OCT / NOV / DEC 2008 Buddies

[xcited2Bpreggers]

Hi Everyone! I don't get on the board for a couple days and it explodes! It is so hard to keep up with everyone.

Congratulations bonniebc and wonderce on your BFP's!!!! That is fantastic news!!!

Love_my_baby I am so sorry to hear about your cancellation. I know it can be frustrating. I had to be postponed as well b/c my Estrogen levels were too high at first Thankfully they came down.

Karen - keep up the positive thinking! It will happen, I just know it!

Karen, Wickedwheel, Grateful and Robin we are almost there ladies!! Just a few more days

NY4thtry and Melo - how did your transfers go??

Well I myself am going through a little bit of a struggle staying positive. On Monday I went in for a b/w and they informed me that although I had 19 eggs retrieved and 14 fertilize, besides the two implanted there were no other viable ones to freeze. I was shocked, how could that be??? All of them degenerated. This freaks me out because if this cycle doesn't work that means that we will have to go through the whole thing again and undergo the complete cost again. As it is we are struggling so I'm not sure what we are going to do.

The other thing that has me concerned is that apparently my estrogen levels are too low. I don't know the exact numbers because they never tell me. On Monday afternoon they called me and told me to up my dose of Estrace to 3x/day from 2x/day. They had me come in again on Wed for another b/w and they called to tell me again that my estrogen levels were too low. They now have me on an estrogen patch along with taking the estrace 3x/day. What does this mean??? They said that it is not an indicator of anything, that it doesn't mean that I'm not pregnant but I am really really worried. Has anyone else had these problems during the 2ww?? At this point I'm just going crazy.

I also did a stupid thing Since my butt is so bruised and sore on both sides from the Progesterone shots I in my infinite wisdom decided to try a new spot! I shot my self in the leg (thigh area) and found out really quick never ever to do that! I was in such pain for the next two days that I could barely walk!! So learn from me you guys, never do a progesterone shot in the top of your leg!!!

My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Much baby dust to everyone!!

[karenvancouverisland]

Cycling:

Nov Stims:
kke - stims Oct 30
babyhope- stims Oct 25, 15 follies growing!
havbaby1627 - start stims Nov 4, 20 follies growing!
johnson 1902- stims Oct 29
mrs.cutter- stims Oct 31
chenry- stims Oct 24

November Stims:
rwb08- FET Nov 4?
Foreverlove -Lupron Nov 7, ER/ET week of Thanksgiving
to_have_fun08-Lupron Oct 24, praying to start stims Nov 14th.
abp - ET middle of Nov.
kinababy - stims Nov 6, ER & ET middle of NOV
pixelgirl- Nov 17 stims
bell 02- Lupron Oct 25, FET Nov 28
Lady J- Lupron Oct 26, Nov stims
JDC- mid Nov stims, estrace 1st
not hopless yet -Lupron then stims Nov 20
mally - first u/s Nov 4 - superfact injections
detroit- FET early Dec
JennJenn - BCP 11/1 - Lupron 11/10 ER early Dec
prayin4BFP- on bcps Oct 28, stims Nov 20

keesha2008 - end of Oct
Biddy - Fet Oct/Nov
Lynnie- end of Nov stims
wishing4baby - FET
cocosmomma - FET Nov
dagnytaggart - bcps Oct 9, ER Nov 19
jnitschke- nov?
sol2009 - Nov cycle

December stims:
Kas101 - on DHEA- bcps early Nov, stims early Dec
Rosario- stims Dec
Natasha- Donor Egg cycle
sprouthaus - stims Dec 6th

Dec 08/January 09 Stims:
JennLB25 - tube removal 10/08, Lupron in December, ER/ET in mid January

2WW --- PUPOLittle embies snuggle in tight and stick!!!


karenvanc.island- 2 ET Oct 30, Beta Nov 13
wickedwheel - ET Oct 30, Beta Nov 11.
xcited2Bpreggers (michelle)- ET Oct 30, Beta Nov 12
Grateful- 2ET Nov 1, beta Nov 12
Robin- 2ET Nov 4, beta Nov 14
Melo- 1ET, beta Nov 17
Much Hope- 3ET, beta Nov
NY4thtry- 3ET, beta?

almost there :
Amanda- ET Nov 8
Gina- 16 fertilized, ET Nov 11?

