Ah ok beachbaby thanks for the tip on the Jayne buggy...I'll check it out!
Hayley x
April & May 2008
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robinsonpr
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HI!!!
Just a bump up... How is everyone doing? I feel so much better now than in my first trimester. I still get really tired in the late afternoon and swelling in the legs (my socks no matter how loose make lines... yuck) but other than that I am feeling good. I still get nauseous after I eat anything so I don't eat until I feel faint. I know its not good but I can't stand the metal mouth and nausea. Anyone having troouble eating proteins? All I can eat are nuts and cheese in that category... I can tolerate no other dairy at all and no meat most of the time... Where does the weight come from??
xxxCocoa
Just a bump up... How is everyone doing? I feel so much better now than in my first trimester. I still get really tired in the late afternoon and swelling in the legs (my socks no matter how loose make lines... yuck) but other than that I am feeling good. I still get nauseous after I eat anything so I don't eat until I feel faint. I know its not good but I can't stand the metal mouth and nausea. Anyone having troouble eating proteins? All I can eat are nuts and cheese in that category... I can tolerate no other dairy at all and no meat most of the time... Where does the weight come from??
xxxCocoa
1 son b. 1993 -TTC (again) for 12 years
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
Hello Ladies,
I am having a GIRL!!!!!!!
, which was a total surprise since everyone seemed to think that it would be a boy and I kinda went with the flow and started thinking it was a boy too. ( Cocoa you were right though!!!) Soooo, everything looked good on the US, she is a little bit ahead of schedule on her size but it is OK since I am having a scheduled c section anyway. By the way i will have it on Apr 23rd instead of 24th.
My baby girl looked very good and the US was in 3D, so we could see everything very clearly, also, she is probably a lefty, since she was sucking on her left thumb and in general was going towards left side. My Mom is left handed so I am not surprised.
I am so super excited and probably in January i will start my shopping!!!!
Love to all,
Vlada
I am having a GIRL!!!!!!!
, which was a total surprise since everyone seemed to think that it would be a boy and I kinda went with the flow and started thinking it was a boy too. ( Cocoa you were right though!!!) Soooo, everything looked good on the US, she is a little bit ahead of schedule on her size but it is OK since I am having a scheduled c section anyway. By the way i will have it on Apr 23rd instead of 24th.My baby girl looked very good and the US was in 3D, so we could see everything very clearly, also, she is probably a lefty, since she was sucking on her left thumb and in general was going towards left side. My Mom is left handed so I am not surprised.
I am so super excited and probably in January i will start my shopping!!!!
Love to all,
Vlada
HI ladies.
I am hanging in............... Things are healing up i went for my follow up this week and all looks good down below.... My ob said we could start trying again around march we are going to try natrual till atleast july and then go back to our re...... WE ARE PRAYING FOR A MIRACLE HERE AS OUR INSURANCE DOES NOT COVER IVF......... AS many of you know its not cheap but we will move ahead if need be.......... I already started saving.......... Hope all is well with everyone and you are all in my thoughts.......
VLADA -----CONGRATS ON THE GIRL..............................
I am hanging in............... Things are healing up i went for my follow up this week and all looks good down below.... My ob said we could start trying again around march we are going to try natrual till atleast july and then go back to our re...... WE ARE PRAYING FOR A MIRACLE HERE AS OUR INSURANCE DOES NOT COVER IVF......... AS many of you know its not cheap but we will move ahead if need be.......... I already started saving.......... Hope all is well with everyone and you are all in my thoughts.......
VLADA -----CONGRATS ON THE GIRL..............................
me 39 DH 45
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
Boy you girls surely are busy at night aren't you...? I am sound asleep by 9 and still that doesn't guarantee a restful night what with all the peeing and such.
