Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Jen1d]

Oh Loops

Poor thing, my friend is a week overdue and i tx her this morning and she hasnt replied so i'm now thinking she must be in hospital and i can feel the pangs of jealousy as we speak.
Know it so hard but you have been pregnant, so you know you CAN get pregnant again. It will take time but you will get there and just think how you will be the one with a big smirk on your face when you visit your sil.



Am off to work after my night out with the girls to watch the footie-------------dont even go there-----we were robbed

BUT we Jocks still know how to party, had a blast


Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Went to the Dr today as i have been feeling depressed since Scotland got beat-----she said i have to just plod on and when Wednesday comes i should feel better as England will get beat to-----------

No, only joking, i was at the Dr for all my results and they came back all clear and normal. Of course i am happy about this but there is part of me that thinks if i had something wrong then i could move on but when everything keeps coming back normal and it still doesnt work then i just feel more gutted. Asked about the immune testing and she is going to find out all the info for me and call soon.
Also checked out about adoption medical---bless her wee cotton socks, she said she would write a letter when needed saying we finished treatment in 2007--she's fab.

Work was mad today, am so tired. Boss in the crap as she is not managing the unit and we are running it, think she will go off sick soon.
It has been pouring with rain all day, so sitting in pj's and going to chill.

Littles - Not long now until your scan, how you feeling or is that a silly question? Bet it feel strange after waiting all this time for a bfp and now you must still be in shock---enjoy every second.

Steph - So whats new with you babe, still working to hard? Not like you to disappear so much, get back now with all your news or i will have to start being scary---believe me, you dont want to mess with a Jock

Walshy - Thinking of you as always, when are you back???

Loops - So its me and you still plodding along on the road to preggerland. How long is him upstairs going to make us wait, havent we waited enough? Have you managed to pop in and see your sil baby yet? Hope your not feeling so down , you will be next

Keep smiling


Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Nope, and not going to for a few weeks either, am looking after myself and dh, she can just understand or bog off frankly.

So your tests all bueno - I understand your frustration sweet pea. But y'know I saw a post on here today a lady 36 weeks preg after 3 failed ivf and 6 failed FETs!!!! So tell me, what is your plan? FET in january? Do you have actual dates??

And where is Littles?? Come on honey - we need your preg lady luck around these parts!

And as for steph..... shaky head shaky head, disappointed......

I see El Lav a week tomorrow and then I should have some dates and a brand new ticker - woo hoo!!!

OK my sweet sweet buenas
Hasta manana
Lola
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[Jen1d]

Oh Loops

Can understand your frustration and how your feeling bet every emotion is inside. Your doing the right thing to rubber her for a bit.

Plan is FET in Jan then keep going with the adoption plan and hopefully FET will work and i will have everything-------hahaha dont see that happening.

We would love to keep going on and try again but cant afford anymore. Plus even though i would keep going, there is only so much my body can take and i feel at some point i will have to come to terms with my situation and move on---although i cant just now. I cant throw more money away---for what?? and emotionally its awful. If i had my own eggs it would be easier but i dont know where to get some if i do it over here with my free cycle, which should be in about a year??????????
I desperately want to be pregnant and experience a baby, my baby but that has been taken from me already and i have to live with the pain for the rest of my life. So donor was the next best thing and even with the best embies, its not working. I am just so frustrated as everyone keeps telling me there is nothing wrong with me---so why does it not work. I would feel better if i had something wrong then i could move on but i will always have that feeling of --i should try again and again and again---how much do i put myself through. I would keep trying but dont have the funds and also feel i am getting older. I dont want to be an even older mum than i am now so probably adoption is the only way forward. Its not a 100% what i want but its my only hope of being a mum. I know i can love a child, if it is young enough but i will always grieve for my own baby.

Sorry not having having a great day and at this stage i just want to try every month but cant although i am also excited that i am nearer to getting a baby but along with that is mixed emotions as its not mine. Dh just wants to share the experience with me whether its our baby or not---he is a star.

Hope everything goes ok today, will check in later

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

Man OH Man,
the hostility and dissapointment comes off of you girls in waves directed squarely at me and my spankys! geez... BUT, here I am and now you can all party like a rock star again!
good news is that it is Thanksgiving for us Americans this week.. which means I am off of work for the next three days!! hoorah!.. bad news is that you will not be hearing from me until I am back at work on Monday. sorry, but turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes and pumpkin pie calls and they need me more than you do... ha. ahhh... I love an excuse to add more cushion for the pushin..

Jen- no worries! your time is soooooo close I can taste it.. or is that the pumpkin pie? I KNOW that either way you get a babes it will be 100% yours and you will not grieve what "could have been".. it is going to work out the way it is supposed to and there is always happiness in that! hold on little longer with that super power strength! you da man!

Loopy- woooo... yours is coming just round the bend too! ya-hoooo! can't wait to cheer you on to BFP! Demetrio is making spankys for the occassion, but will have to be surprise. No peeking! all though, Demy does love it when you peek at his spankys.... rrrrrrr......

Well, off to eat myself silly!
will need to do extra Turbo Jam sessions when finished with marathon spurge. soooo worth it!

shocker sign!
Steph

[Jen1d]

Sorry couldnt resist, but they were even my dh who is English thinks that.

