Dec/Jan 08 Cycle Buddies

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 9:42 pm

My BFP was only a 26. They said they are pretty sure its chemical but I will go in for another beta Wed. morning. I am devastated! I cannot control my tears! Esperanza and Mrs. G-- I am soooo sorry to hear your news! A chemical is just as bad, maybe worse. I know how you feel. Take time to heal, I know I need some!

Mrs. G · Post by **Mrs. G** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 10:31 pm

Neffi211 wrote:My BFP was only a 26. They said they are pretty sure its chemical but I will go in for another beta Wed. morning. I am devastated! I cannot control my tears! Esperanza and Mrs. G-- I am soooo sorry to hear your news! A chemical is just as bad, maybe worse. I know how you feel. Take time to heal, I know I need some!

Neffi I am sooo sorry! Hugs to you. I really hope it's not a chemical honey that is so heartbreaking!

My dr just called my beta was a "2". How sad. he told me FET isn't as successful and suggested I setup a Post IVF conference to discuss everything.

If IVF was covered by insurance it wouldn't be a huge deal but its not... So looks like I won't be joining you ladies anytime soon.

unexplained infertility · Tue Apr 01, 2008 2:29 am

Neffi, Esperanza, Mrs G- I cannot describe how sorry I am. I knew that today the 3 of you had your test day and really believed we were going to hear 3 BFPs today. Well, next time I will hear BFPs from you. Take good care of yourself for now and hope for the best soon.

I am just at the beginning of my cycle, I start Lupron next week, and then I have FET on May 14. I cant wait and dread at the same time. Too bad we were not cycle buddies this time. Maybe things would have been different

Pummalaemma · Post by **Pummalaemma** » Tue Apr 01, 2008 5:27 pm

Esperanza, Mrs. G, and Neffi,
So sorry to hear your news, I know how you feel and can only tell you your pain will get better as time goes by. I don't know why we have to go through this, perhaps it's not our time right now.
I am on my 2WW right now and will test next week. I am so scared, I don't want to know, I wish I could just keep up my hopes forever and not know. I am already thinking about how to get the news, thinking they should call my husband, so I don't have to take the news.
Anyway, I don't come back to the website much anymore, but I will always be available for pms.
My heart goes out to you.
Pumma

CT_Michele · Post by **CT_Michele** » Tue Apr 01, 2008 9:59 pm

I am so sad to read everybody's news. I really thought the opposite would happen. I know there is not much I can say to make anyone feel better.

Mrs. G and Esperanza- just know that you have both been inspirations to me. You both have a beautiful spirit and I know you won't give up. When you are ready to talk, we will be here for you.

Mrs. G- I wish you lived in a state where insurance had to pay. It is not fair that insurance companies get to make the decision about who gets to be a parent. This is why everyone needs to write and take action for more mandated states. This is the one good thing about CT, dh and I would have never have been able to do this without the mandate.

Neffi- I am praying for your beta to go up tomorrow. Don't lose hope just yet, a low beta number is sometimes a late implantation, like mine. Please let us know when you do.

Pumma- It is good to hear from you. I just wanted to wish you lots of sticky dust. I hope this is your time, and if you can, please let us know when you do.

Amy- any news? how was ET? Sticky dust to you...

Kbear- did you have beta today? How did it go?

I will post again tomorrow everyone, have a good night...

kbear4211 · Post by **kbear4211** » Wed Apr 02, 2008 6:25 pm

Had my 2nd BETA today:

They were looking for anything over 600, mine was 740. Things are looking good so far. Next BETA Friday and ultrasound on Fri 03/11, but they don't expect a heartbeat by that time.

I hope all is well with everybody.

TAKE CARE AND HUGS TO EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Wed Apr 02, 2008 9:42 pm

Well Ladies, My nightmare was confirmed today....Chemical Pregnancy! My beta went from 26 to 23. I dont even have any tears left to cry. Other than the extremely difficult emotions I have had the last couple of days, It is positive to think that I know I can get pregnant, and my embie got that far and implanted! After all my research, I have found that chemical pregnancies actually happen in 50-60% of first pregnancies and it is rare to ever have more than one. I feel that I will get my BFP, it just wasnt this time

It was really hard.....Sunday I was buying maternity clothes! I am devastated, but still optimistic that this is going to work for me!

Kbear-- great 2nd beta! Congrats!

ann d. · Post by **ann d.** » Wed Apr 02, 2008 10:37 pm

Sorry... I haven't been posting lately. I don't have good news either. My beta went from 62 to 64. I am so devastated that I am crying right now as I am typing. My RE wants to do another Beta on Friday. He says there's a possibility that I lost one embie but another is still implanted. Anyway, I'm not feeling very positive right now. I can't stop crying and I'm starting to feel major cramping. I don't think this is good news. I'm sure if it doesn't happen for me this time, my time will come soon. I was so elated to hear I was pregnant 2 days ago. Never thought I would hear those words, but 48 hours later I'm horrible.

