OCT / NOV / DEC 2008 Buddies

[foreverlove]

Hi there ladies,

Gina I know exactly how you feel about feeling isolated sometimes, I think it does go along with the process. I dont post much because sometimes I feel just so out of it, but I always check in on all you wonderful ladies here on this board. I hope things get easier for you and I am sending baby dust your way for your transfer tomorrow. Good luck to you and try and stay positive.

Babyhope1 – you had asked if any of us thought about what we would do with the frozen embryos if we dont need them. If DH and I can get PG the first IVF cycle (which I am praying for) that will probably be it for us as insurance does not cover any of this for us – not even the medication. I will probably leave them for a year or two and if we decide we are not going to use them we will more than likely donate them to a couple in need. When we began this process we signed a form stating that if anything happened to DH and I during the process and they had frozen ones they would be donated.

Not much going on over here with me, just continuing my Lupron shots and my BCP. Thur is my last day on the BCP and then I continue with the Lupron – my first ultrasound is on Nov. 21 so hopefully everything will look good at that time. I have had more energy since taking the Lupron then I have had in a long time. I actually stayed up late and got up early every day over the weekend – that is not like me at all. I normally sleep in until around 10:30 – 11:00 and am asleep on the couch by 10:30 p.m.

Happy Monday ladies and I am thinking of all of you!!!!

[JDC]

Gina, I felt bad when I read your post because I know I have been pretty selfish lately, and have not really been supporting the girls on this thread. I don't know why, it's like I just don't have it in me this time. Last cycle I replied to everyone and basically obsessed about the board, but this time I'm somewhat distant. I guess we are all in different places emotionally and need different things. I hope you find the support you need from us and your loved ones.

Even though I have been distant, I still care about all of the girls and read every post!

I start stims tomorrow.

Jill

[NY4thtry]

anyone experience this...

WOke up like WIDE AWAKE all the sudden with sharp pains that went away after a few minutes..

good sign bad sign? dont remember it happening before.....

Gina sorry you are feeling bad.. Jill i totally understand where you are coming from .. this being my fifth time i have been more distant also but i do car about everone and am following your progress..

Karen i had the same thing yesterday DH and i went for a walk and i got so crmpy i had to cut it short...

Baby dust all

[kke]

hi everyone
just an update on me i went in for u/s. i have 12 folls but only 8 of them are at 20 cent. so they think 1 or 2 more days of meds. which will put me at 14 days of meds with e/r on thursday or friday. I also had nother not to happy thing happen over the weekend i had order meds for del. on sat. i even paid extra for this since i was out of meds well i waited all day sat for fed express to get a phone call saying there was an error and my meds would be delivered on mon. that wasnt an option for my on call nurse and i had to find someplace i could get them. anyways i finally got them but had to drive and hour and pay 1800.00 instead of 1200.00. anayeays good luck to all of you and is anyone else looking to have e/r on thursday or friday?

[karenvancouverisland]

Cycling:

In Stims:
kke - stims Oct 30, 12 follies growing! ER Nov 13-ish
babyhope- stims Oct 25, 15 follies growing!
havbaby1627 - start stims Nov 4, 20 follies growing!
LadyJ- stims Nov 8, first u/s coming nov 12!
kinababy- stims Nov 6
JDC (jill)- stims start Nov 11!

November Stims:
rwb08- FET Nov 4?
Foreverlove -Lupron Nov 7, ER/ET week of Thanksgiving
to_have_fun08-Lupron Oct 24, praying to start stims Nov 14th.
abp - ET middle of Nov.
pixelgirl- Nov 17 stims
bell 02- Lupron Oct 25, FET Nov 28
not hopless yet -Lupron then stims Nov 20
mally - first u/s Nov 4 - superfact injections
detroit- FET early Dec
JennJenn - BCP 11/1 - Lupron 11/10 ER early Dec
prayin4BFP- on bcps Oct 28, stims Nov 20
Lynnie- end of Nov stims

