Heart’s Desire – Finding Strength and Direction from God

[IndieBlue]

Hello all

Mia: Sorry about your little twin bean I'm glad to hear the other one is doing well though...and YAY on those PIO shots almost being over. I'm so glad I get to avoid those, my RE uses the Vag. Gel or since I'm in the study I may be in the group that gets the ring (you change it once a week....doesn't that sound nice). I can't believe it's already been 12 weeks since your ET....WOW! Oh and on the waffle note....my husband got me a waffle maker for Christmas LOL It flips them and everything....I LOVE it. We have them atleast once a week, usually on Saturday or Sunday.

Sonu911: That festival sounds fun. Did you color anything? Praying for your ET....wow is it here already! Again, seems like it's flown by....but I'm sure you've been counting the days LOL

Nic: Great explanation on the fibroids I looked up fibroids on the Internet the other day because I have a few (or she said what looked like a few) on my regular ultrasound last month. There are some very good photo's that show the different kinds here: http://www.med.unc.edu/obgyn/services_f ... linic.html
LOL, I got to where I was looking up all sorts of stuff....you would be amazed by what comes up when you type in vag.... ultrasound IVF LOL Congrats on being so close to your FET....WOW! Again, I'm so amazed at how many of you are going in to ET's and having ultrasounds of your babies....I really pray that we keep up with the BFP's and that I can contribute to that!

HRobinson: Great that you had family to visit We had our own Easter Celebration here at home by ourselves as everyone else had something to do. So did you cook a big feast? Sorry that your last day of Spring Break is nearing....I'm glad we're not taking one That way when April 25th gets here, we can relax a whole month earlier than our public school friends ....then they'll be spending the night, swimming in our pool...etc for the rest of the summer LOL

Hope: Loving all the flashy things....I can't even link here LOL And keeping up with the list!!! Amazing!!! I know I'm a broken record....but WOW, the 31st is your testing date!!!! Things are just flying by....I can not wait to hear how your test goes , are you not even tempted to POAS?

Chriss: How are you doing? I'm praying for you now! I do not even begin to understand what kind of pain you must be going through....or what questions this has brought up in your mind, but know that we are here for you and more importantly that God is always here for you too

APDean: Feeling better? Praying that you are. I've read about OHSS and OUCH! From what I've read it doesn't necessarily get better as the pregnancy goes on...praying that all of your OHSS symptoms go away and you get a BFP at the end of your 2ww.

Well, I've love to hear updates from everyone else My update is always short......NOT! I get long winded even when I type LOL Anyhow, still waiting on AF, but after looking at my cycle calendar it's not supposed to start until the middle of this week, so again...no rush LOL If I could hold off till next Saturday or Sunday then I could go for all my appointments and nurse consult in early April which I think would be nice. My bb's are EXTREMELY sore though....so I would almost bet my body will start within the next fews days and I'll end up making 2 trips....YUCK. It's 3 hours there and 2 back.....not counting all the time spent going from room to room getting all those test and ultrasounds done. Oh and I talked to a few Psychologist and most charge around 300-350.00 for a 1-2 hour visit and then write up something and send it to the office.....again, not something we'd really thought we'd encounter because of our position in life, but something they've dropped on us so we'll have to do it I guess.

Well, off to reheat some Easter dinner.....and shove deviled eggs on to the kids plates LOL

[sonu911]

A THOUGHT -

GOD IS AND THERE IS NOTHING HIGHER THAN HIM. HE IS PERFECT, INFINITE AND ETERNAL. HE IS OMNIPRESENT, OMNIPOTENT AND OMNISCIENT. HE IS THE CREATOR, SUSTAINER AND DESTROYER. SURRENDER VOLUNTARILY AND TOTALLY TO HIS WILL. NOT A BLADE OF GRASS MOVES WITHOUT HIS WILL. TRUST IN HIM AND DO THE RIGHT. LET THE INNER LIGHT GUIDE ALL YOUR ACTIONS.
REMEMBER HE IS VERY COMPASSIONATE AND WE SOMETIMES FALTER IN OUR FAITH IN HIMAND LACK SUFFICIENT PATIENCE.

GOD...GRANT US STRENGTH AND PATIENCE THROUGH THIS JOURNEY.
AMEN.

