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[DonnaUS-NY]

Su,
Checking in on you, how are you doing? Hope you are still taking care of yourself like you comitted to on your post from 10/15? The way I look at it is work will always be there - these are temporary times that we need to focus on ourselves for our own health (mental, emotional, physical, spiritual). I too think its awesome you are pursuing this, unfortunately for us women there is a certain window of opportunity so its good you are taking advantage of it while the window is still open (and you still have time!) I am praying and hoping for you, maybe those lousy feelings (crampy,nauseuous) are going to mean wonderful things!!

Kery,
One week to go!! Be here before you know it (but I am sure not soon enough), how are you feeling? By the way, you are so right. We are so fortunate to have a child and part of me is anxious to move on past these treatments so I can solely focus on her and enjoying things/life and her more fully without this heartbreak in between. I'd like to move on prerably with a sibling for her, but that's my view maybe not God's. My husband's thought was maybe we were not supposed to have any and God saw fit to send us our daughter as a gift; that thought gives us more gratitude for where we are right now as opposed to putting our hand out saying "God, more please".

Tanya,
I love your blog. You look beautiful by the way - you are carrying well!!! The pictures of the babies are so cool and I love the way you are documenting the process with pictures of the stuff you bought for the babies. I know physically it takes a toll carrying two as I have a friend who had twins that were both around 7lbs!! She described the physical feelings and its not easy on the body, thats for sure. She and babies are healthy and happy!!

Gargy,
I know I should have not torture myself with the hpt. It's that I found it easier to mourn over time then to get hit with the news. Particularily since I will be at work when I get the results. It still not looking good, I've felt this before multiple times and I can tell it's a BFN. Its not over until its over but I am trying to prepare.

I understand the dark thoughts you described too. I think its my way of trying to make sense of something clearly beyond my control, then maybe if I can make sense of it, maybe I can fix it. Which ofcourse is not so beyond doing the right footwork with treatments etc. I am glad your family issues are working out too. Keep us posted on the house hunting!

I go tomorrow for the final word and will let you all know what happens. Then I feel we can start accepting and move on.

[squeezan]

Donna - Thanks for checking. I'm doing ok thanks, not getting too stressed at work. Although I did get called in to the boss Tuesday cos I went home sick Monday. I've got to have a 'sickness review' if she finds I've had 3 episodes within the last year and she says I'll then have to tell her whats going on so that she can 'manage' my sickness (so far I've just said I'm having some treatment). I really don't want to tell her and occ health told me they have no right to know if I don't want but I don't want to get her back up either as she could make time off for appts difficult if she felt like it. Hoping I can just delay the meeting til after test day at the moment.
You're right about taking advantage of the 'window', that's just how I feel. Just not sure its as wide as I'd like and rapidly closing!
Good luck with your test tomorrow - will be thinking of you

Gargy - I can totally relate when you say your on your own. I don't think most of my friends can even relate to iui and really don't understand what it takes out of you. That's why this site is such a blessing. I'd be very lonely without it.

Kery - Half way there! What are you doing to pass the time?

Hi to everyone else. I'll get my head around eveyone on here soon, I promise.
Love Su x

[TansRN]

Hey guys
I am having my twins on December 26th at 7:30 AM!!!!! The hospital just called to set things up! I am soooo excited!!!! Woo Hooo Merry Christmas!!!

Donna
Glad that you like my blog. It is fun and I intend on adding the posts to their baby book! It is a fun way to communicate. Thank you for your nice comments! I am so excited to meet my babies. I still can't believe babies!! Should be lots of fun! I cant wait to eat them up! kiss their toes and grab baby butts!!! LOL Good Luck tomorrow!!!

Gargy
Just keep puching those negative thoughts away. You need positive thinking at this point in the game. You have come this far and persevered through so much. Just keep taking things one day at a time. You dont have to live the rest of the year right now you just have to make it through today! And you have a great support team right here!!!! Plus you have a lot going on right now with moving and all. That is a big job in and of itself!!! Hang in there and try not to be too hard on yourself!

[Kery]

Hey Squeezan
I'm just trying not to think about it, but it's pretty hard.

Tanya
OH MY GOD the 26th it must be great to have a date now. Have you got any names picked out?

Kery xx

[Gargy]

Thankyou so much lovely ladies - you almost had me in tears. I really love coming here and sharing with you all. I always know that you will worry about me when I go missing for a while, as well as support me when I'm here. Again, thankyou.

You'll be pleased to know I'm moving out of the dark and dangerous thoughts kerb again - much of it thanks to you all.