(haven't heard from you: johnson, mrs.cutter, chenry, keesha, Biddy, wishing4baby, cocosmomma, dagnytaggart, jnitschke, sol2009- let us know how u are)

December stims:
Kas101 - on DHEA- bcps early Nov, stims early Dec
Rosario- stims Dec
Natasha- Donor Egg cycle
sprouthaus - stims Dec 6th
Dec 08/January 09 Stims:
JennLB25 - tube removal 10/08, Lupron in Dec, ER/ET in mid Jan

2WW --- PUPOLittle embies snuggle in tight and stick!!!


karenvanc.island- 2 ET Oct 30, Beta Nov 13
wickedwheel - ET Oct 30, Beta Nov 11.
xcited2Bpreggers (michelle)- ET Oct 30, Beta Nov 12
Grateful- 2ET Nov 1, beta Nov 12
Robin- 2ET Nov 4, beta Nov 14
Melo- 1ET, beta Nov 17
Much Hope- 3ET, beta Nov
NY4thtry- 3ET, beta?
hereiamivf- ET, beta?

almost there :
Amanda- ET Nov 8
Gina- 16 fertilized, ET Nov 11?

Beta Results PLEASE BRING US ALL BFP's!!!!!
AJDEC - BFP!!! Beta 340 -
SLOAN- BFP !!! Beta 166 !!!!!
Melissa- negative..hope and pray next time will be yours
bonniebc- BFP!!!!
wonderce- -BFP!!!!!:lol:
Love_my_baby- cycle canceled


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[sloan88]

Hi everyone - i've also been keeping up with reading the board but have been anxious about the second beta ( there's always something!!) but pretending i'm not .. .so thus i've been pretty quiet.

NY4thtry - that sounds very promising. It's always hard to say what's progesterone and what's real but i did have cramping. AF-like stuff and definitely some poking feelings. even now I woke up one morning with an awful cramp - it really freaked me out. so that could all be good! funny when things that are uncomfortable are good. I'm rooting for you!!

Gina- sorry you have been blue. Everyone here is in the same boat and sometimes we have more support to give and sometimes we turn inward. hopefully you have someone outside the board who will really be your ear solidly.

kke - sorry about your meds disaster!! argh! keep those follies growing!

Karen -fingers crossed for you. i had all symptoms of AF right before i got my pos. beta!! so backpain - bring it on

Lady J - i definitely felt them growing....

Melo - that's great you've got a frozen. that must be reassuring.

wickedwheel - fingers crossed for you!!

As for me... huge relief as my second beta was great. i'm soooo relieved. It's hard to wait a week and just not know what is going on. It's 6100... it's pretty high so could be twins..... u/s in two weeks.... Sending PMA to everyone. I'm very tired. Sleeping 9-10 hours a night and still want a nap but other than cramping I don't have any symptoms....

[havbaby1627]

Hello everyone!

As usual, there's so much to keep up on so as said, if I miss out on anyone - I apologize!

tohavefun, yes the DH is quite "the man". He's a great supporter for the most part & I know he's trying but, it's kinda like what you said...it's US that are actually going through this and it just has that much more impact. I've tried explaining that to him but, he replies: I'm just as concerend but, I'm not voicing it because I don't want to worry you more. Which is understandable but, as I told him: if I knew your concerns, I'd know your feelings more and that would help. However, he's still being "a man" about it and that's fine, that's how he functions and his survival technique I suppose.

wonderce, yes you gotta love all this hormonal stuff going on! I told my Mom that I have now been partially introduced into what menopause is going to be like. Like you, I find this board to be absolutely fantastic for support, to vent, whatever the case may be. We're all going through the same thing and it's great to have people whom can relate to you share in their experiences, be of support and all that.

melo, it's funny you call it a bean. My Aunt had to go through IVF years ago actually for the same reason I am, her DH had low motility. Anyway, when she was preggers, she called her second baby "bean" & we still call him that at the age of 8!

