April 2009 Babies!

[LauraonLongIsland]

Hopeful,
I am so sorry. I don't blame you for not wanting to take the pill - you still have hope. It is so sad - I feel awful for you guys. It is so unfair.

kimmysq,
my best friend who also did ivf had the same thing happen to her and it ended up that she was fine too... she bled and spotted throughout the pregnancy. Both twins are perfect. Hang in there.
Laura

[sweetmomi]

silverangel - two are measuring right to the day, 1 measured 2 days ahead. We are still trying to get a handle on the idea of 3. Just trying to embrace being pregnant and seeing the little ones.

hopeful - so sorry! I cannot even say how much.

Kim and Kimmy - please keep us posted!

[babyloves]

hopefulinSD: i'm very sorry for this great loss, both physical and emotional. I can't imagine your feelings right now, but i really hope you'll be okay and be able to move on. Take all the time you need and hopefully you'll feel better each day.

kimmysq: i hope all stays well for you. i think it's all in God's hand and nothing we did or do makes any difference.

i feel awful that this is happening to some of our april mommies. This IVF journey is so hard

[JDC]

Hopeful - I am so sorry you have to endure this pain. Life is so unfair at times. There is nothing I can say that can help - please just keep hope alive that you will be parents someday.

Kimmysq and Kim14 - this must be a scary time. Hoping everything is just fine with your little ones, and expecting to hear some good news for your next posts!

As for me....I've had the worst splitting headache for the last 2 days. At first I was just to afraid to take anything, but then I broke down and took Tylenol. But it still came back. Anyone else experiencing severe headaches?

[antoak]

JDC - I had terrible headaches for two days in a row last week. Like you, I was trying to hold off on medicating, but eventually wound up taking tylenol as well. Now I just feel crappy in general...sciatica, slight nausea, and indigestion.
Someone asked about acupuncture a while ago...I still go. I like it. I've cut back to about once every two weeks, but i do find it comforting (especially since we can't get massages yet).

[kimmysq]

Hi Ladies:
I spoke with my Ob and I am on bedrest for 48 hrs. I am to drink lots of water. I have continued to spot brown and a tiny bit of red throughout the day. This weekend surely isn't going as planned. My Ob gave my a 50/50 chance.

JDC: I also have a headache today, the Dr. said Tylenol as needed.

Baby dust to all,
Kim

[Hopeful in SD]

Kimmysq: I know this must be hard for you right now and I am praying for you. You were so supportive of me and helped me get through this past week, please keep us posted.

Kim: I hope you're bleeding subsides and you feel better.

This is such a roller coaster ride and seems so unfair!!!

Hommy: Your u/s will be great, try not to worry.

To everyone else, thank you so much for your support. I can't tell you how much it means. The rest of this post is long but it describes how I took some of your advice and took care of myself (before I took the pills) and how my doctors helped me to understand why this may have happened.

I decided to take care of myself and get my classroom ready before I took the meds. So, I went back to work yesterday afternoon and worked in my classroom until I got kicked out by the custodian. Then I came home and we had mexican food and margaritas. Considering I haven't drank in over 7 weeks I fell fast asleep. This morning I went and got highlights and my hair cut, bought a book and then came home and took the meds. The cramps started 45 minutes later so I took the vicodin. I am now ready to hibernate for the next 24-48 hours, whatever it takes to get through the worst part.

Both my clinic doctor and especially my OB were not only sympathetic but they took a lot of time to talk with us and explain when the baby stopped forming. Basically they explained the baby stopped growing at 6wks1dy when the heart starts forming. Both said there was more than likely a problem with the heart and my body realized this and stopped the pregnancy. I then spoke with my sister in law, who is a pediatric cardiologist and she said that while we are really hurting and sad, this is for the better. She said she works with babies daily who have heart problems and it is so hard on the parents. So, as one of you said, things do happen for a reason.

I thank all of you for your support, it means so much. I know many of you have also been through this and have been able to move forward and we plan to as well.

Thank you again ... I'll check in soon to see how Kimmysq and Kim are doing.

[emfossum]

Still thinking of you Hopeful in SD. I am glad you were able to have Mexican good and Margs. There is no making sense of some things. Send you good thoughts...and I hope you have a wonderful semester in your class.

