Heart’s Desire – Finding Strength and Direction from God

[kildean23]

Indieblue: They would only transfer two because of my young age. I think if it was up to me I would of transferred another but they know whats best but my doc says he has no reason to believe that this cycle won't be unsuccessful and that in the future I should consider only doing single transfers. I'm happy with th current decision of two.

[kildean23]

IndieBlue:

The doc would only transfer two because of my young age. He also stated that we should consider only doing a single transfer in the future to reduce multiples. He feels very confident about this cycle and I do as well. I am excited.

[kildean23]

IndieBlue:

The doc would only transfer two because of my young age. He also stated that we should consider only doing a single transfer in the future to reduce multiples. He feels very confident about this cycle and I do as well. I am excited.

[cathann]

Hi girls. I hope this thread is working better than some of the others. Don't we just love computers and technology.

Here's my latest. I started my Lupron this morning and am scheduled to start stims on Sunday. I sure hope that means that God will help me grow healthy eggies! Our ER and ET are both scheduled for the week of 2/20 - 2/25 (as long as everything goes as planned).

kildean ~ sounds like you had a great transfer! Congratulations to you and lots of sticky baby dust heading your way!

Prayers to you all!
Cathann

[chriss]

Hi everyone, jsut checking to see if this thread is having technical difficulties like the others. Hope all is well. -chriss

[chriss]

Is it working yet?

[nicaliw]

klidean.....hearing your story is encouraging, like a blast from the past (only a few months ago). My RE told me he would only transfer 2 because our infertility is male factor and is secondary (DH has 4 kids already, I have 1). As suspected I made lots of follies, and had several blasts, transfering only 2 and freezing the rest. Good news is we did get a BFP! I have a good feeling for you, I think you're going to get your BFP too.

After the miscarriage it is hard to be confident that this process will work for me. I know it was just our first cycle and we are blessed that everything went well except the baby didn't stick around. I am really torn. I'm so excited and ready for my FET but at the same time I daren't get excited or be very positive about it because I don't want to be too let down if we get a BFN next time or worse, another BFP followed by a miscarriage. I wonder if other people feel this way? to complicate things I am worried that not being so positive will affect the outcome negatively. What a tangle of emotions. I think this is why I am starting the foster care process, I'm afraid to believe we will have a baby of our own......and I still feel like God is leading me in this direction.

Ok, enough about me........how is everyone else doing? the board has been kinda quiet with technical problems and all. Hope???? where are you? MP, how are you feeling? Remind me, when is test day for you?

Ok, I have a wierd question. Does anyone else feel compelled to prepare a room for the baby......crib and deco and all???? I feel a but silly about it but I am just so excited at the thought of a baby room that I want to do it right now. Maybe its just me, I was talking about cribs etc and my DH said something like, "oh, well we don't have to get the bedroom ready for antoher year...... blah blah......" I wish he felt the same way. When I explained my need to get the room ready now he was fine with it.

Well, I promise my son we would walk to school today so I better go. Gotta get the blood flowing!

Hugs to all........

[cathann]

nicaliw ~ I think you're emotions are normal. Even though I feel really, really good about our chances with this, there are times that I think I might just be setting myself up for a huge disappointment. I try to not let those negative thoughts sneak in too much. If I didn't think it would jinx things I would have a full nursery already set up! I can't help myself - I've already looked at furniture and bedding, etc.

I'm glad the threads are back to normal. I hope you all are doing well and have a great day!

Cathann

[IndieBlue]

Yay...hopefully normal threads again LOL No DeBugging error's.

Kildean: I didn't even realize how young you were until I looked at your signature line...WOW, I guess that is a good reason LOL I'm 33 (soon to be 34) so I'm hoping they'll do 3....but then I will probably take in to account their opinion too since they should know better than me what might/might not work.

Mia: How is your wait? ER on 1/29....so you have your test early next week...right? Praying for a BFP!!!

Weezie: How are those Embies doing? ET was on 2/3...right? So another week on the 2ww?

Angela: I know you're anxious for May to get here....you're using your 3 FET's aren't you? Praying that they will bring you a BFP.... maybe twins!!!

Hope: how are you doing? Have you set a date yet for your next cycle? I might have missed it....with all these board issues.

Nicaliw: We're entering in to the second week in February....one week closer to your FET...YAY! That is still your direction....right?

Princess: How is your little bean doing!?!

Sonu: How is your wait going? Almost time for that FET...still heading toward that in March?

Chelly: Any updates from you?

CathAnn: Just one more week...YAY! You're not too far from me (I'm in Georgia).

Chriss: Updates? I don't have anything in my memory about where your next cycle is headed. Still praying for you

Paulina: Still here? How are you holding up....know that I'm praying for you as well.

Edel: How are you? Where are you at in the IF journey?

