April & May 2008
MICHELLE,
MY HEART HURTS FOR YOU,.......WITH YOU.........IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK CRY OR YELL ANYTHING AND I MEAN ANYTHING JUST KNOW THAT I AM HERE FOR YOU ......................PLEASE LISTEN TO ME YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS...................ONE MOMENT AT A TIME IT IS THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE BUT YOU CAN DO IT I PROMISE YOU THAT...................YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND ARE BOTH IN MY PRAYERS..........PLEASE EMAIL ME AT ANGELNY71@AOL.COM. I WILL SEND YOU A BUNCH OF GREAT LINKS FOR SUPPORT AND ALSO I HAVE RESEARCHED INCOMPATANT CERVIX TO THE GILLS......
MY LOVE AND TEARS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY, LISA
MY HEART HURTS FOR YOU,.......WITH YOU.........IF YOU EVER NEED TO TALK CRY OR YELL ANYTHING AND I MEAN ANYTHING JUST KNOW THAT I AM HERE FOR YOU ......................PLEASE LISTEN TO ME YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS...................ONE MOMENT AT A TIME IT IS THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE BUT YOU CAN DO IT I PROMISE YOU THAT...................YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND ARE BOTH IN MY PRAYERS..........PLEASE EMAIL ME AT ANGELNY71@AOL.COM. I WILL SEND YOU A BUNCH OF GREAT LINKS FOR SUPPORT AND ALSO I HAVE RESEARCHED INCOMPATANT CERVIX TO THE GILLS......
MY LOVE AND TEARS TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY, LISA
me 39 DH 45
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
Girls -
I did an update on the due dates. I hope those of you who have not provided your info (due dates; scheduled c-sections; genders) please do so.
I felt I needed to honor Lisa's and Michelle's babies. There is no rhyme or reason for any of this - from the struggles of infertility itself to the overwhelming losses we experience.
Lisa and Michelle - don't leave us!!! Please keep us updated about your hearts and your move forward toward your dream. I cannot imagine the grief but please know that every one of us here pray for you and think of you with love EVERY DAY!
xxxCocoa
CroElla - 4/9/08
Vlada - 4/23/08 (schdeuled c-section) - Baby Girl!!!
Mandy J - 4/29/08
Cocoa - ~4/9/08 (4/30/08 40w); TWINS
Rebecca - ~4/15/08 (5/5/08 40w); TWINS
Hayley - 5/5/08; TWINS
LisaPa - Loving Matthew and Brandon from our Hearts to Heaven
Sciteacher77 (Michelle) - Heaven's Angel Madeleine Abigail - 1/23/08
Kelley77 - May 30th (40 wks) TWINS
Babyb - June 5, 2008 (40 wks) TWINS
I did an update on the due dates. I hope those of you who have not provided your info (due dates; scheduled c-sections; genders) please do so.
I felt I needed to honor Lisa's and Michelle's babies. There is no rhyme or reason for any of this - from the struggles of infertility itself to the overwhelming losses we experience.
Lisa and Michelle - don't leave us!!! Please keep us updated about your hearts and your move forward toward your dream. I cannot imagine the grief but please know that every one of us here pray for you and think of you with love EVERY DAY!
xxxCocoa
CroElla - 4/9/08
Vlada - 4/23/08 (schdeuled c-section) - Baby Girl!!!
Mandy J - 4/29/08
Cocoa - ~4/9/08 (4/30/08 40w); TWINS
Rebecca - ~4/15/08 (5/5/08 40w); TWINS
Hayley - 5/5/08; TWINS
LisaPa - Loving Matthew and Brandon from our Hearts to Heaven
Sciteacher77 (Michelle) - Heaven's Angel Madeleine Abigail - 1/23/08
Kelley77 - May 30th (40 wks) TWINS
Babyb - June 5, 2008 (40 wks) TWINS
1 son b. 1993 -TTC (again) for 12 years
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
ALL I CAN SAY IS I AM GOING NO WHERE.......... I AM IN THIS FOR THELONG HAUL I WOULD NOT MISS ANY OF YOUR JOYS..... FOR ANYHING... WE ALL GOT PREGNANT THROUGH STRUGGLE SOME OF US ARE GOING THROUGH MORE STRUGGLE BUT I WILL SAY THIS...THERE IS GOING TO BE A BRIGHT ASS BLINDING LIGHT AT THE END OF MY TUNNEL AND I WILL HAVE A FAT FULL TERM HEALTHY CHILD DONT ANY OF YOU WORRY...... TILL THEN I WILL LAUGH AND CRY WITH ALL OF YOU... I HAVE EMAILED MICHELLE PRIVATLY AND AM OFFERING HER AS MUCH LOVE AND SUPPORT AS I CAN PLEASE PRAY HARD FOR HER... SHE IS GOING DOWN A LONG SCARY ROAD THE FIRST FEW WEEKS ARE THE WORST.......