LisaPa... Oh honey, I am so glad your body is healing just fine. It is wonderful to hear from you and even more wonderful to hear that you and Jeff are forging ahead. You know, I had a "premonition" that you will get pregnant naturally. I know it's very common for that to happen after all the hormones. Anyway, it was just a little weird to THEN see you write that you and your DH will try naturally for a few months... Like the little foster boy says in my son's favorite movie (Angels in the Outfield) "It could happen" and as you know "with God... ALL (not some) things are possible!" It took me 12 years to get to this point and every year that went by seemed like a sad waste - it was so truly hurtful especially given the circumstances I have lived through for so many years. BUT in FAITH I bought my big SUV at Christmas 2005 "for the twins" and I made it known they were coming too. Many thought I was crazy, others wanted to believe with me but found it difficult. Anyway, with my heart's desire so close during my IVF I was soooo relaxed through it all and now... You will have your heart's desire and MORE - just believe. In the meantime just hold Matthew and Brandon in your hearts and love them with all your might - you will see them again one day and you'll want them to know how much they have always been loved... I pray for you, Jeff and your children every day. Much LOVE xxx Cocoa
LisaPa... Oh honey, I am so glad your body is healing just fine. It is wonderful to hear from you and even more wonderful to hear that you and Jeff are forging ahead. You know, I had a "premonition" that you will get pregnant naturally. I know it's very common for that to happen after all the hormones. Anyway, it was just a little weird to THEN see you write that you and your DH will try naturally for a few months... Like the little foster boy says in my son's favorite movie (Angels in the Outfield) "It could happen" and as you know "with God... ALL (not some) things are possible!" It took me 12 years to get to this point and every year that went by seemed like a sad waste - it was so truly hurtful especially given the circumstances I have lived through for so many years. BUT in FAITH I bought my big SUV at Christmas 2005 "for the twins" and I made it known they were coming too. Many thought I was crazy, others wanted to believe with me but found it difficult. Anyway, with my heart's desire so close during my IVF I was soooo relaxed through it all and now... You will have your heart's desire and MORE - just believe. In the meantime just hold Matthew and Brandon in your hearts and love them with all your might - you will see them again one day and you'll want them to know how much they have always been loved... I pray for you, Jeff and your children every day. Much LOVE xxx Cocoa
1 son b. 1993 -TTC (again) for 12 years
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
Well Vlada...
ALL I can say is told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you,
am I getting obnoxious?!?! GOOD!!!! told you,told you,told you,told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, OK I'll stop now
xxxCocoa
Vlada - 4/23/08 (schdeuled c-section)
Mandy J - 4/29/08
Cocoa - ~4/9/08 (4/30/08 is 40w); TWINS
Hayley - 5/5/08; TWINS
Rebecca - somewhere around 4/15/08 (5/5/08 is 40w); TWINS
LisaPa - Loving Matthew and Brandon from our Hearts to Heaven
Sciteacher77 (Michelle) - 5/21
Babyb - due June 5, 2008 TWINS
Kelley77 - May 30th (40 wks) TWINS
ALL I can say is told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you,
am I getting obnoxious?!?! GOOD!!!! told you,told you,told you,told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, told you, OK I'll stop now
xxxCocoa
Vlada - 4/23/08 (schdeuled c-section)
Mandy J - 4/29/08
Cocoa - ~4/9/08 (4/30/08 is 40w); TWINS
Hayley - 5/5/08; TWINS
Rebecca - somewhere around 4/15/08 (5/5/08 is 40w); TWINS
LisaPa - Loving Matthew and Brandon from our Hearts to Heaven
Sciteacher77 (Michelle) - 5/21
Babyb - due June 5, 2008 TWINS
Kelley77 - May 30th (40 wks) TWINS
1 son b. 1993 -TTC (again) for 12 years
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
Cocoa,
All we can say Jeff and I is THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS THEY REALLY DO MEAN THE WORLD TO US........
I am forging ahead with life and each day i cry when i need to. Today my milk came to visit just another sad reminder..... Jeff and i will never be the same again. the only thing that keeps me going is knowing that they are with my mom and dad in that kingdom so safe knowing nothing but LOVE..............................One day we will meet again and jeff and i will hold them in our hearts till that day comes..........CONGRATS ON THE BOY/GIRL IM SOOO HAPPY FOR YOU...........................
