Oct 05 Cycle Buddies

[Jen1d]

Hi

Still no news from Littles. Hope your ok babe, let us know soon, am thinking of you.

Loops - Oh the ticker is moving down nicely, cant believe you will be nearly cycle again, bout bloody time. Do you know dates roughly? Might be cycling again together.

Steph - Where you hiding, madam?

Walshy - Anyone know when she gets back from her travels?

Camilla - Thanks for checking up on as, hope your doing away ok?

Good news today. I only have little bits to add on 6 questions then i will be finished my svq 4, wwoohhooooo. This is 2 months before i need to hand it in, its such a relief. I will now be abel to chill over Christmas and more importantly, focus on my FET and adoption process.
The application form for the Panel came today so will send that off as soon as possible.

Catch up soon, have a good one girlies

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Ahoy ladies

So Jemla, swotter, now you can chill your boots and enjoy christmas before full steam ahead with new year FET. 2008 amiga - a good year for us!

So I wonder what's going on with our littles?? I am itching for news, need to make sure everything went well.

Hey Camilla - how're things? are you ready for christmas?? Aren't you one of these highly organised folk that take it in their stride with no frantic last minute merchanting?

STEPH! Hmmmmmm

Yes, ticker is tick tocking her way down. No def dates yet, have to wait for AF which is due next week. Have organised some acupuncture so I can get back in the swing of it. I suppose that means I'll have to shave my legs... darn! Was growing some sexy winter insulation! I can't wait to get on with it now, roll on December!!! May have my gastroscopy next week - hope that its straightforward and doesn't show anything horrible.
Right, I'm knacked! Off to cook me tea
adios buenos!

Lola
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[Jen1d]

Hi buds, wow the sun is out, whats going on

So the news from Littles is good.

She tx this morning to say they managed to remove her tube before it ruptured and she feels very lucky. She is still sore but has been up and about today. Dh is with her and the twins have survived the op, so all is good. She feels its early days and has another scan in 10 days-------------that would a Sunday mmmmmm i wonder if that is right or is it the 10th. Oh well she will tell us when she is feeling a bit better.

Fab news for the Octos though


Loops -Glad you are feeling fine and i'm sure you will be the next one with good news, hang in there
Now go and shave those legs before dh heads out the door as he thinks your a tranny
hahahahahahahaha

Steph - I second Loops MMMMMMMMMMMMMM

As for me, well another friend just had her baby, thankfully she is in London but sent me photos today, makes it even tougher. I just cant take the news just now.
Got adoption paper through yesterday, so will fill them in as soon as poss.
Heading off to see J for a coffee and a catch up, he got punted from his job and is on the hunt for another one. He want one so he has money for partying at Christmas----tough being 17 eh

Going to a friends candle party tonight-----cant be arsed but have to make an effort.

Ok keep smiling girls, its hard but we have to do

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

HIIIIII GIRRRRRRLS.

so here I am. popping in to some fab news.. go littles with your twins! rockin the party.. congratulations. you deserve it...

as do my favorite Tubers Jen and Loops and aren't they well on their way! Loops.. another cycle and I have predicted mucho success with this one! BFP and stickies to the end on the way. can't wait for celebration break dance for Jens and Loops from Demetrio.. going old school.

As for me. the crazy run around like a chicken holidays are in full force. we have plans every second of every weekend from now until January 13th... not to mention that my work actually expects me to work from Thanksgiving to New Years.. what are they thinking? I don't have time for such silliness. Thanksgiving was last week and how yummy it was. I Turbo Jammed my arse off and still managed to lose 2 lbs despite the fact that I ate for three days non stop.. including a trip to good old Mickey D's- or McDonalds in your world.. or I am assuming you have McDonalds? a great american tradition of fat and calories served to really fast for those that need their fat and calories on the run. This weekend is my sister and my "girls only holiday lunch".. so excited! the food and drinks will flow and we can complain about our hubbies till our hearts content! Oh and did I mention besides Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years I also have my anniversary, hubbies b-day and Faithy's b-day too.... it is a celebration frenzy in our house!

Jen- congrats on svq success.. let the chillin begin!
Loops- I suggest a good braid for your hairy legs.. let's get spunky!

Walshy- your trip is taking forever.. where are you?

Lovin my girls
Steph

[Walshy]

Okily Dokily where do I start............

Firstly to your 2 new Little additions in Littles womb where they are going to get nice and cosy for the next 8 months. CONGRATULATIONS my Octofriend. I had everything crossed that this was your cycle as I knew that this was your last go and here we are TWINS. OMG where are they going to fit in that little petite body of yours I look forward to the updates and like I have told you before hearing your news is not as hard as others as we have all been through so much and we all deserve it.