Neffi... sorry about the chemical. Wish I could give you a hug. Thanks for the info on chemical pregnancies.

Mrs. G and Esperanza... sorry about the BFN. These are tough times for all of us it seems. I'm sure better things will happen for us. I believe things happen for a reason. Hugs to you both!!

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Wed Apr 02, 2008 11:07 pm

ann d-- Wow....I am sooooo right there with you! I honestly know exactly how you feel! It is horrible isnt it! I am feeling optimistic though. This is such an emotional ride....going from pregnant to not pregnant. Yesterday I told DH that I didnt think I could do this again. But today I am feeling better. I hope yours turns out to be a viable pregnancy, but if not...you'll make it through. I think what helped me today is that I had this 65 year old pt ( to get his teeth cleaned) and he was telling me about his new diagnosis of cancer. Its a very rare form of cancer and they cant do anything for it. He was still soooo positive! He said "Life is short, you cant be down about anything..... you must look at the positive or life will be gone before you know it" It made me think of all the people that have way worse things going on in their lives. I need to be positive and think that even if this doesnt happen for me, I still have so many things to be thankful for, and DH and I will have a beautiful family through adoption. I am so sorry you are feeling exactly what I was feeling the last 2 days....I wouldnt wish it on anyone. Next time is my turn...hopefully its your this time!

summerbaby · Post by **summerbaby** » Thu Apr 03, 2008 11:28 am

to esperanza, mrs. g & neffi - so very sorry that it didn't work for you this time. I know how you must be feeling right now and there isn't much I can say to make you feel any better during this terribly sad time. Please know that I am thinking of all of you and I wish you all the best on your journey.

I'm on the 2ww right now. I had 2 blasts transferred on Monday. Still feeling very positive. I test on the 14th...that's tomorrow, right?? ha ha ha...I know I still have a bit of time to wait...Please keep your fingers crossed for me!

Congratulations to kbear! Guess April Fools Day was a great day for you and DH -- looking forward to reading about your progress and hope to join you with a bfp very soon.

Hi to ct-michele and washingtonda, who keep checking in here!

Take care, xx Amy

kbear4211 · Post by **kbear4211** » Thu Apr 03, 2008 12:12 pm

NEFFI AND ANN D:

I am so sorry, this is such an emotional journey. I hope you know that I am praying for you both. Ann, whether it is this time or next time, your baby is out there waiting for you. Same with you Neffi. I'm glad that you are feeling a little more positive.

Know that when you are ready to jump back in, we are all here for you.

Kris

Mrs. G · Post by **Mrs. G** » Fri Apr 04, 2008 1:38 am

Ann D & Neffi - I am so sorry ladies. I know what a rollercoaster this all is and getting good news followed by bad had to be devastating. ::Hugs to both of you:: I hope you both are blessed soon.

Ladies I think DH and I are just going to see how things go. We can't afford this again right now, we have some stuff we are having done at our house this spring and all of this is just too much. I'm heartbroken that I spent so much and didn't have a good outcome but hopefully we will be blessed soon enough. I would love for it to just happen on our own I think that would be amazing.

I want to wish you all the best and I will try to check in every now and again. Thank you all for all your support you are a great group!

andnichole · Post by **andnichole** » Fri Apr 04, 2008 5:49 pm

Hi everyone. I haven't been online in a few weeks. Been busy with work and school.

Neffi211, Esperanza, Mrs. G, annD: I was devastated to hear your news. I was so hopeful that this would be your time. All of you are in my thoughts.

Neffi, that gentleman's outlook is so inspiring. It really helps to bring things in perspective for all aspects of life.

washingtonda · Post by **washingtonda** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 12:48 pm

Hi Gang --

I see that this board has started to dwindle out since most of our main Buds have either tested and got their BFPs and have moved to the pregnant boards or didn't have such luck this go and have either decided to wait a while or have moved to a thread that they are on with other monthly cycle buds. I usually check this board first because this was my first home but I think it is time for me to move over to the Sept 2008 Buddies thread with the other mommies to be who are expecting in Sept.

Good luck to all and if you ever want to find me, just go over to that board and that's where I'll be.

It was a pleasure being a part of this thread!!!

summerbaby · Post by **summerbaby** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 2:27 pm

hi washingtonda - do hope you get this - thanks for continuing to check in and for your continued support and encouragement! I'm glad you feel confident to move on over to the mommies board! After the day of the 3 negatives and kbear's positive, everyone seemed to have disappeared or like you said, moved onto other buddy threads--

As far as I know only Pumma and I are the only ones from our thread still cycling right now and in the 2WW. Pumma tests today and I test on the 14th. Unexplained wasn't starting again until May and I think that was everyone.

Keep your fingers crossed for Pumma today and for me on Monday! Thanks.
Regards and all the best to everyone who might be reading.

xx Amy

Dec/Jan 08 Cycle Buddies

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