Anyone else trying for #2...

Yellow · Post by **Yellow** » Tue Nov 11, 2008 3:58 pm

Hello #2 Girls! Glad to see this thread is still alive and well. I'm just checking in. I'm still taking a break from all the IVF stuff. I'm thinking next summer maybe we'll start again.

Hello Joyanna, Melo, Laura. Hi Zoe. I think you joined after I dropped off.

Let me catch up an where you all are. I'll do personals soon.

Hugs!

zoegirl · Post by **zoegirl** » Tue Nov 11, 2008 5:21 pm

Hi Yellow -
Hope you are doing well - I ook forward to chatting with you!

Well - I had my Day 2 FSH tested today. I can't believe it is down to 9.9! My estradiol was 25! So it is a good time to start. .. .. I am a bit nervous though, now that we are about to get started . . . I'll start the BCP's tomorrow . . . THe drugs were delivered today - FOUR boxes! Last time I only had one box! I haven't opened them yet, but I'm guessing they just packed them poorly??

NOt sure if my nerves are due to being off my antidpressant and trying to wean off the ativan . . . or because the last pregnancy was so difficult . . . . all the worries that come with the possibility of another child . .. can we reallly afford it . . . will everything go well . . . all the things that we discussed on the "cranky husband" thread, Melo . .. I know it may not even work this time, but it worked on the first try last time . . .

Did any of you feel nervous on your first try for #2? Not just nervous that it wouldn't work, but nervous that it would work?

Zoe

zoegirl · Post by **zoegirl** » Tue Nov 11, 2008 6:45 pm

PS let me clarify - I'm not actually nervous about the baby part - if I could skip to the labor and delivery, I wouldn't be worried at all! It's the pregnancy that makes me nervous. The total responsibility of carrying the baby and knowing that it's no picnic . . .

I just got back from checking out a potential new day care for my son. It just opened and they have only one baby in the infant room and she was so cute I was reminded how strong that feeling is about wanting #2. It seems that I want to have my cake and eat it too . . .

Yellow · Post by **Yellow** » Tue Nov 11, 2008 10:00 pm

Zoe, yeah, I do remember feeling nervous about being pregnant again -- all the ups and downs of that time. Good luck to you!

Joyana, so sorry to hear about all you've gone through -- so unfair. My heart goes out to you. Good luck with your appointment. Let us know how it goes.

Melo, sorry to hear about the restructuring at work. Hopefully, that's old news by now and everything worked out. How is your cycle going?

Still sending baby dust to all of you...

alreadyblessed · Post by **alreadyblessed** » Tue Nov 11, 2008 10:41 pm

Hi ladies of the #2 thread,
It's been a while since I've posted, but I've been checking in and keeping up with all of your stories. I am hoping to bring some baby dust to this thread, as after all my hemmorhaging, clotting, loss of one twin,loss of my grandmother and bedrest, I am happy to report that I am still chugging along at 19weeks with one healthy little boy (as per my amnio results today) which by the way came on what would have been my grandmothers 92nd birthday. Since we have 2 DD you can imaging how DH is feeling. He is shining up the baseball bat as we speak.LOL. Anyway, I want you all to know that my road was not a smooth one by far, but by the grace of God, things are looking up. I know all of you ladies have been through hell, and I want you to know that I am praying for each and every one of you. Don't give up. Stay strong, and I am hoping to hear your wonderful stories with your next cycle! God Bless!!

Melo_P · Post by **Melo_P** » Wed Nov 12, 2008 8:53 am

Hi All

So nice to hear from some of you. I missed this thread a little!!

Already Blessed – that is WONDERFUL news! I am praying hard that I will be in your same shoes soon!!! Do you mind me asking if both your DD's were from IVF? That would be super inspirational!!

Zoegirl - I feel for you - but your posts do make me smile (in a good way!!) Heck the things we have going on! And it looks like you have quite a few balls in the air at the moment!! Good luck - that is fantastic news on the levels!! Hope your feeling good to get started. I know what you mean about the unsureness. I was desperate for number 2 a lot earlier than now - but I think some of it was really driven by the desire to get started and feeling the clock ticking and all of those pressures - rather than really having reconiled myself to place that I really truly wanted and was ready for this to happen. When I did get a BFP earlier this year – I was schocked that I actually felt a little bit of panic to at the thought of adjusting myself -because was still trying to adjust to coping with my life currently. Gosh it is so complicated. I feel absolutely ready now though (I hope the miracle worker up there is hearing my loud and clear here!!!) and am praying that we will get a BFP. I test on Monday - and time is CRAWLING!!

