Sept/Oct. Cycle Buddies

[albany07]

OK, I know I am not at your stage of the game... BUT... STOP TESTING!!! Save that money or spend it on a baby blanket or something!!!

I love all you girls and can't stand to read about you guys torturing yourselves!!!!

There are no true signs - I have read about women having mild cramping, pinching pains in the area of the lower abdomen, BB's enlarging with assoc. soreness. But then again, these symptoms may be attributed to the progesterone or trigger shot.

Kelly - could that beta mean twins? It's a little more than double.... I'm hoping for twins for you!!!!

Christie and Donna - go shopping.

Funny enough, I got my ok from my RE to start BCP's again on the first day of AF (probably Monday) but, now I don't know if we are going to go ahead with this cycle as DH will have his Vericocele procedure November 12th. His Dr. said his sperm count can improve within the next 3 months and we can naturally conceive. There are no guarantee's with this procedure as it may not improve the count at all... decisions, decisions... This is a hard one... can I get some opinions on this one.??

Keep your heads up girls!!!! Remember fuzzy pastel baby thoughts!!!

Has anyone thought of Nursery themes? MIL has given us a framed print which DH had in his Nursery when he was a baby - I love it. Colors include brown, beige, orange, blue. And incidentally the only other room in our house (2 bedroom) is painted brown and beige. This will be our Nursery.

One of my friends is also doing IVF and has already painted the baby's room lavender. I asked her what she is going to do if it's a boy - she said he will have to sleep in a lavender room - she's too cute!

I am thinking and praying for each and everyone of you!!! Everything will be ok.

Ingrid

[christie76]

Ingrid,
I'm trying my hardest not to test. It's so hard. I shouldn't have bought any. I wanted to have them to test on Wed., when DH gets home from his business trip. I figured if it was negative, he'd be home with me. If it's positive, then I can surprise him with good news. I didn't want to get the negative from the clinic and have him be at work. I also didn't want to get a positive and have to keep it a secret all day. I think the hpt should be pretty accurate by then. I'd be 16 DPO by then. I don't know why my clinic test at 18 DPO. It seems so late to me. If I can just get through until then. DH is leaving in an hour or so. I need to keep myself busy. Maybe I should give my friend the tests until Wed. I don't want to break down and do one while he is gone.

I'm still getting very mild, af-like cramps on and off. My bb's are sore, which I know is probably from the shots. I'm just trying to keep it together until I test. Donna and Nerms, how are you doing? Any symptoms at all? Donna, did you test today?

How is everyone else doing? Ingrid, that is a hard decision to make. I don't know if I could wait 3 months, but it would be nice to not have to go through IVF. You'll make the right decision. Good luck either way. Let us know what you decide.

[wantinglilones]

Hi there!

Just checking in. Everything is going well with me. Just got 4th Beta results today: 1764. Sounds like its a singleton which i am just fine and happy about. No symptoms yet but i'm in no rush to have morning sickness. Also found out today that they were able to freeze 11 blasts. Yay!

Hope everyone is doing well.

Sorry no personals at this time - i'll check in again on Monday after first u/s.

Love and lots of sticky baby dust to all!!!
Lisa[/img]

[nerms]

Hi ladies sorry I just dissappeared...i was driving myself insane on friday so just went out instead and didn't open the forum again...i find when i post i keep checking and double checking! Yesterday DH was at home so we spent day together and then in evening went to see Damien Rice in concert he was really good..i figured it would be soft music but there was some really loud music and lots of base...i hope it didn't frighten my poor little embies!

Christie...sweetheart I so feel for you...I can hear the agony in your post...or maybe recognise it because I feel just the same...i have to be honest I think weds is fine...our clinic doesn't even do blood tests relies on hpt's and day 16 po is what they use, i think your reasons justify it-at least DH will be with you...please don't test before then though....keep yourself really busy while DH is away..and we're all here for you too...vent here ok!

Ingrid...what a decision....as patient women in general if you think about it...it's such a long journey to get to ivf, we suddenly become quite impatient when it comes to the actual treatment starting...i think if you can stretch yourself and afford it...i would go for another IVF...don't know if could wait another three months...for a just in case....but then again rely on your gut feeling too...hope you make the right decision!

Love...how truly amazing....i can't believe they can tell you it's a girl...i'm just thrilled for you....wishing the 2ww flies by for you!


Kelly-same to you darling...i was telling DH yesterday that even if it is a BFP that i don't think my heart will truly believe it until i see that heartbeat...i can understand your anxiety....praying time passes by super quick for you...keep embies warm and keep talking to them! BTW...have you tested again since BFP?

