OCT / NOV / DEC 2008 Buddies

[Rosario]

Well guys I have great news. My appt with my new RE will be November 19th. I am sooooo excited but very scared. I have been dreaming i am preggos for the past 2 nights and i wake up in the middle of the night all drenched in sweat.

I am getting all my medical records sent to them as soon as possible they need to review a week prior. It will be a 2 hour consult with hubster and I. I am pretty sure AF will make her appearance before the appt and I am guessing my cycle will get pushed back a little since they will probably have me on BCPs or Lupron for a bit before heading the rocky but yet joyful road.

I am looking forward for my second IVF. The way I see it was that my first cycle was my cycle to learn. I now know all the symptoms i will have and everything my body goes thru unlike the first cycle where everything was nerve-wrecking for me. I am doing a fresh cycle again and i am just feeling so positive. I honestly can't wait for all this.

[karenvancouverisland]

hi rosario, i'm curious why you're doing a fresh cycle when you have 5 frosties?

i'm trying to get a better understanding of the FET stuff as this may be the first time we actually have any left for freezing.

that's wonderful you're having those dreams how lovely, take care karen

[havbaby1627]

Hey everyone! I hope you're all doing well - it sounds like everyone is hangin in there from what I've read...
I'm starting my Lupron on Wednesday morning. I'm SO nervous. I don't know if I'm more nervous about administering the shot or if it's not being sure how I'll react. BUT, I'm staying positive and just taking it with a grain of salt looking at the big picture.
For those who knew about my question earlier regarding work and if I should take some time off, I guess God answered this question for me...I was laid off over the weekend. At first I was upset but then reminded myself: everything happens for a reason and hey, it couldn't be better timing! There's a lot of disappointed employees now that I am gone that are fighting to get me back so, we'll see if I get my job back but, it's not that I don't care - it's just not first and foremost on my mind right now.

Anyway...
That's wonderful that you told your Mom ajdec! I want to even just tell my Mom about everything that's going on as usually she knows everything that's going on in my life and since she's in the medical field - she's truly my Dr.Mom. It's great to have that support and excitement though. I am debating IF I do get a positive result at the end of all this when to say something to her cause I don't think I will be able to hold it in very long! Good luck with everything though. I am so happy things worked out for you!!

I'm sorry to hear you're having issues with your DH admanda. That sucks. I know the feeling. My DH and I got into it a little and this wasn't even with me on horomones - it was just discussing how everything is going to go. I guess we just feel like they don't understand all that we're going through but at the same time, we have to keep them in mind too. Even though they're not taking the shots, going through the procedures and all that - they still gotta deal with us right? We all have our insensitive moments and I am sure I will be a horomonal/emotional wreck when I start my injections but, I already have it in my frame of mind - NO starting anything - this is supposed to be a good experience and in the end: it WILL be so, just stay motivated, positive and happy. Don't let the horomones control you! You will be just fine hun and so will he. This is just a tough time emotionally for the both of you. Lean on one another and you will have no worries!

So are your thumbs sore yet sloan from twiddling them so much during this waiting period?? They say to stay busy and try to keep your mind occupied but, I have to imagine that's close to impossible! Don't take your test early - take it when you're supposed to...I'll be praying for a BFP for ya!!
Lovemybaby - I am so glad you mentioned prayer because I have turned to God sooo much during this time and the power of prayer is immeasurable. Once you put things in his hands, you know you'll be taken care of. You're at peace with everything. I too have had my prayers answered concerning some things with this and it's just amazing how God works in his mysterious ways. Keep the prayers going and I'll be joining your "prayer chain" in hoping everything works out for you. We can never have too many prayers right?!

Sprinkling baby dust to all....

Hoping we can all get a funny onesie like this:

[bell-02]

Kas101, thanks for the book synopsis, interesting stuff.

Gina1234, glad you’ve finally gotten to start stims.

Welcome abp.

NY4thtry, 10 sounds like a lucky number to me, maybe a few more will get in there before ER.

Adjec, good luck with your bw tomorrow, let us know your new beta’s.

Karenvancouverisland, congratulations on you 9 follies, what a fantastic number!

Embie30068, I have always read that it takes at least 10 days for the hcg trigger shot to get out of your system. If you do decide to do more home pregnancy tests and you get a negative, don’t freak out, it will just tell you that the trigger shot is out of your system and than any positive you get after that is a BFP. I hope this helps.

Welcome back Rosario. Why did you switch RE’s? And, like Karen, I’m wondering why you’re doing a fresh cycle.