Jen my super strong hero, I just do not know how you keep on keeping on your are definately one of the strongest woman I have the pleasure of knowing. I am sorry to hear that your cycles that you have last done have not worked and I am hoping that Littles news will bring on the good luck/news train for those of us left. First you then Lola and then me when I finally go back in April. How are you going at the moment? What is a candle party? We have tupperware/avon etc but never heard of a candle party?

Steph how are you and Faith? I can not believe that she is nearly 1. Have you started to organise her birthday party yet? Is it going to be themed? I hope us Octoaunties get a cyber invite! Or atleast photos... Of course we have Mickey D's. It is my favourtie hangover food but your small is our large and we don't supersize. I couldn't believe the sizes in the US I couldn't even get my hands around your cups. They have also gone all healthy over here serving you fruit etc. not the same.

Lola I say run with the winter insulation on your legs - I do and my DH likes to remind me we are now in spring. Who cares what your legs look like they are more interested in the insdies than the out anyways. So if is winter over there are you going to keep your socks on? I am glad your gentic tests came back all good and had a good chuckle about your no exercise policy I will have to do your exercises for you. My clinic actually told us not to exercise as well due to your ovaries swelling it can sometimes cause them to twist or something like that. According to your ticker will you be mid cylce around xmas time?

Hi to Camilla how are things going in your land?

Well for me i got back about a month ago (sorry I find it hard to get on the site as I have told you before I become obsessed about it) and have slipped into a deep depression i think. After six weeks of no baby talk or people around me being pregnant and toatlly relaxtion thinking this is what it must be like for normal fertile couples to not think about it or let it take over there thoughts/life .. etc I get back to find that one of my closest friends is 6 weeks pregnant and my younger sister in-law who only got married in September is also 20 weeks pregnant (was 12 weeks on her wedding day) I am devastated and felt as if someone had taken a bat and hit me fair in the stomach and I am finding it hard to breath and just can't seem to pull myself out of it. All I think about is carrying a child and being a mother. I go back to my endocrologist tomorrow and the 27 pounds i had lost last time has decreased as now 5 pounds have crept back on and I can;t help myself from eating crap it is my comfort /depression food. Hope she deosn't yell too loud.

On a plus side my holiday was the best I have ever been on 6 weeks of nothing but bliss. I was actually hoping for a holiday baby because apparently 'if you just relax and stop thinking about it" you can fall pregnant. My DH celebrated his 30th birthday by being sung to by Cambodian orphanes and it was so humbling. I will try and send you a photo of it to your emails. I also turn 30 on Monday, I know your thinking I am younger than you guys but at 30 I didn't expect to be where I am. I expected to have finished with having children and was enjoying them grow up not nearly 8 years later still trying for the first one. I have set myself a goal to get off my lazy arse and lose the other 30 pounds before April. I am going to kick the next cycle Lara Croft style (Becuase she is all through Cambodia) and do the next cycle with ease. I will respond better to the drugs due to my weight loss and have those children I want. Whos with me You'll all be pregnant by then and be cheering me on with you big bellies form the sideline the last to finish it is dejavue all over again as I was last in the original 05 cycle. OK Love to you all, Walshy.....

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Get down, get down... jungle boogie...... Walshy is back!!
Walshy I am sooo glad to see you around again. Although I am so sad that you are so sad. You know that I know that you know that there is nothing to say to make you feel better. It just plain punches you in the face when others around you are preggers and is so hard to breathe. You don't want to think about it anymore, you just want it to stop and for it to be your turn. I have an 11 month old at home and in the last month when my 2 best friends both called to tell me they were pregnant with their second and thirds, I was STILL jealous, sad, envious. I know it is 1,000 times harder when you are just hoping for one little miracle. BUT, you must remember that miracles do happen.. look at myself and Camilla and now our Littles with her 2 miracles. It does happen! Do what you need to do for you... even if it means you can't get on this site.. I say with a tear. We love having you here. and who better to understand? Besides, The life raft is being prepared for Jens and Loops journey to BFP Island! Tom Selleck is there in a Hawaiian shirt, teeny shorts and a little voice is saying "da plane, da plane". I think you should join them!

Jens- hey darlin! how was the "candle" party... is that code for adult toys? if not just let me pretend it is.. I like to think of you as wild child.. ha, ha. My those are sexy spankys... no wonder Demetrio is having such a hard time concentrating on his workouts lately! In other news... congrats on adoption process moving forward! do you have plans for FET yet? one way or the other (the way it is supposed to be) you will have beautiful child very soon!

Loops-have you been doing your hippey-hippey shake AF dance? I sent the instructions and music over with Demetrio. MAN, but it took him a long time to pick up the steps.. dancing with the stars he is not!

