Hi all....one of the newbies who is having a hard time keepin' up with ya'll! HA! I try to read through the posts when I have down time at work, but then when I get home to reply, I've gotten mixed up on who is doing what!
That and Friday was a awful awful day for me. So far being on the lupron has been fine, but I had a girl I work with go OFF on me at work Friday morning. I mean totally went off....yelling at me, pacing around as she was yelling at me....I was speechless for the most part. She had come into work and came to me and said "hey, when "Angie" gets, here I want you and I to go talk for a bit b/c I have some things I want to discuss with you." Normally I would be fine with something like this as we have open communication and can tell eachother nicely when one of us steps on the others toes....but when she wanted to talk, I nicely but firmly said that it may have to wait until Monday as I really wasn't "in a good place today." That's when she went off, she was not expecting me to say that I wasn't up for talking.....It was one of those one sided fights that every blue moon you might have with your spouse....the kind that completely drain you! Anyways, I cried for 2 straight hours after that....she apologized and realized how out of line she was but I just can't seem to kick the terrible feeling it left me with. The girl is (was)a friend of mine....what hurts the most is I had just told her on Wed. that we were going through IVF.....so I feel completely violated that she ripped into me. I feel like I made a huge mistake telling her about the IVF. She later apologized and I know she would never mean to truly hurt me, but I don't know. I knew she had a temper b/c she had told me about some family fights and fights with her husband that she has had, but never in a million years did I expect to ever see that side of her. Anyways, I'm rambling, but have had no one to really talk to about this, the DH has been sick all weekend, so I didn't bother him with it, and it took me until today to really sit down and write this all out, so thank you if you've made it this far in the reading
I've learned in the past that with some people we have to set boundaries so that we do not get hurt or disappointed by loved ones (specifically speaking of my mom), so now I'm wondering if I need to set some boundaries with this girl. And discontinue confiding in her about the IVF, I just don't want to go there with her anymore, am I wrong with that? I dunno
I'm actually thankful that since I was on the lupron that I could do hardly nothing but cry, otherwise I may have said some things I did not mean. Over the last 6-7 years I have grown leaps and bounds in maturing when it comes to how to handle relationships w/ friends and loved ones, but man, I almost wish I would have had the words to tell her what I really thought!! Which now I'm not sure what the heck I think of her.....HA!!
Whew...ok, sorry if I bored you all with that...I didn't really have anywhere else to go with it....
In regards to you all, I'll try to be better about responding specifically to each of you...I have to find a good work flow for how to do that

I'll be back on later tonight probably

My turn to play guitar hero

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