DONOR EGG Tmt Thread... " Egg-heads"

[rhall00]

Hi guys! Sorry I've been away. School is getting crazy as we're getting closer to the end of the semester. I'm hanging in there. We met with our RE yesterday and he was really positive about the whole thing. He is very conservative with this type of thing so that was positive. Looks like we're going to try again in January. That gives us time to get through the holidays and spend time with our families back in Michigan. Cannot wait!

Kelly and Carolyn, best of luck!! Hope your bellies are starting to grow (and not from eating too much!).

Welcome Judy! You couldn't have picked a more informative and funny group of women!

Chris, JenB and Jen1d, hang in there. It's a long journey, but we'll get there at some point. Jen1d, glad the adoption appointment went soo well! That's great news! Definitely hope this is your last Christmas alone!

[Jen1d]

Hi gang

Yep i am a bit excited now, thinking that i can maybe be a mum before next Christmas BUT you wont believe this girls. I spent all last night sleeping badly and worrying about things like
what if a child breaks up my marriage, causes problems
what if i cant bond with it
what if it doesnt like us
what if we cant get shifts shorted for child care
what if the kid goes to look for its own parents at 18
what if it doesnt what us then
what if it has behavioural problems
what if i am stressed about it mucking up my house, lol (thats a daft one)
what if i cant be bothered to be a mum after all this
what if i still grieve for my own and reject it
what if friends dont treat it like its mine as its not biological
what if its UGLY---you know i dont do uglies lol (sorry another daft one)
THE LIST GOES ON.

My friend has always said if the ivf ever worked then its still natural to be shocked that you are pregnant and to feel lots of emotions about the changes that will happen.

Maybe i am just being daft but i think i would prefer another 2ww

Anyway still a long way to go and i'm still praying i can have my own little bundle, thats what i really want, so have to focus on the frosties first.

Ok off to do a sleepover tomorrow then out with the girls to watch Scotland and Italy and have a few lemonades---should be a laugh.

If i dont get back, have a good weekend.

Love Jen x

[jen babes]

jen1 oh lass you nutter...cant you stop stressing for a minute,(((HUGS)))) no one learns to be a parent on day 1 it takes a lifetime...you have great skills and will be fab...i shouldnt be supporting you tho i should be telling you off for being so mad but oyu made me LOL at some of the comments ...you girl take it all 1 day at a time and see what 2008 brings. a lovely nice surprise of a BFP i bet dn adoption later in year x x much love x x

chriss hey sweetie good for you to post x x even tho i bullied ya ...what a bummer that you have had no ovulation this month. could it be becasue of drugs at last ivf still in system. i know when i down regged the 1st time it took me 10wks to get AF so maybe surge time was off cos your system is till getting back into sync...whats next step???? when do you meet doctor ? and look at next step??? is it ivf in dec??? please let us help yo here hun it must be sore x x x much love x x x

rhalloo good to hear from ya x x looks like there will be another batch of us girls going in Jan you me (jen B) and jen1...bless our 2ww in advance for productive BFP's x x x x

gill hugs to ya hun x x x

sonia how did scan go??? asll okay is next step donor stims????

Big J thinking of ya hping today is ec day x x x
carolyn and kelly nearly 1 wk in girls...hope all is well with you and those embies are beginning to burrow...good luck x x x breathe and believe...
in faith trust and pixie dust...blah blah blah oh big hugs to you both x x

much love and hugs to everyone else

i am doing ok ...1 day at a time
hoping to go out with DH and his work tomorrow but staying off the booze as tears too close to the surface at the moment still...
have a good weekend everyone
love jen B
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[chriss]

You girls make me smile. Thanks for the good humor. I just love some of your sayings, I am a US girl and get a kick out of your phrases.

Jen1d, we understand your concerns. One day at a time girl, things will work out. Focus on all there will be to enjoy!

Jenbabes, stay away from the booze, I'm like you, went to a wedding shortly after my miscarriage and I was in the bathroom bawling half through the night. Cause of too much drinky! UGH!

Have appointment Saturday to find out what's brewing inside. Want to start IVF if they let me. Too bad I coouldn't do the IUI. No egg, no IUI.

Hello to all of you wonderful girls. Thinking of you. Gotta go to my yoga class. Much love, -chriss

[judyy]

Hi girls,

We had a financial appt today with the clinic, and got an estimate of DE cycle. Insurance will only pick up a small portion of it, so we are faced with a pretty big bill.. We might do the Money back option, where you get some of the money back if all fails.. Maybe i shouldn't even talk about this, so not to jinx it! Luck has been so far from our reach lately, I can only pray for the best..

rhall00 - Let's all stay positive! Enjoy the holidays and start the next cycle in the brand new year.

Kelly - Hope all your embies are happy implanting!

Carolyn - Wish the best for your embies too!

Jen1 - You will be a great mom. Whether adopt or egg donor, you will for sure bond with them. It's probably the experience of raising them that counts the most, not biological.

chriss - best luck with your IVF cycle..

JenB - yes, stay away from the booze might be better, it tends to depress me too sometimes.