[waitingforMia]

Praise Lord!!! Geat to hear about your baby!! So, Thursday going to be action packed day for you as well.
Thanks for keeping us in your prayers.
The news is that I have been offered a job of teaching History to secondary school students and the sessons begins in April. I am still contemplating as to whether I will be able to bear work pressure with embabies in my womb. Other thought is that I rested for complete 2w last three times and nothing happened...so...what to do?? Any thoughts, (sisters)??

Sonu: I rested during my 2ww, b/c I didnt have to work at that time. But I thik overall it is fine to work as long as it is not a very stressful environment. Plus it will help the time to fly by!

[sonu911]

Thanks, dear!! I really appreciate such a quick response.

[kbat]

sorry I haven't been on for a while. things hectic at work and then during Easter week-end I had my mother and brother visit. Hope everyone had a wonderful Easter.

I think someone asked earlier if my insurance would cover anymore. I was told that they usually cover 6, and I"ve had 6 already. Although, a lady in one of the financial offices did mention that sometimes they go for a 7th one. But I think I finally have come to the realization that I am at the end of my IVF journey. Out of 3 IUI's and 6 IVF, basically nothing worked. On IVF #5 I did have an etopic so I guess it technically worked. But I don't think my re would want to do anymore. If I proceeded, I would want to try Cornell or Uconn, and my insurance wouldn't cover it anyway at those clinics--I have to go to one of the insurance's centers. and there would be no guarantees it would work. So I guess I will stick w/ acupuncture and herbs and doing the ovulation moniter until around June to see what happens. Then if this tcm doesn't seem to work after a few months, then I will move on. I've prayed to God and I know that he does answer prayers--even if it's not always the way we want things to turn out. So for now, I will trust in HIM

[Hope644]

Good morning ladies -

I tried to wait a little longer, but my heart was beating so fast as I lay in bed this morning having to pee so bad - I couldn't wait any longer.

And - I'm glad I didn't wait!!!








It's a hopeful excitement at this point. I'm cautiously optimistic. I know I gotta keep up the PMA - and I am - memories are just tough to get over.

Anyway - I wanted to let you all know. DH doesn't know yet - he fussed at me the last time I POAS for fear that it would be a false positive. (It was the same day - 10dp3dt - as last time). So I'm going to let him wait until Monday like everyone else - 'cept u and my mom!

Thank you ALL for all your well wishes, thoughts and prayers. You guys really are a wonderful support - I just hope I can be as helpful to each of you as you have been for me.

hrobinson - It sounds like the news from your biopsy is good. I will continue to pray for you - that it will not affect you in ttc. I wish I had some advice for you in regards to the subject... You'll continue to be in my prayers.

Nikki - Only 11 more days??!!! Wow, it will be here before you know it and you will be celebrating and praising God for your BFP very soon!!! Praise God for your E2 level - that's an excellent start!

MP/Mia - Sorry to hear that your 2nd little one didn't make it. I don't know about you, but it brings me great comfort to know I will see my little one in Heaven one day! Praise God for a strong heartbeat AND last week of PIO!!!! woo hoo!!! That's fantastic news. Let us know how your OB appt goes!

Sonu - WOW - Thursday!?! Already?! (I'm sure it doesn't seem like a short time for you!! ) Praying for strong PMA for you, dear - and a healthy SAFE thaw of your little embabies!!! Praying for guidance and direction with the new job possibility. Sounds like an exciting new opportunity. Praying that God will lead you in the direction He wants you to go. Your thoughts about God are very touching and true. HE IS IN CONTROL - PRAISE TO HIM - because He is holy, He is GOOD and He loves us and has a perfect plan for us!!!!!

Indie - HAHA - I read your post in the review after I'd already written above - of COURSE I was tempted to POAS!!! My wait was almost a 3 ww - cruel and unusual treatment if you ask me!! I'm 4 weeks pg now, by my test date I'll already be almost 5! WAY too long to wait - not that I'm a waiter anyways - we had this discussion on another thread - For me, I just don't like waiting all day, with nail-biting anxiety for the nurse to call - if it's bad news, I just want to be alone and not have to have the shock of it all while trying to be polite and thank her for the call. I want to be able to cry - or scream with joy - in the privacy of my own bathroom, thank you very much! - POAS could be wrong, I know - especially with a neg - but I'd rather be somewhat prepared and composed when I get that call. Just me. Praying for AF's arrival to minimize your long trips to the RE's office. Sorry to hear about the unexpected psychology costs... can you shop around to see if you can get a better cost?? Or better yet, is it something you could do through insurance that might help?? We have a counseling option through work which gets us a reduced rate - $35/visit. Has been a blessing with a blended family and a DSS with anger problems since the divorce. Just a thought.

