Sept 2008 - stimming buddies :)

[Towachi]

Good afternoon beautiful ones, I am so sad becuase I took time in the morning to write individual ones and the server went down on me. Anyhow, since I know how much I poured my heart and love you all, I will try to recapture what I had written before.

Sue: You are on the road for success this time sweetheart. Those six follies will be the best quality eggs you have had in your history, say Amen to that. I am praying you for because this difficult journey has to end somehow with good news and that is all I am looking forward for you this month.

Priya darling, take your time to relax with your family. Relax and let others take care of you, you need to also take your mind off ivf to enjoy yourself during this period and when you come back to basis, you will be rejuvinated. Your mind need to be free of all toxic feelings, don't reflect on the past, look ahead, look at holding your little baby soon and see how you feel from just a change of thought process.

Karen my dear, a big congratulations on how far you have come. When I joined this board, you were my inspiration and I still hold on to that. God is not going to allow all this pain to be in vain, look on to the brighter side becuase He has heard your cry, our God is a friend of women and he loves us dearly. He will never allow that which we cannot handle come our way and this TTC is our cross and for you, this is your time to rejoice.

Kerry, you and me both sister, I love you and I am looking forward for us starting again. AF will come at the appointed time honey, now take a break and enjoy the time without medication. We will succeed in this adventure of TTC.

To you all, I just want yoou to know that I care so much about you than you can imagine, not only because we are in this together but because we are women with the fear of God in our lives. I am waiting as i take my mind off of AF, focusing on my studies, Priya, I am doing my MBA and with full-time job, and TTC, family and everything, you imagine that I only survive through the strength of God.

Take care all, I just wanted to tell you all you are beautiful even under TTC and ivf medication.

[karenvancouverisland]

hi everyone...i know i've said this before, but i want to say again that i LOVE this thread...i'm feeling so connected to you all and i love the atmosphere of support we have here. it feels like we are friends and i'm GRATEFUL.

sue: good luck! and i think it's great you'll be enjoying that show, and not letting a cycle or an injection take your night hostage...that's one of my biggest challenges- not letting this take me hostage. so good for you and i'll be praying for a clean release of those eggs and no OHSS. your one of my sister-low-responders..and i love you dearly and so want you to get PG.

lynnie, priya, kerry, towachi, nicole, sue, soready (sorry if i'm forgetting a name)..thank you for all your support i want you to know it's meant the world to me to have you in my life in this journey.

we did something neat on the oct/nov thread...starting sharing our baby name wish list..so here's mine: amelia, olivia, isabelle, delaney, nathan, jeremy, jackson.......i'd love to hear anyone elses. it's a hopeful topic and feels warm to talk about.

much love, karen

[PriyaC]

Hey Guys:
Hope everyone is doing good and yes I love this forum as well ...... have made life long friends here

Sue - How did the ER go and the show? Am sure all the 6 eggs are the best quality eggs and you will get 6 embryos I would give up anything to get good number of eggs like 6 for my next cycle

Kerry - Glad you are relaxing .... Don't worry AF will be here soon - You are right when we want it to show up it will never come How much are you working girl - Nurse work and then this business ??? You must be super busy.

Nicole - Any news?

towchi - your posts are a delight - I know I have said it before but your spirits and positive outlook lifts my spirits as well - You are right - I should not focus on the past and look towards the future. So Am going to enjoy my vacation no matter what. This time I am going to give myself priority and not think too much abt others...

Karen - I love the idea of baby names - Mine will be SouthAsian so might not make sense to everyone. I had few names selected for my kids some 6 years ago and all of my friends have taken them for their kids .... so am looking for good names again - I am still thinking abt the names - so may be in a day or two should come up with good ones

lynnie, Soready - any news from you guys?

We are leaving for vacation tomorrow. Since all the plans were made last minute , I am running like a headless chicken right now getting everything together for the trip ....... need to finish my work - get things packed, buy some stuff for ppl etc etc ..... but its fun

Take care everyone:

Love
Priya

[trippsmomma]

Hey Ladies,
Sorry for being a stranger but stims have really kicked my butt. I felt pretty bad all week... first it was terrible cramping and bloating, making it hard to get around, stand, sit, sleep you name it. Then morning-type sickness due to my estrogen level. Now, I have achy legs that are making me very nervous. I've had two doctors feel-check me for clots, and they said they feel anything suspicious but ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY, literally. I've also been very tired, slightly light-headed and forcing myself to eat.

Anyway, we trigger tonight with lupron (trying to avoid hyperstim) and we have ER Sunday. The bad bloating and cramping have gone away but the aching legs (especially when I sit or lie down) is annoying me. I'm thinking I'm going to have stroke and die. Seriously, driving me crazy!

The good news is that we do have a ton of follies. I told you 29, and today they counted at least 11 good ones on each side. Hope everyone else is hanging in there!