karen, I hear you on the whole book thing. My Aunt actually gave my Mom the "what to expect when you're expecting" to give to me for future reference. I refuse to look at it. I glanced at it once to see about dying your hair and that was it. It now sits on my nightstand hoping to be read sometime soon. If I may make a suggestion though, my husband got a book and said it was a great book for him to know what to expect, do and such. He said it was very funny at times which made it an easy read & would reccomend it to any future Father. It's called: She's having a baby and I'm having a breakdown by James Barron. Let me know if you get it.

gina, no worries on the last post. I think we all know that this is such a trying time and sometimes our emotions get the best of us. Please don't ever feel alone though. You are NEVER alone! I'm sorry that you're in so much pain though and hope that it subsides soon. Keep a PMA and remember: we're all here for you. I don't know if you're religious or not but, if you are - lean on God whenever you need to. I find it to be very soothing and helpful.

babyhope, I can't believe you tried mixing the whole thing of diluent with the meds! That's insane. I don't like even the 1 ml. let alone all that! My DH does the injections for me because I can't stand looking at the needle. I don't mind them but, I can't watch it either. I guess I won't be having a career in phlebotomy any time soon!

jdc, good luck in starting your stims. I found it to be no problem it all and no different than the lupron. You're just sticking yourself more is all. Which in itself is kinda a pain and you'll start feeling like a pin cushion but, just think of the possible end result!

kkc, good luck with your ER. I am not sure when I will be having mine. I think it might be this weekend but, I will probably find out more tomorrow.

Tomorrow morning I go in for bloodwork again and another U/S. I'm hoping that they'll be able to tell me when I'll be coming in for my ER by tomorrow. I am thinking it will be this weekend possibly but, who knows...just hoping all goes well with the tests tomorrow and we'll see where we go from there.

As always - good luck to everyone, keep that PMA up and sprinkling extra sticky baby dust around to all. Praying for all of you!

[prayin4BFP]

I too feel very isolated Gina but its of my own doing. I have not told anyone about the IVF except the people on this board. I just couldnt go through the whole things with actual people in my life if this didnt work. I havent even told my mom...
Anyway I am so weepy today. Got off the phone with RE nurse and my thrombophelia panel came back abnormal...apparently I have a clotting disorder...who knew? SHe told me which one but I wasnt listening...I just couldnt. All I kept thinking was oh great another hurdle. Once I start stims I will have to go on one med and then after ER a different med and I guess I will stay on that one if I get PG. I know I havent even gone through the hardest part of this yet but I just want to throw in the towel right now and say goodbye to my dream.

[to_have_fun08]

KKE - Sounds like you have some good follies growing. That sucks you had to hunt around for your meds and then they were more expensive. That is my worst fear is not having enough meds. I am bad and still haven't ordered mine. If I get the OK this week to start stims, I will have to order them on Thursday and keep my fingers crossed I get them on Friday. I have enough meds left over from my last cycle for Friday but not enough for Saturday.

Karen- Hope your pain has subsided. I also got some bad back aches when I was in the 2ww. I also found that I got tired and crampy really easy. I think our bodies just love to mess with our minds during the 2ww. Only a few more days, you can make it.

Jill - Yeah you get to start stims tomorrow!!!!! We will be really close together if my #'s are good on Thursday. If my numbers are good I will be starting stims on Friday.
I am on this board a lot but like you sometimes I just don't have it in me to post. I just can't keep my PMA this time so I don't want to send out my negative vibes so I just stay away from posting. If I do post I won't do a whole lot. It is really hard after having so many let downs. I keep telling myself that I would probably do better if I stayed away from the board and stop obsessing but I just can't do it.

foreverlove - So when are you planning on ER? I know before you were going to try and do it the week of Thanksgiving.

Lady_J - I have heard that good follies grow 2mm a day. Don't know for sure if this is true. I always felt bloated right after starting stims. I guess it is just the hormones. Keep us posted.