[Jen1d]

So what new around here

Nothing much eh

Well all work and no play this week---until Sat. Going out with a few couples on sat for an italian meal then hit the booze. God i sound like i'm out drinking all the time but honestly we only drink when we go out and thats not usually much except this time of year.

No appliction form from s/w yet. I emailed and they said they sent it last Friday---b------s. Told her i would email tomorrow if its not here--we'll see.

IM sent an email today and said they had reviewed our case and they feel we do not need anymore tests as everything is clear. They said the only test they could do is for sperm but given we always get a high result at the fertilization stage they dont want to do this or anymore tests. So we just have to contact them when we want to go ahead with FET.

Right i am whacked after 7 days of shifts so going to chill

Thinking of you all. Not long now until your scan Littles, hope all is ok so far?

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Just a quick one to say hi, but noone is around

The news for me is

When i emailed the s/w for the application form she told me i have to be patient and do all the things that a couple want to do but wont have time when they have a little one about. Made me annoyed telling me to be patient----does she not know that ivf people are patient. I wanted to scream that we have been patient for 6 years trying to get pregnant so another 6 months is a doddle---silly cow.

Going to town with dh, sis and Mum in the morning to get some pressies for my aunty then out with friends for an Italian meal and some drinks.

Sunday we will be doing some cleaning then over to my mums for tea then back to work monday. i am cramming in so much studying just now and MIGHT finish it by Xmas---2 months before its due---am desperate to get it out of the way before treatment and adoption stuff. I am just trying to finish off some legislation and theories------yuuucckkkkk.

Was giong to go to the cinema tonight but its freezing and i have developed a cold since yesterday and feel all heady and hot, so staying in for a chill out.

Loops - Hope your ok and feeling a bit better

Steph - You working to hard again

Littles - Not long until your scan, how you doing



Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Just reporting in for Littles

She just sent me a text to say she has had her scan and has been admitted to hospital as there is an ectopic in the right tube and it has to be removed
BUT
there is also 2 healthy heartbeats in the womb, so its twins

She is happy and sad but so nervous that the twins dont survive the surgery. She will let me know when she is getting home and the results.

Wow cant believe after all the cycles she has been through, she is pregnant with twins. Just hoping everything works out well for her.

Hope you all ok, i'm in recovery as we had a late night and i've still got cold and nearly lost my voice now----bet dh is happy about that one

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Oh my lord!!! Twins and an ectopic???? Crazy.
OK, so we need to focus all our positive vibes on Dubai and ensure that she has a good recovery from surgery.
Twins.... can you believe it?? How many embies did she get put back then??

Hey Jen, we'll have to get a full 360 on what she did differently this time to get such a wonderful result - she has found the secret!!!

Littles - know you won't read this until its all over but take care sweet one - trust that everything will work out ok

Much love to the octos

Lola
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[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Am off on a dreaded sleepov tonight so will catch up tomorrow.

Loop - I was a bit confused to, i thought it was only 2 put back in but oviously not. I have my ticket booked already to see Mr Doc of Miracles
Hope everything goes ok for your appointment tomorrow, let me know how you get on.

Littles - Thinking of you today, hope all goes ok. I have everything crossed, please let us know as soon as possilble.

Steph and Walshy - Get back here now or i will have to start getting violent

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Hola Sweetbeans!

Jen how're you? feeling better? whats the news in Jen land?? Have you had any more news from Littles?????

Steph.... now come on. You know you're just going to get into trouble with your too busy to post schtick - come back around my happy bean.

And as for intrepid Walsh of the Antarctic.... give us the holiday 360 angel.

Well had my appointment with The Lav today. So, the genetic test results we all know and at last there seem to be no more issues....so lets do it!!
He say I am not over the hill - hmmmmm. He reckons that of course there are no guarantees but that he just feels that it will work for us because we've been so unlucky. He then said something fantastic - he said that I shouldnt do any exercise! Actually thats a lie. He said don't do lots of exercise but lets not quibble over semantics. I was over the moon as my dh goes on at me all the time about my lack of fitness HA HA! In your face!!! So, I'll be starting my new fresh cycle in about a month! I am feeling strangely positive, ride the wave! Told my boss about cycle and she said I must put myself first for a change. Does that mean I get the whole time off on full pay you reckon? Heh heh that would be so great.
Anyway, aarrrggghh, its been so long I feel like a new girl!
Littles twin miracles will start the tide change for the octo05s! I feel it!!!

Take it easy, gumballs

Lola
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[Jen1d]

WWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOO



FAB NEWS FOR OUR LOOPS, ITS ABOUT BLOODY TIME TO.

BRILLIANT NEWS AND AS I ALWAYS SAY, YOU HAVE BEEN PREGNANT BEFORE SO YOU WILL AGAIN

SHAME I CANT SAY THE SAME ABOUT ME EH, DONT THINK THAT TIDE CHANGE IS COMING IN MY DIRECTION

NO NEWS FROM LITTLES, LETS HOPE SHE IS JUST RECOVERING AND CHILLING. WILL LET YOU KNOW AS SOON AS POSS IF I HEAR ANYTHING

LOVE JEN X

[camilla]

Hello girls

Still here and thinking of you!

Little R - Especially thinking of you right now. Am hoping everything will turn out good for you, you've had such a rollercoaster ride!

Jen and Lola and Steph - Big hello, have been reading your latest and ups and downs.

As usual am off now!!

Much love and hugs till next time. Will have to check in on Littles though!

Camilla xxxxx