Tanya I love your blog too - I thought it was a happy, joyous place on the net. Can't wait to me your little ones. Brilliant date by the way!

Donna, I'm thinking about you. I hope things go well for you whatever you decide. Please keep in contact regardless.

Kery - it's so close!!

Squeazan and Miracle08 - hope things are going well.

[TansRN]

Kery
We are going with Sophie and Riley. I am thrilled to have the date set. It is encouraging! I am going nuts to be able to see them. Maybe monday at my 3D appointment. I am so hoping.

Gargy
It is a great place to come for friendship and encouragement isnt it? I love it here.

Well I had my one hour glucose test today and it was about boring waiting at the lab for that time watching people come and go. Oh well. At least it is done. I will see what they say on Monday. Hopefully that will have good news and I wont have to do the 3 hour deal!!!

[DonnaUS-NY]

Well it was confirmed a BFN! I can't say I was surprised though. I have been doing a lot of praying for direction these days as I am at a loss. I can only do the footwork but options have seemed to close in (for now). I will continue to check in with you all.

DH 38 – Azoospermia
Me 36 – Uknown issue now

9/03 DS IVF – BFN
1/04 DS FET – Daughter born 9/04!
3/06 DS IVF – Miscarriage
7/06 DS IVF – BFN
3/07 DS IVF – BFN
5/07 DS IVF – BFN
10/07 FET w/ Donated Embryo - BFN

[Kery]

Donna gee what can I say love. I am so sorry, you have really had your fair share of bfn's. You are such a strong lady to have coped with all you have been through. I really don't think I would have coped as well as you have. All I can say is that we are all here to listen if you need us.
Big hugs to you!!!!

Kery xxx

[Gargy]

Oh Donna,

I am so incredibly sorry that you got the BFN result, even though you had a strong suspicion that it may go that way. Obviously it will take some time to sort out what you will do. Know that I'm thinking of you. Big hugs.

[TansRN]

Donna
I am so sorry to hear of your BFN. That is so hard isnt it? After all you have been through. Take the time you need to decide what you are going to do. Check in when you can!

[Miracle08]

Hi Ladies,
I am sorry i havent wrote in awhile. I have been so busy.

TansRN- CONGRATULATIONS!!! Getting the date makes it so "REAL!!" that is such an awesome Christmas present!!!! (you will be able to claim them on your taxes too!!! ) I am so very happy for you!!! Sophie and Riley are beautiful names!!! I love them!

Donna-I am so sorry to hear your horrible news. You and your family have been through too much. Cling to your baby girl and husband!!! I am praying for you...

Kery & Su- i know you both are going nuts over waiting. I am praying for your BFP's!!!

Gargy- so glad you are doing better!! Take it one day at a time!!

Thank you to all of you for your comments and sharing your stories! It has helped clerify so much for me. I know my husband and I are truly doing the right thing for us both.

Take care!!!

[TansRN]

Just to let y'all know that I have posted the 3D u/s photos on www.thejourneyforbaby.blogspot.com for your viewing pleasure. It was so amazing! I had a great time and the babies are so much more interesting in 3D than the 2D black and white deals!! It was sooo cool to actually be able to see them and watch them move about!!! Technology......its great!

Miracle
You are right-souble the tax deductions! LOL Just kidding....I cant wait to see the babies!!!

Donna
Hope that you are hanging in there. I am thinking about you.

Gargy
How are you girl? Hope that things are moving right along for you!

Kery and Su
Hope that you guys are making it one day at a time....no more no less. Take care.

[Gargy]

Love the photos Tanya!

I think it's brilliant now that they can show so much of your baby and make it feel more real because it's in 3D. It's almost like you can reach out and touch them!

Had a bit of a freak out on Sunday night after sending an email to family and friends saying that we were leaving. However, back on track now, mainly thanks to my brother who made a joke about the whole thing and made me feel better.

Unfortunately we missed out on a house I liked. Back on the treadmill of looking at houses tomorrow...

[TansRN]

Gargy
I know what you mean. i wanted to reach out and touch them! It really felt like I could! I looked at their photos all night! It is so amazing. I wish I could see them like this all the time. Too Cool. Leave it up to brothers to make us laugh eh? Glad that things are back on track for you. Good Luck.

[Kery]

Hi Tanya

I tryed to search for the web page but I was unable to find it. I will keep tryin!! It's amazing what they can do these days we didn't even get a untrasound photo when I was pregnant. I guess things change a lot in ten years!!

Kery xx