Well, updates on me. We're still heading forward. Meeting is next week....and we'll then schedule an appointment with husband and myself to discuss things. They'll need to do diagnostics on me and a test on his swimmers...that should be fun. Speaking of, how many of your husbands had issues with that part of the process? My husband didn't have to do this when I donated eggs of course, and he keeps joking about it this time....I wonder if he'll have stage fright LOL I can not imagine, but I really hope it's not nearly as bad as I'm thinking it is for him.

I really really pray that they will use my RX plan for some of the meds and that we'll be able to begin in March....what a great month for many of us

[nicaliw]

hi indie.....yes, plan is for FET still but will continue to follow God's lead and begin process to become foster parents.

With regards to my DH's part in the process, he didn't have a problem with it because he is familiar with it. After he had orchitis the urologist had him provide a few specimens to check on how his sperm had been affected. The wierdest part for him was being told to "clean out his pipes" 3-4 days prior to providing a specimen and not being able to indulge for a few days so the highest concentration of sperm would be obtained.

The things we do!

[kildean23]

Thanks ladies for all your words of encouragement. I am feeling even more closer to a BFP. You guys support is so wonderful. I thank the Lord everyday for the friendships and sisters in Christ that I have gained.

IndieBlue: I am so glad you are going to participate in the study. We have faith that is going to take place in March.

Nicaliw: When is your FET? Are you going to transfer 2 or 3? I know how you feel about getting hopes up. sometimes I feel the same way but I'm letting my faith take control. I truly believe that the Lord is going to bless me with my beautiful baby and he is going to do the same for you too. That is wonderful that you are going ahead with being foster parents. The Lord is truly going to bless you for that.

I am going to start a scrapbook today on this journey that I've been through. I have an identical twin sister that is getting ready to do through IVF next month so we are hoping we'll be pregnant together.

[Hope644]

Hi Ladies -

Sorry I've been missing for a few days... work has been super busy and I've had no free time. Today is going to be short too because it's DH's birthday and I have a lot to do before we head out to celebrate tonight.

First of all, welcome Edel! Good to have you! Thank you for the Footprints poem, it's such a lovely story. I see that you have a FET planned for next month. Send me your dates (or tentative ones) and I'll add you to our prayer list.

Paulina - I've been thinking of you and praying for you. Please let us know how you're doing. Please don't feel like God doesn't love you or hasn't blessed you with a child because you aren't as "religious" as your brother. Sure, God wants us to be close to Him and for us to seek Him, but He is not spiteful and won't withhold blessings from you just because you don't attend all church services or read your Bible daily. He understands struggle and pain better than any of us could ever imagine. He suffered that pain for us, because of His love for us and He wants to lighten our load - lift up your struggles to Him and allow Him to help you through... like the footprints

Kildean - So glad to hear that your ET went well... sorry I missed it! Thinking of you and praying for you. What an excellent outcome!! Can't wait to hear about that BFP!! Have fun scrapbooking! Tell your sister she should join us! How lovely to go through that with your sister. We'll keep her in our prayers as well.

Mia/MP - less than a week to go! How are you feeling? Praying for sticky embies!!

Indie - The plan sounds fantastic. So glad to hear that DH is coming around. God makes things work together for His glory!! About the swimmers and your DH "performing" - mine had to have the PESA procedure, due to the vasectomy, in which they knock him out and remove the sperm with a needle... I think mine would have preferred "performing" to that any day!!! Praying that Insurance helps out with the meds. Ours helped only a very, very small bit (like less than $100), because of the vasectomy... hopefully yours will be different. Let us know how the appt goes next week.

Nic - Glad to hear everything is lined up for your FET and you are following God's direction in the adoption process. Wow... that is amazing. I can relate to your feelings about moving forward... for those of you who don't know, Nic and I went through the BFP and M/C within a week or two of each other. I am feeling many of those same feelings, excited but cautious. We are so blessed to have found each other for support and most importantly, that we have such a loving God that is in control of our lives, our bodies and everything else... and that He will only give us what we can endure.

Cathann - Congrats on starting Lupron and stimming tomorrow! We'll be praying for lots of strong, healty embies!!!!

Chriss - Hi... Thinking of you... give us an update on how you are feeling and what's going on!

Sonu - how are you sweetie? where are you??

Hello to everyone else. Hopefully I'll have more time tomorrow. Going to try to get the board updated. Let me know if there are changes from what I have that need to be made.

Hugs and love to you all... (you know me, even when I say it's gonna be short, it never is!)

[Hope644]

MP/Mia- Praise to God for the beautiful embies and a safe ER/ET. Prayers for sticky embies and a BFP on Valentines Day!


Weezie - Prayers for BFP! Test Day??

Angela - Prayers for the upcoming FET - Jan 08?? Update??

