DONOR EGG Tmt Thread... " Egg-heads"

[jen babes]

andrea- sorry i ddnt click that you are testing today x x x sorry hun didnt mean to miss you ....

good luck testing tody sweetheart

love and hugs jen B
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[kellym]

Jen and Andrea - I am thinking of you both today!!! Hope that all is going well!

JenB - so great to hear from you hun! I am so sorry that it has been a rough road for you recently. It sounds as though you are taking the time you need which is great! We sure missed you. Let us know when 'its a go' for your FET so that we can be rooting you on!

Lucy, how are you hanging in there?

Everyone else, hope you had a fantastic weekend!

Kel

[Jen1d]

HPT IS NEG SO THE BLOODS WILL BE THE SAME

[kellym]

Jen, I have no words of wisdom, no words of comfort because this whole thing sucks! I don't understand it at all and my heart breaks for you.

My RE once told me that there are so many unanswered questions in the world of inferility but that offers no solace when you have to experience multiple bfn. Answers is what you want. Why didn't this work? What can I do to make it work? It is the most frustrating thing because you have no control over the outcome.

Just know that you are a wonderful pillar of strength (even if you falter once and awhile) because you have survived so much more than anyone should ever have to!

I wish I could fly over there right now and give you a HUGE HUG!!!

Thinking of you and DH!

Kel

[Kiwi expat]

Thanks girls for all your support but unfortunately it's another BFN for me.

(And we were all getting off to such a great 2008 with all the good news coming through - but I guess I couldn't keep up my end of the bargain...)

Was too gutted to log on yesterday. I kept myself super busy in the weekend so as not to think about it, but as I said last week, I already knew the outcome a while ago as I just didn't feel pregnant. I didn't even use the POAS cos I knew it would just depress me over the weekend. Even so, when you actually get the news you were expecting, it is still a hard pill to swallow...

Jen - I've posted on your Testing thread. Hang in there sweetie.

Thanks again everyone for enduring this with me. Will pop back later when I've managed to find my smile again...
Andrea

[jen babes]

jen and andrea

thinking of you both at this emotional time...sending you much love xxxx
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[AMck]

Andrea, so sorry to see your news. Take care of yourself and DH.

Hugs
Anna x

PS Jen, have posted on your test thread

[kellym]

Jen and Andrea, my heart goes out to both of you. Thinking of you and sending you big hugs.

[kellym]

Lucy, how are you doing? Only 2 more days until test day. I hope you've managed to stay away from those hpt. How are you feeling?

[Jen1d]

I'm struggling and dont know how i come to terms with never being able to experience pregnancy or having my own child but i am grateful i have the chance to adopt although its not the same.
I just feel so sad that i will never see dh face light up when i announce i am pregnant---the pain is to much to think about.

Andrea - I was so sad to hear about your neg result but know how you feel----my smile is also hiding. Am here is you want to chat (((HUGS)))

Lucy - Good luck for your test date

Love Jen x

[Lucy12]

Jen & Andrea I am so sorry I cannot understand its soo unfair.

I have lots of symtons which is crapp because I know they don't mean anything and one day I am on a high and the next feel like shit. Can't wait till Friday.

I so hope its good news as I feel IVF is my life, I know I have 2 little embies at IM but its going through all the process again never mind the cost.

I am keeping everything crossed and trying to keep positive.

Kelly hope your ok. When do you get to hear the heart beat. take it easy.

Jenbabes glade to hear from you. Sorry you have been struggling we have all missed you. Lets hope them little embies @ IM are ready and waiting for their mum.

Sending you all lots of hugs

Love

Lucy
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[rhall00]

Jen and Andrea, I cannot tell you how sorry I am for both of you. I've only been through that point once and just remembering how heartbreaking it is makes me wish none of us ever have to go through that. I'm actually going to see a social worker tomorrow to try and develop ways to deal with getting over the fear of rejection since my next FET will be happening within the next 3 weeks or so. Please know that you are both loved and admired by all of us here and we're definitely thinking of you.

Lucy, best of luck on your test! Bring us some good news!!

