Pheonixes Rising

[jen babes]

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[jen babes]

Nicki
ah hun sorry to hear your still so poorly...things always seem bad when your low too. Your house has only been on the market for 4wks or so and the market is slow just nw because of interest rates and monies. You have the whole of spring and summer to sell. remember up here the market is even slower so houses and B&B's will still be on the market here. KEEP THE FAITH.

As for children i went out with a neighbour and her 2 kids ( 7 and 4) yesterday. Feel better for connecting with kids and being part of it all ( went to local Brodies country fare where there were easter chicks lambs and face painting. )I find it better to connect somehow and talk to kids than to try and block them out. Too many preggy ladies and children in the worls to block em out. as you say closing the blinds doesnt make em go away. plus everone in our close has kids except us !!!!

i am phone-less today as DH has taken my mobile to call job agency regarding Cv and interviiews. so if you have text me i wont get back until later.

I was up from 2am to 510am then went to bed. Dh's alarm went off at 5.20 so i didnt get much sleep. Am off work today so went back to bed at 7am after breaky to have the postman call at 8am. ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! poor dog needs a walk so better get my act together as i am lazing on the setee watching home pregrammes....build buy or restore!

catch ya ll later x x x
jen
xxxxxxx

[nicolamark]

Oh i know the feeling Jen, i keep going to bed and then, something wakes me, the neighbor having car towed away, the cats miowing to come in room, the postman like you. birdies tweeting like mad outside, watch some daytime tV then i want to sleep, but when i try to sleep nothing.
Yes, you're toally right about not blocking it out, i want to live my life with kids around me, but mark is closing in on it! and he would rather not mix with kids!
Yes, you are right about the markets too, just been looking on net for other's for sale, found one locally, also some in wales and one in derbyshire. Well, just have to see and wait to see what happens, a girl at wrk said to me, when ever it happens it'll happen 4 a reason, and if those one's in scotland arent there once we've sold then its not ment to be!!
She's right, it'll come together when its ready!!!
Im gabbling on, back to try to sleep I think xxx

[Julie2039]

Hi all

Sending love and hugs to JEN and NIKKI - hope you are back to full health soon Nikki. Jen - I am sorry life is so hard with the added pressures of DH's job situation. Sending you both positive vibes for an emotional uplift xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

We are ok here. Got a few worries with my mum's health but will explain in a week or so when tests back. My results not back yet either We are definately not in a position to go into business as not enough funds behind us. I will be looking for another job but not thinking about it now for the time being as time going to fast as it is!!! William is great - 13lb and sleeps 830pm til 530 am each day now

Have a great weekend everyone. xxxxxx

[nicolamark]

Julie, wow, William is a good boy!!! Thats great!!!
Sorry to hear about your mum, hugs to you!!
Geez, your test results not back yet, thats a while huh?? Nhs is shocking!!
Bugger about the business, i hope you find a brilliant job to fit in with William.
Me, still full of cold. but the week end is here, and hopefully if i get an early night i'll be ok 2mro!!
Looking fwd to Eastenders tonight, nice to see old faces back in it!!!
xxx

[jen babes]

Julie how are you doing??? any news of rersults yet? I do know how you eel to live with pain. Ms is auto immune as well. With athritis though there are good meds out there and lots of help. Adams sis has suffered since she was 14 ( now early 30's) is up beat and copes really well on the drugs she is on. Also you know that it goes into remmision if you are pregnant so you just need to get preggers agin hope no news is good news. x x x William is a modle little babe now sleeping all through the night. Is he on baby rice yet??? much love x x x

Lisa and Gail hows our others yummy mommies doing?
and babies ????? and jobs and hubbies work?

Kate how is that fab holiday going???? better than the rainy sleety snowy weather here i am sure x xx not long now until you are on your way with tmt x x x

Smita much love to you and Dhurrva x x


Nicki hows the flu doing??? its been a tough weekend i know for you. x x x I ams ure the house will sell soon and its good that you ahve new photos and schedule for the house comin soon. good luck with it all x x

Like nickki ...Addam and i have colds and flu ( or cold with MS relapse going on i am not sure???) And are voth off work. As well as all the work stress ad has been going through we are struggling with next steps in tmt.

He wants to call it a day ( found last cycle so dificult and has had enough) while i want 1 more try ( BFP then loss of Nov has just spurred me on more) . So we are deep in a dilema. AD is really been through so much woth work etc and now we are looking at other jobs and possible relocation that i cant put him over the edge by insisting we go through another cycle for me. we bith thinkn it will put our relationship in the dire staights of divorce and seperation .. cant do that bt am finding it so hard too say its all over...breaking my heart so it is....BUT i am 40 ( 41 in june) and have ongoing stuggle with a serious illness that aint getting better. as ad says is this ivf making it worse for my health??? all this is beng discussed but have in my heart a knowing that the time may be up now...

so girls ...I will keep logging on for some time and catch up with you all BUt eventually it will hurt like hell loggin on here so would like to keep in touch with email...will let you know my email address soon

love to you all my special friends thanks for beeing there for me at such difficult times x x x

love jen
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[nicolamark]

