Just so sad

[indie_rad]

The toughest thing for me was attending baby showers and birthday parties for friend's kids! It gets worse when friends/relatives/simply random people would start to advise me that I should think about bearing a child etc specially after they realize that I have been married for 9 years and have no kids!! I don't yet feel comfortable telling just everyone what I am going through, so it just makes me mad. I wish sometimes that I could simply scream at them that its none of their buisness and walk away! Anyhoo.. it does feel good to vent out here.

I feel more positive now with the start of my first IVF cycle.. As my DH keeps telling me " we will get there". So ladies hang in there..

[RigbyTripper2]

I get upset about that too. The worst was when I found out my sister-in-law and brother-in-law were expecting their first - two years ago and I just lost it. They drink, smoke and argue all the time - why couldn't I conceive but they could. Now she is pregnant for the second time. They know the issues we are having and have been told I dont like people asking questions, but all I hear from her when I see her is so are you pregnant yet, how about now? well come on the baby needs a cousin - seriously people are so insensitive - I have eight sisters and all but two of us have kids and it doesnt seem fair.

Then I see stories in the news about people putting their babies in the microwave, shaking them, beating them - are you serious people! There are so many of us that want a baby so bad but yet people like that seem to have no problem having them. It just doesnt seem fair.

I am crossing my finders that one day god will bless me with a baby of my own. We have discussed adoption, but want to see about having one of our own first.