Beta Results PLEASE BRING US ALL BFP's!!!!!
AJDEC - BFP!!! Beta 340 -
SLOAN- BFP !!! Beta 166 !!!!!
Melissa- negative..hoping and praying next time will be yours
bonniebc- BFP!!!!
wonderce- -BFP!!!!!:lol:
Love_my_baby- cycle canceled


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[NY4thtry]

hi all quick post as i am trying to stay flat on my back

We transferred 2 expanded and 1 early blast... so just keeping my fingers crossed..

They were grade 1-2 and scored 95 out of 100.

hope everyone is having a good day

[hereiamivf]

Hello everyone,

For everyone in the 2ww, lots of prayers.
For those with a BFP, parenting is a blessing and children an amazing joy!
For those starting their stimulation, hope you'll get the follies you want.
For those with a negative HCG, gather your hope and strength, keep trying it is worth it!!

I'm new to this forum and to forums in general. Still trying to figure out my way. Well maybe I'll get around that while in my 2ww! My ET was yesterday. 5 embryos at day 3 (sorry still didn't get those abbreviations).
I felt very happy after the ET, felt as if I was given 5 chances to get pregnant. I hope for me and everyone in the 2ww to endure the craziness, the wait, the interpretations, the illusions.... I know I didn't dare starting ivf before I was ready to accept all results ( haha, let's see if I will), still here I am reading the boards and living the 2ww all over again!

[havbaby1627]

Thanks for repeating yourself babyhope1, I remembered we were but wasn't sure how everything was going to be scheduled for you & wasn't sure if we still were but, anyway - it's great to have someone still on the same schedule as me! How did you react to the "new" injections? I did okay. I had horrible night sweats last night & really strange dreams. I have been though since I started the Lupron. However, this time around, when I woke up, it was hard to get the images out of my head & I was a little disoriented I guess is the right word. Strange.
Eh, I just keep leaning on God to get me through this and have hope that everything will work out.

This boad is just so wonderful and I'm glad I found it. It's comforting when you have someone going through the same things you are to talk to. Sure, we all have our significant others and possibly family or friends but, it's just different to talk to people who know exactly where you're coming from and the stuff you're going through.

Have a great weekend everyone and sending tons of baby dust to all!

[Kas101]

NY4th Congrats on the transfer. This should be it for you now and i ill be so happy when you get that BFP...

To Have FUn When will you have your estrogen levels checked next??? Cant wait to see your levels low enough so you can start right away!!!! I'm a big fan of self-medication- Your altered dosage makes sense and i would do the same.

hereiamivf welcome to the board!! hopefully we can stop you going crazy in the 2WW!!!! Have you done ivf before or is this the first time?

As you know i am so far behind most of you on this cycle now, i am only on day 3 of bcps, but thats ok as last week it didnt look like i was making it this far before Christmas!!!! SO i will take what i can. STill knocking back the DHEA, still rattling from all these vitamins and royal jelly , still doing the AP once a week, and i think after my RE appointment on Wednesday i will start my antibiotic regimen of pills, so just ticking along really and marking the days off on the calendar........

