OCT / NOV / DEC 2008 Buddies

[karenvancouverisland]

Cycling:

October Stims:
amanda 717- ER likely Nov 4/5 !!
Melo_P -ER Nov 3 !!
gina- stimming, trigger Nov 4/5 !!
Oct/Nov Stims:
kke - stims Oct 30
babyhope- polyp removed, stims around Oct 25
prayin4BFP- on bcps Oct 28, stims Nov 20
johnson 1902- stims Oct 29
mrs.cutter- stims Oct 31
Much Hope-Donor Egg. ET Nov 2/3
chenry- stims Oct 24
keesha2008 - end of Oct
Biddy - Fet Oct/Nov

November Stims:
rwb08- FET Nov 4?
Love_my_baby- stims on Nov 3, Probably ER Nov 14.
Foreverlove -on bcp's, Lupron Nov 7, ER/ET week of Thanksgiving
to_have_fun08-Lupron Oct 24, praying to start stims Nov 7th.
abp - ET middle of Nov.
kinababy - stims Nov 6, ER & ET middle of NOV
havbaby1627 - start stims Nov 4
JDC- mid Nov stims, estrace 1st
bell 02- Lupron Oct 25, FET Nov 28
Lady J- on bcp's, Lupron Oct 26, Nov stims
Lynnie- end of Nov stims
not hopless yet -Lupron then stims Nov 20
wishing4baby - FET
cocosmomma - FET Nov
dagnytaggart - bcps Oct 9, ER Nov 19
jnitschke- nov?
sol2009 - Nov cycle
mally - first u/s Nov 4 - superfact injections
detroit- stims nov/dec

December stims:
Kas101 - on DHEA- bcps early Nov, stims early Dec
Rosario- stims Dec
JennLB25 - Tube removal Oct 8 - cycle Nov/Dec
Natasha- Donor Egg cycle
sprouthaus - stims Dec 6th
2WW --- PUPOLittle embies snuggle in tight and stick!!!

bonniebc- 2ET, Beta Nov 5
wonderce- ET Oct 26 Beta Nov 6
karenvanc.island- 2 ET Oct 30, Beta Nov 13
wickedwheel - ET Oct 30, Beta Nov 11.
xcited@Bpreggers (michelle)- ET Oct 30, Beta Nov 12
Grateful- 2ET Nov 1, beta Nov 12
almost there :
Robin- 7 eggies fertilized!! ET Nov 4 or 6
NY4thtry- ER got at least 7 mature eggs! ET Nov 6?

Beta Results PLEASE BRING US ALL BFP's!!!!!
AJDEC - BFP!!! Beta 340 -
SLOAN- BFP !!! Beta 166 !!!!!
Melissa- negative..hoping and praying next time will be yours

[karenvancouverisland]

i'm so excited for you Robin and NY- that i created an 'almost there' spot in the 2WW and moved your names there

[gina1234]

just a quick post tomorrow i go in for u/s & b/w i will probably be doing hcg shot on tues night or wed night i am so bloated my arms are weak espically the one that has been injuried for my accident & i am just so ready to go and get ER out of the way.....everything is going ok i had i pretty crazy weekend....so good luck to all you ladies on the board....big hugs to u all & alot of baby dust coming your way....

wonderce--thanks for saying good luck to me i appreciate it...

SLOAN---congrats on your bfp what day transfer did u do???

melissa--i am so sorry about your result i will be sending u & your dh lots of hugs...i just wanted to see if u need someone to chat with u can always send me a private message...

p.s i am so happy that i am on this site with u ladies u are the ones that have kept me strong through this whole process....& also my dh....without this site i dont know what i would have done...thanks a million

[robin611]

Melissa,
I'm so sorry to hear about your BFN! I really hope you & DH have the hope to persevere and try again next cycle. Best of luck!
-Robin

[Love_my_baby]

Hello all!

Sloan - congrats congrats congrats on your BFP! I am so very happy for you.. Take it easy for a little while - you deserve it girl!! Awesome news .. Please keep us posted on your next BETA and U/S!!