Nicole

[Towachi]

Nicole:

I am so sorry to hear of your predicament, but cheer up my darling, all will be ok as soon those eggs are out. It is all that medication, I am still suffering from hot flashes dspite that the medication was stopped two weeks ago. Please don't confess negative things from your mouth. The Bible said that life and death in the power of our tongues. You shall leave and not die my dear. This is a temporary situation that will go away soon, just be grateful you have so many follies that will soon turn into embryos that will live to testify of the goodness of God in your life.

To all my sisters here, I hope you are doing well. I spent my day in the Library tyring to finish my school work. AF is still not here, just for an update, but I am doing great.

Sue, Karen, Priya, Soredy, Chris, Kerry and toobee, have a restful and cheerful weekend, remember as long as we are alive, we have reason to be happy and thankful. TTC or not, we are grateful we have husbands, other women are looking to find Mr. Rigt but we have wonderful ones and for some of us we have our only or adopted angels. So look up and smile, I am and I love all of you very much. I will take a break this weekend from the board and talk again. Pray for me as I pray for you.

from the bottom of my heart, towachi

[SueQiwi]

Hiya Everybody~
Im just back from egg collection and still feeling woozy from the drugs. I feel disappointed and sad as they only got 4 eggs from my 6 follicles. And then they had to do ICSI as my poor Hubbs sperm was of low quality today. (Last time we did not need ICSI). I am feeling discouraged and just hoping for good fertilization. They will call us in the morning with the report.

thank you all for being there for me. Your support is so important. I feel thankful I can confide in you and you will understand. I am feeling low right now and hope a nap helps my PMA.

[karenvancouverisland]

hi sue.. i don't want this to sound like i'm trying to talk you out of your feelings (cause i believe when we are sad- it's ok to just feel it), but i have to say, and yes, this is the low-responder in me talking, that i think 4 follies is good. you only need 1 for it to work. there is lots of HOPE.

i do get that more follies = more reassurance..but please believe this can still happen for you.

lots of love, karen

[SueQiwi]

I am so happy--4 out of 4 eggs fertilized! The embryologist just called with the good news! I am thrilled and feeling hopeful again. Karen--thanks for your words lat night--it meant a lot to me.

I am still a bit freaked out about the ICSI as it seems so unnatural. (I suppose this whole IVF process is quite unnatural!) but at least with natural fertilization you feel that Mother Nature is bringing together the right sperm and egg to make a new life. But for me it is Glen the embroyoligist deciding what goes with what to create a new life! I suppose I should just feel happy that this technology exists so that I may have a baby at all.

Towachi~I am amazed by you. You must be such a strong person to be studying for your MBA, holding down a full-time job and also attempting IVF all at the same time! It is very impressive and I wish you success in every way.

Nicole~That is so scarey about the achey legs! yikes! I am glad they are monitoring you closely. Congrats on triggering tonight and it seems you will have dozens of eggs at retrieval!

Priya~I wish you a wonderful, restful holiday! Please come back to us rejuvenated and ready to cycle again! But for now take your mind off infertility and just enjoy your family and friends and time away. Here's hoping there is no drama!

Karen~my baby names are Elizabeth and Benjamin! That's who I imagine during visualization--lovely twins! I am glad that Hubbs and I attended the WOW show even though I had to do the trigger shots in the bathroom. I did feel like a bit of a junkie slipping out to shoot up! But the show was terrific. I had to leave right during the glow-in-the-dark outfits that they were modeling to some crazy techno music. When i got back to my seat after triggering my DH asks if our baby is now going to turn out to be a techno-raver!

[karenvancouverisland]

sue- i am so delighted by your news..words can't express. karen

[kez01]

Hey guys

I hope your all having a great weekend

Sue: that is great news about your fertilisation, I'm sorry I didn't check the board yesterday as I could have told you I had 20 follies with my very first cycle and they only got 4 eggs which was very disappointing but, all 4 fertilised with icsi (which is great) and they were all grade 1. Unfortunately as you know I'm still here but I'm sure you will have better luck. When do you have your ET, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you

Karen: I hope your doing well and enjoying your weekend. How are the meds going and are you taking it easy this weekend. You are such a great support to everyone. I agree with you again that you do make such good friends with these boards. My DH and I have had names picked out for a very long time, Matthew Ethan and Rosie May. I can't wait to meet them one day

Nicole: I'm so sorry that your feeling so bad, I know when you have lots of follies it can make you feel pretty terrible. Anything different in your lower abdomen can put pressure on the arteries and veins that travel to your legs, I would say that 29 follicles being there would be indicative of "something different" When you would normally have one follicle you now have 29 taking up alot more space in your abdomen. When you have fertility treatment you are always at a slight risk of clots but your doctors seem to be on top of keeping an eye on you so dont worry. I too had the achy legs with my first cycle and I was fine, it is unfortunately one of the rare side effects. If you are worried do leg exercises when you are sitting down, rotate your ankles and move them forward and backward and have a little walk about every now and again and this will keep the blood flowing and try not to worry. Take care and good luck

Towachi: I hope your enjoying your weekend, you are such a great support to everyone. I'm not sure if my AF has arrived or not, I had spotting yesterday and thought it was arriving again today, but just spotting again, I'm probably not going to have a normal one as he did a scrape during the hysteroscopy but it is difficult to gage whether I should count it as day 1 of my cycle, I think I probably will. I hope yours comes soon too.