LOVE TO ALL OF YOU AS ALWAYS, LISA
LOVE TO ALL OF YOU AS ALWAYS, LISA
me 39 DH 45
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
Michelle, I can't imagine ever the pain you and your DH must be at this point. I am hoping that it will drew you closer to one another...I am thinking about you guys 
Lisa, your strength and courage is a rock for all of us...knowing your story is like knowing for sure that there is a little light on the end of the tunnel. Thank you for being so strong.
Lisa, your strength and courage is a rock for all of us...knowing your story is like knowing for sure that there is a little light on the end of the tunnel. Thank you for being so strong.
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Lisa...
You are truly carrying the Spirit of God in you... it shines brightly...and YES, you are correct! You WILL have your fat healthy baby! I have known that in my heart for quite some time now. We are here for you and you staying here for us means more than you could know. You are the manifestation of grace, hope and love and God honors all three.
Thank you for caring for Michelle. Please remind her that we love her so. She actually has had a special place in my heart as a teacher studying for her masters degree - been there done that and in awe of her...
You're still in my prayers and heart!
xxxCocoa
You are truly carrying the Spirit of God in you... it shines brightly...and YES, you are correct! You WILL have your fat healthy baby! I have known that in my heart for quite some time now. We are here for you and you staying here for us means more than you could know. You are the manifestation of grace, hope and love and God honors all three.
Thank you for caring for Michelle. Please remind her that we love her so. She actually has had a special place in my heart as a teacher studying for her masters degree - been there done that and in awe of her...
You're still in my prayers and heart!
xxxCocoa
1 son b. 1993 -TTC (again) for 12 years
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
Hi ladies,
COcoa and Croella: Thank you both for your kind words...... A few years ago i was taught to PAY IT FORWARD....... LIFE IS WAY TO SHORT........ If people in this world we live in just looked at things a little kinder we would all have a better place to live in...... I have ALOT of faith and i tend to look at the bright side sometimes i may peek into the dark but hey i am only human....I MEAN NO ONE IS perfect.......HMMMM let me think about that a minute just kidding.....All joking aside i just honestly feel her pain for Madeline....... THE LOSS IS HORRIFIC....... I spoke with her this morning and she is aware that I WILL BE THERE FOR HER ANYTIME SHE NEEDS SUPPORT....... I will try to keep everyone updated on her well being... thank you all for your prayers for her and her husband.......as well as my prayers.....
SO HOW FAT IS EVERYONE GETTING.........I LOST 12 POUNDS SO FAR......AND STILL GOING....... MY PERIOD STARTED ON THE 12TH AND I HAVE BEEN USING MY FERTILITY MONITOR.. TODAY IS DAY 15 SO KEEP YOUR FINGERS AND TOES CROSSED FOR A MIRACLE FOR ME AND JEFF..... WE ARE TRYING ON OUR OWN AS OF NOW...........
LOVE AND HUGS TO ALL .......LISA
COcoa and Croella: Thank you both for your kind words...... A few years ago i was taught to PAY IT FORWARD....... LIFE IS WAY TO SHORT........ If people in this world we live in just looked at things a little kinder we would all have a better place to live in...... I have ALOT of faith and i tend to look at the bright side sometimes i may peek into the dark but hey i am only human....I MEAN NO ONE IS perfect.......HMMMM let me think about that a minute just kidding.....All joking aside i just honestly feel her pain for Madeline....... THE LOSS IS HORRIFIC....... I spoke with her this morning and she is aware that I WILL BE THERE FOR HER ANYTIME SHE NEEDS SUPPORT....... I will try to keep everyone updated on her well being... thank you all for your prayers for her and her husband.......as well as my prayers.....
SO HOW FAT IS EVERYONE GETTING.........I LOST 12 POUNDS SO FAR......AND STILL GOING....... MY PERIOD STARTED ON THE 12TH AND I HAVE BEEN USING MY FERTILITY MONITOR.. TODAY IS DAY 15 SO KEEP YOUR FINGERS AND TOES CROSSED FOR A MIRACLE FOR ME AND JEFF..... WE ARE TRYING ON OUR OWN AS OF NOW...........
LOVE AND HUGS TO ALL .......LISA
me 39 DH 45
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
Lisa:
First let me say that I am praying you will get pregnant this weekend!!!