WITH LOVE, LISA
All we can say Jeff and I is THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS THEY REALLY DO MEAN THE WORLD TO US........
I am forging ahead with life and each day i cry when i need to. Today my milk came to visit just another sad reminder..... Jeff and i will never be the same again. the only thing that keeps me going is knowing that they are with my mom and dad in that kingdom so safe knowing nothing but LOVE..............................One day we will meet again and jeff and i will hold them in our hearts till that day comes..........CONGRATS ON THE BOY/GIRL IM SOOO HAPPY FOR YOU...........................
WITH LOVE, LISA
me 39 DH 45
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
I had my works xmas party last night, I got up at 6.30am and started cooking, I got all sorted by 6pm, by that time I could hardly walk, my back and feet were killing me and I no longer had ankles!
21 people showed up and squeezed into my kitchen, the whole thing was a success, but I had to keep escaping for 5 minute peace breaks. Loads of compliments on the food (which was all vegetarian....and chocolate fountain) I hardly ate any of it last night, I was too exhausted, but it was worth all the hard work knowing people enjoyed themselves.
So its buffet for breakfast, lunch, dinner, breakfast, lunch.......
Today I have totally slobbed out on the sofa, the baby has been going nuts in my tummy, which is lovely and reassuring. I keep grabbing hold of DH's hand to try and feel the baby move, but baby stops everytime!!!! My breasts have now started leaking fluid too.
SO its now our countdown to our holiday in log cabin in Scotland, we are taking most of the food with us, so its a nice BIG shopping trip later this week. Must remember to pack a blanket and shovel in case we get blocked in any snow conditions.
I hope you all have a wonderful xmas and gr8 2k8!
Mandy
x
21 people showed up and squeezed into my kitchen, the whole thing was a success, but I had to keep escaping for 5 minute peace breaks. Loads of compliments on the food (which was all vegetarian....and chocolate fountain) I hardly ate any of it last night, I was too exhausted, but it was worth all the hard work knowing people enjoyed themselves.
So its buffet for breakfast, lunch, dinner, breakfast, lunch.......
Today I have totally slobbed out on the sofa, the baby has been going nuts in my tummy, which is lovely and reassuring. I keep grabbing hold of DH's hand to try and feel the baby move, but baby stops everytime!!!! My breasts have now started leaking fluid too.
SO its now our countdown to our holiday in log cabin in Scotland, we are taking most of the food with us, so its a nice BIG shopping trip later this week. Must remember to pack a blanket and shovel in case we get blocked in any snow conditions.
I hope you all have a wonderful xmas and gr8 2k8!
Mandy
x
Me 37-DH 53
1st IVF/ICSI 04/06 BFN
1st FET 05/06 BFN
2nd FET 06/06 BFN
2nd IVF 10/06 BFP - m/c
3rd IVF 07/07 BFP
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1st IVF/ICSI 04/06 BFN
1st FET 05/06 BFN
2nd FET 06/06 BFN
2nd IVF 10/06 BFP - m/c
3rd IVF 07/07 BFP
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Hi all:
I am feeling terrible today on two fronts.