Priya: I hope your enjoying your vacation and everyone is pampering and treating you like a queen. You certainly deserve some Priya time you are such a great support to everyone else. Take care and look forward to your return to us

Well I am off this weekend but I have lots of work to do so my only update is that my AF has arrived ?? I think so I guess I will see what happens over the next few weeks, start with the ovulation tests so I can have my FET. Enjoy the rest of the weekend ladies.

Take care
Kerry xx

[SueQiwi]

Hiya Everybody~
We are still 4 for 4!! The report is that all four embies are dividing properly and growing strong! I will be doing a 3-day transfer tomorrow morning and putting back the two best embies. I wanted them all put back in me--but they wont do it! Embryo replacement is government-regulated in New Zealand and a 39-year old is permitted 2 embryos tops. It's a little frustrating when I hear about people in other countries getting however many they want. Hopefully the other two might make it to frosties--but I know that is rare.

I am still experiencing some abdominal pain and cramping from egg retrieval--is this normal 2 days later? I just hope it settles down before tomorrow so my embies will arrive into a peaceful environment.

Kerry~thanks for sharing your feritlization story. Now I feel so lucky and relieved that I beat the odds with all my eggs making it to embryo! shew. I'm glad that you finally got AF and are one step closer to BFP.

[Towachi]

Am sorry beautiful ones that I am just reading your posts this late, I know some of you would be sleeping by now. I have been very busy with work and wanted a minute break to I love you to my sisters.

Hope everyone is doing well today?

Sue: We are all rooting for you embies to be perfect. Be strong my dear, the day is almost here and 2WW will go by so quickly you will not notice. I hope you are following Steffy's instructions to sook your feet in Epsom salt. I don't know what it does but if worked for her, it will surely work for you.

Karen, Priya, Kerry, Chris, Nicole and my other lovely ones, we are lloking forward for another day.

I had a busy weekend doing my paper and submitted it last night. another week just started and I have another 10-page paper due byy sunday night. I spoke to my RE today finally, and here is the deal. I see him tomorrow and we do a sono and go through the next protocol. No supression he told me this time, he will just start stimming and then get some medication he mentioned to prevent me from ovulating. hope this one works. Has any of the low responders done this protocol?

Cheers to everyone and rest your head and think about nature.

[trippsmomma]

Hey Ladies,
We did our ER yesterday and I didn't realize just how hard it is! I woke up freezing and having severe cramps, but with a little mediation and some heat, I felt better. I HAD 35 EGGS and my estrogen was 3350 at one point. So, there's the reason for feeling lousy!

But today we got the news that 30 were mature and were fertlized, 15 are now embryos. We of course are thrilled and looking forward to possibly making it to blast day!!

Today, I started progestorone and 3 estrogen patches (because we triggered with lupron). I'm a nut about the patches because my estrogen was so high before and I had such annoying side effects (the legs!). Already, my legs are having hot flashes! Bizarre! Anyone else have this?


Kerry-thanks for the support!

Nicole

[SueQiwi]

Hiya Ladies~
I am happy to say that I have 2 nearly perfect 8-cell embies inside me now! they are going to watch the other two and freeze them if they make it to blast--one is only 5-cell now, but one is 7-cell and might make it! The transfer went very smoothly. It was a female RE from the practise--kinda nice change from all the guys, especially when they are messing around down there! DH was very sweet and he is out getting me more pineapple now as I already finished an entire pineapple! (the pineapple core is supposed to aid implantation.)

Towachi~I am so impressed with your discipline with your studying. Good luck with all those papers! I am happy to hear you are starting your next cycle. It is a bit different than mine as I take BCPs first--but I think your protocol sounds very similar to Karen's.

Nicole~Congratulations on ER! and wow--that is a lot of eggs and embies to work with--I think you've got a good chance. I am still sore from egg retrieval too. It feels like AF cramps. But today the RE told me not to worry as it is totally normal to feel sore like this for several days. Hope your legs feel better.

[angelaezra]

Hello everyone,

I have to say that it has taken me a long time to reply to any message board but it has been very, very helpful to read everyone’s posts. I finally have the strength to post myself. I am very excited yet nervous because tomorrow I will be going for ER. This is my 1st IVF cycle and I am praying that it will be successful…! My husband and I have been through so much and I can’t believe this day is finally here. The last 8 yrs have been so difficult for my husband and I. There were times when I felt I would not make it and could not go on but I guess you find the strength somewhere. Please pray for me because I need all the support that I can get!

Thanks,

AT, Ohio