We had our scan this afternoon and things have gone bad to worse.
My precious baby has a heart defect and may need immediate surgery at birth. Excuse me if I blether on but I am still in shock and am finding the news too much to take in at the moment.
It all started off fine with the baby performing to the camera and making us all laugh and as the sonographer carried on and checked the heart she found that the Aorta was very thin at 2.5mm and the Pulmaonary artery was very large at 5.8mm. They should both be 3.5mm approx. It is a condition called 'Coarctation' and the Sonographer had never seen it before. Apparently the Pulmaonary artery is working much harder to counteract what the Aorta isn't doing. We have an appointment at Kings in London tomorrow with a Paediatric Cardiologist. We will find out more then.
It's amazing how quickly a rug can be pulled out from under you.
I was so hoping to get this scan out of the way and get on with enjoying the rest of the pregnancy. I feel I still won't be able to go out and buy things now with the same excitement knowing that my baby might not ever wear the outfits or sleep in the cot etc, etc. Call me a pessimist but there you go. David is feeling numb and doesn't really know what to say but is trying to point out all the positives but I am just so depressed. I don't want my baby to be cut into as soon as it arrives. They are so small and helpless and it is breaking my heart to think that this is a possibility. I expect it will have to be a c-section now too and it won't be at Redhill but at Kings or St Georges where they have the equipment to deal with whatever is needed.
I am sorry girls to be so negative. I suppose I needed to write this all down and get it out.
I think tonight will be one of the longest. Hope you are all keeping well.
Love Dagny xx