[Jen1d]

EGGHEADS Test Date - 11th Feb----sadly BFN



Rebeccaj
Prior tmt: 3 IUI all BFN. DH then diagnosed with variocele (sp?);
Feb 07 ICSI, stims 20 days, 26 eggs ( all poor quality) None fertilised
April 07 IVF/ICSI #2 - same thing - stims for 21 days; 31 eggs - all poor quality; zero fertilised changed clinics
June 07:Menopur/follistim IUI - 9 days on stims... 4 follicles... BFN
Aug 07:currently going through DE IVF with sister -
ER Mon 13th Aug... 12 Eggies fertilised
ET Sat 18th Aug -? transfered..? frosties.
TEST DATE: 27th GOOD LUCK
BFP 4wks beta HCG 426.1

1st SCAN 13th Sept=



BigJ ( Taylorjooles) 44
ttc since 2000, currently trying for 2nd child
me: POF, autoimmune thyroiditis, fibroids. DH antisperm antibodies after VS reversal now using TESE sperm.
May 2005 DE IM barcelona, 3 embies, BFP m/c 7.5 weeks
Nov 2005 DE/ TEsE sperm at ISIDA Ukraine - 8 embies, 4 put back son Joshua 07.08.06
FET July 07 ISIDA BFP sadly blighted ovum m/c 8 weeks
am old hand, so happy to advise!
First donor faild, so new back-up donor now stimming for us...
me on long protocol!
Fresh DE/ICSI/TESE Kiev 8th-20th Nov
EC -approx 16th Nov, ET? 19th Nov
BFP - 3 on board


Kelly
5 fresh ivf's all BFN
21st FET - sadly a BFN
IVF with DS Oct07
7th Oct scan 7 follies
a Double ET- Sun 14th and tues 16th Oct x x good luck x x
TEST DATE: 29th Oct ...SADLY BFN
next IVF Nov 07 10 eggies collected 11th nov
ET=14th Nov 6 embies=BFN
TEST DATE: 6th Feb - BFP



ON 2ww



Lucy 12
looking at De in Barcelona IM
Ist appointment at Im 3rd Dec...2 Grade 9 embies on board and 2 snowbabies at IM
Test Date 15th Feb




IN TREATMENT:



chriss
1ST IVF Sept BFN
2nd IVF OCT BFN
IUI Natural Cycle Nov ...good luck whats test date?
(As we wait to start Dec IVF)
Dec cycle - BFN
Going through treatment just now


Poochie ( Vicki)-
Prior tmt: 1st ICSI BFP, DD now 3yrs old. 2006 2nd & 3rd ISCI's BFN, changed clinics 2007 4th ICSI BFP but ectopic lost tube. Told cell division slow so going for DE.
30th Aug 07:1st appointment IVI Madrid
Sept - trial run
Dec- Tmt starts


Sonix (Sonia)
3 iui & 5 ivf all BFN
18th May 07 1st appointment Poland for DE
starts meds approx 30th Aug
Lining thickness problems cycle cancelled
sending Love & Prayers
AF 4th Nov - back on track - next scan booked for 12th Nov
Waiting to do transfer cycle, a little delayed due to arrival of AF



Jen Babes-
Prior tmt: 2 natural pregs both ectopics, no tubes left,
3 IVF Short cycles 2005-2006 all BFN.
Sept 06 Given a 3% chance with own eggs. Looked at DE abroad in Kiev and Spain.
Chose IM Barcelona, consultant Dr Monica Redondo.
1st App IM 3rd Aug 07: Tests, uterus Biopsy.
On progesterone pills until CD26 ( due to intermitant bleeding)
24th Aug AF and start BC pills. been on them 40 days
AF 7th oct and start patches.
12th & 15th Oct SCAN dates = 4.2mm & 7.1mm
EC=18th Oct
ET=20th Oct 2 embies transfered
TEST DATE:2nd Nov -BFP ...sadly stopped growing & m/c 5wks+3dys
2 snowbabies grade 6
Jan 08 next FET HOPING & PRAYING for 9mth BFP!