Nikki - Prayers a healthy, fruitful FET around 4/4/08 as well as for encouragement and strength from the Lord!! And prayers for the Lord's will and guidance in the adoption process! Praise for healing!


Indie - Prayer for God's will and direction and continued unity of heart and mind with DH in the time leading up to IVF (Maybe June 08 - hopefully March 08 ) Praise for unity with DH.


Princess - Praise for BFP on 1/18!! Prayers for continued growth and development into a beautiful, healthy baby!!


Hope - Praise for healing. Prayers for strength and encouragement in the upcoming IVF cycle ER/ET week of March 10-14


Sonu - Prayer for upcoming FET - March 08 (update??)

Chelly - Prayer for comfort and encouragement through the IVF process (update??!)

Cathann - Prayer for healthy follies and a safe and fruitful ER/ET - around Feb 20-25. Begin stimming on Sunday 2/10.


Chriss - Prayers for continued inspiration and encouragement as well as follies development and direction in IUI/IVF this cycle


Kildean - Praise for safe and fruitful ER/ET and frosties! Prayers for sticky embies and BFP on February 19, 2008


Paulina - Prayers for encouragement from the Lord, that He will hear her cries and show her His love and for strength and healing after the failed cycle.


Edel - Prayers for healing and strength after chemical pg and for a safe and healthy FET next month (dates?)


Thank you, Lord, for the many blessings you have given us. Thank you for each and every person on this list. Please bless us and help us to know your will for our lives and Lord, to seek your will in all we do. Thank you God, for the blessing we have been to each other in this short time together. Please bless our friendships as we honor You! And help us, Father, to encourage and support one another through joy and laughter as well as through sorrow and tears. Teach us Lord, to love one another and others as You love us.

Draw us nearer to You, Lord, as we go through this process. Lord, whatever the path you have chosen for us, show us the way You want us to go. Grant us peace and comfort in your loving arms, Father Abba. Help us to know how our struggles and our suffering are important to you and how you long for us to grow through them and lean on You. Help us to know how to pray and for what to pray. Convict us in the areas of our lives that need correction and guide us back to the paths of fulfillment, sanctification, and righteousness.

In the Name of Your Precious Son, Jesus, Amen.

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[Hope644]

Hi Ladies -

I have a few minutes before I have to start getting ready to go to a concert with DH for his birthday and wanted to ask for a specific prayer.

I know several of you were talking earlier in the thread about the number to transfer. In our previous 2 cycles, we've only transfered 2, my RE said due to my age (she says I'm young, so I'm going with it - tho I'm no spring chick like our Kildean! ) and my good health, that she wouldn't do more... but since we've had two failed cycles (even tho she doesn't consider the 2nd "failed" since we got a BFP) that she would be open to transferring 3.

DH is very much NOT in support of this option and quite honestly, I don't know where I stand. Part of me wants to be as aggressive as I can be, using AH and transferring 3, but part of me is hesitant. He is fearful because of the increased risk in pregnancy as well as the final outcome of possibly having 3 munchkins, rather than 1 or 2. I want to put this completely in God's hands. I know that no matter how many embies we transfer, God is in control of how many implant and don't. I may get 1, 2, 3 or none...

Please pray that God will lead both me and DH to agreement and understanding of His will in this aspect of our tmt.

Thanks...

[waitingforMia]

HEllo Sisters!! I have been busy celebrating my 10 years that I have been blessed with my dh last few days, and have had barely any time to get online!

Hope: I will join you in prayer for clarity on your decision. It is a tough one and so many variables to keep in mind. Hope you have a blessed time with your dh tonight

Kildean: Wow what a blessing that must be to have twin going through IVF with you! I pray that God blesses the two of you together so you can share this journey with eachother.

Nic: Hi girl how is it going?? Your FET will be here before you know it! i can only imagine the mixed feeling you have with this upcoming cycle. I pray that you will be anxious in nothing, but in everything in prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving in your heart, make your request made known to God and the peace which surpasses all understanding will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus!

Indie: So excited that you and dh are progessing toward your goal!! I bet you are super excited about the meeting. My dh was more stressed when we had to do it at home and then take the swimmers to the clinic. it stressed me out too. I think he prefers doing it at the clinic.

Cathann: You started your shots today right? Did they go alright? I pray that your follies will respond well to the meds!

Chriss: Hi girlie!! How you holding up?? when do you test again?? Staying positive I hope!!??

Well girls, I am trying to stay positive, had a few moments of doubt today, but i am praying against them and praying that this is dh and my chance at a BFP. No feelings physically worth mentioning. but I try not to read into them any way since the meds make us feel so different. I am just trying to focus on the positives of my life without children this week to help me. Like being able to decide at 8pm we want to go see the 8:30 movie Above all I am praying God's will in my life. I know He is able, but even if He doesn't, I WILL STILL PRAISE HIM!!!

Love You Girls!

MP