ANY MARCH 2009 BABIES.

[Literatriz]

Hi Sonu and all
Today is Thanksgiving and we are leaving with this enormous turkey DH baked for more than 14 hours to a good friend's house. Before leaving, my heart brought me to this panel, because I read the news about terrorist attacks in Bangor. How far would be my dear Sonu and her family from all that tragedy? There is no distance for terror - we all suffer with it's wounds but Sonu is right there!!!!
I hope you find support and calm in the midst of the storm to keep going with your pregnancy. My impression is that the attack is not going to de-estabilize the country so things will calm down a bit. Scary to think that we will raise children of tolerance in a world of hateful fundamentalist - from all kinds. But I am praying that love and kindness will prevail - it was much worse a thousand years ago.
I Unity, embracing Sonu, her child and her Dh, Literatriz

[babyloves]

Hi ladies!
Thanks for checking on me and my new job. I"m doing well - thank God, and i'm glad that at least its a desk job and i can sit for 8 hours a day with trips to the bathroom and cafeteria...the only thing is that since i have twins, i'm more likely to get cervical shortening and do get some discharge....i'm supposed to watch this as more discharge can be a sign of shortening. Sometimes with stress, i feel like i get more discharge, but it might be psychological...

i'm just expecting that bed rest might be coming as the peri already told me no exercise (not even prenatal yoga) even tho' my cervix is fine..

my scan last week went wonderfully...it had been soooo long since we saw them and we're definitely having 2 little girls!!! we're ecstatic!! they'll make the best of friends (hopefully)...we actually painted the nursey a peach color and put a nice border across the top of orange, pink, and peach butterfiles...we'll have espresso furniture so it won't be so bright later on

Anyway...glad you're all doing well. We definitely are sooo blessed to be here with our big pg bellies and babies tumbling around in there (whether we feel them yet or not)

sonu: first of all, i hope you and ur family will be just fine during this turmoil in mumbai...please try to relax as much as you can...i think 1 cup of coffee is fine...i try to drink not more that 1 cup of a caffeinated beverage per day but usually a green or black tea. Is that a 3-D scan picture you have there...its really cute! oh yeah..i wouldn't worry about ur baby's position until you're in labor...they move around so much that you can't predict it until time comes...and you can have a breech presentation without having to go to C-section. i wouldn't mind a c-section either just cuz its easier to think of that vaginal births...but whatever it is - healthy is all that counts!!

alreadyblessed: i loved ur u/s noodle tale! its so funny that ur little boy is proud of his equipment! i think we're in the same boat with the sex issue..but i must say i haven't lost it...in fact the babies are making me more horney...DH doesn't share this tho' - so i don't deprieve myself but then feel really guilty afterwards like i disturbed the uterine rhythm or something...you mentioned that you felt a gym routine in there with ur earlier pgs - when did u feel this? i don't feel them every day, but i think i've felt hiccups once and movement occas. They're small 12 oz - so my peri thinks its still early.

esperanza: wow, camping - that's courageous...where did u go? i'm balancing ok with the job...DH is back in the kitchen helping me out which i kinda like...before it was like i was a little maid in the kitchen...its actually illegal to fire a pg women for just being pg...unless the pg brain is causing the firing which would be kinda sad...i definitely have some memory issues these days, and around 2 pm after lunch i could use a sofa in my office!! i also have a 2 hr commute each day like can be really tiring

washingtonDA: congrats on ur baby girl - she's really cute..we can't wait to be able to have all those moments...the first bath, halloween outfits, and cuddling

literatriz: congrats on ur 3 little girls!!! i'm having 2 so i can relate...how do you get strollers with trips? hope you guys have a big car! - enjoy ur big turkey!

Happy thanksgiving to all!
Annie - hope you're doing okay, just know we're all thinking of you...

[alreadyblessed]

first and foremost....HAPPY THANKSGIVING LADIES!!!!!

