Pheonixes Rising

[Julie2039]

Hi Girls

Hospital was a bit of a waste of time. GP hadn't requested bone density scan, just investigation and relevant treatment. Well there is no treatment they can give me but she did give me an M.O.T. and ended up having more xrays on hands and 5 blood tests. I have osteo in hands and knees, knees particularly bad, but she said it is rare in someone of my age unless I am a dancer or footballer! The bloods are to check for any genetic deasease which could contribute to symptoms....

William is back to sleeping better so I feel tons better in that direction. Still teething but no signs of any peggies yet tho.

Job hunting is taking over every minute of my waking day at the mo. Totally dreading going back to work but partiuclarly because I cannot stand where I work now and don't want to travel so far anymore. Worked in Manchester for almost 20 years (!) and want to be nearer home. Not due back for 13 weeks but 3 weeks of that is holiday so need to inform work whether going back or not in about 4 weeks so I am prepping my CV etc.

Anyway, I hope you are all ok. KATE I wish you the BEST of luck for Sweden hun xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[jen babes]

Hi all

sorry long time no speak..

Julie sorry to hear things are so painful ...Its amazing how the nhs keeps us going over old ground> BUT there are lots of meds that you can take to ease the pain. So keep asking . Glad Our William is sleeping better. I know what a restless night and lack of sleep does to you. take care x x x Oh i accidently deleted face book stuff. ( computers and that site are not my strong point!) so can you please send again or just email me at home and i will happily keep in cntact with yu there. Like Nikki its hard coming on here just now. x x x god luck with the ongoing joib hunt...Adam feels exactly the same. x x

Lisa - I do hope stu and you get settled soon on the west coast. At least you have managed to get some parttime hours. Mia sounds fab! x x x

gail lovely to hear from you x x you are so busyx x I cant believe Mia is heavier than katie but then again as you say Katie is running around now. x x

Kate good to get dates set x xx ood luck x x enjoy the bank holiday days off x x x

Smita its lovely that you kep in touch and post here ..we love hearing from you x x x

Nikki hi hun if yoour loggin on occasioanally x x x

as for me:
I been taking time out with Adam and been talking loads...have decided that enough is enough and we are stopping our tmt cycle. Just too tired and run down after the last ones. Honestly takes all the reserves i have to get through a cycle ( drugs play a big part;coming off MS drugs and then going on ivf drugs sem to knock me for 6). and then after i take so long now to get back on my feet...its really detrinemtal to myself and i wonder what long term damage i am doing to my MS body?
Its hard to say we are giving up so i am choosing to say that ...when one door closes another opens...I have not locked the ivf door just closed it for just now and am looking towards a healthier future.
I feel a little sad but mainly relief that i can get my body back for me. Its been a long 5 yr road...

i will keep popping in to seak to you all...
but will post my email if you want too ...just let me now if you want it.

I am away at my sisters Friday until the following week on sunday...back for 6 days then away for 3 wks in France cant wait for that !!! Back early July!!!!! woo hoo

will catch you all soon...much love friends and thanks for always being there...this is not goodbye just a big thank you x x x

love jen
xxxxxxx

[Julie2039]

JEN - Not sure what to say hun apart from I am sad for you but wish you all the luck and hope your health improves. You never know what's round the corner. You can email me anytime at julieridgley@hotmail.com. XXXXXXXXXXXXX

[gailp]

Jen, I don't really know what to say either but sending you a big hug from me and Katie xxxx

[nicolamark]

omg!!!
Ive just just logged on, i wasnt going to, but i am meeting with Kate 2mro. and thought i would just log on so i was up to date with the pheonix gossip, then i thought i would just let kate just tell me, but then i thought i knew i needed you gals..... We have all gotten so close during this journey, and some routes have arrived at the baby destinations, others havent.....
Jen, im like you, closing the door on IVF and TTC.... its not locked will re open it one day but not know, but its great having you guys here, and i am touched tonight to read all your love and hugs words!!! Ive just realised, you are all so great!!!

Lisa, so did u value the house? is it on market now? How is everything panning out now???
Did u also chat to HR about the hours you are expected to do in July, Good luck xxx
Sounds great if Stew got to change career, tell him go for it!!!
How's your friend was she diagnosed with MS??

Julie, i knwo u have txt me and facebooked me, but i didnt know about the results and sorry 2 hear about the osteo, its rare to get it so young? What are you? early 30's like moi??
Also bugger about your job, sorry to hear you hate it so much, totally understand that feelin, Manchester to bury is quite a sloggy drive every day? how many miles is that???
I hope u find sometihing better very soon.... what date are you due back???

Jen, I have also tx you recently, i was so sad to read your email about the end of the road but i know its better have health and look after number one. You must find peace within, and try to focus on something else take your mind off it all, its hard. i know, i hope time away is doing you good. How's adams job now???