Donna...how are you...big day tomorrow!!! Have you tested again? Sorry I didn't contact you...i'd left for the day...i think i just had too much time on friday...not always a good thing! Besides i don't know how to use msn

Donnell...what's your news lady...haven't heard from you in a while?

To all us ladies in waiting i'm praying hard for a strong juicy humangous BFP for all of us!!!! will be chanting BFP all day today!!!

Love to all

Nerms
xx

[christie76]

Lisa,
That's great news. You must be so thrilled they froze 11 blasts. I bet you can't wait to hear that heartbeat. That must be so amazing.

Nerms,
Glad that you've been able to keep yourself busy. I'm sure your embbies loved the music. I'm so glad to hear that your clinic tests with an hpt at 16 DPO. That makes me feel better about taking it on Wed. Do you have a blood test too or not?

I got through another day without testing. I think I'll be fine. I've been keeping busy. I have all my girlfriends coming over in a couple of hours to celebrate my friend's 30th birthday. That will be fun. DH will be home before I know it. It's nice to have a nice, clean house and nobody to dirty it I'm going to enjoy it while I can. I think I'll go get a pedicure tomorrow or Tue. My bb's have started to really hurt the last couple of days. I'm sure it's the shots. I couldn't even roll over last night. Ouch. I'm still getting that mild af cramping on and off. It's driving me crazy, because I really feel like I'm about to get it. Oh well. Just a few more days to find out. Donna, good luck tomorrow. I'm praying that you get a BFP!!! Let us know what happens.

[carolina1girl1]

Well today is 5 days after the et. I have had some cramping today, not sure if that is good or bad.. Anyone else had any cramps? 8 more days until we test. We are testing fairly early so i don't think i will test at home, just wait until the 15th to test at doctors. Good luck to everyone testing this week!!!! Alot of bfp coming our way ladies!!! so get ready.
melanie

[doddo72]

Well I am pretty sure its a BFN for us. I am still testing negative on the HPT's. Today is 10p3dt. My boobs even stopped hurting. I have been crying all weekend.

Why wouldn't it work this time? 3 grade 1 embies w. assisted hatching, perfect uterus lining, 3 days bed rest, asprin vitamins, all the required meds.

I was pregnant in April but lost the baby. What is wrong with me? I tried so hard for this cycle to work? Tomorrow I go to the DR so they can confirm it.

Sorry to share the bad news, but at times I feel I have no one else that understands...


Donna

[albany07]

Donna - I have read many posts where many women test HPT and do not detect at home, and sure enough beta is +. Don't cry, sweetheart!!! I feel like crying myself after reading your last post - I know the pain you are feeling. I felt it every month, before we knew what was wrong with DH. I always thought I was going to be a fertile mertle and one drop was all it was going to take. Every month, I psychologically prepared myself for pregnancy and believe me you my weight today shows it. DH and I started trying in November 06. I have gained 35 pounds since then...

therefore, after many hours of contemplation of what to do next... DH and I decided to wait for the procedure and in the mean time - I have done a lot of thinking about weight and all... I am going to wait and run far distances in between. I started my running regimine today. Nerms - I think you helped me in your post... We all have GREAT patience. This is a journey and for what ever reason I and all of us had to experience it - we have all learned quite valuable lessons from it. Mine I guess, is patience. I have always been a little short on that (spoiled singleton). This process has made me more patient and understanding - it has softened me. I am greatful and I can't resist this gut feeling that everything has happened the way it has FOR A REASON.

Christie - You are sooooo strong! YOU go girl!!! DH will be home soon - I am praying for you and sending you great PINK fuzzy thoughts.

Lisa & Kelly- Great news on the BFP, I am soooooo happy for you both!!

Love and Melanie - Keep the spirit, time will fly!

Hello Donnell, hope all is well.

To all the other girls, hello and sending much sticky baby dust and hope!

Ingrid



Donnell,

[albany07]

Christie and Nerms - THANK YOU FOR YOUR RESPONSES>>>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

XOXOXOXOXO

Ingrid

[baby_or_bust]

Hi ladies~ Sorry I have been MIA. I am so, so grouchy. I am biting my families head's off. AF showed today in full force. I am glad she is here though so hopefully I can have FET in Nov. I have to go back in for one more draw to make sure I am at zero before my protocol for FET. I'll keep you all posted. But for now....I had a lovely beer.

Ingrid ~ You do have so much patience. Especially after everything you have been through. You are such a strong and caring person.

Donna ~ Please don't give up. I was right there where you are today. I didn't get my BFP on the hpt until 10dp4dt - and I have read where so many other women don't get their BFP until after their first beta.

Christie~ How are you doing lady? How is the 2ww treating you?