Havbaby1627, so sorry to hear about our job but it sounds like you’re taking it in stride. Are you administering the Lupron shots to yourself? I had DH do it during our first but I did it in the 2nd and now 3rd IVF. Just take a deep calming breath and do it, the more you sit and think about it, especially at first, the harder it gets. Loved the picture of the onesie, I showed it to DH and he got a kick out of it too.

As for me, I started my Lupron shots on Saturday, so far so good.

Thinking of those in the 2ww. Take care.

[to_have_fun08]

Karen - Congrats on your 9 embies. I know you are overjoyed.

Embie30068 - They say it takes 1 day for 1000u of HCG to get out of your system. So if you trigger shot was 10,000 u then it would take at least 10 days. I would think that your HCG should be out of your system by now. 7dp3dt would be 10 days and you triggered 2 days before that. I would say you are Preggers. Congrats.


Rosario - I know you are dying to start your cycle. I bet you can't wait till your RE appointment. You just love all those needles.

Havbaby1627 - Sorry to hear about your job. I am sure that adds a little more stress. At least you won't have to try to schedule your appointments around work.

Well today was my last day of BCP's. Wooohoooooo!!!!!!!


Chris

[Love_my_baby]

Started my lupron shots last night. They aren't bad at all .. This week is gonna be the easy week Then, stim meds next week and the week after.. Thats going to be my test!!

Havbaby - it sounded like its your first time doing shots and everything - mine too. And I am NOT a fan of needles.. I'm OK with nurse taking my blood and everything, but I can't look directly at it anymore. I can't look at anyone else directly getting pricked either.. I can't look at needles ever since I was a teenager, and I went thru a few months period where my doctors office had to draw blood to check and make sure my liver was OK very frequently.. and this one time, the nurse drawing my blood couldn't find a vein, and she just kept pushing that needle around in my arm, and i started passing out in the chair! And she finally noticed that I was slumping and took the needle out! I swear, I'm getting woozy just typing this.. hehe.
Anyway, my point: The Lupron - not bad at all. Its nothing.. So no fear

Getting nervous now, though about the next few weeks.. And I swear, I wish my husband was more like some of the hubbys I read about on here. He's just not the sensitive, thoughtful type ya know. He's a man's man, which of course is also part of what I love about him, but really, SOMEtimes at least he could be sweet to me when I'm hormonal ya know!! Sorry, just venting.. I need to remember that he is probably just as scared as I am about what we're embarking on..

[not hopeless yet]

LOL. I'm with you Love-my-Baby... I've passed out at the clinic having blood drawn when we first started this rollercoaster years ago... remember they needed like 10 viles of blood!? I got half way thru and slumped over. Of course by the time I recovered from passing out and finishing the bloodwork I was totally late for work and everyone was raggin' on me. But it was all in good fun!

[robin611]

Not hopeless yet - You might want to ask your RE about the mock transfer - I asked mine today and he said "Oh, we did that when we did the water sonogram". Apparently, I just didn't know it!
NY4thtry - I think 10 is still pretty good and by the time ER comes you could have more. I think my ER is going to be around the same time as you...
adjec - That's great about surprising your Mom. We wanted to do that initially but my Dad was really sick (and he just passed away a few weeks ago) so we really wanted him to know that we were working on a grandchild even though he would never get to see him/her? I'm still really sad about this of course but I keep thinking Dad's going to help us through this process. I have to keep thinking that way or I'll be too overcome with sadness.
karen - Congrats on your ER report! Sounds great. Keeping my fingers crossed for your fertilization report!
to_have_fun - Congrats on finishing BCP's. One hurdle done!

As for me, yet another u/s this morning, but this time I had the RE instead of the nurse. YAY! He said things are moving along slowly but surely. I have at least half a dozen on the left ranging from 8-18 and at least half a dozen on the right most in the 10-12 range with my big one being 24. Does that sound scary big? I don't know but I guess they know what they are doing. I also still had a bunch of small ones. So, instead of triggering today he wants me to go another day or so. It's ok - I'm patiently waiting for my follies to mature enough... Grow follies grow!

[kke]

hi everyone so my doc called last night and said i need to have the cyst removed right away which is tomorrow. they said i would start my meds tom. night. anyone here of this.

[ajdec]

Robin - I'm so sorry about your dad... I can't imagine. And I agree...he's absolutely helping you through this, and will be a wonderful guardian angel for your little one... It sounds like you have some good follies growing...great news!

I got my second beta number today...my beta was 1,334, my estrogen is 776 and my progesterone is 54.9. She said those are all good numbers. I have to go back Monday for another blood draw and for an ultrasound. They want to see how many sacs. I'm confident it's just one since we only transfered one...but...time will tell.