I found out the sex of my twins today -- 2 boys. I know I am about to sound like the most ungrateful ***** on the planet, but I've been crying all day Ordinarily, I would never care about the sex of my children. However, as some of you may remember, my daughter passed away last year when she was 13 weeks. That was the worst thing that has ever happened to me (and I hope will ever happen to me) in my life. To add insult to injury, I was told I couldn't try with my own eggs (possible repeat of genetic disorder). So after accepting the fact that I had to use another woman's eggs, I just prayed for a little girl. I don't want to say I unfortunately have 2 boys (I know I am blessed and hate to hear myself even speak this way knowing how precious life is and how hard we have ALL worked just to have one healthy baby -- regardless of sex). However, I'd be lying if I didn't say my heart wasn't breaking right now. I cried through our U/S and couldn't even look at my boys -- which makes me feel even worse!!!!! What kind of mother gets upset that her kid isn't a girl?! Why do I all of a sudden feel detached from the pregnancy, angry at the universe once again, etc. It isn't fair to my boys who deserve all of my love and happiness AND EXCITEMENT RIGHT NOW (which isn't there -- I hate myself right now). I went into my daughter's room today and saw all of the things I'd have to pack away -- her bedding, her pink blankets, her pink toys, her wardrobe, socks, shoes, hats, etc. I also realized that her whole room would have to be redone (including -- the crib, changing table, rocking chair -- everything is for a little girl!). These are all just material things and as hard as it is going to be financially to now have to completely shop all over for 2 boys, the BIGGER ISSUE is that I feel like I'm erasing my daughter now. I have resisted packing up her room or removing her clothes and stuff for the last year in hopes that a little sister would carry on her legacy. Now, the cold reality hits that all of the reminders (albeit material reminders) of my little girl have to be packed up and put out of sight. It feels like a death all over again.
Yet being upset by all of this and focusing on everything that I've mentioned above makes me angry at myself. How can I possibly complain when I have 2 healthy boys on the way?! I'm even completely ashamed to share my sadness with you. Like I said, I feel like I'm behaving like an ungrateful, immature *****. I'm so afraid I'm not going to make a good mom to these boys.
Can I just say again that I hate myself right now.
Lost
I am feeling terrible today on two fronts.
I found out the sex of my twins today -- 2 boys. I know I am about to sound like the most ungrateful ***** on the planet, but I've been crying all day Ordinarily, I would never care about the sex of my children. However, as some of you may remember, my daughter passed away last year when she was 13 weeks. That was the worst thing that has ever happened to me (and I hope will ever happen to me) in my life. To add insult to injury, I was told I couldn't try with my own eggs (possible repeat of genetic disorder). So after accepting the fact that I had to use another woman's eggs, I just prayed for a little girl. I don't want to say I unfortunately have 2 boys (I know I am blessed and hate to hear myself even speak this way knowing how precious life is and how hard we have ALL worked just to have one healthy baby -- regardless of sex). However, I'd be lying if I didn't say my heart wasn't breaking right now. I cried through our U/S and couldn't even look at my boys -- which makes me feel even worse!!!!! What kind of mother gets upset that her kid isn't a girl?! Why do I all of a sudden feel detached from the pregnancy, angry at the universe once again, etc. It isn't fair to my boys who deserve all of my love and happiness AND EXCITEMENT RIGHT NOW (which isn't there -- I hate myself right now). I went into my daughter's room today and saw all of the things I'd have to pack away -- her bedding, her pink blankets, her pink toys, her wardrobe, socks, shoes, hats, etc. I also realized that her whole room would have to be redone (including -- the crib, changing table, rocking chair -- everything is for a little girl!). These are all just material things and as hard as it is going to be financially to now have to completely shop all over for 2 boys, the BIGGER ISSUE is that I feel like I'm erasing my daughter now. I have resisted packing up her room or removing her clothes and stuff for the last year in hopes that a little sister would carry on her legacy. Now, the cold reality hits that all of the reminders (albeit material reminders) of my little girl have to be packed up and put out of sight. It feels like a death all over again.
Yet being upset by all of this and focusing on everything that I've mentioned above makes me angry at myself. How can I possibly complain when I have 2 healthy boys on the way?! I'm even completely ashamed to share my sadness with you. Like I said, I feel like I'm behaving like an ungrateful, immature *****. I'm so afraid I'm not going to make a good mom to these boys.
Can I just say again that I hate myself right now.
Lost
Me: 40; DH: 30 (Demi/Ashton!)
