January Cycle budies (JCB's)

[Dawn V]

Hi buddies

Well I think the negative fairy has paid us all a visit today!! I'm also convinced that it hasn't worked as am getting the odd af pain and boobs and nipples (Sorry tmi) hurt like they do before af arrives. When after et does implantation normally happen?
It's true what the others have said though, look at how many girls on here had pains/no pains and got positives. I know friends who have known exactly when they conceived and had symptoms straight away and some that had no symptoms for 3 mths so who knows?!
I suppose after all the drugs etc we've had over the last few weeks will make our bodies a bit weird well thats my excuse and I'm sticking to it!
Am still blowing my nose every 5 mins but am feeling better today. I can't believe how much snot your nose produces!!!
Come on Gem it's all on you for tomorrow girl - Good luck you can do it
Have a great weekend everyone - well as great as you can with no booze, sex or chocolate!!
Love
Dawnxxxx

[alypraying]

Hi All
Well what grief yesterday!
I went for my appointment at 4pm to be told that I had no appointment and the consultant was fully booked (he forgot to put the appointment in the book last week). I was made to feel that I was in the wrong when it was their mistake|!! They made me wait for half an hour and then one of the other consultants came out and said that he could slip me in quickly, so I had a very rushed scan and was told to go back on Monday, but my consultant is fully booked so I will have to see someone else! I feel really pissed off!!! the clinic is taking on too many patients and doesn't have enough time to treat the ones they have properly, surely it's not too much to ask to have the same consultant throughout your treatment. Anyway I'm going to write a letter and complain but i needed to rant. Basically I have about 8 eggs developing but they need to grow a bit more so the IUI is booked for Wednesday, therefore test date will be 18th Feb although I haven't made it to test date without AF arriving beforehand. Anyway I hope you all have a great weekend and sorry about the rant. thinking of you all on the 2ww, Dawn sore boobs is a good sign!!! stay positive
Big hugs
Aly
xx

[Dawn V]

Hi Aly

I would be very p****d off with the clinic if I were you! They just don't seem to realise how emotional all this is do they. I would write to them or at least call the manager and explain what happened and that you want to see your consultant at your appts.
Has anyone heard from Gem? I'm hoping no news is good news.
Dawn
xx

[Traci]

I told you its not the Treatment thats stressfull its the Bloody clinics , you are either waiting for answeres of Phonecalls But to not book you in is Very Bad , I too would write a letter a great big letter at that
You really do not need this stress right now .


Good luck for your check up on Monday and dont forget to put your test date on the tread .

Trace x

[SQUEW]

Hi

That bloody negative fairy has made as far south as sussex now! Was feeling +ve yesterday as had no af pains and my boobs(which never hurt b4 af) were tender, especially round my nipples. Today af pains are back with a vengence although boobs still hurting, think my body is playing tricks with me.
Just read Gems news, this whole business swings you from highs to lows. Hoping that despite everything she gets good news on Mon.
Poor you Aly! What clinic are you at? Thought mine saying it was shut last sat when I went for ET was bad enough, but i think you beat it!!!
Have a good weekend girls(I really fancy a bottle of wine!, oh well water it is then)

Sue xxx

[MichelleA]

Hi Sue

I'm sorry you have got the negative fairy too - what is going on? I think it is a good sign that your boobs are hurting if they don't normally, I just wish that I had some sign one way or the other - I just feel absolutely normal, even the bloating has eased. This is the worst bit of the whole process.

Aly, you poor sweetie, like this thing isn't stressful enough without your bloody hospital being so unorganised. I would def complain, Tracey is so right that I just don't think they get what a rollercoaster it is for us.

Dawn, hope your nose isn't running so much today!

Love to you all.

Miche xxx

[alypraying]

Hi Girls thanks for the comments have posted my letter outlining the issues and have tried to be diplomatic although I still feel like ranting!
Sue I had really bad period pains before I tested positive and I know loads of girls who have AF pains the first month, then it tends to calm down, so the fact that your boobs hurt is the positive bit!! Mich hope your doing OK not long to go now, I really hope you can get a positve and that goes for you too Dawn, hope the cold is getting better. I'm feeling more emotional this time maybe the herbs are having some effect!! I'm having accupuncture on Tuesday IUI is Wednesday so let's hope it makes a difference.
Trace don't know if you can help on this one with egg donation (egg sharing in my case) do you know how musch it costs do you pay halk of the donors IVF cycle?? meant to ask the clinic last week.
Anyway will catch up after my scan tomorrow, at the moment I have about 8 follies they are looking for about 5 to go all the way.
Take care everyone think positive
Love and hugs
Aly
xx