AWAITING TMT:




Jen1d (or 1st Lady )
Prior tmt:ttc for 6yrs,
tubes damaged
Bilateral Salpingectomy, 16th Aug 06
4 IVF - BFN
5th June 07- 1st appointment @ IM Barcelona for DE
9th Aug 07- start E2 patches
15th Aug 07 - scan to check womb lining...4.4mm thick
21th Aug 07- EC 6 embies
23rd AUG -ET 2 transfered - BFN
4 frosties waiting for mummy and daddy
2nd DE :
12th Sept start patches
17th sept scan, 21st sept scan
28th sept FET- 2 frosties on boards & 2 frosties in cryo
TEST DATE: 12th Oct sadly BFN Big (((Hugs)))
31st Oct Hysteroscopy- results all clear
FET Jan 08 - Test Date 11th Jan - praying hard as it might be our last chance - sadly BFN


Andrea (Kiwi Expat)-
Prior tmt: 6 IUIs; 3 FET; 5 ISCI's
All BFNs or cancelled cycles.
One BFP but sadly mc at 9wks 3days. One Biochemical.
Now officially an egghead - moving onto DE IN 2008
Test Date 11th Feb - sadly BFN


Gill
Prior tmt:1st IVF 2001 BFN,
2nd IVF in 2002 BFN
3rd IVF/ED 2003 BFN,
4th IVF/ED 2004 BFN
5th DE/DS Clinic IM Dr M.Redondo 1st appiontment June 07
July doppler and hystocscopy( spelling)
15th Aug stop BC pills
E2 patches 19th August day 1 of AF
Scan 28th August womb lining 7mm thick Good luck gill
ET Sunday 2nd September 3 embies on board
SADLY BFN (((HUGS)))
looking at next stage of tmt at IM,awaiting info



Rebecca Hall(rhall00)
3 ivf's BFN no mature eggs.
DE October 07 x x good luck x x
23rd Sept Lupron shots
3rd Oct Start Vivelle patces and Estradiol
9th Oct Ultrasound Scan
EC 24th Oct - 10 frozen embies!
ET 28th Oct
TEST DATE: Nov 8th...SADLY bfn
Waiting to start treatment



judy
Me 39, DH 40, ttc 3 years
3 natural pregnancies, all miscarried, last 2 was due to trisome 16
- ttempted a PGD cycle, not enough fertilized eggs for PGD,
converted to IVF, BFN
3-4 IUI cycles, all BFN
looking at DE in Pheonix USA



Carolyn-
Prior tmt :3 IVFs (May 2006, December 2006 & March 2007) - All Negative
Tubal Surgery - August 2006
New clinic: 1 ICSI July 2007 - Another Negative
Told that eggs are fragmented, murky and leaky as well as old
19th September 2007: 1st Appointment with Dr Walker at IM, Barcelona
Male Factor identified too - Dh needs a TESA
AF so start bc pills - 29th September
Stop pills - 23rd October
Af and patches - 26th Oct
Scan booked - 2nd November
EC - 9th November PLUS TESA for my brave DH
ET- 10th November ...3 embies on board
Test Date - 24th November. Another BFN
On medi just now plus planning what to do next??


-Missing In action..we miss you
BabyBlue (Kim)-
Prior tmt:6 IUIs - 2006 - all BFNs
Sept. 06 - 1st IVF (ICSI) BFN
Feb. 07 - 2nd IVF (ICSI) BFN
Sept 5 - start BC pills
Sept 16 - start Lupron shots
4 Oct - scan day
Oct 19 - EC and start delestrogen
Oct 24 ET
TEST DATE:Nov 2 - praying for BFP
where are you Kim?????





Sadly 3rd Sept Kelly had a BFN
Sadly 7th Sept Jen1d had a BFN
Sadly 19th Sept Gill had a BFN
Sadly Sonia Sept cycle cancelled
Sadly Chriss on 12th Oct BFN
Jen1d tested on 12th Oct sadly BFN
kelly tested on 29th Oct and sadly BFN
Jen Babes sadly beanie stopped growing 5th Nov ...
Sadly rhall00 had a BFN on 8th Nov
Carolyn tested on 24th Nov and sadly BFN
Jen1d tested on 11th Feb sadly BFN
Andrea tested on 11th Feb sadly BFN

Thanks to AMcK (Anna) ( "oh Wise one") for all her input, support and help with Donor Egg info. Anna had a BFP @ 2nd transfer at IM...Baby Matthew is 1yr old on 23rd March & has 3 bottom teeth ...


