Cycle buddies in March/April anyone?

ann d. · Post by **ann d.** » Mon Apr 07, 2008 11:45 pm

Hi all...

Well, just received news that my number is at 240! My RE was hoping for 150. That's about 3 times as much as I had Friday. Not sure what to think. My DH was surprised that I didn't jump up and down for joy. But like the RE said, we need to be cautiously optimistic right now. I have to go again on Wednesday for more b/w. I was expecting them to tell me to stop my meds and try again in the summer. I was hoping I could start up running again and going to my work-outs, but I can't because I don't know if this is going to happen for me or not.

Last week I was freaking out when I went back for my 2nd b/w. Now, come Wednesday, I'm just going to take it easy. I've come to terms with this not working out. My DH and I were planning our summer vacation already. So if I get good news Wednesday, then great! If not, I've got to focus on the positives in my life. It's the only way I can stay sane!

Neffi... Hope you're starting to feel a little bit better. My big yucky moment was Friday morning. When I saw that happy woman coming out of the office. I saw her again today. She was just as happy today, but today I wasn't so jealous of her. Maybe because I don't want to spend anymore time being sad. I want to move on. I'm sure I'll cry again (if I get bad news on Wed.) but I hope it won't be as bad as last week.

RLK1... Congrats on your pregnancy!!! You're right about taking this 1 day at a time. I need to learn to be more patience. Keep us posted on your progress!!

Angram... Good luck tomorrow!! I've heard quite a few times about AF arriving and women still got a BFP. I know it's hard, but try to stay positive. Key word is "try". I felt cramping last Wednesday as well, and then my numbers went up! I did all my crying Wednesday and Thursday. So I can understand having to cry to let it all out, but when you're ready to re-group, then think positive thoughts!

J&C... Good luck on your u/s!!! I can't wait until you tell us what it's like to see the first u/s! How exciting!!

Nicaliw... How's the lining coming along??? Keep us posted!!

Irish Hope... I'm SO jealous! I've been to Puerto Rico once, when I was just a kid. And I loved it then!! Have a fabulous time!!!

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 12:16 am

WOW ann d!!! Im so happy for you! I have a good feeling about this for you! So what they think is maybe you lost one, but one is still there? That makes plenty of sense! I am happy for you! I know its probably hard to enjoy this, but it wont be too long until you know for sure! COngrats!

IrishHope · Post by **IrishHope** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 12:14 pm

Ann d - Congrats! Sending good thoughts your way for Wednesday! Keep us posted!!

rlk1 · Post by **rlk1** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 4:16 pm

Neffi: Thanks for calming me down (what would I do without you!). I'm glad to hear that you're feeling a bit better this week--you deserve nothing but the best. I'm rooting for you for this next cycle!!!

Ann D.: What great news!! I hear you about not wanting to celebrate too soon, but it sounds very promising. I'll be thinking of you on Wednesday.

IrishHope: How could I forget if you were doing a fresh cycle or an FET after that hard decision you had to make?!? Forgive me!! So you should start Lupron any day now, right? Will you be on the same protocol as last time?

IrishHope · Post by **IrishHope** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 4:25 pm

rlk1 - actually we are doing a fresh so won't start Lupron now until about 5/1...my cycle is more May now but I'm still keeping up w/ everyone on this board...I am waiting for AF to schedule my day 21 bloodwork but AF was due yesterday and not here yet...ughhhh waiting and more waiting...

suzhan · Post by **suzhan** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 5:10 pm

Hi guys -- sorry I've been MIA....and still not too much time for personals...but just a quick update.

As suspected last Friday, the baby's heart had stopped today so I'm going in for a D&C in a few days. Unfortunately, there's more worry. They found excessive amounts of fluid around my ovary and feel there's a chance I might also have an ectopic - extremely rare to have both an ectopic and uterine pregnancy with a natural (more common with IVF which is why they even know about it....) So, I'm also going to have exploratory laparoscopy when they do the D&C to see what's going on. I can't believe we've gone from lots of positive to lots of negative.

Anyway, hopefully everything will go well and in a few months I'll be back at it with another IVF cycle. My RE says even though we got pg naturally, at my age (almost 40), I need to get back to ivf asap....

Ann D. - great news about the increased beta! Can't wait to hear.

Neffi - hope you're doing well. Any news on next steps for you?