[robin611]

Hi everyone,
Just checking in.... I'm still hanging out here in the 2WW, although now it's a 1WW - YAY! I just found out that out of my 5 remaining embies, 4 blasts went to freeze! They were AA, AB, BB, and BC. We were pretty pleased with the 80% rate. Hopefully, some will survive the thaw if/when we need them...
Wishing everyone the best - enjoy the weekend!
-Robin

[to_have_fun08]

I go in for another u/s and b/w on Thursday. I hate all this waiting and I am totally depressed today. I just can't get my hopes up any longer, I am so tired of being let down. I want to say "I might be having ER the week of Thanksgiving" but I can't. I am totally out of hope right now. Last June/July i was on lupron for 6 weeks and nothing changed. I know I upped my dosage this time so it should help but I am not getting my hopes up. I wish I would have asked what my E2 levels were so I know if I even have shot. I guess it really doesn't matter. It is all out of my hands right now which I just can't stand. I wish I could do something more to drop my levels but there isn't at least for this cycle.


Ny4thtry - Congrats on ET.

All you ladies in your 2ww, hang in there your time is near. Seems that we will be getting a lot of BFP's this week.

Kas - Time will fly by, you will be headed to ER before you know it. So I guess you will be have ER around the 2nd week in December. I don't really know the short lupron protocol. Your BFP will be your best Christmas present.


Chris

[JDC]

hereiamivf - just curious...Have you done ivf before? Did you day you transferred 5? Best wishes to you during your 2ww!

[hereiamivf]

Hi everyone!

Kas 101 and JDC, thanks for asking. This is my first ivf. I did my ET at day three yesterday.
JDC, Goodluck for this cycle. Hope you'll get a positive this time!
Chris, don't give up. Try and try and try. I know it is frustrating to wait and not be able to do anything. Hope is the one thing we have!

[Kas101]

To Have Fun Thursday seems like an eternity away, i know, but at least that will give the Estrogen levels time to come down. It makes perfect sense to me that if 10iu is not enough and 20iu oversupresses, 15iu could be the magic number for you..... I dont blame you for feeling low as you are disappointed, and thats what these (seems like endless) disappointments do to us, but keep strong. All of us will get there in the end (some of us just have rockier roads)

[gina1234]

i was on today & i was saying to myself that i honestly sometimes feel left out from this site...this does not go to all of u, because i have gotten support from most of u...maybe it is my hormones talking but i am hurt that sometimes i come on this site & go to see if people have posted or sent me a private message & most of the time i get nothing...every so often i see good luck gina1234 on ER or something else...maybe it also could be becase i dont give out to much information....now dont get me wrong i try to address everyone by there names as best as i can, but when i leave a update or a post i feel like no one really reads it....i truly do like this site i have learned so much for it, but i dont know if i am just getting scared of this whole process or if i really belong on this site....please help me understand if we are all truly here for eachother please just try to be there for me...i really hope i didnt hurt anyone feeling, but since ER i am having a hard time & it seems as if no one on this site had asked how i was doing ...anyways thats all for now....

[karenvancouverisland]

hi everyone...

hi gina, you sound very sad. i was initially taken aback by your post..then i reflected on the struggles i've had with finding the 'right' or 'best' support in my ivf struggles. i've so wanted an in-person support group. this is not available in my town for infertility. if it was, i'd be there every week, pouring my heart out and making connections. this internet-post style doesn't always meet the full spectrum of my needs..it's harder for me to remember people's stories and history without having a face or a visual memory of when they told me..i actually takes notes most times after reading posts so that i can respond on a personal level! and still, this doesn't give it justice...so i've come to the place where i make the best of it..i am still part of a small (like 5-6 women) september group that i find so much easier to be personal, due to the small size.

and i find it hard to not take things personally when i'm hormonal and scared! i've been thanking god all week that i have such an intense, busy job, as it distracts me from the 2ww and the personal insanity i can get into. so i hope you can relate to someof what i'm saying, and i'm just trying to reach back to you and let you know i relate.

ny- glad to hear from you. 3 embies should give you great chances. i'm happy you've made it to this stage. hi chris, you sound bummed too. i felt that way before i started stims and had a good first u/s result. it's a hard stage that you're in.
hi kas, jdc, havebaby, gina and welcome hereiamivf.

i think i feel pregnant! i'm horribly tired, low energy, and this just isn't like me. and i felt this way last time i was pg. if i'm not, i'll be so devastated. but right now, i think that i am, cause i feel like it, and i also think it just makes sense that i am!!

best to all, karen

[Melo_P]

How is everyone?

