Any success stories after a cancelled cycle

[Edel]

Hi Ladies

Have any of you had a cancelled cycle and went on to have a successfull outcome. I've just had a cancelled cycle due to poor response and one of my ovaries has moved. Its a few weeks ago now and i cant seem to get back on my feet, i just keep breaking down in tears all the time. Im still waiting for a period to start, twice over the last few weeks i got spotting thinking it was about to start but a few days later it stops. Im scared ill never get one again at this stage, i know my system is messed up a bit but ive never felt so petrified in my life.

I know nobody around me who knows what going through IVF is like and its hard for any of my friends or family to understand the intensity of the emotions and feelings attached to it all, because of this i feel so lonely and isolated, my husband tries his best and i try to put on a brave face cos i know he doesnt want me to be upset all the time but i cant seem to find the strength at the moment. Its all i think about 24/7, even down to what i eat cos i have severe endometriosis. Cos of the Endo im told to have an estrogen free diet but in order to get pregnant i need estrogen so its a catch 22 situation which has my brain fried! There is no support system for Endo sufferers in this country so i have to try and figure this out on my own on top of the IVF, its a battle and im exhausted at this stage!

I am getting counselling which helps, one day the advice works for me and the next i feel back to square one. Im also doing yoga and acupuncture regularly but like all of you I just want a family and no amount talking, breathing or needles are answering that, maybe im just being impatient! I try to be gratefull for all i have, i do have a wonderful husband and family and id be lost without them and there are days where i just try and live in the moment and keep the hope, im constantly praying and lighting candles, maybe its just not my time yet! Everyone tells me to relax and leave it in God's hands - maybe they are right but i aint easy to do that no matter how much faith you have!! .

This website is my only support system and I just need some success stories to help me cope and give me strenght again cos im just worried that this cancelled cycle reflects my future attempts of IVF.

You are all in my prayers.

Sending loads of baby dust to you all.

Edel
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Me - 38 (Severe Stage IV Endometriosis)
DH - 38 (Perfect)
#1 IVF Nov 07 - BFP (chemical pregnancy)
FET March 08 - BFN
#2 IVF - July 08 - cancelled due to poor response
#3 IVF - Nov 08 hopefully!

[colesmom]

Edel, I am so sorry you have to go threw so much pain. Endo. is a complicated and painful thing. I also have endo. I had it at the age of 19. Was told I probably had it long before they found it. I also have PCOS. Had surgery 2x, then realized it will just come back again anyway. I have been lucky with my first cycle in the responding part. I did get blastocyst, I think mine just don`t implant. I changed to a better ivf center for my upcoming cycle. I will pray for you as well. Yes, give it to God and tell him to deal with it for you. Thats what I have done and I feel good with everything. I know it will happen when God wants it to. I wish you were going to my clinic, I would give you some of my eggs. Keep your chin up it will happen, we all have a journey. Best Wishes

[Mellie_1233]

I'm so sorry Edel. I completely sympathize with you. I had a canceled cycle due to poor response and 2 postponed cycles due to failure to suppress before becoming pregnant. It is so so so hard. You can read my story on this thread if you want to hear a very happy ending:

http://www.ivf-infertility.com/phpBB2/v ... ht=#240872

I was obsessed 24/7 just like you. It's so hard to think about anything else. I worried constantly that anything I ate or did might have some small effect on my reproductive system. Going to a therapist helped me, too. Also, I had two good female friends and a supportive mother. These people kept me sane. If you have a good friend or relative who you can lean on I highly recommend it.

If I could go back and give myself words of comfort it would be to realize that there will be a time in life again when you will be happy again and that this difficult time won't last forever.You will be a happy person again. Whether you get pregnant or you build your family in another way, I think it's important to remember that this is a temporary stage of life that we are going through. I had such a hard time imagining being happy again when I was going through all this but now is probably the happiest time of my life.

All the best to you.

[stefanie]

So far I am a success story.

I am 40 and a poor responder to meds. I has a cycle cancelled after 6 days on stims back in January. I changed my life, my diet, and if you want to know what I did I am happy to email you.

I also found a new doc and went on DHEA for a few months. But I stayed on in longer than they would have had me (they wanted me on it 2 months before trying) and I was on it for four and doing accupuncture, yoga, maya massage and exercising.

I did IVF in June - got 2 eggs, and two embies but it was a BFN

My doc said that I hit all the marks though and that there was sometimes success when you try again sooner rather than later because your system is still revved from the drugs.

We pay out of pocket and this was a hard call. He gave us a 20% chance and those are gamblers odds. My husband said go for it. I emailed my IVF buddies, and realized that all of them had tried more than once.... We took our money (this was our egg donor money) and tried one more time. I was very relaxed this time. Less hyper. Stayed off line until day 3 of the 2ww, and focused on other things in my life (I was so devasted back in june) I pretended that it wasn't going to work.

well, it did.

I just had my Beta's this week (883 and 2059!) and although I am not out of the woods, I am so very happy.

Keep your chin up. These are hard decisions. If you want to know some of the lifestyle changes I did or the books that changed my life I am happy to share.

[Ghost]

Success after a failed cycle happens all the time. Lots of times every day.

Your doctor will very likely adjust your protocol to get a better response. That's common, too. It usually works.

[Edel]

Hi All

I want to thank each one of you for your responses and kind words of hope and best wishes you have no idea how much its helped me. It’s a tough ole road for us all and it is hard to get back on your feet after a failed cycle. I’m just going to take each day at a time cos I think half my problem is thinking too far ahead so I end up in a panic. I’m so relieved to hear there is hope after a cancelled cycle cos I was starting to think the worst.

Mille and Stefanie congratulations to you both on your BFPs its it gives us all hope and Millie you are right it is only a temporary situation and someday it will all be a distant memory, I am going to leave in the hands of God now cos some things are just too big to manage on your own.

Stefanie thank you I would love to hear any advice or tips on dieting and exercise, anything that helps! I’ll PM you my email address.

Colesmom I’m so I sorry to hear you have PCOS and Endo. I don’t really know much about PCOS but I do know the pain of Endo it’s a horrible disease to have, I suffered for so many years before I was finally diagnosed last September. It’s so difficult to control the pain but I do find the acupuncture is helping regulate my periods but the cramps are still quite bad, I’d be lost without my hot water bottle! The acupuncture also helps with implantation so if you haven’t tried it yet its worth a shot. I have a lot of info and recipes for the endo diet if you want me to send them on to you just PM me your email address if you want.

Finally Ghost thank you so much for all your help and support, I know its been said many times but we would be lost without you on this site, you’ll definitely go straight to heaven for all you’ve done for us.

You are all in my prayers and thanks again.

Edel