Babyhope1 - If I had frozen embies, of course I would use them for another child. If for some chance I had Twins I would think that I would love to donate them, though I don't think DH would go for this. I would just hate to see good embies go to waste.

I have been taking 15u of lupron since Nov 5. I think tonight I am going to take it down to 12.5 U. I am playing with a double edge sword. If i don't do enough I won't suppress and if I do too much I will over suppress. So I am figuring on taking it down a notch, if I am not suppressed enough this week, I can still take it back up to 15 u and go back again next week for U/S and B/W. What do you gals think? This is driving me batty and I just can't wait till Thursday is here.

Chris

[kke]

can anyone tell me how long you are off work or on bed rest after ec and after et. Thanks

[foreverlove]

Chris,

I plan on doing ER/ET any time between Nov. 27 (Thanksgiving) thru Dec. 7 – that is what we are shooting for. I have no idea what happens after my ultrasound on Dec. 21 and what they are looking for, what meds I will take next. Any info from you experienced ladies would be wonderful.

Sloan - wow what a high second beta number - sounds like twins - congrats!!!

[Lady_J]

Karen - SLaon - Tohavefun:

Yes, I defenitly feel them today. It feels as if I have gas, but yet, no gas come out My jeans fell a tiny snug this morning. I think I have to wear stretchies for the rest of the week cuz I am afraid to hurt the Follies.

I have a question. Lupron and Follistim... I am able to inject me either on front thigh or in stomach. Where is the best location. I have been doing Lupron on my thigh and that is where I am doing the stims, just switching sides everyday. My reasopn for that is that I have a little too much fat around my gut and I am afraid the meds wont take effect if they are going in my fat.. sorry TMI. But my legs are starting to look like a junkies legs. But I am afraid to mess my cycle up.

Karen: Your back pain does sound promising. I bet u r sooo excited. Just a few more days Babygirl... lots of babydust to you.

[JennJenn]

Foreverlove,
It seems as if you and I will be almost on the same schedule (not quite). I start Lupron on Nov 12th. My ER is on December 10th ET tentatively set for Dec 14th or 15th. My RE said that it could be pretty much anytime between December 7th-December10th. I thought it'd be the week of thanksgiving as well (based on the intial time frame), but it seems I'll be stimming a little longer than i thought. Well, at any rate...GOOD LUCk!

[not hopeless yet]

Hi Lady J-

I'd double check with your doctor if you can switch from thighs to stomach. I've always done fsh in my stomach but you're right- it starts to get sore and black/blue after half dozen days which I'm sure your thighs do too! I tried trigger shot in my thigh, which was fine, but then the next two cycles I did all the shots in my stomach.

Good luck,
Brenda

[amanda717]

Hey everyone. I had my ET on Saturday. Can anyone help me with a question? The embryologist talked to me first and said I had one 6 cell to put back and one 5 cell (this was a 3 day transfer). He said those were pretty good. I was shocked that out of 19 eggs retrieved, 7 fertilized and only 2 made it; the others were too fragmented. I know you only need one good one, I just thought we would have some to freeze. Then my RE said that the two put back were "baby making" embryos as he said it and that there was no reason we shouldn't get pregnant. I just thought they needed to be 8 cell to be considered "good". Anyone? So anyways, I'm now in the 2WW. Good luck to all the others... looks like there's several of us.

I know I won't get to everyone although I do read all your posts and hope for each and everyone of us...

Melo_P - Good luck with your one embie; glad that you found out one made it to freeze!

Elida - Congrats on your ET - sounds great!

Gina - Congrats on ER - sorry you're feeling down. I think we all get that way sometime or another.

muchhope - Congrats on your ET! Best of luck to you!

xcited2bpreggers - I can totally relate with all the eggs but two degenerated; I experienced the same thing. It's frustrating, but it only takes one!

to_have_fun - Don't lose hope; I know you must be frustrated, but hang in there; I am rooting for you!