Melissa, I know I'm repeating what all of these other ladies have already said, but I am so sorry. I know if it were my case, I probably wouldn't really want to talk for a few days or anything, but please turn to someone when you are ready. You have a lot of good friends in spirit here on this board.. I hope your hubby is taking great care of you. Everyone here is right - you are so young! Please try to think of this as a beginning and not an ending..
Man, someone mentioned it earlier and hit the nail on the head -what a crap shoot !! As i've read over each and every IVF thread/post on this site during the last few weeks, I have searched and searched for some pattern, some ... precedent, that there MUST be among those women whose IVF works and those whose IVFs turn out negative. And there is NONE. I was just so sure, upon beginning this journey, that there must be reasons for the negative results and the positive ones. Ya know, such as: its usually perfectly healthy girls under 30 who do 5 day transfers and do bed rest for exactly 3 days after transfer who get the BFPs. But there just isn't a protocal ! A healthy 25 year old who laid in bed for a week after ET, right next to a 40 year old with ovary problems who was back at work the next day after ET, and either one can be the one with the BFP. I guess I'm just such a "logical" person by nature, that this fascinates me. And also disappoints me greatly. I feel so angry sometimes. Anyways, I'm not sayin' anything that you gals haven't thought and said many times I'm sure.. Just venting .

Thanks for the posts about having the drinks while on Lupron ladies..
I think ya'll are right - won't really harm anything, but at the same time, with God's help, i'll be PG in two and a half weeks, so I may as well stop the drinking now, ya know. I hardly ever drink anyway - it won't be that noticeable .. But it is nice to know that the few sips of my hubby's beer ealier won't hurt

I start stim meds tomorrow!! I am excited - but getting nervous. I just hope I can do everything correctly. I have these thoughts that OMG, what if I don't inject myself with something correctly, or what if I'm not sure how many CC's to inject, and the doctor's office is closed, so I can't call 'em and ask 'em, etc.. But I know everything will be OK. And I must say I have a wonderful Doc and awesome nurses. They've really been there for me so far. Only TWO more weeks till ER/ET!! Wow.. moving right along..

[to_have_fun08]

Love_my_baby - You will do fine with your injections. Don't worry, but I just had to laugh because I was just kind of skimming your post and at first I thought you were going to say "OMG what if I forget an injection". Then it just occured to me that I was supposed to take my lurpon injection about 90 minutes ago and totally forgot. So thanks to your OMG moment I just remembered.
As far as the "crap shoot", Yep that is what IVF is. I have seen younger ladies with perfect 5 day embies that get a BFN while and over 40 lady who had embies that the RE wasn't even going to transfer because they were fragmented and growing slowly, ends up with a BFP. They can never say forsure what will and what will not work. So even if your outlook is bad, you still have hope. Good luck with your cycle. i will be shortly behind you.

Karen - nice idea about the "almost there" section. I always kind of felt that those that already had ER were kind of in limbo so that was a very good idea.

Now I have to go take my injection.


Chris

[sloan88]

Thanks for all the good wishes!

Love_My_ Baby - good luck with your injecitons. and as you said a few sips are fine. staying relaxed is a good idea - and a sip or two might help

gina - good luck ! you are almost there...!

NY4thtry - wishing you the best - fingers crossed....

kas- did you resolve your issues? that really sucks.

there's so many new people - welcome ALL OF YOU to the board.... !! I think you will find it to be a solid place of support...

someone asked what kind of transfer I had - we had a 5 day transfer of 2 blasts - they were both grade 4Bb. My beta was 9 days later....

More personals soon...!

[karenvancouverisland]

oh girls i'm having such a hard time tonight! i don't know what happened to my cheery hopeful attitude. but it's been replaced with some serious FEAR. i feel sick with sadness thinking this may not work.

most of me really REALLY believes this IS MY TIME! but i have another side that is skeptical, mistrusting, and so scared. it particularly scares me that i believe we can't shoulder much more financial debt by doing any more cycles... this has taken a huge toll on us, all in debt. if we had tons of money, i'd feel more at ease that we could 'try again' if this doesn't work.

this sucks. i hate the 2WW.

[babyhope1]

I understand what you are feeling Karen, having a shared past of miscarriage with you, a BFP carries as much burden as a BFN for me. Though I want that positive because it is a step in the right direction, my happiness would be masked with fear. It is normal and natural to have these thoughts and feelings but stay positive, it happened before I always tell myself, it will happen again, and it will stick! Some women have never made it that far...so you know it can happen. My doc said that having one miscarriage doesn't mean you will have a second one. Focus on implantation and meditate, breath deeply and imagine them digging in and growing.

