hey ladies - well, it was BFN... it was what i was expecting but a part of me had hope and that part is pretty disappointed. i knew as soon as i picked up the phone as it was the doctor rather than a nurse - sort of like getting a cancer diagnosis, right? the doctor does it otherwise the nurse calls to say, everything is fine.
DH was with me and i got to see how disappointed he was - his face just sank. well, as sad as i am there is some relief in finally having the closure that i've prayed for for 4 years. i am crazy disappointed though - sigh...
we will now be done with all this fertility business, get better hobbies, take tropical vacations and be a better uncle and aunt and godparents.
calling my mom was the hardest - she was super, super disappointed. she didn't fall apart or anything but this was her one chance a having a grandkid and she was beyond excited.
DH is going to take me out to have the largest margarita i can find - i will drink in honor of all of you!
Thanks so much for all the support and good wishes y'all have showered me with these past few weeks. i really think that it would have been so much harder without you all. before i joined this thread i'd never posted a message on any board anywhere and had no idea how to even do it. and now i feel a strong bond with all of you and i feel this board has enriched my life. it made a really difficult situation bearable and sometimes humorous. you lifted me up when i needed lifting and there is no price you can put on that. y'all helped me so much and for that i will always be grateful.
i'm stopping all the drugs and have nothing useful more to post but i will be checking back as i want to find out how the story unfolds for the rest of you.
much appreciation and love and may baby dust clouds envelop you.
OCT / NOV / DEC 2008 Buddies
Hey guys --
Bouncing in again with my update.
I got a BFP when I poas at 13 DPO. Very faint.
So had my beta bumped up to 14 DPO -- 34 I was crushed as it was so low. I am also bleeding brown and passing icky thready brown stuff and occasionally some orange/red bleeding/.
Just got my beta for today (16 DPO) -- 96.
So at least is going up. Does this seem super low? Anyone else have bleeding with stringy clots. I am really worried! I mean excited about BFP, but worried it will not stick!
Bouncing in again with my update.
I got a BFP when I poas at 13 DPO. Very faint.
So had my beta bumped up to 14 DPO -- 34 I was crushed as it was so low. I am also bleeding brown and passing icky thready brown stuff and occasionally some orange/red bleeding/.
Just got my beta for today (16 DPO) -- 96.
So at least is going up. Does this seem super low? Anyone else have bleeding with stringy clots. I am really worried! I mean excited about BFP, but worried it will not stick!
Me: 44 severely reduced reserve
DH: 44 perfect
IVF 1: Feb 08 -BFP twins (lost one at 7 weeks, one at 13 weeks)
IVF 2: June 08 -BFN
IVF 3: September 08 -BFN
IVF 4: November 08 - Katherine Emma born 8/9/2009
DH: 44 perfect
IVF 1: Feb 08 -BFP twins (lost one at 7 weeks, one at 13 weeks)
IVF 2: June 08 -BFN
IVF 3: September 08 -BFN
IVF 4: November 08 - Katherine Emma born 8/9/2009
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karenvancouverisland
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hi pixelgirl. i'm so sorry for your negative result... wish i could hug you right now. i know the grief will come and go. and we will be here for you when you need us.
lynnie- i think you're doing ok. congratulations! although i get your hesitation...but it more than doubled in 2 days! that's what is good. i know that having it over 100 is so reassuring at the beginning. what's your plan for more betas? if you don't have lots more- get them in place...see whatever dr. will get you the bloodwork (that's what i'd do)
i haven't experienced that kind of discharge, but that doesn't mean that it's good/bad or other.. i didn't have that last BFP and i ended up m/c.. so who knows. but get those beta's as they'll be reassuring.
hi to everyone else..karen
lynnie- i think you're doing ok. congratulations! although i get your hesitation...but it more than doubled in 2 days! that's what is good. i know that having it over 100 is so reassuring at the beginning. what's your plan for more betas? if you don't have lots more- get them in place...see whatever dr. will get you the bloodwork (that's what i'd do)
i haven't experienced that kind of discharge, but that doesn't mean that it's good/bad or other.. i didn't have that last BFP and i ended up m/c.. so who knows. but get those beta's as they'll be reassuring.
hi to everyone else..karen
38 yrs. DOR, TTC since '04, recommended DE but didn't listen
3 IVF's & 1 FET: 1 cancellation, 1 m/c @ 12 wks, 1 chemical, 1 miracle boy & miracle 'natural' PG right now while waiting to cycle (WTF?)
feb 21 hb 154
3 IVF's & 1 FET: 1 cancellation, 1 m/c @ 12 wks, 1 chemical, 1 miracle boy & miracle 'natural' PG right now while waiting to cycle (WTF?)
feb 21 hb 154
Pixel I'm sorry it was a BFN I know you must be disappointed, but i'm also pleased you are able to move on and plan your life with DH and that you are able to find peace with this.