Nicali - hope the lining is getting thicker with the addition estrogen....kup on how things are going.

Take care e1....

- suzhan

angram · Post by **angram** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 5:55 pm

Hi everyone - well I found out this morning that it's a BFN. I figured that was the case, since this is absolutely the worst AF I've ever had. We will start BCP's next month and start the process again, which will put my ER/ET sometime in June. My DH and I went to the NCAA championship game last night in San Antonio (we live in Austin), and it was great to get away from life for a while. Shitty part was they don’t serve beer at college events, and I desperately needed a drink after 2 months of no alcohol

Good thing my college roommates are coming to stay with me for a girls weekend, so we’ll drink plenty of wine, eat plenty of food and have a great time hanging out! My DH and I have also decided to take a vacation, so we’re searching for places to go in the next couple of weeks, my only requirements are beach and margaritas. Thanks for the great idea, IrishHope

I’ll probably join the May/June thread as well, but I’ll definitely keep up with all of you ladies and follow your BFP’s on to the delivery of beautiful babies!! Good luck to everyone.

Neffi – Glad to hear AF has arrived and you started BCP’s, you’re on your way!

Nicaliw – Great news that you’re moving forward, good luck with your lining and keep up the acupuncture and PMA!

J&C – I cannot wait to hear about your first u/s tomorrow, let us know how it goes.

IrishHope – I hope AF arrives soon and have an absolutely wonderful time in Puerto Rico!! I completely understand not wanting to leave your pooch in the kennel. I always struggle with what to do with my pup (she’s almost 12 now and I’m madly in love), so I either have a friend stay with her or I drive her to my parents 4 hours away. I’ve had to keep her in a kennel a few times, so go and have a good time and know that they’ll take good care of her/him while you’re gone.

rlk1 – I am so happy to hear from you, I’ve been worried. I didn’t want to ping you on the thread, just in case you needed some time away. I’m sorry you’ve had to go through so much, but it is great news that your beta’s are climbing and you’re pregnant!!! Good luck and let us know how things progress.

ann d. – Great news on the beta, keep up the PMA, it has been working so far! I completely understand about being cautiously optimistic, but you’re pregnant and this is great news!

Suzhan – I am so deeply sorry to hear your news and good luck with the D&C. I had one last year and the hardest part for me was the emotional trauma, but the great news is you were able to get pregnant. I wish you the best, we’ll all be thinking about you. Good luck with your procedures and your next IVF.

IrishHope · Post by **IrishHope** » Tue Apr 08, 2008 7:14 pm

angram - so sorry to hear about your BFN! Enjoy the cocktails tihs wknd w/ your friends!!

Our dog just turned 1 and both our parents are traveling so we had to use a kennel - he spent half a day there to "test" it and had a blast...he loves other dogs so we feel ok - just weird the first time...Im sure my first Corona by the pool will help!

Hope everyone else is doing well!!

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Wed Apr 09, 2008 12:40 am

Ang-- I am so sorry to hear of your BFN. We can cycle together later, I am going to start a may/june thread near the end of April. Take time to heal!

J&C- Cant wait to hear news from your ultrasound tomorrow

Rlk1-- sorry I had to tell you howit is! But I need to keep my girl sane! Thats what Im here for!!!

Irish hope-- how are you doing? I also put my dogs in a kennel quite often. I have the boys next door watch them when they can, but the Kennel we take the to is awesome, they love it!

Suzhan-- Im sorry to hear that you have to go through the emotional pain of a D&C. Did they give you an option to miscarry on your own?

As for me.....I wont have much to say now that I have to wait until May for my next treatment to begin. I will be here to watch everyone elses progress!

IrishHope · Post by **IrishHope** » Wed Apr 09, 2008 2:36 pm

Neffi - I'll join the May/June thread when you start it! My AF is late (day 32 today) I assume it's from all the meds etc. so that means Lupron prob won't start until early May vs. late April ...so all of May will be my cycle and June will be 2ww...

I hope everyone is doing well - I too will check in but dont' have much to report these days!!

J&C · Post by **J&C** » Wed Apr 09, 2008 8:51 pm

Hey Everyone,

We had our first u/s today, and we saw 1 strong heartbeat at 124. There is also a second sac, but we couldn't see anything. RE said that either we're pregnant with twins, or the sac will just go away. He said there's really no way to tell and that it's really a 50/50 chance. We'll go back in 2 weeks to see if it's 1 or 2. We're super happy either way.