kbat - God bless you, sweetie. Insurance is a crazy thing. We didn't have that as an option at all, so we're spending all OOP. I do have very strong positive feelings regarding TCM. I've done acupuncture for TTC (as well as other things) for several years now. I think it is a wonderful, natural medical avenue and it's too bad that a lot of western doctors feel threatened (or nay-say it). Our bodies are wonderfully and fearfully made - God's design was perfect. I will be praying that TCM has an incredible impact on your TTC plan. hugs to you!!

hi to all the other sisters out there - sorry, my review doesn't go back any further - but I'm thinking of you and praying for you all!!
Thanks again, ladies, for everything.... Praying that my little bean(s) continue to grow strong and hold on - for full term!!!! Praise to God!

[IndieBlue]

Just had to take a quick moment and post a huge CONGRATS!!!! I'm so happy for you Hope!!!!! Another BFP, isn't it wonderful. Can you believe how many BFP's are on this thread now....God is so good. I am so glad that you POAS...I would have too, 5 weeks CRAZY~why so long LOL

I'm going to try and not POAS until the day of my Beta....like you I sort of want to be prepared if it's a negative, I like to be alone too and the call would KILL me if I didn't already have some idea.

When we adopted I'll never forget that the road we live off of was being blocked that day for a bike ride so I couldn't be home for the call. I knew my worker was meeting with the kids worker that day, but there were 2 other families that were up for this placement too. She called me shortly after the meeting and said that it was a toss up, all the families were so great. I sat in the parking lot of the Office Depot, then she called me back and gave me the positive news I cried and cried and thought of how silly I must have looked to everyone going in and out of the store....LOL I called my husband and he was working on top of a restaurant roof at the time (he does HVAC work) and he had to walk to the other side of the roof so the other guys wouldn't see him shed tears LOL.....we're both such softies but I've only seen him cry when his birth kids were born, or we were chosen for our adopted kids...so sweet

Anyhow.....can't wait to see how your husband takes the news!!!!! I'm sure he'll be so excited he won't be able to contain his joy. Any ideas on how you're going to tell him?

Well again, CONGRATS.....I'm so excited for you!!!!!

[nicaliw]

HOPE!!! Yay! I was so happy for you when I read this I almost cried. Thats wonderful news. I'm so, so happy for you hun!

[waitingforMia]

Hope: DOn't mind me.. I am just doing a happy dance.

CONGRATULATIONS MOMMA

Woo-hoo! Keep up the PMA!!! SO happy for you and dh. So you have to wait a week to tell dh??? Remember I waited 2 days and that was hard enough - he kept asking me what I was so happy about!!

Oh but I am so very happy for you Hope!!!

[waitingforMia]

sorry I haven't been on for a while. things hectic at work and then during Easter week-end I had my mother and brother visit. Hope everyone had a wonderful Easter.

I think someone asked earlier if my insurance would cover anymore. I was told that they usually cover 6, and I"ve had 6 already. Although, a lady in one of the financial offices did mention that sometimes they go for a 7th one. But I think I finally have come to the realization that I am at the end of my IVF journey. Out of 3 IUI's and 6 IVF, basically nothing worked. On IVF #5 I did have an etopic so I guess it technically worked. But I don't think my re would want to do anymore. If I proceeded, I would want to try Cornell or Uconn, and my insurance wouldn't cover it anyway at those clinics--I have to go to one of the insurance's centers. and there would be no guarantees it would work. So I guess I will stick w/ acupuncture and herbs and doing the ovulation moniter until around June to see what happens. Then if this tcm doesn't seem to work after a few months, then I will move on. I've prayed to God and I know that he does answer prayers--even if it's not always the way we want things to turn out. So for now, I will trust in HIM

kbat: Keep strong girl. I am so sorry that you have been through so much. I know you are facing a tough decision. And I will cont to pray for peace for you and dh as you make some decisions. Cont trusting in Him - He knows your heart and your desire - but he also knows the plans that He has for you. I pray that your desires would match his will. Thanks for posting and updating us. We are all here for you.