I can see you are a stong and positive person who obviously has a zest for life and i'm certian you will find comfort and pleaseure in all the things you will be doing with DH together over the years. I would love you to stick around if you feel thats right for you (we are all different, i wanted to hide for weeks after my BFN) as we do all share a bond through this journey. Its such a unique experience....
Enjoy your margarita!!!! Sending you ((((hugs))))
Lynniecat Good to hear from you..... Congrats on the positive result!!!! I understand your concern over the low beta, but as you have seen yourself MANY times, so many people start off low, and as long as you double and keep going up everything will be fine. Maybe you had a later implantation??? Seems a likely explanation. ve seen much lower betas, and by the third, the numbers just take off!!!!
COngrats and keep us posted X
I know you must be disappointed, but i'm also pleased you are able to move on and plan your life with DH and that you are able to find peace with this.I can see you are a stong and positive person who obviously has a zest for life and i'm certian you will find comfort and pleaseure in all the things you will be doing with DH together over the years. I would love you to stick around if you feel thats right for you (we are all different, i wanted to hide for weeks after my BFN) as we do all share a bond through this journey. Its such a unique experience....
Enjoy your margarita!!!! Sending you ((((hugs))))
Lynniecat Good to hear from you..... Congrats on the positive result!!!! I understand your concern over the low beta, but as you have seen yourself MANY times, so many people start off low, and as long as you double and keep going up everything will be fine. Maybe you had a later implantation??? Seems a likely explanation. ve seen much lower betas, and by the third, the numbers just take off!!!!
COngrats and keep us posted X
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pixiegirl I am so very sorry to hear about your BFN. I haven't experienced one personally but I could only imagine how you must feel. I agree with the other ladies, you definitely seem to be so strong! I pray that you and your family will get through this ok and I can understand that y'all don't have any intentions to try this again at this point. However, if you should ever try again, I pray that you get your blessing and if not, I hope that you find peace in everything else. We so appreciated your positive feedback and words of encouragement during your time on the thread. I wish you all the best in all that you do and stay strong.
Hi lynniecat I'm happy to see that you got a BFP and that your beta is rising. I have never experienced any spotting or bleeding but I wish you the best and I pray that those numbers continue to rise!
Good luck to all of the ladies that are having their u/s tomorrow and to anyone who may be having their beta, ER or ET.
Hi lynniecat I'm happy to see that you got a BFP and that your beta is rising. I have never experienced any spotting or bleeding but I wish you the best and I pray that those numbers continue to rise!
Good luck to all of the ladies that are having their u/s tomorrow and to anyone who may be having their beta, ER or ET.
Pixel, Sorry for your news and I wish you best in your life.
I have a question from you ladies who already have your U/S. For the heart beat do we do vaginal u/s or it will be from outside?
I have a question from you ladies who already have your U/S. For the heart beat do we do vaginal u/s or it will be from outside?
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DH-34(LOW MORPHOLOGY)
1st IUI -12/07 BFN
2nd IUI-4/08 BFN
1st IVF-July 2008 BFN So hard :0
2nd IVF-Nov 2008 BFP Beta 167 (Twins!!!!!!!!! )Thank you God
DH-34(LOW MORPHOLOGY)
1st IUI -12/07 BFN
2nd IUI-4/08 BFN
1st IVF-July 2008 BFN So hard :0
2nd IVF-Nov 2008 BFP Beta 167 (Twins!!!!!!!!! )Thank you God
Pixelgirl - I'm so sorry for your dissappointment. It sounds like you have wonderful plans to enrich your life in other ways. My heart goes out to you at this time.
Lynniecat - Make sure you discuss that bleeding with your RE. I had some spotting and I just tried to blow it off, then my clinic mistakenly scheduled me for an u/s too early. It worked out for the best though because I told the RE about the spotting and he could actually see it on u/s. At that time he could see that I was going to get a little more spotting - so when it did happen, I expected it. I have never had the stringy stuff, but talk to the doc just to put you mind at ease. I'm sure everything is just fine in there!
The 2ww until my 6w2day u/s is going to kill me! I have an u/s next wed, but at that time we will only be able to see the sac. My nerves are shot about the one after that.........heartbeat.
