Hello everyone. I've migrated from the parents board back to fertility board. I am happy to say I am the mother of 2 twin boys using donor eggs. We had to resort to donor eggs because my first daughter died from a maternally inherited genetic disorder that we learned about after her passing.
We are now being told that perhaps the mutation was new in my daughter an would not repeat itself. So, we are considering a round in the future with my eggs. I froze 6 embies when I was 39 (was bummed I didn't get more back then because I had 18 follicles, 8 eggs and 6 fertilized).
Well, now I'm turning 42 this week and am frightened to learn that my egg reserve is virtually non-existent. I just did another round (to get as many eggs banked as possible). I had 9 follicles, only 7 eggs and only 3 fertilized! I was totally freaked as I thought at least 5 or 6 would fertilize (We did ICSI too) given a great history of fertilization. DH is young with SUPER sperm so I know it is me.
Here is my question, anyone go through a couple of cycles at my age and have significantly better results in one cycle over another? I only have 3 of these embies and question whether they are even good quality (we froze them at day 2). I have never had a fertility issue (my concerns have always been genetic) UNTIL NOW and I think I am having a really tough time facing the reality of my age. I'm beginning to feel very inadequate/ancient, etc.
I hope I am not sounding insensitive given that we have just been blessed with TWO beautiful boys. My heart is still set on the possibility of having one that is genetically mine and hopefully another little girl.