I like that "I think I feel pregnant" note Karen!! Yee hah. Thanks too for doing such a great job of keeping up with where everyone is at in the listing.

Gina - sorry to hear your feeling low and a little isolated. Hang in there. This is such a busy thread - I just post on it to get things out of my head - but often don't have responses either - but I don't take it personally - so I hope you are feeling okay. This roller coaster is a lonely place to be sometimes.

To all on 2ww - may baby dust be with us all!! There have been so many stories of great blasts and lots of embbys being transfered - am trying to stay hopeful with that little wee one all alone in there that the grinch (!!) doctors put back cuts the mustard (stick little baby stick!!)

Exicted to be preggers - I am totally understanding of the shock with the number of embbys but non frozen. Was exactly the same for me - out of 12 fertilized from cohort of 17 eggs - I pretty much have only the one they transfered - unless a miracle happens and some embryos corrected them selves post day 3 and made it to blast - will find out tomorrow. Having some frozen is defiantly like having a bit of a buffer when you fly off the cliff. This feels like last chance central for me too now (stick baby stick!!)

This time around am a bit calmer than usual. Am sleeping with my picture of "our baby to be" under our pillow, and talking to and kissing it lots - and just praying hard!

Peace and baby dust to all. Please santa - bring us lots of early stocking fillers!!!

M

[to_have_fun08]

Gina - i a sorry you feel isolated. It is not intentional. There is so much going on in this board it is hard to keep up. I am on the board a lot but sometimes I just am in a funky mood, being selfish and don't feel like posting. Then when I do feel like posting I forget what I read the last time I was on. Sorry about that. We are all here for you. As far as PM's, i don't do those too often to anyone and I don't know how much any of the other gals do it. I am excited to that you have so many good fertilized embies. I wish I could have that many. How is your arm doing? I know that has to suck going to physical thearpy and trying to do IVF? Wishing you the best of luck at your ET, how many are you going to transfer?

Melo_P - Congrats on ET. So why would they only transfer 1? When is your beta?

xcited2Bpreggers - Congrats on ET, welcome to the 2ww. Don't worry you are not the only person that their eggs didn't make it to freeze. I have heard the same complaint from a lot of women. As far as estrogen levels go, i have no input on that, mine are always too high. Wishing you the best of luck.

Much Hope - Congrats also on your transfer. This board is going to be really hopping. I am so glad that your daughers friend was able to get you some good eggies. I was so devistated for you in August whenever your eggs didn't make it through PGD. It is so good to see that now you have a great shot of having a child.

Karen - How are you and your PMA? You are pregnant, that is why you feel pregnant. Seems like Nov 13, will be the big day. You will get your BFP and I will get my go ahead for stims. YEAH!!!!!

Kas - Thanks so much for trying to cheer me up. I think I might be a little better today. I still don't have much hope but I know this isn't the end of the world. I have a great relationship with my DH, I have some really good friends, I have a good job and over all I like my life. So if IVF doesn't work then I still have a lot of things to fall back on and I will just move on.

hereiamivf - Welcome to the board. Good luck in the 2ww.

JDC - When do you start stims? I know it should be soon but I just don't remember when. There is so much to keep track of on this board.

mrs.cutter - Where are you? How are your stims's going? You should be close to ER, keep us posted.

Well, I know I still have missed out on a lot. DH wants me to go fix him so breakfast so I have to get off the computer. Seems he thinks because he is going to fix the brakes on my Jeep, I have to fix him pancakes. Like life is supposed to be fair. Give me a break. Hope everyone has a good day.

Chris

Chris