It's kinda weird that I was thinking the same thing about people and this world earlier today. I find the world in general to have very self-centered people running around it. God's Word tells us to put others first but having the big house, the boat, the vacations, the harley - WHATEVER - seems to be more important especially in this country. There is nothing wrong with taking care of yourself but if everyone would just think about their actions as they relate to the well being of others we would have a much healthier world and much healthier people in it.
I am so very grateful for people such as you (and the many kind ladies on this board who know the value of gratefulness and love). Even Woodcliff was saying to me that she sees a compassion on this board like no other. We have been through so much in just trying to have a family and some worse than others. I cannot imagine your loss (or Michelle's) but I do know that where there is great pain you can find great compassion by holding on to trust and faith. To even begin to tell you what I have been through in my life would take monumental effort to tell as well as to bear hearing it. Yet where I am now in my life I could never have imagined even 2 years ago. Some people I know don't recognize the great effort it has taken to put one foot in front of the other for YEARS because foolishly they think that because I know and love God that it is all just that easy but even faith has a price and when pain is real we must buy faith at a higher cost.
My prayer is that all of this serves to grow us in ways we could never imagine on our own. And when your baby (or babies) come out of you you will wonder how life could ever be so sweet... I love you...
xxxCocoa
First let me say that I am praying you will get pregnant this weekend!!!
It's kinda weird that I was thinking the same thing about people and this world earlier today. I find the world in general to have very self-centered people running around it. God's Word tells us to put others first but having the big house, the boat, the vacations, the harley - WHATEVER - seems to be more important especially in this country. There is nothing wrong with taking care of yourself but if everyone would just think about their actions as they relate to the well being of others we would have a much healthier world and much healthier people in it.
I am so very grateful for people such as you (and the many kind ladies on this board who know the value of gratefulness and love). Even Woodcliff was saying to me that she sees a compassion on this board like no other. We have been through so much in just trying to have a family and some worse than others. I cannot imagine your loss (or Michelle's) but I do know that where there is great pain you can find great compassion by holding on to trust and faith. To even begin to tell you what I have been through in my life would take monumental effort to tell as well as to bear hearing it. Yet where I am now in my life I could never have imagined even 2 years ago. Some people I know don't recognize the great effort it has taken to put one foot in front of the other for YEARS because foolishly they think that because I know and love God that it is all just that easy but even faith has a price and when pain is real we must buy faith at a higher cost.
My prayer is that all of this serves to grow us in ways we could never imagine on our own. And when your baby (or babies) come out of you you will wonder how life could ever be so sweet... I love you...
xxxCocoa
1 son b. 1993 -TTC (again) for 12 years
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
OK Ladies... since we are all sharing fat and cellulite stories (and nosey Lisa needs to know 
) I will tell you that I lost ONE WHOLE pound this week!!! I found out in a not so good way though. On Wednesday while at work I began to feel lightheaded around 11am. As the day progressed it got worse and worse (and you know I run around to several classrooms a day helping my teachers). By day's end (about 3:30) I was back in my office and called my OB to ask what I should do. She told me to come in but to have someone ELSE drive me. Well, I am sure none of you know this but my DH and I are living separately (he doesn't want twins) with confounding circumstances so he would have been no help in the ride department. Thank GOD for loving girlfriends though and one (in the middle of doing her family duties) stopped everything and came and got me. We left her car at my work and took my car to the OB because mine was big enough to fit us and her 2 kids she had just picked up (my son was already home from school). Well, I had 30ml of protein in my urine, 5ng/ml (or whatever) ketones suggesting starvation (I really don't eat a lot but I don't starve either - its a nausea thing) and my BP was quite low 90/58 so my OB sent me to the hospital for bloodwork and contraction monitoring. The result? Normal B/W and uterine irritability. The diagnosis? Exhaustion!!! I was ordered the next two days off work. So - I was weighed 3 times this week (Mon at my reg appt, Wed my dizzy day, and Fri my follow-up from the ordeal) and I lost ONE WHOLE POUND!!!. I have now officially gained 35 lbs at 26w 2d (yesterday). I am still fitting into my sweat pants and my stretchies and underwear too so I know its all blood, fluid and belly but I feel like a beached whale unable to get around sometimes. The pressure "down there" is awful but my OB checked my cervix on Fri and said its long and closed tight (no presenting parts as she put it). I did have 2 contractions in the 45 mins of the NST but mostly only uterine irritability. I think the prometrium I take daily helps stave off contractions.