Lisa & Kelly ~ You don't know how happy I am for you two. Part of it is for selfish reasons. If it is possible for you two, then I pray it is possible for all of us. I want that elusive BFP for me, but not just for me, for all of us ladies. We all want this so badly. It consumes us and I know, we want it for our DH's. So thank you both for giving me hope.

Love & Melanie ~ I know I haven't been posting often, but I read everyday and I am praying for both of you.

Everyone else, I am sorry if I missed you. I am terrible at keeping up with personals. I hope and pray that we all get our BFP's and 9 months later one or two beautiful babies. (or more for some).

Lots of sticky baby dust to all!

~Donnell

[christie76]

Melanie,
The cramping is totally normal. I'm still getting it off and on. It's very mild, though. I think you should wait until your blood test, since they do test so early. I wish my clinic did that. Oh well. Only a few more days. I can wait.

Donna,
I can totally relate to how you are feeling. That's why I can't do that hpt until dh is here with me. I don't think I could see the negative right now. I know I'll break down. Don't ever apologize for venting here. That's exactly what this message board is for. We can all relate to what you are going through in one way or another. Try not to give up hope until the doctor tells you to. There is still a chance that it is too early. I'm still praying that you will get a BFP tomorrow.

Ingrid,
I think you made the right decision. This whole process does teach us to have patience. I've always had a problem with patience myself. Now, I have no choice. I've also gained quite a bit of weight in the past year. I feel like I've been in a mini-depression every time I get a negative. I did start working out again this summer. It's been 2 weeks since I've been and I'm going crazy. I get to go back next week either way. I hope and pray that you are able to conceive naturally. That would be so amazing after everything.

Donnell,
Well, I guess it's a good thing that af showed up. Now, you can move on to the next phase. I'm crossing my fingers for you that the FET works. Good luck!!!

-Christie

[nerms]

Hi ladies...

Donna I am so sorry to hear you keep getting a neg on the hpt, but listen to the other ladies don't give up hope just yet....lets just see what happens. I feel kinda down myself today...well didn't get enough sleep so feeling really grouchy anyway, then just before I left for work I noticed a little blood on my pants...it is the smallest amount and despite wiping thoroughly (sorry if it's TMI ) there is no further bleeding....of course i have heard of implantation bleeding, but the same thing happened to me on my last cycle, two days before test day I started getting some bleeding, which continued the following day...not significant, but def there, then it was a BFN.

I am so sorry I feel a bit down today so won't do any other personals.

Ingrid...i'm happy that I helped you make your decision..i'm honoured Wishing you all the best with the natural route!!

nerms
x

[keddie]

Hi Girls,

Wow, after reading all your posts it's just amazing the journeys we all have to go thru and yours all sounds so simliar!

I go in tomorrow for my first us and third beta test. I am really hoping to see two in there but as long as I see SOMETHING I will be able to think straight again! I hope you are right Ingrid!

Donna, I'm still praying your dumb hpt is WRONG! The blood tests I'm sure are a lot more sensitive. I could cry for you guys because it isn't fair but I still believe it can happen because it DOES happen for so many women. Don't give up hope, try to think positive

Christiie, good for you for holding off! It's definately not an easy thing, I held off til my blood test but I thought of buying hpt's quite a few times. I had an early beta also, it was only 8 days after my transfer...

Ingrid, I know what you mean about that weight gain, it sucks, when we were doing all those rounds of injectables and timed intercourse I swear those drugs had an effect on me, i ended up gaining 15/20 pounds then we tried an IUI cycle that failed..we waited at least 8 months or so to save up money for the IVF cycle and in that time I joined weight watchers and lost that weight. I think for any of us going thru this "crap" ..for lack of a kinder word...has no patience...how can we ?? when..We all deserve to be mothers and there are some in this world who do not...makes it hard to deal with...Hang in there and keep in touch you help us all so much especially for me...I still use my visulization and I bought baby lotion for more PMA, I'm surpised no one at work asked why I smell like a baby!

Donnell, I"m So sorry for you.... November is almost here and will be a new time for you....hopefully that will be your time for BPF!!


Nerms, good for you going out and trying to get that off your mind for a few hours! You don't have long now!

Anyone I missed, I'm praying for those BFP's still!

[doddo72]

Its a BFN for us. Nurse called and confirmed it. If we do a FET, it won't be until December. I don't even know if I want to do this anymore. The stress is crazy and I get sick of failed cycles. I guess I am just not lucky!
Thank you for your support.


Donna

[christie76]

Oh Donna. I'm so sorry. I know you must feel so down right now. I can't imagine going through this 3 times and it not working. This is only my first cycle and I'm so stressed. If I get a negative, I don't know when I want to do it again. I'm not sure I can jump right back into it so soon. I may need a month or two off to clear my head. I know that lots of women do 5 or 6 cycles before it works. I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you.

-Christie