Kimmysq - Oh my goodness...I will say prayers for you and your little bean. I hope you can rest well and try not to worry too much...although I know that is probably impossible. We all had less than those chances when we started this whole thing so just believe that this can turn out okay.

[jenniferdp]

I just think you women and this site is so wonderful! My next US is Tuesday, 9/2 and their heartbeats should be over 120. Last Tuesday Baby A masured 98 and Baby B 101.

This 3 month wait is with out a doubt the TOUGHEST journey I have ever been on!

xoxo

Jenn

[JDC]

Hopeful in SD - Thank you for sharing your experience with us. Sending you much love.

Kimmysq - Keeping my fingers crossed for you.

I am scared myself because we had u/s todaY at 6wk2days and they did not see heartbeat of fetal pole. This totally sucks.

[kim14]

kimmy and jdc - are you guys still having prego symptoms? Dr told me that is the best sign. I am nauseaus 24-7 but it gives me some reassurance. I also have headaches galore! Kimmy - i think your drs 50-50 answer was the same as what i got on the phone before i went in for the ultrasound. I hope you can ge3t in on tues and hear your little ones hb. It will make you feel much better. Could your spotting be from the vaginal inserts? i had bleeding fri am , then the u/s and then light bleeding sat am - thank god it has stopped but i still keep going to the bathroom to check! your bleeding could definitely be broken blood vessels also. your both in my thoughts.

[kimmysq]

Hi Ladies:
Thanks for your support!! I am in a much better place mentally today.
The bright red bleeding stopped, and I have quite a bit of brown blood.
Hopeful in SD: I read your post about 3 times...perhpas this is also what is happening with me. On my first scan Baby A's hb was slow.
I am glad you pampered yourself before taking the pills. I didn't realize how fast they kicked in. I know this next couple of days is going to be so hard for you...please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Kim14: I have been doing a combo of PIO and Crinone vaginal gel. I thought perhaps the Crinone was aggravating my cervix. I am still having some m/s..nothing like earlier last week (but that was really bad). I too, am so anxious for my next u/s. I decided not to go to the ER on a holiday weekend. I am just going to wait until the OB office opens. Thanks for your nice messages and support.
JDC: I think you message said they saw the fetal pole, but not the hb..is this correct? My IVF coordinator, said at 6 wks 1 day, there was only a 50% chance of seeing the hb. When is your next u/s? I think you should be fine, it may just be too early. I know waiting is so hard, but we are here for you.
jenniferdp: How exciting that you have your 2nd u/s on Tuesday. How far along will you be?
Emfossom: Thanks for the massage and the prayers!
Hope everyone is having a good Holiday weekend.
Kim

[siouxsie]

Kimmy: Glad you're feeling better. Just wanted to say that it's important not to get too hung up on stats. One doctor gave me only 20% chance on IVF pregnancy, but I knew we still had to try. Now, here we are. We're routing for you.

[valerie68]

Hello,
I'm crashing your thread!

Kim and Kimmy~ I have been reading about what you are going through. What a stressful situation for both of you! I wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about both of you and hope that the bleeding will stop very promptly.
Kim, it's a comfort to see your little bean is ok. Some women do bleed during pregnancy...I know it may not be much of a comfort but it does happen.

Kimmy~ I'm sure you can't wait for your next US and I wish you the best. Bed rest is probably the best you can do right now. As you see, the bleeding has drastically slowed down already. I'll keep checking on you!

JDC~ Hi sweetie!! I have been thinking about you! I'm so sorry that the US did not go as planned. Perhaps it was a little early or the tech did not perform the US properly. Anything is possible. When is your next one? You're in my thoughts and sending you lots of positive vibes.
(((((Big hugs)))))

Hugs and love to all!!

Val

[JDC]

Thanks Val for checking in on me! I'm having a very tough time today.

My clinic called as they always do, so I was able to discuss my situation a little further. With the equipment they have, they should have seen the fetal pole and heart beat by now. The RE's always perform the u/s, so I'm confident in their skills. Anyway, they are keeping me on pio for now - just in case. And I will go back thurs for u/s to make sure of the situation. She said my hcg continued to double, but I guess that doesn't mean anything if there is no embryo growing. This is the last thing I expected to happen and I'm so sad right now. I know there is still hope, but it is very slim.

Jill