Yellow - neat to hear form you. Glad your doing well and hope your enjoying the break.

Joyanna - so sorry to hear about the post m/c woes. UGH how frustrating (for us both), but no point I guess dwelling on what might have happened. Though I can't help every now and again imagining that I was pregnant and hadn't miscarried. My friend is due exactly the same day I would have been - which is a little bitter sweet. All the best with the next try anyhow. Hee hee - you made me laugh with your doctor post!! I wouldn't let him worry you - everything all in your good time!!

Also I am hoping I get a BFP and am living proof that healthy eating and living is NOT all it is cracked up to be! I have been terrible this time around (I mean I have been terrible ever since I got pregnant with number 1 about 2 years and 9 months ago!! So lazy and NOT healthy!).

Hugs to all. Praying hard that we all get our #2's!!

M

julesg · Post by **julesg** » Wed Nov 12, 2008 12:12 pm

Hello

Been away for ages - blessed with DD two years ago we made a BIG decision to try again - the money was my biggest concern now I am one week into the 2WW and going slightly mad glad to see this thread been a hard choice

alreadyblessed · Post by **alreadyblessed** » Wed Nov 12, 2008 2:56 pm

Hello Melo~
My first DD was from fertility drugs alone (clomid). My second DD was IVF and now my DS will be an IVF baby too. I am praying for you!!! Good luck, and Keep us all posted!!!! BABY DUST TO YOU!!!!

joyanna · Post by **joyanna** » Wed Nov 12, 2008 3:34 pm

It is great to hear from the number two girls and I hope that you are all keeping well.

Just a few personals cos I am trying to get some work finished....usual story!

Melo_P - great to hear from you and I will be praying for a bfp on Monday ......I have been snooping on another thread and I think your beta is monday?? loads and loads of baby dust all the way from ireland to new zealand!

Julesg - Hello and welcome to the number two thread. Lots of prayers for you too and a bfp. the 2ww is such a time of up and down.. During my 2ww I go from thinking that I am pregnant to I am not pregnant to I am pregnant with twins every 5 seconds of the day, it is so hard to switch off.

Alreadyblessed - huge congrats on your baby boy. You are truly blessed and I hope that you are keeping well.

Yellow ....Hi and I hope you are enjoying your break. I am taking a break from it all too. I have a consult tomorrow and we are going to take things from there.

Hugs to all.

julesg · Post by **julesg** » Thu Nov 13, 2008 7:29 am

Hi joyanna

It is hard to switch off I thought it would be easy with having DD about and in some ways it is but it is tough I forgot that!!

Hope it inspires people though that it does work

Melo_P · Post by **Melo_P** » Thu Nov 13, 2008 7:44 am

JulesQ - I think I kind of remember your name from when I was trying for no. 1 the first time around. You are a little ahead of me - but I think your successful cycle was the same time as my first BFN. Good luck with the test - when is your beta? How many did you transfer? First try again for number two? Okay enough questions from me!!

Already Blessed - thats great! Three little wonders. Who knows maybe there are more miracles for me in the future – I always thought I wanted a huge family with 4 or 5 kids!! Obviously downsized my expectations somewhat - err after about 5 years of trying for just the one!

Joyanna - thanks for the good wishes. Keep everything crossed for me!!

Arrggghhh this 2ww an absolute killer. Yes I am relating to the 5 second switch. I have been cheated out of the twin fantasy variation through - as stinky doctors insisted on only putting back one (ggrrrrrrrrrr).