Aww, Jen. I am so sad for you. I dont know what to say. I totally agree with you about wanting to try again, i would also, but does adam deep down want to try..I know his job is pretty shit at the mo, if it was ok, would he try again??
People have babies right up to 50 nowadays, but i totally understand, Im 33 and feel like the bio clock is ticking!!!
Mark doesnt want to try again, or thats what he tells me, deep down he does as every now and again he'll mention something along the lines of if we ever have kids, or when we have kids..... etc....
He knows my plans are try one day in the future, how that is or when i dont know, he's quite warming to the idea of adoption!!
Is adoption really out of the question for you Jen, i know we have briefly touched on it in the past and you said age and MS were the issues, but i know you and know you'd make a brill mum to a child. Have you seriosly looked into it???
It breaks my heart to see you like this, life sucks!!
This whole ttc is such a gamble!!
I cry often over it, and i know what you mean about posting on here, thats why i just often come stright to here, pheonixes with out looking at rest of board, but sometimes I am tempted and start reading too many things that set me off, you have to breakfree, to manage it....If you decide not to post on here anymore, Im still buddies with ya......
We have all built up such a great friendship!!!

I am seeing doc today, worried I have chest infection, as chest area is in much pain when i cough, still full of snot....Sorry tmi!!! LOL
Kate, i am so jaelous of you being in sunny cliamtes. Its been snowing and sleeting!!! Its blooming April, whats wrong with the weather??? I hope that you saw the speciallist herbal doctor whilst out there and you're be flying back preggers!! wow!! how cool would that be??? Lookin fwd to hearing ya news!!!

Julie, have you gotten results yet? Let us know.

Hello Lisa & Gail and anyone else, Ive missed......

[nicolamark]

Oh joy, I have an infection! signed off work now til 13th april.... Fan-F***ing-tastic!!
Still not feeling much better, when will this illness go????
I want my life back, so much to do and things to start doing in garden, and diet gone pear shaped this week, been eating for England!! and Scotland!!! LOL!!!! I want to start swmining now, its light in eve's i can go after wrk..... Spoken to wrk, all is ok there. so no worries, Im just so fed up watching rickilake, and this likes, cookery programme and old sit coms on gold that really aint funny... was watching Man about the house this arvo, remember that one??? LOL!!!
Mark will be home soon, about 40mins, just gonna have pizza tonight, he's run raggered running about after me. also not having fun at work, Has any of you seen or read dreamcatcher stephen king??? We use the motto frm there....
SSDD.... which means same shit different day!!!
Hope ur feeling better now Jen...... where are all the other phoenixes???
Obviously Kate we know where you are, god so jealous!!!
No more hols til July, nothing planned but think we might come to scotland, and bring my mum with us too, so she can understand why we have our hearts set on buying a B&B there!!!
We have also seen 2 B&B's on the internet we like in Wales, well actually they are in eng but on the welsh boarders, so plan to take a weekend away to view 'em. Mark's worked out a ruote it seems like an easy drive from our's, and multimap tells us 4hrs, which is ok, i can do that ok, yorkshire is 4hrs frm us, and used to going there!!!
I'll keep u posted honey's!!! xxx

[jen babes]

hello pheoixes...

Hi to everyone

nothing much happened since my last post...still fighting the cold but defo on the mend ( just tired)...

Adam and i are wawy the weekend to meet up with friends...hoping the sun satys out like it is now, though it is freezing. Broc is huddled by the fire. Just tried on all my summer gear and was totally Fed up ( &^%$#$) to find thet everything is so tight on me!!!!!!!! so fed up now... maybe it a has something to do with the fact that we have eaten tons of choc all week! to make us feel better!!!!! how come that never works eh!!

anyway have 6 wks to get rid on some weight..Nicki i need your help please give me some pointers about dieting!

have a good weekend everyone
much love
jen
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[nicolamark]

Weight watchers Jen!!!http://www.weightwatchers.co.uk/util/gm ... ALL&tm=ALL

Ive found u a few meetings near you!!
If you'd rather not do the meetings then.....
I can copy you my book with the points and you just count points, i find it easy i guess coz Im veggie, and so many veggies are nil points.

Hope Julie & Lisa are well, where are you girls? miss you!!! are the kiddie winkles being good???

Kate Welcome back to England!! Hope u had lovely holiday away!!!

[Julie2039]

hi girls

sorry not been on a while, have been checking in tho to see how you are.

we ok. William sleeping 10-11 hours now! put it down to the sleeping bags i can use now as he was forever kicking covers off!

I got results back - at doctors later - had trouble with joints, knees, hips, hands, feet and have been diagnosed with osteo arthritis. They did xrays on my hands so definately there but not sure about the rest of me. Going to ask they xray my knees as they are particularly bad. Hope it isnt arthritis there too and just a hormone thing because of all the drugs i had but will see what they say.

my mum is fine. has to have hysterectomy but not the big C as we feared .

Nikki - hows u hun? hope feel much better and getting over the chest infection. Hows the diet going? Any advance with the B&B?

Kate - How are you? Lost track a bit.....are you back off your jollies? Hope you had a fab time.