Gil - enjoy skiing
Hi to everyone else..

[Jen1d]

Thanks for reassuring me girls, know i'm mad but adoption brings up so many different emotions and questions than ivf and donor treatment.
My head was buzzing after the social workers visit but as normal, you guys have helped.

Hi to everyone else, am in a rush as i start work soon.

Out with the girls tomorrow night, should be a laugh but will go easy on the lemonades, like Jen, the booze can bring out the tears.


and cheer for Scotland ----especially the English ones

Love Jen x

[CarolynB]

Jen1d - good job that you did another up beat post. I was going to give you a major telling off. Stop worrying for worrying sake. Give yourself a break. The adoption meeting went well. You work with some really tough kids. You forge bonds with them so you are going to be a natural. Your dh has put up with you this far so it is going to be fine for both of you! Lecture over. By next year, you'll have 1 through adoption plus a brother/sister from the FET. Then you really will have stuff to worry about!!!!! Hope work not too bad and that you have a nice lemonade. I will not be cheering for Scotland - get lost!!! Oh and I love your new ticker. So much better

JB - hope that you are taking enough time for you. You have been through so much. Take time with your dear dh. Hope that you have some nice things lined up and not all dieting for you babe

Chriss - sorry that ovulation did not happen. The meds can really muck up your system. Let's hope that your appointment tomorrow goes well

Rhall - glad that your re was +ve. Seems like a lot of you will be cycling in Jan. Busy start to the New Year. You have lots of frosties right???

Big J - keep thinking of you and hoping that everything is going well in Kiev. Hope that your dh is not in too much pain. Hoping for a good transfer for you babe. Then you can join me and Kelly on the mental 2ww

Kelly - how are you and the football team doing??? I feel just the same as you hun. Hard 1st week so lord only knows what next week will be like. I have a really cold tummy too which has been worrying me. But Jen1d told me that I should put a blanket on me so have a blanket glued to me!!! Seems to have helped. Thanks Jen1d! Keep imagining symptoms but not sure that I feel anything down there at all. How about you?

Gill - how are you doing? Hope that those skis are waxed and ready to go!

Judy - the financial decisions are so hard. We all know that it is about much more than the money but we are all spending so much. Good luck with your decision making. The clinic we are at offers a refund programme but it is very very expensive and I don;t want the money back if it does not work. Know that is not rationale but you have to go with your gut instinct

Lucy - are you keeping really busy ahead of your appointment? Starting to get excited for you. 1st appointment is such a big step forward

Vicki - what news from my fellow ex-hammer? Hope you are doing ok with the waiting. It can be so frustrating

Hello to everyone else. Hope that you all have a good weekend lined up. I am taking it really easy - chilling with X Factor and the Dancing. That is it for me. Not sure how work is going to be next week but setting myself a target to leave at 5.30pm every night and not to start too early. That is the plan.

Monday is Day 11 for me (9dp2dt) which is ALWAYS the day that I bleed at about 10am in the morning. Not sure how I will cope. I can hear Jen and the others shouting at me and telling me the meds will stop it happening. I have never got past this point in 4 Fresh very different cycles. So I shall have to see. Seems like a massive milestone for me.

Anyway enough from me.

Take care all.

Lots of Love
Carolyn
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[kellym]

Hi to Everyone!

This has got to be quick because I am trying to finish something off at work before I can get out of here.

Carolyn, I cannot get over how slowly this 2 week period is going. Much slower than any of the other times. I completely understand what you mean about the milestone day. I always bleed before the test day (on day 12 or 13 post ET) so I, like you, will be giddy if I make it to test day without bleeding.

I am actually feeling pretty lousy today - very mild cramps (not localized but kind of general) and lower achy back pain which is driving me crazy today. Right now I'd just like to get my book, a hot water bottle and climb into bed but sadly I can't right now - a few more hours to go! I know I can't read into everything but I sure hope that I don't feel this gross the whole 2 weeks!

Take care and I hope everyone has an awesome weekend!!!

[Jen1d]

YES CAROLYN I AM SHOUTING AT YOU

DAY 11 IS NOT ALLOWED IN YOUR HEAD AND YOU WILL BREEZE THROUGH IT---SO STOP WORRYING.

NOW THATS YOU TOLD

OH YE, I WOULDNT SHOUT FOR ENGLAND EITHER

PS--AND THE HUBBY IS ENGLISH

HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND

LOVE JEN X

[Jen1d]

Not another word Carolyn






We still had a blast even though we were robbed

Love Jen x

[CarolynB]

Jen1d - I watched some of it and have to agree that you were really unlucky especially with a couple of the decisions. Have resisted cheeky texts to you as will need you for full support over the next week!!! Glad that you had a good time anyway. How is the head?

Kelly - I am with you. Time is passing really really slowly but sounds like you have some symptoms which must be good surely. Hope that you managed to get out of work at a reasonable time. Hope that you are taking it easy and not over doing things. Hope that you feel better over the next few days

Hope everyone else is having a good weekend.