I was for the first time in any 2ww actually feeling a lot of PMA at the start and like I just knew it was fate that it was going to work – but now I am starting to get AF pains - and am really just TERRIFIED that I have totallly been kidding myself. I can't explain how truly desperately I want this to work now. I just don't feel like I can even wait any longer or go through any more treatment! I have really been going on and off since Feb this year - but for a good 9 months before that was going to the clinic and starting to think about trying - so it does just seem a little endless. Sorry am rambling. Just so so so so so want this to work. For the first time ever I have actually managed to go 10 whole days without obsessing it might not work (which is my usual mantra) but now I am really getting a little paniced by these awful AF feelings. Please go away AF cramps

pleaaaaaaassssssseeeee let me be pg with my little baby. I hope so bad that your snuggled in there tight.

julesg · Post by **julesg** » Thu Nov 13, 2008 11:04 am

I melo

Don't know my beta because we don't really do that in the UK

Had two put back not aloud more than that in the UK (except under special circumstances)

I am trying to have PMA but it is starting to fade the closer I get to wednesday morning

alreadyblessed · Post by **alreadyblessed** » Thu Nov 13, 2008 4:08 pm

Hi ladies!
hope you are all doing well.
Melo~ Hang in there! the 2ww is almost over. I think that was the hardest part for me. I actually went out and got a puppy to keep me occupied.It worked, but he is now no longer a puppy and is driving me nuts!

He is cute though. I felt like AF was approaching~ the bloating, the cramping, even some spotting.........and she never came. Hang on, and try to stay busy over the weekend. Monday will be here before you know it. Don't give up hope for a lg family either. With IVF alot of people have multiples. You may wind up with twins if that one egg splits!

I will be praying for you! Good luck!!!!
julesg~ Good luck on your test! Since they do not do betas in the UK how do they track your progress early on? Do they just follow you by sono? It's so interesting to see how different countries and cultures deal with proceedures.
zoegirl~ I know what you mean about the anxiety with going for another child. I too was on meds. Thankfully it was a low dose, but about a month after I went off, and then added all the fertility drugs, I was a nervous wreck. Same things as you... money, pregnancy worries...you name it. Thankfuly by the grace of God I did get pregnant, and I am constantly worrying about "what if I get sick, what if I trip and fall, what if a meteor falls on me" Well, not that extreme, but you get my drift. IVF is hard from beginning to end. I think we have the added pressure because it is so hard for us to get pregnant, that if we do, we want to wrap ourselves in bubble wrap until the delivery. Stay strong. Your are not alone in your fears.
joyanna~ How have you been? I am hoping you are doing well,and that you start to feel like a million bucks! I know you have had a rough ride. It is your time to shine. I wish you and DH all the luck in the world!

Yellow · Post by **Yellow** » Fri Nov 14, 2008 4:45 am

I remember how much I love reading these posts! It is so fabulous to have you girls who are going through something so similar.

A good friend of mine just told me she's pregnant. She'd been trying for a year, but got pregnant naturally. She said something about there being forces wanting her to do this the natural way. I know she didn't mean anything, but it still kind of hurt -- like these "forces" don't want me -- don't want us -- to do this the usual way. I know I'm being sensitive, but anyway...

Melo -- I'm sending you all the positive thoughts I can muster! I hope Monday brings a dream come true.

Alreadyblessed -- thanks for bringing good news. I've been feeling kind of discouraged -- starting to chear up. It is good to hear about others successes.

JulesG -- nice to meet you

. Here's sending you baby vibes!

Joyanna -- how did the consult go? I'm a little jealous. We won't start again until the spring. Even a consult would feel like things were moving. Let me know what you learned.

Hugs.

Melo_P · Post by **Melo_P** » Sun Nov 16, 2008 9:53 am

Hi All
Just pushing this thread back up.

Yellow - I caught your thread on another post - are you planning on trying again soon?

Jules not so long to go now.

I have avoided the forum all weekend. Felt terrible but now just resigned to what I know is going to be a BFN. Have taken two HTP's - on day 12 and 13 both the ultra sensitive kind which detect from day 10. Both negative. Wish I didn't have to to through the beta tomorrow.

Just feels like so much work and hope to get to this point - and then see it all go down the tubes with nothing to show for it. My DH is not very supportive at all - so just feel like am going through all of this alone. Wish I had a big shoulder to cry on and something to wrap me up in marshmellows for a bit and help me forget about the whole thing.

Will post result tomorrow - but I know my chances of a total miracle at this point are slim.

M

Anyone else trying for #2...

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