I wasn't expecting to see a heartbeat today (I figured it was too early), so that was very exciting. I can't believe I have an ultrasound picture with my name at the top and our baby in the picture. I'm still very cautious, but I'm actually really excited now.

angram - I totally agree about the crying. I've learned that it's so much better just to let it out, instead of holding it in like I want to. Nothing much better than a good cry.

Neffi - I've heard that AF after IVF can be horrible. Just think that it's all getting cleaned out, so you can have a BFP on the next go around! I am so pulling for you.

IrishHope - Have a GREAT trip to Puerto Rico. Please drink a margarita for me!

rlk - Those betas look GREAT!!!! I can't believe everything that you have been through. You know that's a strong baby you have hanging on. He/She is going to be a great fighter!

ann - CONGRATULATIONS MOMMA!! I know it's so hard to enjoy the moment. Even though we saw a heartbeat today, I'm still cautiously optimistic. It's just so hard when we've all been through so much and have had to wait for so long. DH told me - you are going to have to accept the fact that you're pregnant. Very true. I can't wait to keep seeing your positive results!

suzhan - I am so sorry this is happening to you. I hope they the doctor's can find what is wrong quickly so you can heal.

angram · Post by **angram** » Wed Apr 09, 2008 10:05 pm

J&C - Congratulations, I'm so excited you got to hear a heartbeat...and maybe a twin on the way, what a blessing, good luck

ann d. · Post by **ann d.** » Thu Apr 10, 2008 12:55 am

Congratulations J&C!!

... I've wondered what the moment when I get to hear my baby's heartbeat would feel like. I hope that I can hear that someday soon. Maybe you'll get to hear a 2nd one... that's crazy!!!

Neffi and Irishhope... I remember waiting for my AF after IVF #1. It was late, but when it came, it was very heavy. Someone told me it was from all the meds that were used to keep the lining thick. I remember I had to wear a heavy pad AND a tampon as my job does not allow me to run to the restroom whenever I want. That's wonderful that you are starting up again soon. I don't have that luxury. Hence the IVF in November and then in March. If this one doesn't work out, I'm going to wait until late June/early July.

Angram... I'm sorry to hear about your BFN. Someone told me "grieving is just as important as celebrating". I love that quote because I think it means that the grieving times help us truly appreciate the celebrations in our lives even more. I hope you guys get to pick a fun place to vacation!! I'm always up for the beach and margaritas!! Unfortunately, my DH prefers the type of vacation which includes visiting historical places and monuments, stuff like that. Not that it's horrible, but I prefer a RELAXING vacation every now and then.

Well, my numbers went up.

My RE still says I have to be "cautiously optimistic". I'm 5 weeks now, but I feel NO symptoms other than sore breasts from the progesterone. They usually are more tender right after my PIO shots. Oh and then I feel some cramping every now and then. Not sure if that's a good thing. An u/s won't be scheduled until maybe next week. We are still hoping the numbers will keep doubling. J&C... I can't seem to enjoy this. This fear keeps creeping around my head where I think this isn't going to work. And I'm afraid of getting too happy because I was devastated when they didn't double after the 1st beta. I hated feeling that awful. I was ready to move on (thinking my numbers wouldn't go up) and now we're thrown for a loop. We're in limbo. I don't like limbo.

Hope everyone else is doing well!!

Neffi211 · Post by **Neffi211** » Thu Apr 10, 2008 10:40 am

CONGRATS ANN! I know its hard, but try to enjoy the moment! The days that I thought I was pregnant were the best! Watch after all of this, you'll probably have twins in there!!!!

IrishHope · Post by **IrishHope** » Thu Apr 10, 2008 1:07 pm

Ann - that is great news about your numbers!! Stay positive!!

AF STILL not here...got my BFN on 3/7 and AF came on 3/9 - 28 days

Been on no meds etc. and I am on day 33 today and no AF....I am near tears b/c it's just pushing everything out further and further and we can't start anything...I'm second guessing myself and wonder if we should have done a frozen this time - if we did I'd be half way thru...AND I don't want AF for Puerto Rico...I'm just so frustrated today...I've felt cramps, bloated, achey for 8 days...why won't she just come???

sorry for the rant I'm just tired of waiting...