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[Jen1d]

Hi girls

Told work last night that i was staying off and still in my dressing gown. Just dont have the energy to do anything and just lay on the bed and had a good cry. Dh is fantastic, i keep asking if he is ok but he just keeps saying he only wants me and if we have a baby---whatever way---then its a bonus. After the first 2 cycles he never got his hopes up and we just plodded along throught the last 2 2ww's expecting the same neg result. My mum just tx and asked if i was feeling better today and if i was in work---poor thing she just got told that its going to take more than 2 days to get over the news of never being able to have children----not her fault eh.

I feel angry now to,
angry with IM,
angry for dh
angry with other pregnant people,
angry i will have to go through life always trying to live with this pain,
angry at anyone who tells me they are pregnant,
angry with anyone who moans at their kids,
angry with the crap 14yr olds who get pregnant,
angry with the druggies/alcoholics who get pregnant,
the list goes on and on----------but mainly angry with my body, which has let me down for years.

How do i move on and learn to accept it. There will be pregnant people around until the day i die, do i have to feel sad and have others pity me when they break their news to me. I keep thinking that i wont see our child, what would it look like, would it like the same things as us. Then i think about an adoped child and know we can bond and give the same love but worry it will go and look for its parents and not stay with us or that people treat us 'not as proper parents' as i havent given birth and its not our biological child. God my head is all over the place.

Sorry girls, know you are all having probs of your own but i just cant get a grip. Its strange as i thought i was so calm in the 2ww and that i was prepared but i think its because we are at the end of the road. I always knew we would be one of the couples who had a list at the end of their name and were in the % of it never working----i said that to dh from the start.

So after my selfish rant---i hope you are all feeling better than me and thank you for being there to support me not just on this cycle but through them all. You are the only people who truly know how me and dh are feeling. Others just take pregnancy for granted and they dont know how lucky they are.

Have to go and get dressed and put on a face as the social worker is coming over at 4pm.

Andrea - Here if you need me for a chat (((HUGS)))

Lucy - How you doing? Good luck for the 15th.

Speak soon

Love Jen x

[jen babes]

hI EGGHEADS

JEN1d - hun i am so sad to hear you so low..i know the hurt is unbearable and wish i could do domething to help you ...words here seem so empty. I am glad you have stayed off work...Your mum could have been a bit nmore understanding Mine seems not to know what to say to help either...I wish i could give you some hugs...sending them through the cyber airwaves ((((hugs))))... x x x

Andrea- know you are taking time out to find your smile....sending you mega hugs too ((((HUGS)))) x x x

as for everyone else ....

Lucy 2 sleeps to go x x x fingers crossed for you sweetie...hoping that thia 1st DE at Im is the one for you!!!! much love x x x

Kelly- how are you doing sweetie? how is your beta this week??? any symptoms yet???? I felt sick from day 3 after positve test...so yeuky hope your doing okay x x xlet us know your scan date too as we are so excited for ya x x x love x x x

Big J whats foing on hun...how are you doing with your babies??? Hoping number 3 babe is hanging on...you must be feeling so sick. I remember when you were crrying Joshie you couldnt even look at a computer let us know how you and triplets are x x x love and hugs x x x

Chriss good luck for testing soon hun... i wont post a thread for you like you asked x x xhugs x x x

sonia rebecca rhalloo poochie judy carolyn and everyone else i have missed ( memory is rubbish) good luck what ever your going through.

as for me..STILL AWAITING AF i have been on meds so she would come on time but hey mother nature and my cycle are twisted ....anyway am not stressing as work are ok with me being off whn i choose and the same for DH....just dont want it all to run into easter as the flights and hotels will be booked up for that. Last time she was 2wks late afetr tmt ...hope she comes soon...

AF jig for me please girls i need it

take care and have a lovely valentine day thurs ...will try and catch up before the weekend...If not chriss and Lucy good luck x x x


love jen
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