Jen - How are you feeling? I am sorry to read your post about no more treatment. Hope things get back on track with you and adam. Sounds like there is a lot of pressure at home with this and work etc xxxx Have you decided re the diet? Weight watchers is fab, was for me anyway, i found it easy and it did work. I am going back myself as put loads of weight on since having william!!! Going backwards . You take care

Lisa - How is Mia? Hope you are all well. Stewarts job improved? Has he managed to find something else yet? When do you go back? I am not back til mid august but cant stop thinking about it.....sad or what? dreading it and hope i dont have to go back to where i am now as cant stand the place

Hi to everyone else.

The in-laws are home from their travels tomorrow - first time they will have seen William! Should be fun having house full!

xxxxxx

[jen babes]

Hi all

posted here earlier but the comp crashed...stupid puter... and i lost the post!

Julie- sorry to to hear you've tested postitive for osteo arthritis. Sucks jules...But at least being diagnosed after so many months of pain means that you can get the med that help you. Ani auto immune can be triggered more after a pregnancy so lets hope the meds can reduce the pain as soon as. Will it effect you working ( using hands etc????) you said your knees are the worst is it bending ( picking up williams toys etc??) Again hopefully the meds will help x x thinking of you with all your visitors coming!!!!! But you have not long until May and your hols in wales x x x ( thats right isnt it??? or am i oing mad?) x x x hugs and much love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Lisa and Gail yummy mummys very busy eh!!! hope you and your lovely babes are doing well x x x

kate did you have a fantastic holiday( stupid question who wouldnt love going to Trinidad ( except those who hate spiders!!!!)...hope you did x x x

Nicki how are you doing hun. Are you back at work this week?
Hopefully some more interest on your house this week as more people will be looking now that the rates have fallen to 5%. yes its the same up here in Scotland for the house rates set by the BoEngland. good luck x x

As for me I had a great weekend meeting gup with friends in our moto. they stayed in a B&B and we met half way up scotland in Aberfeldy near to where you are going Kate in the summer. lots of white water rafting and walks. We went exploring and the weather was lovely. And a live nband wass playing in the local pub it was lovely. Did far too much though as was sstil recovering from cold/MS and spent all of sunday sleeping while everyone else went more walks and pub lunches. Good to get away tho and Broc loved it. I am still so tired today and have slept most of the afternoon instead of actching up on house stuff and laundry never mind cleaning moto...ah well another day.

We are doing good in our relationship...keep talking about enxt steps as i feel i will resent the fact if we dont try 1 more time...we will see x x as you all say time will tell x x x

love to you all
jen xxxxxxx

[Julie2039]

Hi Jen

Glad you enjoyed weekend with friends. You more than deserved it. You rest up now. The housework will wait (I can never take my own advice there !!). As for me I am not sure how it will affect my job as I am a Legal Sec and type for approx 6 hrs a day! Thats probably what has caused it in my hands. I am not too bad though. More annoying than anything and do striggle with William with feeding and picking up as unconfortable and get shooting pains. Will be ok when get some pills though and it is the best arthritis I can get apparently!!!!!

Glad you and Adam are talking things through. It is easy to brush things aside but the resentment builds then. You will get there. Look after self and give Broc a stroke from me xxxxx

Love to all xxxx

[Kate21]

Hi Girls,

Just a quick one as I have a meeting in 5mins. I am back from my hols, was lovely to get away and see the in-laws but it was completely manic and the weather, altho hot, rained most days. So no nice tan for me!!

I also saw the homeopathic doctor while I was there and he diagnosed an infection in my womb and thats why I can't get/stay pregnant. He said they wouldn't have been able to diagnose it over here unless I specifically asked for it as a normal smear etc don't test that high up! I have some very nasty tating meds to take so hopefully they will take effect and then I can fall pregnant - he reckons about 3mths!!

Anyway, I will post properly later, hope evreyone is ok?
Kate

[nicolamark]

Jen, i did tx last night, but as Julie says you rest up, thats more important than housework. It'll keep!!!
Glad u had nice w-end with friends though.

Julie, oh bugger!! Legal sec, and your poor hands, i feel for you! Has this recently happened since having william, or have you had pains for a while?
Have you spoken to you bosses yet about it, and how it can affect u at wrk. When are you do back anyway? are u going back?

Kate, i think thats great about doc, Amazing in fact. I mean can u believe it? I hope these meds clear it up and you get preg, what r u doing about tmt, thats in 3mths? will u still go ahead with sweden? or will u wait 'n' see???
Whats caused the infection? and where did it come frm? Has it been there always???
I think you should post this on a seperate thread, many gals in the unexplained area could benefit from it also, do they have homepatic doc in UK?
Ace news. xxx

As for me flu/cold preety much gone, still feel exhausted though, and coughing, but the coughing is becoming less freq. now. Phew!!!!
AF arrived, but alls cool, being on pill now, hardly know its there. its great!!!
Off wrk 2day, meeting with a friend and her little girl, going out for lunch. Much love to everyone.

Lisa Are you ok honey, not heard frm you on here or tx in yonks. Much love to u & mia xxx