Lynniecat - Make sure you discuss that bleeding with your RE. I had some spotting and I just tried to blow it off, then my clinic mistakenly scheduled me for an u/s too early. It worked out for the best though because I told the RE about the spotting and he could actually see it on u/s. At that time he could see that I was going to get a little more spotting - so when it did happen, I expected it. I have never had the stringy stuff, but talk to the doc just to put you mind at ease. I'm sure everything is just fine in there!
The 2ww until my 6w2day u/s is going to kill me! I have an u/s next wed, but at that time we will only be able to see the sac. My nerves are shot about the one after that.........heartbeat.
me 38 dh 36
mc twins 20wks 2000, ectopic 4/2005
1st ivf May 2008 cancelled before ET
2nd ivf/icsi BFP, mc, D&C 9/8/08
3rd ivf/icsi, BFP, mc, D&C 1/5/09
4th ivf DE, BFP!
mc twins 20wks 2000, ectopic 4/2005
1st ivf May 2008 cancelled before ET
2nd ivf/icsi BFP, mc, D&C 9/8/08
3rd ivf/icsi, BFP, mc, D&C 1/5/09
4th ivf DE, BFP!
Hi girls, I'm new to all of this and not really sure how it works.
Anyway I'm on my second attempt of IVF, the first attempt they transfered 2 eggs at 3 days which resulted in a BFN.
Had the news this morning that they are going to do a 5 day transfer on sunday.
I wondered if anyone had any expierience of a blast transfer?
Anyway I'm on my second attempt of IVF, the first attempt they transfered 2 eggs at 3 days which resulted in a BFN.
Had the news this morning that they are going to do a 5 day transfer on sunday.
I wondered if anyone had any expierience of a blast transfer?
noo noo i had a five day transfer with them putting 2 back in and i am 6 weeks preg with twins. i have always heard 5 day transfers are better.
also mary... when they do ultra sounds for the heart beat they are vaginal. i also have a question is any one on vitamins and when did the doc put you on them if so when?
also mary... when they do ultra sounds for the heart beat they are vaginal. i also have a question is any one on vitamins and when did the doc put you on them if so when?
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to_have_fun08
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Pixelgirl- So sorry about your BFN. Hope you enjoyed your big margarita. Now lif can be a little less stressful since you have closure. Like you I also have a plan that if this doesn't work after my 4th cycle I am done. Just takes me a lot longer to get there since I keep on getting canceled. Wishing you and your DH the best of luck in whatever you decide to do in the future. Have fun on your tropical vacations. Its been great getting to know ya through the board.
I will post more later, just had to check on Pixel. I overslept this morning. Something I never do and I don't even use an alarm. I was up during the middle of the night stressing over all this IVF crap. So I have to get my ducks in a row at work and then I will come back and post.
Happy Friday!!!
Chris
I will post more later, just had to check on Pixel. I overslept this morning. Something I never do and I don't even use an alarm. I was up during the middle of the night stressing over all this IVF crap. So I have to get my ducks in a row at work and then I will come back and post.
Happy Friday!!!
Chris
Chris 40- DH 41
6 IVFs Cycles - BFN's
DE Cycle 2/2011 -BFP Jacob born 11/11/11
FET 7/2012 - BFP - Kaylee due 4/3/13
6 IVFs Cycles - BFN's
DE Cycle 2/2011 -BFP Jacob born 11/11/11
FET 7/2012 - BFP - Kaylee due 4/3/13
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foreverlove
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Good Morning Ladies - TGIF
Pixelgirl - I am so sorry about your news - you are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you can get thru this the best you can with you DH.
KAS101 - how are you doing so far in this tww??? It hasn't been too bad for me yet as I have been super busy this week and at night I have just been sitting on the couch watching tv and falling asleep
This weekend is super busy for me so that will basically get me thru the first week - I cant believe a week from Tue we will find out if we are BFP!
KKE - about the vitamins, my doctor has had me on prenatal vitamins since a month or two before I started the Lupron. You may want to ask the doctor if you are not taking anything at this time.
Noo Noo - I had a 5 day just Tue - but this is my first IVF so I dont know much about how it is beneficial or not.
Pixelgirl - I am so sorry about your news - you are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you can get thru this the best you can with you DH.