So girls.. do tell.. who has their christmas shopping done already? .... I HATE CHRISTMAS SHOPPING! ugh...

must pretend to work now as I am leaving early to go home to cook and bake for tommorrows girls day. coconut cupcakes anyone? sooooo good!

little apron, wooden spoon and a smile
Steph

[Jen1d]

Hi Buds


Although i'm not impressed you have left us hanging for a month, naughty girl.
Glad your home safely, we missed you but sad your feeling so sad. We know only to well how your feeling so please dont stay away, come in and chat, rant, cry, scream--you name it, we are here for you.

Steph - Sorry to spoil your fun but no naughty business, just boring
My friend at work is about to go to work in Ghana for 3 months with the orphans, so she is raising money. I was a good girls and done my bit, bought a couple of things.
Oh and yep, the Chrimbo shopping is done----------and wrapped i'm such an organised person, thats why others at work drive me mad when their not
Thanks for being positive for me but i'm afraid i think the life raft of luck sailed right past me.

Loops - Come back. I did a shaving smiley just for you my long haired Octo babe.

Littles - Thinking of you and hope your feeling better.

Am sitting writing my last question for my svq---and i'm stuck cant wait until its finished and i will be freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Love Jen x

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JENS!!!! Don't make me kick your arse.. I will! I am not afraid of you! That is enough talk of lucky raft passing you by... as a matter of fact this life raft was made especially for you, has your name on it with a portrait of you painted on the side... It has all your favorites on board and organized exactly as you like. No get on board before I throw you on!
wheewww, I feel better..... it is hard work goin all bootcamp commando on your *ss.

also- I hate you for having all your christmas shopping done! can I hire you to be my personal shopper? shooting you the moon for that one...

Steph

[Jen1d]

wow that told me eh---ok i will do as i'm told and wait on the raft-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------sure its passed though xxxxxxxxxxx

[Jen1d]

Just to let you know i am thinking of you all but just beenn so busy with work this weekend and also a bit tearful===========anyway wont bore you with that one.

Off to drop in the adoption papers to the social worker today so she cant give me crap about them going missing.

SVQ is finished and passed----tick----yiiippeee
Christmas shopping is finished-----tick----yiiipppeee
Christmas cards nearly finished---must improve on this next year

Working later then on a sleepover so will catch up on days off later in the week.

Love Jen x

[Inhale, Exhale]

Hey.. where'd'y'all go?

I am in the office for a day and was anxious to catch up on all new and exciting bits and I get nothing....

Loops and Jens- what is the latest word on your cycles and Jens with adoption. News please. Did Demmy wisk you away on lucky life raft? hopefully you had wet suits along. I heard he was going to take the scenic route to BFP Island. I think he was just hoping to catch a glimpse of Loops all wet and wild!

Walshy- how is the weight loss program going for you... it stinks i know. I am also emotional eater which makes it soo hard. that is why I force myself to workout even when I really, really don't want to.. which is about 70% of the time. ha. Do you get The Biggest Loser in your part of the world? It is terribly motivating! I recommend watching. It warms the heart to watch these people change their lives. Most start out very obese, if they can do it anyone can do it... even us.

Littles- no news is good news? how are the twinnies?

As for me.. we had our girls christmas lunch and was huge success. Raves over my cooking of course! everyone had lovely time and it was over way too fast. so nice to relax and chat with my girlfriends. It is our plan when we get all old and crusty to move into an old folks home together and gossip about everyone else.
I have yet to start christmas shopping.... uh-oh. I really need to get on that!

Rock ON
Steph

[Jen1d]

Hi Steph

Just waiting and waiting, the usual really.

Put adoption papers in a few days ago and the s/w is saying there is no resourse worker available so they will process it in the New Year. Also when she visited she said our adoption classes would be in Jan, now she is saying Jan or Feb. Its just so typical of s/w, they are just a bunch of lazy idiots and treat people as bits of paper.

Got a letter from the hospital yesterday to say that my op all went well and there are no abnormalities---knew this already. I have an appointment with my Consultant to talk about my last op. Already know that she will just say---all is fine and just have to keep trying---but i'm sick of hearing this.

Meant to be going to IM for frosties in Jan but will see how i feel.

To be honest, i'm just a bit tired and fed up seeing bfp's and they are never mine. Sorry if that sounds selfish but its the truth. I am so sick of waiting for a baby and have half given up on my frosties already, just hoping we can get the adoption through fast next year-----------but-------well its not 100% what i would want from life. I suppose i'm still grieving for my own child and i think this feeling will never go.

Sorry girls, i know its Christmas and i should be full of happiness and thankful for what i have but its just so hard.

Think of you all daily and hope your feeling better than me.

Love Jen x

[Jen1d]

Come on girls, i cant keep this thread going myself---please come back.

Well i finally had the courage to put up the Chrimbo tree--only because dh wanted to do it. Just cant face it this year. So sick of being without a child to share it with

Got a letter from IM today with a file full of info about our cycle so far and the outcome---as if i need reminded about that at this time of the year

Anyway lets hope 2008 brings better news for us all--or i might lose the will to live

Love Jen x

[lolajones]

Holla!

