to accept the fact that we won't ever children. I am not ready to accept that anytime soon so this HAS to work.
Basically, Jen, we won't be really cycling together because you will be resting up after your BFP when I am in the midst of stimming. I am hoping and praying that your two warrior embies are growing and soon producing that HcG to blow your HPT out of the water

I read your trials and tribulations about ET, your doctors certainly sound like the tops!
Thank you for keeping this thread going....
I'll send you some pics of the Seychelles... was really lovely there.
Can I send you a huge mail or will your pc crash?
Steph, you sound upbeat and very busy. How's little Faith doing? As cute as ever!
Lola is still on her road trip I imagine...she's a beauty. I forgot to tell her...saw her pic!
Camilla, what are you up to? How are the children? Can't believe how time flies...
Walshy, is travelling the world it seems.... lucky her... but much-deserved time off!
Thank you all for keeping me updated via your mails etc.
I really appreciate that. I know that I haven't deserved it much but I needed to step away at some point because I needed to think about something else when I wasn't cycling.
Talk to you soon....
Jen, I trust you're taking great care.... feet up, lassy! It's your turn!!! And TOO far overdue!!
Much love to you all and your DHs...
Littles