Sonu~ I loved your Thanksgiving post and prayer....I couldn't have said it better myself, and I read it over several times. Today as I sat around the table with my family, I had so many things to be thankful for, and yet I found myself so meloncoly thinking about missing my grandmother who was just an absolute joy to be around. With this, my 9 yr old daughter stands up and says grace. It was beautiful and she ended by saying that she knows that great grandma and pop pop were also having a feast in heaven and they were sitting at a golden table with golden chairs and they were smiling. I really felt that God put those words on my daughters lips to take the heaviness off my heart. It was a wonderful moment. I am so glad to hear also that you did not have any family or friends involved in the recent tragedy in your country. Such senslessness, and such sadness. I can only relate to it by comparing 9-11, as my husband works for the police dept. and I was working for the fire dept. at the time, so we spent many hours down at ground zero, and it was truly surreal. You couldn't wrap your head around the enormity and sadness of it.

Baby loves~about the whole sex issue, I know what you mean...there are days where the thought of sex repulses me, and then there are these days I wake up like I'm on my honeymoon. If DH isn't in the mood I just reach for my AA batteries and thank the Lord for novelty stores. I mean we're pregnant, not dead. I do feel strange sometimes like my son is in there thinking ok mom, get a grip on yourself. I actually remember feeling very strong movement around 24 or 25 weeks to the point where DH could feel it from the outside. I am realizing that each pregnancy is so different though, and so you can never really tell what will be. Last night I was laying on the couch and he gave me a kung-fu kick a few times. DH put his hand there, and then he was quiet. Since then no more big time kicks. You are having twins and I can't wait to start getting the posts from you because between you and Literatriz there are 10 legs and arms that will be a flailing. Oh I just wanted to say that I know what you mean about the discharge, and it being psychological. After my month of hemmorhaging, I find there are times that I have that whitish discharge, or I laugh and my bladder gives way a little, but I find myself constantly checking and holding my breath to make sure it's not the bleeding again. The mind is very powerful. Try to stay positive. You are entering the home stretch!

Lit~ good to hear from you. WOW 3 girls!!!!!!! Is your husband shopping for large locks for the front door yet?! I must say that my husband is thrilled to be having the boy, but watching him with my girls is priceless. I truly fall in love with him all over again when I watch him play with them and he doesn't know I'm sneaking a peak. He is also so protective and worries about them, and it is so beautiful. Your DH will have this three fold. How amazing for the both of you! God Bless! What country are you from? So sorry (baby brain). Traditionally DH do not place gifts at the door after a baby is born. They usually purchase something for their wife, and others send the usual balloons and flowers to the hospital room. I figure with you delivering 3 all at once, that your DH will be filling the entire doorway with handicrafts and your visitors will have to enter through the window.

Amy~ God Bless...Happy Thanksgiving. Still praying and thinking of you.

As the time goes by I am realizing that I have the only fetus with "the noodle". That is until sonu delivers and we find out who is in there. All I can say is that my little boy is going to have a lot of girlfriends that he doesn't even know about. I must be honest. I went to babies r us the other day to look for "boys bedding", and I found some really cute things. Truth be told.......little girls clothes are so much cuter than little boys. You guys are going to love shopping for your girls. Both of mine were all dressed up today for the holiday and they were so precious. But for me, the time has come for bugs, baseballs, and barber shops. I look forward to the new experience, but I will miss the pony tails and mary jane shoes. Have a wonderful holiday weekend ladies. Stay well. God bless.

[AMAZU]

Hi ladies,
Happy thanksgiving to everybody! I am sorry to not be able to keep updating you as we were going through a lot. After being on some antibiotics, my fever was controlled and my cerclage was doing quite well. My bleeding had also decreased. The drs were talking abt sending me home on last sat but I had again started bleeding heavily and they had to keep me as my fluid sac was quite low suddenly. Then suddenly from that night I started having contraction. Then on 11/24, my contraction got bad and around midnight my water broke and on 11/25, my daughter had to be delivered stillborn. Our journey has ended in 22 week. The dr had told us that even if we could hold till 24th week, we had chances of getting a live baby but God seem to have other plans. Now we have no energy or money to try again. My placenta seem to be abrupted everytime and they suspect some infection for which I will have to be treated. So goodluck and goodbye to everybody. I wish you all a healthy 9 months pregnancy and enjoy your motherhood.