[kildean23]

Congradulations HOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That is the best news I could of heard this week. Keep the PMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love Ya

[IndieBlue]

Yay, AF has arrived Before we headed out to music lessons I felt crampy so I figured I'd wear 'protection' just in case LOL I went to the restroom and there she was....HaHaHa So funny that I was glad to see her.....never done that before.

Anyhow, called to schedule the FSH testing and the next ultrasound and the RE nurse said that I could wait till next month if I wanted to...HuH? I don't think so....why would I want to wait? So I'm scheduled for this Friday for those test and then on the 3rd I get to go in for my Saline ultrasound and hubby gets to do his test then too Pray that my FSH comes back okay and I get to stay in the study.

And also pray that I can forgo the psychological testing. That's another 300.00 that was not mentioned until last week and I really really do not want to have to add that to my list of things to do 3 hours away from home LOL I saw a psychologist when I donated eggs, and we also saw one when we adopted our children so I think we understand the risk...etc. Plus, it's one visit, how much could they possibly learn from us in one visit!!! I don't want to lessen what the visit is actually for and I realize that it's probably there for a good reason, but God will not leave me and I really rely on that more than I would a test and brief visit with a perfect stranger LOL

And please tell me if your nurse was less than excited when scheduling these things for you. I mean...I realize it's their job, and she's nice...very nice, but why suggest that I wait? And then she mentioned getting the pap and other cultures next month...HUH? Already done!!!! I guess she was not looking at my chart when that was done but it made me feel like I was just a number again.

Thanks so much ladies for all the support.....I'm just glad for this tiny step forward LOL

[kbat]

Hope--Congratulations!! It's good to have a PMA...

Waitingformia--thanks for the positive feedback on the tcm. I figure at this point it can't hurt. I've been sooooo lucky to have coverage for 6 cycles. I know that most aren't as lucky as I am.

Indie--good luck w/ all the tests. (I've done the clomid challenge test) and just the day 3 as well at that saline test. I agree that there's no reason to wait to do this testing. If you wait then there's just another delay before you can start a cycle.


Just wanted to let everyone know that this is an AWESOME thread. Not that the other threads aren't supportive, but everyone is soooo positive. It's nice to see.


I'll keep praying for everyone

P.S. How do you all get those cute little banners and animated things on your posts/

[kbat]

INDIEBLUE---my nurse wasn't all that great. She always wanted to do tests. She told me that I would have to do another day 3 for my last cycle, b/c I am over 40 and I need one every 6 months. She told me that I had one done in Sept (was going for cycle in Feb). When I told her that I had it done at the end of Sept (had everything written down on the calendar) and that 6 months from the end of Sept was the end of March. Then she said that we should do it b/c if it was close, then the insurance would reject the claim. I asked her why we couldn't submit it and if they rejected it then we still had time to do the test. She didn't seem too thrilled w/ that idea, so I probably would have gone w/ the flow had I not gotten in the letter from the insurance saying that I was approved and had until April 1 to complete the cycle (which I did in Feb.) another time she told me I had to take a drug because ovidrel wasn't covered. When I told her it was, she kept insisting it wasn't until I called the insurance company myself and low and behold the one I wanted to continue to take was still approved by insurance (only at $40 instead of $25). I found I had to be "firm" w/ the nurse. I didn't like dealing w/ her, but I didn't want her to run the show and do what was convenient for her.

I really think that you have to stay on top of these nurses. I know the re's are the ones who set up the plans, but it seems like nurses are in a lot of ways the ones who "run the show." Make sure she knows "who's the boss!!!"" LOL

[sonu911]

Hope...


Praise Lord!!! He is SIMPLY GREAT!!!! AWESOME....WONDERFUL!!
You made my day and my PMA IS ALREADY SHOOTING HIGH and I am more than ready for tomorrow's transfer.

I am so happy for you and praying hard. Thanks for those wonderful wishes.

Indieblue- Congrats, hun for the arrival of AF. Oh!! how eagerly we wait for AF...its crazy!!

Kbat - I was reading through your post, and it seems GOD has put you through the toughest set of exams becasue probably he knows that you are capable of handling those. I really appreciate your positive attitude at this juncture of life. You best time is yet to arrive and you correctly said that this thread is AMAZING and we all have TREMENDOUS SUPPORT for each other.

Mia - Something is very fortunate in your name. Praise Lord!!! Thanks for being there.

Prayers and love to all my sisters here!!!