Gail, thx for the hugs!! xx Weymouth, seems to be the 'in' holiday place just now, know lots of people going there, or been there.....Are you caravaning??
Wow, Katie must be a little gal, if she's lighter then Mia.... or is Mia a bigger gal Lisa???
Awwww!!!

Kate, I'll speak to you 2mro about life, and everything etc..... Looking fwd to it xxxx
Im enjoyinh half term too, quieter on the roads and less the time to get to work, no traffic. wahooo!!
Speaking of which its the suffolk show 2mro, so might get caught in traffic, You'll be ok coming your way, but im coming thro Ipswich. so might get stuck. Gonna leave 1/2 hr earlier!!! See ya xxxx

Smita, thanks also 4 hugs and cheering from side lines. Hows your little girl??? Is she nearly 2???
Wow!!!!

Girls..... I know i said i was cutting ties from this site, but how can i when u are so lovely!!!!
As for me, being on the pill is great, and the feeling i am having is great, i never know what cycle day i am on, and periods are non existant. I dont have that issue after sex of thinking thats the one, and every month im not fretting coz Im late, every tues every 28 days i come on at even the exact time. Its made me freeer and stopped ovulation pains, and i just feel so much better, not having the hormones control me, i had planned to do the pill til end of summer, but plans have changed and we are quiting to travel the world.......so plans underway, lots to do, to organise, etc..... so thats making me free great!!!!! I feel young again!!!
I can see a different side to life........ xxx

Thanks so much for your kindness, love, hugs and support. You are great!!! xxxx

[Kate21]

Hey!

Just logging on to send Jen my love. There's not much I can say except that I'm thinking of you and what you must be going through right now. What doesn't break us makes us stronger - hang in there, everything happens for a reason.

Take care love Kate xx

[jen babes]

hi girls

i am doin much better thanks for all your loving vibes

I have been down in Glasgow getting some well needed R&R...Broc stayed with Adam and i had a good time catching up with friends and family. My Nana became unwell last wednesday and i was lucky to have some time with her, ass on my journey home she wass hospitalised and died on Sunday. She was a loevly lady 97 yrs old and full of vibrance to the end. Just her body was failing her. She looked after my sis and i a lot when we were young and she has always made a big impact on my life. I was glad to have seen her before she went.
Amazingly we found out that her brother (92) who lives in Canada , went into hospital the day before and died also a day before her on the saturday...So she had company if you know what i mean... I am back down in Glasgow for the funeral on friday and from here we head off on our long awaited holiday to France....

Sorry this is such a me post but i wnated to say bye for now before heading off on travels...catch you all in July 3 wks awayon hols will be fab after this week. x x x

love jen
xxxxxxxxx

[Julie2039]

Hi Girls

Hope you are all ok.

Kate - How are you feeling with your Swedish treatment looming? Hope feeling positive xxx

Nikki/Jen - Will Text

Lis - Hows things with you/Stuart's job/relocation? Hope you are doing ok. Sorry, but when do you go back to work?? xxx

Gail - Hope you and Katie are ok xxx

We are fine, nothing to report really. William sleeping 11-12hrs EVERY night at the moment!!! He is almost sitting up too. As for me I have no results from hospital yet and no luck with any job interviews but still hoping. Don't have to tell work whether I am going back or not for another month so hope I can say I am NOT!!!

[souris]

Hello guys!

I finally have the courage to post.

I had a very very hard time after my M/C at 12 weeks last year.

Following the advice of our Dr, we gave up the IVF cycles ( I had done 4 cycles already, at 25 years old), because Dh sperm was such in bad shape that we had a very low fertilisation rate (sometimes none, the last cycle 1 embie out of 25 eggs...)

We started the adoption journey, after 9 months of investigation, we passed the panel. Then we faced a wall. Each country closed their doors to us, because either I was too young (26) or Dh too old (54).
This was so hard,as all we wanted to do was to give a loving family to a child.
After months of headaches because of paperworks, I decided I needed a break (for my mental health). So I put aside the adoption matter.

I also decided to see a therapist to help me deal mith my M/C as I was still angry at myself, the world and the baby that died inside me .
This had been great and it was much needed.

Then I told Dh that I wanted to do a last IVF cycle, with all the sperm we had left (4 vials) to help me close the IVF door forever, because it was impossible for me to do so knowing that Dh had some sperm left in the bank.

We knew that the chances of fertilisation were close to none but we went ahead. This was at the beginning of May

I had terrible pain after EC (about 30 eggs, 20 big enough) and stayed in the hospital until ET because I was sick.

On ET day, I prepared myself for the bad news and it was a total surprise when the RE told me that we had 7, yes 7 embies!!!

None were great grades. We had one 5 cells (3 days transfer), and the rest were 2 cells and fragmented. None were good enough to freeze.

I insisted to have 3 embies transfered as this was my last cycle and my last chance to have children. I got the ok from my doc.