[sonu911]

My dear Annie

My heart goes out for you. Its very very sad!!!

I am so sorry. I was expecting a different outcome.

Sending you cyber hugs...

[alreadyblessed]

Annie,
I don't even know if you are going to be seeing this message as I am sure that checking this board is difficult. I just wanted to say that I just read your post and I have been sitting in front of my computer crying for the past 10 minutes. I am so sorry for your loss. I don't even know what to say. I have truly built such a connection to all of you ladies on this thread. I mean we share details about our insides, outsides, emotions, families, hardships, milestones...... And then when something goes wrong with one of us it feels like a member of the family has had a great loss. I know that Gods will is always done, and that we have to hold strong to our faith that he knows what is best. It is so difficult to understand at a time like this, and I send all the comfort and peace that God can offer to Annie and her family. May he hold your little angel in the palm of his hand and take the heaviness off your heart.

God bless all of you ladies. Annies sad sad story needs to be a reminder that this journey is truly a miracle from the very beginning to the very end. I pray that we will all go on to deliver healthy babies and that all those ladies on this site that cannot get pregnant, will in some way know the wonder of loving a child as a parent does,whether through surrogacy, adoption or a way that fills their heart. God bless all of us.

[esperanza]

Annie, my dear...I have no words, other than I'm SO terribly sorry

My heart goes out to you and dh, I can't even imagine how hard this might be for you two MyDH is very sad as well, just this morning I was telling him that I had not heard anything from you and that I was concerned.

Take your time to grief and heal. Sending you lots of love and many, many hugs. I wish I were closer to give you a hug and cook you a soup to warm up your soul.

Your little angel was in this world for a very short period of time, but you and her did wonders together. We will never forget that you were the one who started this thread and brought us all together. HUGS.

[esperanza]

Hi Sonu--my dear, I meant to say before how sorry I am for what's going on in India right now. I certainly hope you can find the space to relax and think positively in this moment of crisis. As Literatriz said, this of course affects everyone, but being so closed to it must be even more terrifying.

I certainly hope that our children get to be part of a huge peace movement where people finally realize that we're all interconnected and that there are many other ways to address differences. Luv all around.

[Literatriz]

Dear all,
I can't write about anything today but the painful loss Amazu shared with us, still wishing us a nice pregnancy and a Happy Thanksgiving. Much probably she is no longer connected with our thread or any thread, able only to grief and cry the unfulfilled wait. Some of her sadness is with us today.
I think we were given the chance to choose paths and change destinies only because we were created to live in a undetermined Universe. Chances are...and at some point of our lives we are surprised by the incredible generosity of the odds, while some other times we are crushed under the implacable end of our hopes. It is very, very hard to regain strength and get ready again to find reasons to continue searching for Joy. Having compassion for each other, united by our human condition of undetermined beings may ease the suffering.
I am with Amazu in her sadness today. I think we all are. I hope she will feel less lonely in a couple of days.
Sadly,
Literatriz

[babyloves]

Dear Annie,
I'm extremely sorry for you, DH, and your families. This type of advanced loss is probably the worst thing to be going thru in this roller coaster journey and takes tremendous courage to get beyond. I was really hoping you were making it thru and were in a nice recovery period, but as you said, God had other plans. We will never know why He does what He does, but your angel is in His hands. Again, I'm deeply sorry for your loss. I wish you well, my friend.

[esperanza]

Hi friends,

How are you all doing? I know it's been hard after Amy's loss...I'm still sad about it AND I would also love to hear about how you are all doing.

Sending lots of love all around.