[kiran]

hello everyone, haven't been on the site for ages, had a failed ICSI in
october and kinda lost hope, anyway lucky had frozen some eggs so had a FET on wed 21st so am now coming up to the end of my 2ww, am really scared, my period hasn't started but am getting pains, my boobs constantly go through phases of hurting but am not sure if this is due to the pessaries i am taking - very scared this time round, moreso because my period hasn't started, i have more hope that this will work, i just pray that i can get to wednesday without starting
do you think this is a good sign - the pains, no period etc is anyone else taking the pessaries, do they have the same effect or is it just me,

i just also wanted to say that i wish all you the best as well, although am not actively writing in, i read your msgs all the time and it really does give hope - i think moreso that we are not alone in this struggle

[Traci]

Kiran
What date do you test ? I know the pesserries can play tricks on you so dont read into anything YEH RIGHT !!!!! I hope the last few days arnt too long for you

Trace x

[SQUEW]

Hi Everyone

Kiran, I am on 2ww following FET on 24th, convinced af is on its way, same symptoms as you, boobs hurting sometimes and bad pains etc etc, havent had the pessaries as a natural cycle. I had failed IVF Sept/Oct same as you. I think my af is due on Weds/Thurs(going by ovulation) and am sure that it will arrive before I test on Fri, so i would think that you not having af is a very good sign. Hang on in there and get a +ve to give me hope!!! are you doing a hpt or going to your clinic for a blood test?
How is everyone else? Aly, Thanks, will keep hoping that I am someone who gets bad af symptoms when they are pg! I am trying not to be negative but not doing too well, Michelle if you have managed to turn it round let me know how!?? and you Dawn, feeling any more +ve(someone must be?!)
Oh well Mother and Father in law round for dinner so better get a move on!

Sue xxxx

[Kat]

Hello all, just thought I'd let you know I'm back and have just spent HOURS reading the messages that have been posted this last week. Holiday was brilliant, am a bit brown and very relaxed. Just wait till work tomorrow and see how long it takes to get unrelaxed....
And I don't want to hear talk of the negative fairy from anyone - PMA from everyone please or you'll get a telling off
Lots of love
Kat xx

[alypraying]

Hi Girls
Well back from the clinic they were falling over themselves to be really nice to me today which was a bit wierd. The Doc has decided that he wants to give it a few more days at the womb linning is 8.5 and he would like it above 9. I have 5 follies 2 are 18mm 2 about 16 and 1 14 so he wants to give the 14mm one another day to grow. So I'll have IUI on Thursday. Feel very strange this time round, I'm really emotional (can't stop crying!) and feel really tired I'm going for a acupuncture session on Wednesday evening and prahaps this will help for Thursday. Trying to be positive but have that kind of 'been here done that' feeling. Sorry to be down
Hope you girls on the 2ww are being more positive! Dawn Sue how are things Michelle hang in there. my thoughts are with you all
lots and lots of PMA and hugs
Aly
xx

[MichelleA]

Hi Aly
So they should be nice as pie, long may it last. I'm sorry you feel so emotional, I completely understand and have been there myself all w/e. I've just had acupuncture and she said that it wouldn't be normal if we went through this whole cycle feeling positive as that would be unbalanced and it is all about balance. I feel so much better after my session and I'm sure you will too. I am hanging in there and so must you!
Sending you a huge cyber hug.
Love, Miche xxx

[kiran]

hiya
thanks for the replies, much appreciated
testing tomorrow, as of two minutes ago still haven't started - am so scared that i will start today, do you guys think that even if 2ww is over that you could still start period, what does af mean?
will be doing hpt tomorrow morning, tempted to do it today but read on this site someone tested day before and was -ve, tested following day and was +ve
i really thought the EC was the worst experience in all of this treatment stuff but this 2ww especially with no period etc is the worst,
i'm literally checking every 30 mins or so - can't help it - any pains and i am checking and praying that i haven't started
my last period was dec 26, never got this far without a period so am hoping that it is good news but the pessaries can delay a period and i have no symptons apart from what i think is being caused by the pessaries, i think thats worrying me more that i don't feel any sickness etc, i know everyone is different but do you not think that is a bit worrying??
i'm walking around saying am i or aren't i, my little sister trying two months fell pregnant straight away, nice hey!! its crazy for some how little a struggle it is and for others it seem like a lifetime

PMA thats what needed plus chocolate!

[Dawn V]

Hi JCB's

Well that bloody negative fairy is hanging round me like a bad smell!
I'm having a really c**p few days at the moment and just want to crawl into a box and hide. I keep waking up during the night and just feel so miserable. I guess it was inevitable that it would hit me eventually but I'm still a bit unprepared for feeling so down. I went back to work yesterday and I really enjoy my job but even that didn't lift me. It's 5 weeks today since my last period (I usually go 4 or 5 weeks) so am now constantly on knicker check!
I also feel as though some "friends" are avoiding me which really hurts.
Does anyone else feel like this?
This 2ww is harder than I ever imagained.
Love
Dawn

Have just read back through post and sound like a right old whinger - sorry!! Feel free to give me a good slap