The 2WW was hard, full of PMA one day, in tears the following...
I had been pregnant before so I was waiting for the symptoms I had last time: thrush (yes nice...) and mainly OHSS. But none happened.

I had sore boobs (but it is normal with the pessaries), AF cramps etc...

Today was my test day, I got my blood result about 10 minutes ago
BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1st beta @ 246

This is truly a miracle, the last chance pregnancy.
Of course I know that nothing is certain yet, but I am so happy that I have another chance!

I am flying back tomorrow to Dh, we have been away for more than a month now ( I am in France for the Tmt, but we live in Dubai).

I still have strong abdomen cramps and lower back cramps, my boobs are sore.

My midwife asked me to do another beta next week, I might do one in a couple of days so I can sleep at night!

I think of you, my pheonixes friends and the very special Nicki

I never thought I would be back on the board!
This HAS to work, it HAS to!!

lots of love
souris

[Smita]

Souris, my friend..
Congratulations!!
This is such fabulous news
Sending you loads of luck and good wishes for the next 9 months and hope its stress free.

Jen,
I'm sorry about your nana- but glad you were able to see her before she passed.have a fab vacation with tons of romance

Nicki,
How I miss the good old days of spamming the board..I hope life takes you where you want it to take you.

Julie, Lis, Kate, Gail and Lucy(where r u ?)
Hope all you girls are doing great.

love,
smita

[Cla]

So sorry to butt in girls but I saw that Souris had posted and wanted to say a huge CONGRATULATIONS! That really is fantastic news - I know how hard things have been for you and I'm delighted that your miracle has happened.

Sending loads of best wishes across the world (well, Europe actually!)

Cla
xx

[Kate21]

Souris,

Just wishing you every happiness and I am so happy for you that this really is the miracle pregnancy you have waited so long for! It fills me with hope that my next (and last) tmt will end the same as yours.

Congratulations

Kate x

[Julie2039]

Souris - I can't believe your post!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!! A truly well deserved miracle. I wish you all the best. Bet your DH couldn't wait to see you. The very best of luck xxx Keep us posted xxx

Hi to everyone else. Hope having lovely wkend. The weatha is fab!!!! xxxxxxxxxx

[NickiMark]

Hey souris!!!
I had heard from Julie via tx your great news, and have only now just logged on to read 4 myself, i read it out loud to my DH and me with atear in my eye and my DH saying Awww, isnt that just great!!
Souris, you so deserve this and you so will be a mummy!!! It's filled me with hope too, that good things come to thoses who wait!!!
But you are a little monkey for keeping this all hush hush!! You never said on your Facebook messages to me!!
I am touched that you think so much to add my name to the post....Love ya, and best of luck with everything......
Huge hugs xxxx

Kate your next

[Lis]

Hi all.

Souris - awwww that's truly fantastic news! How wonderful for you and dh. You are a very brave lady to have gone through so much. I wish you all the health and happiness in the world during your pregnancy. xxx

Jen - as per text, will be sorry not to see you on here as often but totally understand. And I'm sorry to hear about your Nana but I'm glad you managed to see her in her last hours. I hope you are having the fabbest of hols, you deserve it. Look forward to keeping in touch via e mail. xxx

Julie - how are you keeping with the arthritis? Have you had any more tests or results back? Hope William is still sleeping well. Any peggies yet?? (Mia still doesn't have any!) Did you enjoy your girlie nite out? I hope you really let your haid down. ps that's great that William is almst sitting up now!

Kate - how's everything going with the tmt plans for Sweden? You must be on the wind down now for summer hols? xxx

Gail - I can't believe Katie is only 18lbs! As you say she's very active so burns it all off. Mia is certainly thriving in the weight dept!! She'svery laid back plus loves her milk still! but sure it'll all even out when she starts walking. xxx

Smita - how is your gorgeous daughter doing? Its so nice you pop in often. Hope you are well xxx

Dh is off on summer hols for a fortnight. We have been down home visiting family - managed to go out for dinner and a few drinkies whilst my mum baby sat and to the cinema whilst dh's mum looked after Mia Was great to get out!! We went to a farm park today and took our godson for a birthday treat - he's 3 on sunday. We all had a ball and Mia just looked bemused, watching all the animals and children playing! Off to see Sex & City on Wed nite - anyone seen it yet? Can't wait!

Mia is great, s happy most of time. Babbles away good style and has been saying ''dada'' for a wee while now..... but no sign of ''mama''!!

Julie, go back to work on 14th July and like you am dreading it! Have you had any luck with job hunting? We are still planning on moving to Ayrshire but no jobs yet for dh. Are thinking of renting in an area 30 miles from Ayr. Would allow dh to continue travelling to current job but allow me to travel to a new job in Ayrshire. We're doing some research to see if it would be poss.

Well I'm off for a glass of vino now since dh is on hols. Trying to treat it as such even if we we're not away!

Love to all xxx