[alreadyblessed]

Hello all,
I had some trouble with my phone line and so I had no computer for the past several days. You don't realize how much you miss it when you cannot use it. I feel the same way that you do esperanza, I am still reeling from Amazus news, and thinking about her constantly. I can't imagine how hard it would be to lose a pregnancy at this stage of the game. I am feeling more and more movement from my little guy as the days go by, and I am anxiously awaiting the holidays, as Christmas is my favorite of them all. My DH makes a good point in saying that the time will move so quickly during the holidays, and then we will blink and it will be January.
I have a little while until my next doctors appt (Dec 19th, which is also my 38th birthday) . Because of all the problems I had with bleeding in the beginning, I am not used to having 3 weeks in between visits. Seems like forever. All in all, I am feeling well though. The only new and very annoying thing seems to be the changes in my skin. I had patches of dry spots on my leg with both my pregnancies, and with this one, I have developed excema on my R arm, R boob, and now the middle of my back. It is sooooo annoying. The doc told me to take a cold shower (fun fun). Anyone else having any ailments? Hope you are all feeling well. Sending out another prayer for Amazu and her family.

[jennywit]

Esperanza, I too am just heartsick about annies horrible news. I wasn't even sure how to reply, although I wanted too. It's just that I know that no words from us can heal her pain right now, only time. I still follow everyones updates regularly, it seems that we are all at a great more relaxing phase like this is really going to happen for us. Exciting and scary all at the same time. I am just so cautious, so it is so hard to enjoy this pregnancy. Well wishes to all of the ladies!!!

[esperanza]

Hi friends,

Jennywitt--good to hear from you! I know what you mean about "it's hard to enjoy this pregancy." I have moments of absolute joy, and then, I get this feeling of fear that something is not right in there I look at little things like "is my belly really growing?" "why isn't she moving right now?" I don't tell this to other people, but the reality is that the trauma of loosing a baby before and having trouble to conceive is still there. I will be so anxious during labor, just because I'll be waiting for that first cry and for my midwife to tell me that the baby is absolutely healthy. I hope everything is going well with you and your precious one

alreadyblessed How are you my dear? your b-day is coming up...nice! and you will have a great present, knowing that your baby boy is doing great. It's interesting how that is more important to me right now than anything else. For me it's like "I just want to know my baby is doing great" ...everything else can wait OR I can easily deal with.
About ailments, I don't have any major thing going on. I do get heartburn, but it's not severe, although it's really uncomfortable when it comes The other day I must have had been making a funny face during a heartburn episode because dh looked at me quite concerned asking "are you ok? what's wrong?"...I was like "oh, you can see it, ha?"
I also have a lot of gas specially after 6PM. It's uncomfortable AND embarrassing. Oh, my breathing has changed, I get short breath when going up the stairs, and I'm breathing harder in general, specially when lying down. My nose gets stuffy all the time. Lovely! hehehehehe. I try not to complaint because I know it's due to the pregnancy. Is there anything you can do for your skin condition?

Sending lots of love to everyone else. I miss you!

[alreadyblessed]

Hi esperanza!
Good to hear from you. Although I don't suffer from terrible heartburn and gas at the moment, I did have both during my last 2 pregnancies, so I am awaiting it for this one as well. I had the stuffy nose for the past 3 months, and it has finally lightened up a bit, and I do suffer from the shortness of breath thing. Sometimes I get up to get the phone and when I answer the person will say "what sre you doing? It sounds like you are running around?" to which I reply, "I got up to get the phone."

I remember it getting worse towards the end, so I am prepared. As far as treating the excema, for now the doc told me to take a cold shower. FUN If the cold will help, I am considering moving into the garage as it was 30 degrees here yesterday My poor daughter. Everytime she walks in the room I'm like "Samantha can you scratch mommies back". She does, but she's always like "AGAIN?".

I was thinking that it would be nice to share our names with eachother. We have all been through so much, I think it would make it more personal if you are all comfortable with that.
Hope you are all doing well. Prayers and love to AMAZU and her family.
alreadyblessed/ Donna.