KAS101 - how are you doing so far in this tww??? It hasn't been too bad for me yet as I have been super busy this week and at night I have just been sitting on the couch watching tv and falling asleep
This weekend is super busy for me so that will basically get me thru the first week - I cant believe a week from Tue we will find out if we are BFP!KKE - about the vitamins, my doctor has had me on prenatal vitamins since a month or two before I started the Lupron. You may want to ask the doctor if you are not taking anything at this time.
Noo Noo - I had a 5 day just Tue - but this is my first IVF so I dont know much about how it is beneficial or not.
Mary
12/23 beta 231 - YEAH BFP! 12/30 beta 2,273
Due Date: August 31, 2009
Lillian Born: August 13, 2009
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12/23 beta 231 - YEAH BFP! 12/30 beta 2,273
Due Date: August 31, 2009
Lillian Born: August 13, 2009
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Hi girls,
I'm sorry to report that I have to leave this forum. We had our next u/s this morning and there was no heartbeat and our little bean hadn't grown enough. It seems like I m/c about 3 days ago which is the day I was really not feeling well at all. I sent DH off to work although I'm not sure it was a good idea since now I am home to cry alone. My Mom is going to come over this afternoon. I don't know how to handle this. Any advice?
-Robin
I'm sorry to report that I have to leave this forum. We had our next u/s this morning and there was no heartbeat and our little bean hadn't grown enough. It seems like I m/c about 3 days ago which is the day I was really not feeling well at all. I sent DH off to work although I'm not sure it was a good idea since now I am home to cry alone. My Mom is going to come over this afternoon. I don't know how to handle this. Any advice?
-Robin
me 38: no problems
dh 43: low motility, morphology
IVF #1 (Nov 08 ): BFP! - 2 xfer'd, 4 cyro. Ended in M/C at 8 weeks.
FET #1 (Mar 09): BFN - 2 xfer'd, 2 left.
dh 43: low motility, morphology
IVF #1 (Nov 08 ): BFP! - 2 xfer'd, 4 cyro. Ended in M/C at 8 weeks.
FET #1 (Mar 09): BFN - 2 xfer'd, 2 left.
Pixelgirl, I'm so sorry you didn't get your BFP. I wish you and your DH the very best with your next step which sounds like putting this behind you and moving on with your life. The mission to try and get pregnant can consume our lives sometimes but it sounds like you made a decision way ahead of time and were prepared for either outcome. Though I'm sure you are still disappointed, it also seems like you've got plans to do some wonderful things and be a great aunt, uncle and godparents. Good luck to you and have fun on those tropical vacations.
Lynniecat, I agree with some others that I would certainly call your RE to check into this further. Your #'s doubled which is great, so I'm sure there is no problem there. But it might be helpful and reasssuring to get your doctor's input.
JDC hang in there. I know the waiting is brutal but you'll be just fine. It's definitely hard this early when you may not be having many if any symptoms. Only 5 more days and you're another step closer to reassurance.
Welcome noonoo! I don't have any experience with 5-day blast transfers. My RE didn't think mine would make it that long so we did 3 at day 3 transfer. Good luck to you on Sunday!
Chris, I love all of your cute graphics. What happened at your new RE appt?
Robin, I'm so sorry for your loss and pain. I'm hoping some of the other friends on here can offer you some advice who have gone through this before. I hope being with your mom this afternoon and being surrounded by your loved ones will see you through this difficult time. Please take care of yourself.
Lynniecat, I agree with some others that I would certainly call your RE to check into this further. Your #'s doubled which is great, so I'm sure there is no problem there. But it might be helpful and reasssuring to get your doctor's input.
JDC hang in there. I know the waiting is brutal but you'll be just fine. It's definitely hard this early when you may not be having many if any symptoms. Only 5 more days and you're another step closer to reassurance.
Welcome noonoo! I don't have any experience with 5-day blast transfers. My RE didn't think mine would make it that long so we did 3 at day 3 transfer. Good luck to you on Sunday!
Chris, I love all of your cute graphics. What happened at your new RE appt?
Robin, I'm so sorry for your loss and pain. I'm hoping some of the other friends on here can offer you some advice who have gone through this before. I hope being with your mom this afternoon and being surrounded by your loved ones will see you through this difficult time. Please take care of yourself.
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to_have_fun08
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Robin {{{{{HUGGSSS}}}} - My heard just dropped and my eyes are tearing up. I am so sorry. I always have believed that a m/c is so much worse then a BFN and I know how much BFN's hurt. We can still be here for your support if and when you need it. Though I do know how hard it is to be on the board when everyone is getting a BFP and life is not good for yourself. My prayers are with you.
Chris
Chris