[karenvancouverisland]

hi all,

ajdec- great beta #, you must feel elated!

kke- keep us posted about your cyst

robin- WOW, the perseverance of those little follies- awesome! when's your next u/s?

love mybaby/have baby- i'm so with you on the power of prayer..i believe it's what got me PG last time and will get me PG this time too. there are times i can literally feel the positive energy from all our friends and family and that they are 'petitioning god' for us to have a baby (an idea from 'eat,love, pray' book)

kas, thanks for the book info.. i can't seem to completely let go of caffeine..i've been weaning off coffee, but still have a tea a day..any thoughts on this anyone?

abp- are you doing a FET? from a donor egg again?

well i was VERY sore last night from ER..today a bit better, i think i have a sedation hangover. i've taken the rest of the week off work !!! woohoo! i so need some time to just 'be'...and hopefully do an ET thurs/sat too! i still can't believe i got 9 eggs! i'm elated.

love to all, karen.

[Rosario]

karenvancouverisland I am doing a fresh cycle instead of a FET because I know have insurance to cover IVF and because I now moved to MA I don't want to transfer my embies just yet. I am leaving those for back up. Then again it would be 3200 in NY just for that plus the meds. I would have loved to stay in NY for another cycle but I had to move. I do have to call the clinic though because I was never given a paper to freeze my embies and the RE's assistant told me to call and double check they were frozen haaaaaa big confusion there but I am sure everything is just fine.

[babyhope1]

Robin, I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I can't imagine what you are feeling right now. This has been the worst year of my life as I to am dealing with a recent loss myself. I lost of my aunt, my second mom. We learned of her pancreatic cancer 6 weeks before she died and I spend much of February and March administering morphine and held her hand as she passed before me. I didn't even see the angels come she was gone so fast. We knew she was going to pass so I asked her to tell God to send me an angel when she got to heaven. She said she would send two angels, one with a pink bow, one with a blue bow. I was prego with twins three months later and was due the day she died. It was the circle of life comming together I told myself. However, I miscarried, the rest is still unwritten.

The pain combined with the hormones has become my biggest struggle to date. I will pray for you. I just tell myself, she is in heaven and she was strong willed so I am certain she will send us another angel, maybe they will be the two she talked about. I am sure your dad is at his other ear asking for the same for you. We are in this together.

So I started Lupron last night. That stuff sucks. DH and I got into a fight, mostly emotional backlash, right before the injection. I pinched my skin so hard I didn't even feel the needle! So I was happy but then it started, ichiness at the injection site, then I scratched it and got a red rash, then I felt ichy everywhere, then I woke up drenched in sweat to the point of toweling off and changing my shirt. It was like I had just come out of the shower! I also had vivid dreams that I was holding a puppy and it turned into a box of like 6 puppies, then other animals with infertility came to me for help...OK it was weird! It must be something about feeling like a science project moreso than ever before and the feeling that I am creating a litter!

Ladies with BFPs, congrats but I would keep it a secret as long as possible, like the second trimester. Once the doc told us we had two heartbeats and we would be bringing home at least one baby, we told the world. Then I had to call everyone in a state of disarray and let them know we had no baby, it was the hardest thing ever. I couldn't tell everyone right away, I had to give it a few weeks and they had told others that I didn't even tell. My childhood neighbors 2,000 miles away knew. Then I got calls from people wanting to know how big I was or when I was due after my miscarriage that they hadn't heard of yet. It was very emotionally painful having to tell them plus you are going through postpartum depression at the same time. It was especially hard comming from people that I didn't even tell personally. I am not saying anything about you miscarrying because I don't wish that on anyone. Just protect yourself and your privacy is the advice I wish I knew.

All my love and hope ladies,

Babyhope

[sloan88]

hi all -
so much for my pma....
I am having a little 2ww freakout! i'm soooo antsy. yesterday I actually got AF like cramps for about 5 hours and now they're gone... I keep hoping to see something really new like implantation bleeding but nothing.... I'm now 4days past 5dt and I assume they have either stuck or not by now.... (weird helpless feeling).... maybe the cramping was them sticking??? or trying to anyway....

ahhh.... I have to say thank god I'm working or i would drive myself completely crazy...

[SueQiwi]

Karen~I just had to pop in and congratulate you on your NINE womderful eggs! I was thrilled to hear this news! So impressive for a low responder and over 4x as many eggs for you than last time! Good on ya!

Chris~Congrats on completing BCPs and starting stims!! This is your time.