9/14/07: 3 perfect blasts xferred
9/23/07: BFP with 745.6 Beta!!! Twins
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9/14/07: 3 perfect blasts xferred
9/23/07: BFP with 745.6 Beta!!! Twins
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robinsonpr
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Babyb, I'm sorry to hear you are angry at finding out you are having 2 boys. Could it just be the shock of it? It sounds like in your own mind you had possibly already decided you would get another daughter, which would somehow replace the daughter you lost. Of course this would never be the case.
But no matter what happens she will always be with you. Putting away her material things doesn't mean you are forgetting her or wiping out her existence.
Like you say you've got 2 lovely healthy boys on the way, and they will need you so much. I'm sure any disappointment and anger will quickly subside and you will love the boys with all your heart. A girl could never have replaced your daughter, and in some respects it would be unfair to expect one to.
Don't hate yourself. Just give yourself some time to get used to the idea and don't beat yourself up about having negative feelings. You are still obviously grieving very deeply for your daughter and you need time to heal. Try not to take the anger of your loss out on these babies, I'm sure the moment you hold them any such feelings will disappear.
Hayley xx
But no matter what happens she will always be with you. Putting away her material things doesn't mean you are forgetting her or wiping out her existence.
Like you say you've got 2 lovely healthy boys on the way, and they will need you so much. I'm sure any disappointment and anger will quickly subside and you will love the boys with all your heart. A girl could never have replaced your daughter, and in some respects it would be unfair to expect one to.
Don't hate yourself. Just give yourself some time to get used to the idea and don't beat yourself up about having negative feelings. You are still obviously grieving very deeply for your daughter and you need time to heal. Try not to take the anger of your loss out on these babies, I'm sure the moment you hold them any such feelings will disappear.
Hayley xx
Me 27 DH 36
Ectopic 09/06
08/07 - 1st IVF with Blasto
30/08 - BFP!! hcg 543
19/09 - 1st US...TWINS!!!
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Ectopic 09/06
08/07 - 1st IVF with Blasto
30/08 - BFP!! hcg 543
19/09 - 1st US...TWINS!!!
[img]http://by.lilypie.com/PNfZ0.png[/img]
I truly feel for the loss of your daughter at such a young age, but no other baby, boy or girl will ever be able to replace her. It is impossible for you to erase her,by putting away her things or painting the nursery, she will be with you ALWAYS! It is understandable to grieve and want your baby girl back, but you have two little boys that really need their Mum with unconditional love right now. You have the chance for a NEW beginning, with NEW experiences, you will not wipe out the memories of your daughter by learning to embrace the future with your boys. We are all allowed moments of sadness, self pity, guilt, anger etc, but you need to now refocus and pull yourself together, your little boys NEED their mummy!
I am sending lots of loveyour way and hope you will be able to move forward with your grief.
Mandy
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I am sending lots of loveyour way and hope you will be able to move forward with your grief.
Mandy
x
Me 37-DH 53
1st IVF/ICSI 04/06 BFN
1st FET 05/06 BFN
2nd FET 06/06 BFN
2nd IVF 10/06 BFP - m/c
3rd IVF 07/07 BFP
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1st IVF/ICSI 04/06 BFN
1st FET 05/06 BFN
2nd FET 06/06 BFN
2nd IVF 10/06 BFP - m/c
3rd IVF 07/07 BFP
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Babyb,
You should not be ashamed of your feelings, it is all very nautural. You just need some time to get used to the idea of having two boys and i am sure that you will do that. I agree with everyone, ones these babies are born you will be happiest mother on earth!!!!! Your little girl will always be in your heart and thoughts and you will be able to tell your sons about their sister.
Much love to you,
Vlada.
You should not be ashamed of your feelings, it is all very nautural. You just need some time to get used to the idea of having two boys and i am sure that you will do that. I agree with everyone, ones these babies are born you will be happiest mother on earth!!!!! Your little girl will always be in your heart and thoughts and you will be able to tell your sons about their sister.
Much love to you,
Vlada.