MAY/JUNE CYCLE BUDDIES!!

[IrishHope]

Neffi - don't question yourself...ForMaggie is right - your doc would have advised you if he/she felt a 3 day was your way to go...keep the faith...

ForMaggie - Congrats again! a pink line is a pink line! good luck w/ your beta!!

Rubylee - great beta! Congrats....

susivf1 - Good luck today! I totally "get" the almost not wanting to go b/c living the "dream" feels so good...I was not as excited to get this cycle over with b/c it means getting closer to the beta test day which can be so devastating but think +++++....so many people don't feel pregnant - it varies so much - don't worry too much about that!

Me I'm home w/ my pooch who is so sweet - he can sense something is up and just keeps resting his head on my arm when i'm in bed. Headng back there now as I promised DH I would rest and do no cleaning/laundry etc. I'm goign to stare at our embryo pic and give them a good talking to!!!

Baby dust to all!!

[Dakota]

cwrj GL Thurs, I hope all is well.

ForMaggie Sounds like a BFP congrats girl!! Cant wait to be in full blown celebration when your BETA's come back nice and high and rise, rise, rise. I think this is it Oh, ya, your story on waking DH up made me laugh, and boy did I need that this am.

Nef I am praying for your embies. Pls dont 2nd guess yourself. Your thoughts behind your decision were good.

I am on a horrible emotional roller coaster. I read that most people dont get this problem on Lupron/Gonal-F, but boy I sure am. I exploded at the Vice-Pres about 30 mins ago, now I want to cry, cry, cry. He kept saying "I dont know why you are getting so upset". And, it was stupid. Maybe I just need to go into the conference room and hide to cry for a while and get it all out? Good grief, I am usually not an emotional person, this is crazy. I was like this with clomid, but not follistim years ago. Interesting!

So, I did up my dose, so cross all fingers for my u/s & E2 today. Big numbers, big numbers!!

To everyone else, I hope all is well and those BFP start rolling in and others, I hope your follies are growing.

[Neffi211]

Dakota-- dont feel bad, when I was on Lupron I cried all the time! Sometimes I would be crying and laughing at the same time! DH thought I was crazy! I'm praying for big numbers for you today!

I am at peace with my decision. Last night, well every night, I talk to my embies, even though they are not with me right now, and I just feel it this time! They are going to make it! Two more days and they will be back with me where they should be! Have a nice Wednesday everyone!

[Rinnie]

hey girls....hang in there, I know it's tough. Like Formaggie said there are constant hurdles, but enjoy each success.

Neffi You followed your heart & I'm glad you're at peace with it. Keep visualizing them warm and growing.

ForMaggie Pink is Pink...sounds great! But I know the finish line feels miles away. I'm excited for you!!!! I have a PGD question. How many did you test & were they worried that it may compromise the embryo. Were they all A quality ? Do you know why they didn't let them go to 5 days instead of 4? Did you then have left-overs that made it to freeze. Sorry....my enquiring mind needs to know Dh wants to do pgd next time if we have enough & I've read contradicting things.

Dakota Hang in!! I was really emotional too & it's tough when people don't know what's happening. Grow, Grow!!

Susivf1 Good luck today! I think 12 days, they should be able to tell just by the size of the number.

Irish My dog did that too. They are on a much more intuitive plane than we are. They're amazing animals.

Well, I need a little PMA right now. I woke up in the middle of the night with a really bad cramp, then this morning it came out in the toilet. Just a lot of blood & mucus around it but enough to make me cry. Wow, what an overwhelming thing. That's why dh wants to do pgd next time so that's likelier not to happen..he had a hard time. I don't know, I need to have enough eggs...i guess we'll see. Sorry to be a downer

Rin xo

[angram]

Rinnie - I'm so sorry for what you're having to go through, this is an emotional time...try to keep the PMA. Were you using progesterone gel last time, because I had the same bathroom issue on my last cycle and found out it was the progesterone coming out, totally scared me. Good luck to you, your time is coming!!

Neffi - Keep talking to those embies, they're part of you and although far away, they can hear you As long as you're happy with the decision you've made, that's all that matters. You're about to be PUPO and will then get your BFP!

Dakota - Don't you worry, you have every right to feel emotional if you want. I was a raging ***** last time around, or so my DH says so I've been on Lupron for a week now and have been incredibly moody and short with everyone, and I'm assuming my first round of Gonal F and Luveris last night is not going to change anything. Good luck with your E2 and U/S today, keeping you in my thoughts.

IrishHope - Enjoy that laying around cause you're about to be prego and will need all the rest you can get

ForMaggie - A line is a line, you're BFP!! Congratulations!

Well I finally started stimming last night, so we're on the countdown and will have my next b/w and u/s this Friday to see how things are progressing.

[Dakota]

INDIE I hope they are getting lots of greats eggs from you today. I hope DH is taking good care of you I cant wait to hear from you.

Susi I am thinking of you today during your apt.

Irish I hope you are relaxing & enjoying your day.

Rinnie I am SO SO sorry that you had to go through that. Its enough that you had to deal with the emotional trama last week with it, now you had to be reminded of it again. Its just not fair My heart goes out to you. I hope you take care of yourself, get pampered...get your toes done!!!

Angram yeah on the stims!! whoohoo!!