Anyone else out there with incredible congestion? I have post nasal drip and its awful!!! I have to cough/spit up many times a day but esp in the morning (sorry - TMI
)
I hope I can make it at work for the next 4 weeks (I'd prefer to work to March 20th). I can't imagine how big and uncomfortable I am going to get (and all you pregnant with twins ladies )
Ok, gonna sign off... Post ladies - let's hear how you're all doing!!!
xxxCocoa
) I will tell you that I lost ONE WHOLE pound this week!!! I found out in a not so good way though. On Wednesday while at work I began to feel lightheaded around 11am. As the day progressed it got worse and worse (and you know I run around to several classrooms a day helping my teachers). By day's end (about 3:30) I was back in my office and called my OB to ask what I should do. She told me to come in but to have someone ELSE drive me. Well, I am sure none of you know this but my DH and I are living separately (he doesn't want twins) with confounding circumstances so he would have been no help in the ride department. Thank GOD for loving girlfriends though and one (in the middle of doing her family duties) stopped everything and came and got me. We left her car at my work and took my car to the OB because mine was big enough to fit us and her 2 kids she had just picked up (my son was already home from school). Well, I had 30ml of protein in my urine, 5ng/ml (or whatever) ketones suggesting starvation (I really don't eat a lot but I don't starve either - its a nausea thing) and my BP was quite low 90/58 so my OB sent me to the hospital for bloodwork and contraction monitoring. The result? Normal B/W and uterine irritability. The diagnosis? Exhaustion!!! I was ordered the next two days off work. So - I was weighed 3 times this week (Mon at my reg appt, Wed my dizzy day, and Fri my follow-up from the ordeal) and I lost ONE WHOLE POUND!!!. I have now officially gained 35 lbs at 26w 2d (yesterday). I am still fitting into my sweat pants and my stretchies and underwear too so I know its all blood, fluid and belly but I feel like a beached whale unable to get around sometimes. The pressure "down there" is awful but my OB checked my cervix on Fri and said its long and closed tight (no presenting parts as she put it). I did have 2 contractions in the 45 mins of the NST but mostly only uterine irritability. I think the prometrium I take daily helps stave off contractions.Anyone else out there with incredible congestion? I have post nasal drip and its awful!!! I have to cough/spit up many times a day but esp in the morning (sorry - TMI
)I hope I can make it at work for the next 4 weeks (I'd prefer to work to March 20th). I can't imagine how big and uncomfortable I am going to get (and all you pregnant with twins ladies
)Ok, gonna sign off... Post ladies - let's hear how you're all doing!!!
xxxCocoa
1 son b. 1993 -TTC (again) for 12 years
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
Vlada----Thank you so much for the well wishes.......
Cocoa ---ALL I CAN SAY IS I LOVE YOU...................................
Cocoa ---ALL I CAN SAY IS I LOVE YOU...................................
me 39 DH 45
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
1st IVF 5 day transfer 8/1
12/07 lost my twins at 20 weeks due to IC
07/08 IVF BFP.. 09/08 TAC PLACED 3/09 DAUGHTER BORN HEALTHY
12/10 FET BFP LOST AT WEEK 8 NO HEARTBEAT
5/11 IVF AGAIN **** PLEASE LETS US BRING HOME ANOTHER BABY ****
OK WC... try as I might it has all been in vain... Please tell me how to get to these bargains and the MOMS group. I found a local MOMS but there is no "service" worth it on there - just a bunch of moms (a ltitle too far away) getting together and having dinners... I need to find freebies and affordable daycare too (referrals?)...
Thank you sweetie!!!
xxxCocoa
Thank you sweetie!!!
xxxCocoa
1 son b. 1993 -TTC (again) for 12 years
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
BFP!-8/22-9dp5dt - 485 8/24-1272 8/27-4636
B/G TWINS!!! Due 4/30/08 Born Friday April 4th, 2008 at 36w 2d Baby girl A 6 lbs 7 oz Baby boy B 6 lbs 3 oz
Michelle I amso sad to hear of your loss, my heart and healing thoughts goes out to you and DH.
Lisa, you are such a kind caring person. Bless you.
Mandy
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Lisa, you are such a kind caring person. Bless you.
Mandy
x
Me 37-DH 53
1st IVF/ICSI 04/06 BFN
1st FET 05/06 BFN
2nd FET 06/06 BFN
2nd IVF 10/06 BFP - m/c
3rd IVF 07/07 BFP
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1st IVF/ICSI 04/06 BFN
1st FET 05/06 BFN
2nd FET 06/06 BFN
2nd IVF 10/06 BFP - m/c
3rd IVF 07/07 BFP
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