Hoekey- How are you?

[Hoekey]

Thanks Rio! I'm still here. I even went on Photobucket to look at all the U/S pictures. It's great to see you all progressing so nicely. I know it's sounds pitiful but I am just not ready to say hi over there yet. Let me go on vacation with DH and I think having done that I'll be ready. I hope so, anyway. We leave a week from tomorrow and come back on the 11th of April.

I have a call in to my Dr. but they have not called back yet. I am still bleeding. Not heavy but more than just spotting, I go through only 5-6 panty liners a day but there is no sign of it stopping. It has been two weeks to the day since the MC so I am a bit frustrated. DH and I can not be intimate until I have had no bleeding for a whole week. Well, tomorrow is one week away from our vacation. It would be real nice to go knowing we can, you know . I am not sure, this may be normal for a natural MC. I have very little cramping, and it does not look "infected" or anything, it's just monotinous. Day in Day out, no change.

Okay, thanks for checking in and letting me vent.

I thought that I was okay to post and then I had a very hard time reading about someone's U/S where they got to see the arms and legs. That hurt a bit. Do not get me wrong I am so happy for you all, it's just a little painful right now. My counselor told me that if it makes me feel good to go ahead but until I can do so without logging off feeling disappointed that I should hold off. So, like I said, I will be there, I'm just not ready yet. Though I hope to be soon.

Again, thanks for checking on me, I REALLY REALLY appreciate it!!

Hoekey...

[Hoekey]

Well, if anyone is checking in and read my last post, I have an update. The nurse just called back and it looks like after everything that I have gone through I still need to go in and have a D&C. I am so frustrated. I really just wanted to move on and start over. But, I guess the good thing is that NOW, I can after tomorrow. They have scheduled it for tomorrow mornining around 10:00. They will be doing an U/S first just to be sure, but they said I should have stopped bleeding a week ago and to be honest I am still passing small clots and tissue. Really not very big, but I guess that's not good either. So, they are pretty convinced that the D&C is necessary. The bummer is that I will have to have it done at the clinic and not in the hospital like I would have chosen to do. In the clinic I can only get conscious sedation where as in the hospital I could have had general anesthesia. I know that most would opt for the conscious sedation but not me. I go to what is called "pain clinic" every eight to twelve weeks for treatment for the osteoarthritis in my neck (the result of an injury in a car accident when I was 18 ). That is done under consious sedation and because of that I have built up a tolerance to it. My egg retrievals were very painful and they were unable to give me enough sedative to knock me out completely for them. I am afraid that this will be the case for the D&C. Just one more thing to worry about I guess. Oh well, wish me luck. I have a plethera of pain killers at home so I should be able to manage the post-op pain okay. But, I have heard that you have to wait for six weeks after a D&C for IC, does anyone know? UGH!!! Is all I can say at the moment!

[riogirl71]

Oh sweetie - ouch. Sorry you still have to do a D&C but hopefully that will end the spotting and bleeding and you and DH can have a little hanky-panky on your vacation well deserved vacation!
I completely understand that it is hard to post tand that the u/s news and other things upset you, I know you wish the best for us. Just take your time and I really think it is sweet that you check on us from time to time. When you feel comfortable enough to post, take as you are just getting a nice preview of what's coming next for you and DH that you will be going through the same things when your BFP comes! I am still praying for your recovery and your upcoming cycle, you are always in our thoughts. You are very brave and you deserve your miracle! Please continue to keep us posted in this board.

[kerpupples]

Cathy hon, you don't deserve all these ordeals. I'm so sorry that you had to have the D&C after all. Let's hope that is indeed a clean slate. Man.

I'll answer you over on my thread but I wanted to check in on you here too.

BTW I can't even follow the pregnancy threads anymore. Too painful.