Well, I was so starving I just did a no-no. I totally piged out on Mcdonalds. My Ap would be pitching a fit right now

I had my u/s and really there was no change. I thought that by upping my dose that there would be all kinds of activity, but I guess it may take a few days. Same # of follies, the big one (19) stayed the same, a few grew just a bit and a few stayed the same. As well as my lining stayed the same (9.9). I'll be ok with all of this if my E2 comes back with a sky rocket change. I should know within the next hour. The nurse said by Friday we should have a firm grip about what we are going to do.

babygurl whats going on with you?? I hope stims are going well and your follies and E2 is growing.

queenie when is your next u/s & b/w? I hope those bad boys are blossoming

[SDtrying]

Rin- I'm so sorry for your pain.

[SDtrying]

ForMaggie- sooooooo, you broke huh?! HA-HA i love it! I just know you've done it again, haven't you? Fess up!! I can't wait to celebrate on your beta day!! BTW I'm getting an "unofficial" ultrasound today too with my insider super powers I hope everything is okay because of the little spotting I had (my RE said not to worry- fat chance about that!)

[daisy_99_00_411]

I went this morning on 12dp3dt to take beta test. When I got home from the dr i had started my period. Another failed cycle. I am so sick of getting my hopes up and feel like I am a failure to my husband because Something isn't working. Maybe I will have the strength for the next cycle. I surely hope so!

[IrishHope]

Rinnie - I'm so sorry...I wish you didn't have to go thru that...take good care of yourself.

Dakota - here to hoping your E2 levels come back HIGH!! Good luck...

Angram - great news you are stimming! It flies from here...hope you grow lots of good follies!

daisy_99_00_411 - I'm sorry AF arrived Take time to recover and you will find the strength you need to move forward in whatever you and DH choose!

Quick question - if transfer was yesterday is it ok to go to acupuncture Saturday? That is prime implantation day timing...I'm pretty sure it is but thought I'd check...I have an appt. and hope it's ok to go...I could use some relaxation magic

[Dakota]

556 E2 !!!!!!!!!!!!! It almost doubled over night!!! They would like it to almost double again, so we'll see. Please, still keep your fingers crossed. I just may still be in the game!! She said to keep my Gonal-F at 225 at night then 150 in the morning. Although, this morning I did 225 and I was only suppose to do 150. OOPPPPSSSS
Tomorrow is day 9, lets hope I'll hit at least the 800's and be over 1k by day 10.

Irish I know that they suggest the day of transfer, but I have not read anything about after, just once a week was fine. I must say, I dont know if its the lining in my uterus thickening, but I find that I have very, very small cramping during AP. I dotn know if its the circulation kicking into gear or what? But, I did read that AP was good during the 2ww.

daisey I am so sorry that your cycle didnt work. Please dont feel like a failure, because YOU are not. This is something I have fought with for years (since 2000). Thinking that I was defective and broken, I was no good. Thats not the case. I've seen so many women keep going and going until they achieve their dream. I think over and over "how do they do that" because just the little bit of let down destoys me. But, you just do it. It makes you an better and stronger person. I know taht it hurts right now, but once your dream comes true this will all fade away.

[Rinnie]

Thanks girls!! for all your support...It feels great!

Irish Run to AP It's great to do afterwards...it'll calm your uterus making implantation easier.

Daisy I'm so sorry...I just failed #2 as well. It's a numbers game...just hang in & keep trying. Keep the PMA though, it's important & make sure you're eating well & getting your body ready.

Dakota That rocks!!! Now you're on your way...it'll go up again. yeah!!


Rin xo

[IndieBlue]

Dakota Thank you so much....I'm finally up and moving around. I told them that I would get sick and they said well it's really light sedation, but we have some crackers when you wake up. Well, I woke up and felt okay....but once I got in the car I was soooo sick. I got sick 4-5 times on the way home (it's a 2 hour drive) and it was bad since I had to throw up 3 times in the car.....after hubby had stopped to get his lunch in a drive thru. Good thing he has a strong stomach. Ugghh, that was awful.....but then when they told me how many eggs I got I was kind of sick too

Out of the 14 follies they measured the other day, I only got 7 eggs She said it was lucky #7....I pray it is. I'm just so used to hearing stories of 13 and 20 that 7 seems awfully low. Especially when they keep telling you that they lose 40% of them after fertilization/growth I'm guessing I'll go in for a 3 day since I didn't have a ton of eggs, so that puts it on Saturday for me. I have to drive back in tomorrow to get my progesterone....so hubby is taking care of me today so I'll be up for the drive.

Well, that's my update...pray for lots of fertilized ones

[SDtrying]

Don't have time to read through all the posts-

Quick update though- I had an undercover u/s (a midwive friend of mine on the labor deck in the hospital i work in)- She did one real fast and saw the heart beat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Rubylee]

SD- That must have been amazing!! You are so lucky to be able to do all these covert operations. So cool.

Rinnie - I am truly sorry you had to experience that. It sounds like you are doing okay and I truly commend you for that. It will work next time.

Indie - Yuk! That is awful. Your DH has an amazingly strong stomach. I would have been retching along with you. Well, it will all be worth it; and remember, 7 is better than 6! I am glad they got something to work with!

Dakota! YAY! That is great. You are going to be right on target. Maybe your subconscious knew you needed just a little more this morning when you did 225

Neffi - Hope I didn't make you feel self conscious when I told you what my RE said about 3dt. Believe me if he would have said he thinks it would be better to do day 5 I would of gone with it. I am sure it was the right call.

Daisy - Shoot! I am so sorry AF came. I hope some time with DH and and a moment to breath and re-group will allow you to find the strength for another shot. My thoughts are with you.