So we have a few unhappy octos, its that time of year.
Jemla honey 2008 will be a whole different proposition - you WILL be a mum at the end of it, thats a cert! I know adoption isn't your ideal but its not over yet! You have your fet - we'll be cycle buddies again! I know Christmas is particularly hard my sweet but just think, this is the last peaceful chrimbo you'll have. It'll be crazy crazy from now on.

Walsheroo - yes! Cannot believe it took you all those weeks to get in touch! But you are of course forgiven! Your holiday sounded fantastic! Man, 6 weeks of RnR, I dream of that! And now you are the BIG 3 0. Welcome to the wonderful world of thirties chica, where dreams do come true. So you are geared up for April - next go?? We'll still be here cheering you on - I honestly think that, now littles has started the ball rolling, 2008 will be the year we all finally do it. As you say, kick Croft style

Steph - glad you enjoyed your girl time, are you ready for christmas? When are you going to think about a brother or sister for little Faith??? May I recommend 2008? Yes, madam, it is supposed to be a vintage year for Octo05 up-dufforama.

Littles! Get your tiny bottom back here and tell us your news! THAT"S AN ORDER!!! Hope the twins are doing well - you must be showing already??? Please don't feel bad about posting - we've all been in it for years together, lets share the good times - we had enough of the bad!

Well, I had my gastroscopy today. I have a Hiatus hernia, no big deal. They took some biopsies but hopefully they'll be normal. Got to have some sedation so just woke from much needed mega nap! I could sleep for a month - I am in full on hibernation mode. So as ticker says - 13 days until I start on the road again. Have co-ordination appointment on Thursday. Had acu again last week and didn't shave legs - ew. Have now destroyed the limb forest as worried about the hosp visit today so am now smooth smooth smooth.
Have to admit ladies that I have not been myself these past 2 weeks, been all moody madam and upset. Think it's the time of year - baby would have been due next week. Hopefully this will disappear and I'll be A1 for my new cycle. Have not thought about it much other than in practical terms. We'll see.

Right-o popsicles, keep in touch!
Love, Lola
xxxxxxx

[little R]

Dearest Octopals....

Once again I begin with apologies for letting you down!
I feel very guilty... thank you for all the kind messages, personal messages and support.
My main excuse is the surgery and convalescing, but then afterwards reading some of the posts, I just didn't want to upset any of you mainly Jen because she's going through so much....and I know how this time of the year just seems to make things worse

Anyway, I am following orders Lola... and I am back to "back" you BOTH!

Lola, I can't believe you are starting cycling again. How are you feeling? Excited now? Moodiness swung the other way and you are giddy with happiness? I also can't believe the crap you have gone through health-wise. You poor thing. It has got to work for you this time! You start just before Xmas or after Xmas? Please give details and I will be here to encourage you. I promise.

Darling Jen, my heart goes out to you. I know Xmas sucks. Worst time of year. Bravo on getting the tree up and decorated, you're a good wife! I agree with Lola... 2008 is your year. You'll have a child no matter the means and Xmas 2008 will be a great one.

Steph, have you finished the xmas shopping? What's the news on Faith? I bet she is getting lots of gifts from Santa Are you or DH dressing up? I haven't even started on presents...I am still having trouble with the Xmas cards. It's shameful. I have my parents coming here for Xmas...so will have to get in the Xmas spirit soon. Xmas is not the same in a hot climate...I want cold and snow!

Walshy love, thank you for the support as I know it's so hard. Yes, you and me are both worried about where the twinnies will fit. I have no space. Poor things! What are your plans for Xmas? How are you feeling?

My news... well I am healing well. Surgery went very well although it was all a bit daunting and we didn't really have time to process it. One minute we were all in tears about seeing the twins' at 6 weeks and then we were being told there was also an ectopic and I had to go for surgery immediately. We didn't really have time to enjoy the good news. Luckily my fertility specilist is a lap expert too...she was brilliant and very reassuring. All the other staff were looking at me as if they were going to my funeral. It wasn't reassuring at all. I am thankful for so much... that DH was even in the country, that my brother came out to visit to help me and that the twins were okay after it all. I was in hospital for 3 days and just wanted to get out asap. I am nearly 100% recovered but I have lost a lot of weight as wasn't allowed to eat. Additionally, nausea has been really bad and I have never been this skinny. So to answer your question Lola... yes, I am slightly showing...mainly because the rest of me is sticklike My doctor is not worried though which is reassuring. I had my 8wk scan the other days and all is normal. The next scan is at 13wks. I know I shouldn't voice this but after being an IVF patient and all that has gone with it, I just can't believe that I am BFP or that this will end well. I know it sounds horrible. Anyway.

Take care all of my Octofriends....

Much much love,

Littles