Well I had some pinky colour staining when I went to the loo this morning. I have e-mailed IM/Barcelona to see what they think but sure that I will not hear back until tomorrow. Cannot say that I am filled with bags of optimism. Just need to try to get through a day at a time if I can. Get the sense that I am already trying to prepare myself. Groundhog day. Seen the movie before and don't like the ending. (No shouting at me please as I am just trying to be realistic)

Will keep you posted as the saga develops. You've got a whole week of it to put up with!

Love to you all.

Carolyn
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[kellym]

Carolyn, I know how important it is to keep up the PMA, but like you I start trying to 'prepare' myself and be realistic. Now having said that, the pink staining is not a bad thing!

This round more than ever I keep telling myself that this is likely not to work so don't get your hopes up - this is between my thoughts of how fun it'll be at christmas when i tell my family that i am preggers (kind of getting ahead of myself, I know). Then I try to pull myself back and remind myself that it hasn't worked yet so don't get too excited. Geez, the head games we play with ourselves!

Hope everyone is having a fantastic weekend! I wake up every morning and say that another day down. It is sad that i am wishing the days away just so that I can get to Nov 27th!

[chriss]

Kelly & Carolyn, the 2nd week is tougher than the first as I recall. Try to keep the optimism. You can not rely on symtpoms... the meds make your body crazy. The one time I did get a BFP, I felt PMS symptoms, etc. Carolyn, the pink can be anything, as you know. Try to stay positive girls.
Good to have a buddy in it with you, huh? I'm hoping for a BFP for you!!!!

Jen1d, hope you had fun out last night. Feels good to let go a little with the friends, huh?

JenB, what's going on girl? Hope you are well.

Judy, it stinks that money has to be a concern for us when we have so many other concerns, but like you, my DH and I will do whatever it takes. Thinking of you. Understand what you are going through.

rhall, as I mentioned, waiting is a challenge. But at least you know that you will start up agian in Jan. So, yes, do enjoy the holidays. Clear the mind, let the body get strong. You know how quickly time goes by. Thanks for your encouragement.

To all I missed, saying hello. Looking forward to hearing from you soon.

I went to doc yesterday and still no signs of anything (Day 35) so he instructed me to do a PIO shot (2ml) to bring on AF. Said it should be arriving within a week. Then we can do bloods & sono and hopefully start IVF cycle. (NO IUI for us, never ovulated...bummer) Waiting, waiting, waiting. If we are not waiting for AF, we are waiting for IVF to start. If we are not waiting for IVF., we might be waiting for ovulation. If not ovulaiton, maybe follicles to grow, if not that, then waiting for trigger shot, if not that... waiting to find out if eggs fertilized, or what day to transfer, or the 2ww. All we do is wait! I HATE TO WAIT. Sorry, I lost it there for a minute. Well, I guess I'll just go wait for AF. Have a good day. (HA,HA) -chriss

[kellym]

Chris - that is so true - wait, wait, wait! I am slowly going crazy during this 2ww. But then I've heard that even when you get a BFP then you go crazy waiting for your first scan. It is all about waiting!

Carolyn - how are you doing today sweetie? hanging in there? One week down!!! Hard to believe that was just one week, eh?

JenB, Jen1, Gill, Rhall - how are you guys doing? Have they started to schedule your next steps?

BigJ - how are you? when was/is ET? hope that you are doing well! Can't wait to hear all about your trip to Kiev!

Lucy - not long know until your first appointment!

Well, I am feeling pretty positive today! I had cramps in the middle of the night last night and my bbs are still sore. I went back to read what I wrote about my symptoms when I had my last BFP (chemical) in April and I got bad cramps in the middle of the night on the same day (day 6 post transfer). But I know I am reading into everything and all of these things could be the progesteone! I guess only time will tell!!

Thinking of you wonderful women!!!

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Went to the Dr today as i have been feeling depressed since Scotland got beat-----she said i have to just plod on and when Wednesday comes i should feel better as England will get beat to-----------

No, only joking, i was at the Dr for all my results and they came back all clear and normal. Of course i am happy about this but there is part of me that thinks if i had something wrong then i could move on but when everything keeps coming back normal and it still doesnt work then i just feel more gutted. Asked about the immune testing and she is going to find out all the info for me and call soon.
Also checked out about adoption medical---bless her wee cotton socks, she said she would write a letter when needed saying we finished treatment in 2007--she's fab.

so work was mad today, am so tired. Boss in the crap as she is not managing the unit and we are running it, think she will go off sick soon.

It has been pouring with rain all day, so sitting in pj's and going to chill.

Kelly - glad you are feeling so positive today, must be hard after all you have been through--good for you. Not long now, hang in there.

Carolyn - Oh babe, you are going through the mill. I can honestly say that i think this pink spotting is good as you are only a week in. I uusally bleed only about 4 days before the test, not a week before. This is why i think it is probably implantation bleeding but i dont want to get your hopes up so will shut up. Hang in there babe.

I know its hard girls but you are nearly there.
Keep smiling


Hi to everyone else, hope your all doing ok

Love Jen x