I am a real estate agent and with the recent change in the market my income is dependent upon people's emotional decisions. So, we are trained not to become attached to an outcome. I try to apply this theory to this journey. However I do understand the financial drain. I am putting 12,400 on my credit card and if it works or not, I still have that burdon to bear. Not couting the 2K credit card bill this month for my meds. However, I would give up anything for this intangable gift from God. I suppose he is challenging me right now.

Good news ladies, I started my period yesterday. I am overly excited becasuse this is my first one since June so I am really excited. I am regular but started BC pills 7 weeks ago and before that my hormone levels were too high. Looks like I will have ER in 14 days or less! We will see if this works...

[JDC]

Melissa I am so sorry this wasn't the one for you. Give yourself the time you need to heal, and believe it or not, you will feel better. It sounds like your chances are very good for the future, so you will get your BFP in God's time.

Karen Hope you've returned from your momentary lapse of PMA. I can imagine the fear is immense though.....but right now all you have to worry about is taking good care of you and your little one. I have a really good feeling about this for you

to_have_fun Yes, I will start stims 3 days after AF (I'm pretty sure) There is so much less anxiety for me than in the past, it's like I'm an old pro! (that's sad!) Anyway...we will get our BFP's, I just know it.

To all the girls in the 2ww.....hang in there! What a tough time.....anyone poas?

Everyone have a wonderful day!

[Much Hope]

Good Morning ladies:

Karen I am sorry you are not feeling happy. I am sure it is just all these crazy hormones. Think positive thoughts and all will return to normal.

I had my donor ER yesterday, we got 23 eggs. DH and I are so excited, we cannot wait for our fert report this afternoon.

ET will be Friday since it takes 2 days for PGD report to come back after 3 day cell biopsy is taken.

We are still trying to decide 2 or 3 embies to put back. RE said my lining is great, it was 17 when last checked and I have had 3 E2V shots since, so I am sure it is as or almost as thick as my last cycle at 22. He feels with such young healthy embies and my lining be as such however many we put back will snuggle in. That worries me about putting 3 back since I am diabetic and it can be risky. However my diabeyes is completley under control.

I will keep you wonderful ladies posted.

Much sticky baby dust
Elida

[to_have_fun08]

Karen - I have the 2 sides of my brain also. One side has all the PMA, yes this will work, my time has come. There is no reason for it not to work. Then I have the evil side that just thinks about all the negative HPT's that I have seen and says "why is this time any different then the others". It is really really hard to keep a good attitude and not be afraid. The money factor doesn't help at all. I wonder how many more BFP's we might have had if ladies didn't have to stress over the money factor? Karen just look at the good things you have going for you. Last cycle you did get PG, shows that your body knows what to do and it is possible. Also, this time your cycle was better and you got better quality embies. For what it is worth, I think this will be your cycle. You will be getting that BFP on Thursday.


JDC - YEAh you get to start stims. I also have less anxiety for this cycle. I guess seeing that this is the start of my 4th cycle in the last 8 months I should be used to all of it. Wishing you the best of luck.


Chris

[ajdec]

Karen - Hope you are back in your PMA today! I know it's hard...I lost hope so many times during my 2ww...it's just such a horrible wait. But try to stay positive...your little one needs it!

So many posts and people! Goodness...this thread has really taken off.

Just a quick update...had my first "post BFP" u/s this morning! She told me they are considering me 6 weeks...and we actually saw the heartbeat this morning and even heard it a little. Obviously still pretty early to hear it a lot, but it was such an incredible thing to hear the little pulse!!!

So we're feeling very blessed...definitely a great start to the week.

[kke]

hi everyone i went in for b/u and u/s this morning and i have 11 follicles. is that a good number. i am so new to this i have no clue. also the nurse said lets hope your blood work is as good. what does that all mean?

[NY4thtry]

KKE

i had 11 follies got 12 eggs 7 mature 3 iffy and 2 immature.. hope that helps

but it sounds like you are early so you will probably have more...

Karen sorry you are down.. boy do i know how that feels..keep your chin up

Elida i am jeaulous of your lining mine was only 11 but ER said hes ok with anything over 9 but they have stopped my supplemental estrogen

Have a great day everyone